There is a sudden sense of loneliness developing within me. I felt alone, lonely. I seemed to be a loner, an outcast, a lowly respected and always neglected human being. Is this the repercussion for my personal indifferent social attitudes? After 4 years of education in secondary school, I felt that i do not have many friends that i am really attatched or relate to, in terms of friendship. Yes, i have lotsa friends, but none of them are close. They are just those "hi-bye" friends that occasionally chat via various modes of communication. I feel that i do not have a friend who knows me well enough to be my so call "buddy". I doubt my own skeptical attitudes on friendship. I attempt to chat with people i know online via msn. But guess what, try proving me wrong, i feel that you guys are annoyed by my constant "hi"s on msn. Am I that annoying? The answer should be an obvious definate. I am being portrayed as an obnorxious freak in class who "speaks with his ass like as though he has diarrhoea via his mouth". Yes, i confessed i am. I tried hard but i cant change. Shame on me. Sometimes i think back on how obnorxious, abhorrent, disgusting and loathsome behaviour of mine, i felt that the intense shame in me. But when i found out my shame, they have became history that scarred people's impression of me. I felt that i am being made a class clown. Not one that brings laughter to everyone by his humourous jokes, but one that is being laughed at or picked at for all his "negativity". People just relate me as a nobody. I feel that most of you guys portray me as a pain in the neck, a nobody who do not deserves much attention, in the right way. And hence thats my greatest regret for my 4 years education in ZHSS. There are some who i really treat you as good buddies, but i am not sure if the some-of-you treat me in the same way. I am not doubting your attitude towards me, dont get me wrong. I wanna be friends with you guys who accept me, or seem to accept me, forever. But alot of my good friends in zhss has either have their own clique or for some other reasons, cause our friendship to become more bland. I dont request 100% attention from you guys, but i hope there wont be any external factors like time that deteriorate and corrode our friendship. My dear friends, i hope this entry dont deteriorate our friendship. I am just feeling hopeless of myself. And for those who really treat me as a true friend, i hope our friendship remains this way for eternity or better still, improves. I am really grateful to that.......i juz feel like crying....for being an outcast.

Today's Pri Sch Clique Gathering was kinda okay i would say. But it was indeed fun. Ok, met FPE, YY, MK & Julia at YCK MRT stn. Went to Grassroot Club's Cathey Bowl for bowling. XM didn turn up for that. Gillian, shes working. So its the P6/1 part of the clique that went bowling only. K, bowling was kinda nice. Didn really bowl for a year alreadi, skills very rusty, infact, my skills ARE rusty. Being the begineers of bowling, me and yy shared a game while mk & FPE shared a game. Julia, being the more pro player, played a game herself. We played 2 set of games. Well, Julia's excellent bowling skills proved too superior as she clinched the top score twice. Haha. Ok, thats enough of bowling. Went to J8 where we met XM there. Due to some miscalculation of time, i told xm a later time to meet us hence she couldnt have lunch with us together. So, its 2nd round in the foodcourt when she arrived and we juz watch her eat. Hahaha. The original plan was to watch movie but the movies are shown in a very late time. So, i suggest that we visit Gillian in her work place while she is working. Cool. It was her first day at work in Bugis Seiyu as a cashier. Julia & MK left us. So its left with the 4 of us to visit Gillian. Reached Seiyu Bugis at about 3.30pm. We went searching for the cashiers all around Seiyu and we finally found Gillian. hahaha. She was sooooo into her work. Hmmmm. None of us dared to walk over and say hi. We juz dodge here and there and juz cant stop giggling. We are like some weird aliens in Seiyu Bugis. Hahaha. The surrounding pple including the senior cashier noticed us but not gillian. Weird. The cashier may still think we r here to rob them or something for standing there and looking at the cashier booth for so long. Haha. Finally, i think the senior cashier told gillian about us and when she noticed us, she was like, cant stop laughing. Siao cashier. Liddat sure scare away many customers one. Hahahahah. Den we were like laughing here and there and she was too shock or surprise to do anything other than laughing. Hahahaha. Gotcha. So we wave goodbye to Gillian and we went shopping somewhere else b4 coming back to kachiao her again. Hahahaha. Went to a bubbletea shop under the recommandation of XM. So we sat down, order our drink and keng gai (chat). Talk for quite a long time. Well, we talk about our respective schools, teachers, Sg Idol, Amazing Race, XM's australia trip, etc. Seems like we stayed inside for....1 hour ? Dunno. After the keng gai session, went to Gillian's cashier booth to say gd bye for one last time and we went home, calling a day off. How sweet. To see your ex classmates or ex schmates again. I love gatherings. Hahaha. (PS: (To Gillian) If you are still working at Seiyu, look around you coz u nv know when we will pay you a visit again. hahahah. Hope you love the surprise!)

Today's outing turn out to be a failure. Met James ,Jas, Ru aka niece & Hongjin aka Mother @ AMK MRT. I was expecting YY & Karin to come but both turned out to be absent. Sticking to the original plan, we went to Grassroot Club Cathey bowl but bad news struck as the lanes are all booked for an event and we cant have any. Bummer. Took a bus to Hougang Plaza expecting the bowling ctr to be still there but alas its not. Played pool instead out of fustration. Well, its my first time. Managed to hit in a few balls with the help of Hongjin (shes pro). Contacted Karin , YY & Matt after pool and we planned to go Orchard Lido Shaw for movie. Only Matt arrived. Sad. Mother and niece left us for their SJAB thing. The 4 of us felt deceived. We didnt watch movie afterall. Went shopping around in Orchard. Visit an arcade in Cineleisure but there was limited stuff for us to enjoy. Went to Heeren and then its bye bye Orchard. Went to AMK, visit the arcade at Jubidee under the recommandation of Jas. Nothing much as well. Accompany Matt for his dinner at the S11 with James. Talked quite abit. Well, at least we tried to make the best out of anything that is left. Wave goodbye to Matt and Jas. Me & James actually went to Popular Bookstore to look at A Level stuffs. Yes. We are toooooo lame. I flipped some econs stuff and find familiar terms that i can find in my geo elect sylibus. Great. Econs shd be a 2nd choice for me for JC's subject combination. Hahahah. 7pm, went home without dinner. Dun wish to hav any dinner anyway. Had my weekly dose of Survivor. This is the episode i enjoyed the most. Queen Ami was finally booted off. So happy. She is such a sexist that she wants all guys off the game. How bad. She loved to control the whole game soooo much. Well, at least she is gone, thanks to the strong but unpredictable alliance consisting of Chris Scout Twaila and Eliza who also sent Leann packing last week. Tribal council was kinda emmotional when Eliza cant bear to vote off Ami. Both of them cried. I almost touched me to tears too, even though i would wish AMi to be gone sonner or later. For that moment, i dun really blame or hate AMi. Weird. Alas, Eliza voted off Ami and shes gone. Yeah. The Queen is overthrown. Oso wanna quote a saying from Tribal Council that Scout said about Ami for being the controller of the whole game : The lighting will stike the tree at the mountain peak the fastest. Quite true, makes sense. Juz like the chinese saying "shu4 da4 zhao1 feng1" But Scout's saying was more intense. Ok, thats all for today. Looking forward to Monday's Pri Sch Gang Gathering.

Spent most of the day looking at prom photos taken by others who hav attend the once-in-a-life-time event. Everyone seems to hav enjoyed themselves. Upon looking through the photos, i can imagine how glamourous and grand the event was, however, there are also mixed feelings inside me that i would now like to voice out. I kinda regret not attending the event, however, on the other hand, i seems to feel that i made the right choice of not attending. I developed a sense of regret coz i cant be there with my friends and classmates and accquatince for the last time , perhaps. I regretted not being able to show others the "goodlooking" side of myself. Everyone looks great in the event, i mean, guys in suit girls in dresses, splendid apperance. I also wanna portray myself to be able to produce a good image/appearence infront of others to. I hav once imagined what i would wear if i were to go prom but i do not know if the reality of me wearing such great suits fabricates desirable images or not. Everyone enjoyed themselves, and the photos taken hav kept track of the historical moment. These photos kept the memories for eternity (if they dun disintegrate) and i wanna be part of the image casted in these great photos. I wanna take photos wif all my friends n classmates out there when we are of our best apperance. However, i some kinda feel happy i am not there. I dun wanna make pple unhappy by sharing the same table with them (u know, most pple do not like me). All my friends are either from other classes and hav their own clique to share a table with or they are not attending the event. This will spare me and others from being deprived of the enjoyment of the event. Secondly, i am sure i will be "sabotaged" to be "humilated" on stage. Yesh, these r healthy activities but u guys must understand that i am shy by nature and do not wish to be the limespot unless i am in a group of friends that i am comfortable with. Thirdly, i am pessimistic about how i look in those nice clothes to be worn to prom. I somehow feel that i am ugly, short and fat and i dont look nice in anything. I do not want to be a laughing stock throughout the whole night. Although the saying goes "beauty lies in the eyes of the beholder", i some kinda feel that there is a line of distiction between good looking and not good looking, and unfortunately, i fall in the category of being not good looking in the eyes of majority. Yes, you may argue that its not the apperance that matters but i beg to differ. In reality, outer apperance do matter, sad to say. However, if you ask me if i will attend another prom that consist of the total graduating population, i may consider saying yes to it. I dream prom is to be able to share a table with my best friends out there and everyone enjoyed the different and unique atmosphere which cannot be moulded in any situation. Whether my reasons to and against attending the prom are valid or not, i still think that its a choice i hav made and i should bear no regrets for it. One hav to believe in himself. If i feel that this is the best way for me, and fate wants me not to prom, and here i am not attending prom, i shd hav no regrets.

Singapore Idol Finals tonight and Taufik won. Wat can i say, Taufik deserves it, he definitely sang better than Sly. Well, infact, both of them did well tonight and its a hats-off performance i can say. Whereas those negative critics and news and informations fabricated because of the competition on family background or racist votes or anti-whoever, i hope they can come to an end. The result is fixed and no one can change it, so the other die hard fans of sly or any other finalist, plz learn to accept it, i guess. Well, although i think Taufik deserves the title, my own singapore idol is still olinda coz i think she has a fantastic vocal and can tackle all genre of music thrown to her. Well, its her powerful vocal that i am impressed of and i think she is a really professional singer. But too bad luck is not on her side or she is not "appealing" enough to the mass public as compared to sly n taufik that she got eliminated. However, her powerful vocal will still live in the hearts of many, i guess. So thats enough of Singapore idol. Its rather strange of me to devote the whole entry to SI when i am not a very consistent or loyal viewer. I am juz a "second-class" viewer, not the "full-time" viewers. Haha. So, lookin forward to SI 2 and of coz world idol where sg will hav her first very own representative to step on the stage of such a prestigious and renown global competition.

Juz came back from K Box Session. Yup, sis 3 & bros 4 except zh went. Arrived at the meeting spot (TPY Bus Int.) rather early, so i decided to shop around the popular bookstore for quite a while. At around 12.05pm, i guess, all arrived and we decided to hav lunch in KFC. Shuyi, shes nuts. She played "murder" in KFC where the victim is none other than a pathetic plate of cheese fries. Yup, i dunno wad she did to the fries and it juz looked like a scene of a traffic accident. "Poor" sc hav to finish the fries for her, which i think he is also quite delighted to. Went to KBox TPY at 2pm. Simin was very excited when we were notified of the room we r allocated to. I joked that Simin was soo excited bout "kai2 fang2". Hahaha. Lame. Sang quite many songs. Time really flies, i mean so fast and its left wif half an hours left. We still hav many songs unsung in the list. So we sing half and axe the song. The grand finale will be the singing of SHE's Super Star. Well, we dun actually sing the song. We screamed the song. Haha. Had dinner at the foodcourt above crystal jade with the departure of shuyi. After the dinner, we sent off the only 2 girls left. So we went looking around the shophouses of TPY central. Gab got his hp card or wadever nonsense from a M1 shop wif a rather weird shop attendent. Haha. Wont elaborate much on it. They went to look at comics and i juz followed. Well, i aint very interested in comics actually. I aint know nothing bout comics. Haha. Ed wants to drag time. So we drag time, as in going home later. So we went lookin around in popular n cd rama as though we hav all e time in e world. 9.15, took a train home. And dats all. Tml we going to orchard. Dunno la, i am juz too bored at home and i will grab any chances to get out of my cage, i mean my house. Haha. Happy holidayz.

Woah, did many things these few days. Lets talk bout yesterday first. Yesterday was the first day of PAE registeration. Accompanied by Edwin Zhihao & Gab, walked all e way to AJ to register JC. We dun really trust the internet thats why we dun register at home. But Alas, we are deceived. Its the same in JC. They juz let u use their com lab to register. Duhh.....Nvm. Got Sims 2. Finally !!!!!!!!!!!!!! Yesh. Finally, i got Sims 2. So spend the rest of the day and night downloading Sims 2 and familarising wif it. Woke up late today. Went online to finalize the pri sch gathering stuff wif yiyang n peow ee. Julia cant make it online. So....nvm. We decided to go bowling in the morning and movie in the afternoon. Cant wait for the gathering. Hope it can be successful unlike last yr where julia n meikuan were absent. Played Sims 2 for the rest of the day. Den at night by giv way to my sis. So i decidec to pack my room at night. Yesh, i cleared all the sec 3 sec 4 books n notes from my shelf, room, cupboard, table, wadever and squeezed them into a big box now temporary located outside at the living room. Well, my room is now BARE. Its sooooo bare that it feels clean. Give me a sense of satisfaction n accomplishment. 10pm, had my weekly dose of Survivor Vanuatu. This episode was damn shocking. I mean, the very vulnerable only guy standing in the game survived the girls. He was expected to go home under the strong alliance of the 6 women. And for some reason, they decided that big mouth eliza shd be out. And then chris formed an alliance wif scout n twala and of coz eliza to take advantage of her vulnerability and voted off the always-flying-under-the-radar leann. That was like, omg. Coz no one is expecting her to leave, so its a big shock. Finally the all-girls' alliance is broken. Woohooo. 3 cheers to chris, the only guy standing. The tide of the game is turned. Thats all today. If you dun understand wad i am toking bout this episode's survivor, den nvm.

Went back to school for PAE briefing today. Well, i expect the briefing to be more detailed and not soooo brief. Haha. So yes, i got my leaving cert which some believed is the testimonial but who cares, and i got PAE's Form A and i nothing else. Nope, haven received the year book that we paid for 4 bucks. Paid KS the money for 2E5 chalet and then went to Mac wif alvin, qiyang n amos. Didnt really do much today. Haha. Tml is JC 1st 3 months registration day. Sad. I haven churn out the list of 12 JCs that i wanna attend. I mean how the hell can you choose 12 that u are qualified for from only 17 JCs as compared to P6 when u have to choose 6 out of like 169 sec schs. So i guess i am having a tough time priortizing the JCs i want to attend and that fits the list. I am only confirmed wif my first choice of JC and thats Anderson JC, the rest......i dunno what to do wif them. Sigh. So these are the JCs i considered. They are: Anderson JC, National JC, Nanyang JC, Temasek JC, Victoria JC, St Andrew JC and 2 others which is not so much being prioritized: Serangoon & Catholic Dun really know how to rank them in the list, thats giving me the headache. Gonna make a trip down to AJ tml to submit form A. Hope i can get into AJ. I dunno, i may seem to be at a safe spot but things r unpredictable rite. DUnno. Duhhhh.....

Holidayz.....must spend it well rite. Plan to keep fit during this short holiday. Hope i am discipline enough to do so. Haha. So these r my plans: Jogging 3 times a week at the park next to my block. Play Table Tennis until my hands drop. No la. Kidding, Play bowling !!! I luv bowling. 100 Sit ups n push ups everyday. I dunno if i can accomplish them. But hope it works. Hope i can like improve my stamina n lose some weight during my holidaz.

ITS FINALLY OVER !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ARHHHHHHHHHHHHHH !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! OVER !!!!! OVER !!!!! OVER !!!!!! OVER !!!!!! Yesh, i am some kinda mad rite now. ITS FINALLY OVER !!!! OLEVELS IS OVER !!!!!!!!!! So happy. But hor, i am now at a loss, i dunno wad to do after olevel is over. Hahahahhaha. Gotta enjoy life. Gotta play, yesh, play like shit. Hahahhahahahahaha. I SURVIVED !!!!! I SURVIVED OLEVEL !!!!!!!! Ok, enough of this, better not carry on b4 the ambulance stuff from woodbridge start knocking on my door.

26 hours 15 minutes more to END OF O LEVELS !!!!!! So near........yet so far........... Arhhhhhh !!!!! Continue study chem liao ...... -_-!!!

Things I Want after O Levels: 1. CHALET !!!!!! 2E5 Chalet !!!! 4E2 Chalet !!!! Hougang Chalet !!!!1 <---- duh...... 2. K Box : Sing until peng sang (*peng sang = collaspe) 3. The Sims 2 : Popular sell at $54, so if i use my popular card membership, it will be $48.60 4. A Navy Blue Cap, preferably Nike or OP or Converse 5. L1R5 <> 6. New Handphone !!!! Nokia or SonyEricson 7. Movies !!!! Lotsa Movies ....watch wif my friends of coz 8. Outings & Gatherings !!!! Outing with bro 4 n sis 3, Outings wif my 2E5 buddies , Gathering wif DQPS P6/1 2000 Clique !!! Lotsa OUTINGS !!!! 9. Enter AJC in 2005 !!!! 10. A sweater wif a "rain cap"...dunno wad izzit call, u noe the those wore by Jay Chou and Slyvester during the SI Asian Pop night. 11. NEW TRACK SHOES !!!!! Nike !!!! 12. LOSE WEIGHT !!!! Hahaha. Mission Impossible 13. New Bermudas.....those that covered 3/4 of ya legs ya know. Hahaha. 14. New School Bag !!!! My current sch bag is torn and tattered and it has been "tortured" for 4 years. Sigh 15. New Hairstyle, new image, a brand new CMH !!! U know, those very cool very shuai image...Ya, Thats rite. (Does this means i need to go EXTREME MAKEOVER ??? Hahaha ) 16. erm....cant think of any liao, i will add on when i can think of somemore. In Conclusion, CMH is very very greedy and seems to want everything from the world. Haha. Someone save this deprived kid (me). Grant me my wishes. Hahahahah.

Finally !!!! Finally there will be a 2E5 chalet. All the credits must go to KS, thanks alot for booking the chalet and making it possible. So all ex-2E5rians, the chalet is from dec 15th to 17th, so see ya all there. I have start planning my holiday schedule. I mean its one more week and Olevel is over. However, as far as i want to enjoy the long-deserved holiday, i must not divert too much as i still have Olevels going on this week. So, i shall not be too carried away. Shall talk bout e holiday activities after Os.

Its finally a break from the hectic schedule of Olevels examination, or should I call it, bonus time to study for the remaining papers. 4 more papers to go (if Paper 1 n 2 r considered as 1 paper). 4 more and i am done wif it. Well, as the days progress, i find it harder to concentrate when i study for any papers. There seems to be a very very WRONG thought telling me that "hey, why study so hard. Olevels r suppose to be easy, juz giv it ur 80% and u will be fine". This thought has been pestering me for a very long time. However, if you know me well, i am someone who will put in 120% of hardwork in anything i do. Well, although my results dont show, i value the importance of the process of hardwork and not the fruit of labour. Well, seems noble of me to say that but thats what i personally believed. Imagine living life meaninglessly and aimlessly, everyday eat and sleep and do nothing, its terrible. At least you have something to study and do to keep you occupied, you may find it tiring, but at least you live your life with an aim or goal in mind. I often feel guity of myself when i take a nap in between the process of studying or sleep early in the night. I somehow develop a sense of guilt that i am not spending enough time on my studies and i ought to be more hardworking. This inevitable sense of guilt has revealed my incapability of putting loads down temporary and it is definitely detrimental to my psychological well-being. I am soooo miserable. Well, I am born a pessimistic, always looking at the bad sides of things. Although i may seems "optimistic" or "noisy" or "very out spoken" or "cheerful always wearing a smile" or wadever guy infront of u guys, I am actually a very pessimistic guy who shuns from the outer world when i am alone. I dunno which is my true self and which personalitiy is actually a mask i am wearing. Thats confusing. Perhaps i have what its called a dual personality.Guess me trying to act normal may seem to be perceiving and deceiving myself as well as the others. Well, i am a weird guy indeed.

Arh.......Bio Paper tml. Yesh, i hav been studying bio for the past 5 days trying to squeeze in every single crap of stuff into my brain but i guess these attempts are futile. Sigh. Haha. I wont say i gave out hope on bio but its a subj i feel i shd score for. Well, every subj is an opportunity to score, depending on whether i went to seize the opportunity anot. But i must not let myself down, must not let Mr Yeo down, must not let Mr Chua down. Yesh, therefore i conclude i will do all that is necessary to get that A1. Yeah rite......i am hopeless !!!!! Tml paper in the afternoon leh. First time having a full paper in the afternoon. Its like 2pm to 6pm? I scared i do half way fall asleep take afternoon nap leh. How ?!?!?!?!?! Haha. And this time slot applies to all the 3 Sci i am taking. Arh !!!! I cant stand afternoon paper !!!!. Why muz it be in the afternoon when i am so freaking tired and slackish (is there such a word?) and irritated and unfresh and restless and lazy and wadever. Yea, u all will think that i shd shut my mouth at this pt of time. Whose fault? Mine? Cambridge? Wadever. Bio...........think positive, actually. This will be my LAST bio paper in my life, perhaps. So, rejoice !!!! Yeah, how hypocritical.

Time seemed to have pass so quickly. Before i know it, 1/3 of the Olevel exam is over. Wont comment on how well i have done. For no reason, i produced some kinda class video wif the photos available in e class web. Haha. Quite lame. So wont talk about it. The 2E5 chalet would most probably be a failure. No one wants to book it. Sigh. Guess there wont be any 2E5 chalet this year and forever then.

SS IS FINALLY OVER !!!!!!!!!! ARHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! BURN SS !!!!!! Yeah ! Cool man. Social Studies is finally over and for the rest of my life I WONT HAVE TO TOUCH SS ANYMORE !!!!!!!!! I feel like burning all my notes but i feel that those are painfully written notes n shall be passed on to my sis. Haha. Cant bear to burn them. The paper was okay. Thanks to my Cath high friend, his teacher helped to spot topics and i follow according to his prediction. And POOF! All the 3 topics he spot and i studied came out !!!! Lucky rite. Haha. Gotta thank him. Quite afraid of my links coz if they r down, my whole paper is down. Sigh. Gotta pray. Anyway, i dun care if i fail or wad, SS is finally out of my Life. So its worth celebrating, at least for this once. So its down to all e other papers that shd be easier to study as compared to SS. I dun like memorizing work. I hate memorizing. And SS is about memorizing. So i dun think i will be taking Humanities anymore in JC. I prefer thinking subjects. Haha. So gotta work hard for e other papers n hopefully u all can see my on stage next yr. Haha. Jokin. But if i am given e priviledge n chance to, i wont hesistate to accept it. So gd luck guys.

I am sooooo SICK. Yeah rite, my immunity is weak (not survivor's immunity), but yeah, u can guess it correctly, I fell sick again. Dunno why everytime b4 exam muz fall sick one. Slog too hard? I dare not admit so coz i noe there are even more "sick" pple out there who slot even harder. Didn have appetite to eat today. Also didn have the mood to study. Finish the last amaths paper available - Cedar Girls. Did phys and juz study 2 shou ce full of chi words. Didn touch SS today. Sigh. What a waste of time, i mean i didn spend the expected amt of time studying. Good luck for my Os den. Didn manage to buy Yanzi 's album. Coz i dun hav a chance to leave my hse or go to any nearby CD rama to grab one. Sad. I will get one tml. I hope. Arh.....Sat nite. Sat nite !!! Nvm, juz ignore me, i am going crazy. Actually i am quite worry that i do not hav enough amaths paper to practice. COZ I DID ALL ALREADY !!! Gotta build up e momentum. Yes, thats rite. Momemtum. Study that in JC phys and u noe wad i am toking about. Haha. Cant imagine that, i dreamt of amaths this afternoon when i had my afternoon nap after taking hy medicine. Dreamt of humans last nite. Wonder what will i dream of tonite? The answer for all subjects for Olevels? Hahaa. I hope so. When i woke up, i juz suddenly remember last yr when i was taking my chinese olevel. I actually dreamt of chinese words scrolling past my sight one by one. Thats....weird? a nitemare? I dunno. Its like u study until u go crazy. What am i toking? I am crazy. Yeah? Of coz, the mentally disabled nightangel. Freako~ -_-"

Practs are over, now comes the theory paper. Slot for the whole week on SS that i almost neglected the other subjects. I dunno why, but i feel that SS is damn impt for me to focus on. I am currently studying unconvectional topics that others will not , are reluctant to, and choose not to study. I dunno, this is my strategy. Who knows i may guess it correct this time round. Also did maths everyday. A maths paper a day keeps the F9 away. Haha. Lame saying but anyway, hey, i am consistanting practising Amaths, so hope i can really achieve the A1 i longed for my 2 years of upp sec education. O Level seems to be...fun, i guess. I dunno, i feel the stress but also the joy of the mugging process. It is even better when u find ur paper easier than you expect. However, i cannot sit there are wait for my A1s to come rite, i need to search for them. Yeah rite, in a desperate search for happiness. Thats it. Stupid compo topic, wad nonsense. I am writing my arguementative n expository anyway. So where am i, yes, THE AMAZING RACE 6 IS COMING !!! And its after Olevel. Nov 16 or 17, i guess. Or at least it clash wif the last paper. How sweet. Gotta buy Yanzi's new album today. Publish today leh. Nice rite. Muz buy okay. Yanzi rocks !!!

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Today's Bio Pract is damnnnnnn....Different. I mean, the first thing we went in, i saw a stupid prawn lying on my bench and i was like...too shock for words. After the shock, i juz kept on laughing, so were the other candidates. Is like, we r expecting some fruits or vegetables to come out but what came out is a prawn. My first thought was "Oh Shit ! How the hell am i gonna label n disect this stupid prawn!" Well, things werent so bad. We r juz required to draw the actual prawn and its tail. No need labeling. Thankgoodness. I find myself drawing some portray or something. I mean, my drawing look quite real, but i dunno if thats what the examiners want. Further more, i may miss out some details which the examiners are looking out for. Had to test for urine n stuff somemore. Yucks, dirty my hand. Haha. I should have cooked some urine prawn soup or grill the prawn on the bunsen burner or something. But anything, the pract is quite easy. Hope i can score well.

Visited SAJC open hse today with e accompany of YY & James. Coincedentally, met Niece, Mother, Jeslin & Qinqi at Harbourfront and all of us decided to go together. Further met Sharon, Geraldine, Rox & company in SA. I wasnt really interested in SA, just go for e sake of free gift. Hahhaa. How cheap skate. Then saw Jiajun & Eric, Zhenhao Spikey & company , denise & her bf, sandy n her bf, junio n trisha, etc over there at SAJC. Didn really know that SA was so popular among zhonghuarians, or perhaps, their last resort if they cant enter their dream JC. One word to describe their sch --- creepy. Its like located on one side of the hill where some buildings r high up, some are way bottom and all buildings r so old. Departed with an extra member of company --- eric. So yy, james, me n him went to harbourfront fc for lunch. Met up with Matt & KS and went to the shopping ctr for "another" round of lunch when we met Sha AGAIN. I met her 6 times today le. 5 times in SA, one time in hahourfront. How "fated". Had a chat with matt, sha n ks , etc over their choice JC. Feel that everyone is going different way. However, i dunno y but i suddenly feel the same "2E5" homeliness feeling again which i nv felt b4 for 2 years......Even though i met matt they all very frequently in sch, i nv stop down to talk to them or something. This event just suddenly remind me that i am once from 2E5 , sharing a common background as them. As we took a train home, the 5 of us boys some kinda "played" in e train or something, for e 2nd time it reminds me of my identity. Guess i really cant forget those wonderful days i had in 2E5. I really hope e chalet will be a success (even though it may seems not...sandy...plz do something....u promise karin to be incharge of it...i havent heard news yet...hahaha). Went back home and called a pri sch classmate to discuss on tips given by our respective teachers on various subjects. Kinda tok for quite a long time. Are all these events trying to remind me of my past identity? My past identity as a DQPS P6-1 student? My past identity as a 2E5rian ? It all seems to come to me after grad day.......i hav a mix n jumbled feelings towards it.........

Graduation day today. Things are getting emotional and high. I mean, time flies, four years have passed just like that such that I didn even notice it coming when suddenly i felt that its all over. Perhaps i should learn to cherish these 4 years more but things have became history. The Ceremony was like...speechless. I mean we gotta walk the red carpet after 4 years with juniors saluting to us, it feels weird. Den gotta see some slide preview and hear pple talk "crap". Everytimes it got something to do wif our class, we juz cheer. I doubt we are mature enough for our age, but at least this is something good. The post ceremony was very more high. Pple taking photos like no body's business and in my class, a rape team was formed to rape pple. Haha. The current victims are weijie, kelvin n kenneh. Well, oso engaged in photo takings but i think its not the last time we are gonna see each other right? I mean we still hav to see each other for another half a month during Olevels. But i really appreciated that. Gotta thanks alot of teachers for their guidiance. Now i shall use this entry to thank everyone of them. Firstly, lower sec, gotta thank my 1E5 science teacher for half a year but was promoted to be a VP, Ms Tan Wee Lim. Gotta thank maths teacher Ms Leow for putting alot of faith in me for being a consistant performer. Gotta thank Mr Ong who took over ms tan and eventually become our form teacher in sec 2E5 and my chem teacher in 3E2. Although i didn perform well for chem in sec 3, but i hav proved my passion for chem by topping 4e2 chem (together wif huifang) in prelims, thanks , really. This also proves that 2E5 students are achievers and its all your effort, mr ong. Gotta thank specially Mr Ducro, my lower sec hist teacher and oso form teacher for sec 1 semester 2. You are e best hist teacher and 2E5 will remember u always. Gotta thank Mr Leong, my 2E5 maths teacher. We will always remember you as a gd maths teacher , not forgetting ur "french kiss" and ur "service" to harry. Gotta thank Mr Heah, my sec 1 geo teacher and sec 2 english teacher, Ms Chan, my sec 2 geo teacher , sec 3 Comb Humans teacher and Sec 4 SS teacher.Thanks for believing in me , thanks for making me ur SS rep and thanks for ur guidiance for humanities. Gotta thank Mrs Raj, my lower sec Lit teacher. You are a great lit teacher. I remember the days when u read the whole Outsider and Hse of 60 Father book in class even though sometimes ur throat is in bad conditions. Thanks for tollerating wif our class's nonsense and oso its hard on u to tollerate our peers in 2e1's nonsense. Upper Sec teachers wise, gotta thank, firstly Zhang Lao Shi for being my HCL teacher for 4 years from sec 1 till i graduate. Mrs. Lum, sec 3 rowling eng teacher. Even though u "pao qi" us in sec 4, but rowling will always remember you as a great eng teacher. Gotta thank Mrs Singh, my sec 1 English teacher and eventually fate make you us rowling's Sec 4 English teacher. Mrs Ramana, sec 3 phys teacher...i hav failed to top my class phys, so very sorry bout that. One of my fave's teacher, MR CHUA WEE PENG !!!! You are THE BEST BIO TEACHER IN E WHOLE WORLD AND 4E2 MISS U ALOT. Oso gotta thank Mr John Yeo for taking over Bio in sec 4 and ur efforts n passion will be very much appreciated. Gotta thank Mrs Elim , sec 4 phys teacher, thanks for tollerating our incapability for e subj but we promise to deliver u gd results and we really APPRECIATE ur efforts. Gotta thank Ms Yam, sec 4 Chem teacher, your passion helped me regain hope and faith for chemistry. Its partially bcoz of u i can top 4e2 in chemistry, Thanks alot. Mr WONG !!! You are next. Thanks for ur passion and ur "love" for 4E2. Being the unofficial Co-form of 4E2, it shd be very hard on u but we really appreciate ur efforts. I remember e day when i fail my first emaths test, fail my second, and so on bcoz of the transaction from sec 2 to 3. Thanks for helping me regain back my Aces for maths. I promise to strive for double A1s for maths. Gotta thank THE ROCK MR ANG !!!!! Wooohoooo. 4E2 is really fortunate to hav u as our form teacher. Although u dun teach me, but i can really tell that u r a gd form tee and 4e2 will always remember u. 3 cheers for mr ang !!!! Gotta thank Mrs Wong Chek Siew, our sec 4 geo elect teacher. You took over us from ms chan in sec 4 and u converted 4E2's phobia for geo to passion n love for geo. Thank you very much. Thanks for making me ur geo rep and believeing in my capability in e subj. I guess its about it. Of coz there are more teachers teaching some "less impt subjects" but you all are oso as great. I apologize if i miss out any teachers out there but you will still get my appreciation for your hardwork and guidiance. Once again, THANKYOU TEACHERS !!!

O Level chem pract today sux. I was totally taken aback by my titration reading. Me & my classmates have extra high readings as compared to my friends from other schools. (I checked with them the readings in the afternoon) This cause me to be unable to think well for the planning of an experiment. QA was okay. I did some parts without even conducting any experiment. So all i can do now is to pray hard that my QA is okay and study hard for theory. Graduation day tomorrow. How sad, it is actually the last day of my secondary school life. I don't know whether to feel happy or sad or being emotional but i really admire my friends and i for being able to ensure the 4 years of "hardship". Haha. But undeniedably speaking, there are really alot of fond memories left behind. So i guess its time to say goodbye. Its fated that we are once classmates (even if u dun like it), but i guess we shd cherish these fate. Of coz, we shd oso not forget our teachers for their guidiance and support all these years. We promise to deliver good results during Olevels as a tribute to ur harkwork.

It was realy an "Open House Weekend" I can call it. I mean i visited quite a few open houses in just a span of 2 days. Well, I am really impressed by some but some just totally freak me off. Lets start from yesterday - 15th Oct 2004 Fri. Edwin, Gab, SC & I embarked on our Open House Trip when we started off by heading to the nearest Nanyang JC. Its of the closest proximity to our school and I guess I can make my way there real fast. First impression counts. Well, the school don't really gave us a good impression. We were at the back gate hesistating to enter when we saw 2 students of that school approaching. They are entering via the gate as well. However, instead of stopping and asking if we need help, they ignored us as though we were not present and just walk straight in leaving us all in awe. I don't really generalise that all students of NYJ are liddat as its really unfair if I do so. However, thats the first impression they gave me and i guess it is going to cause me to deduct alot of my own impression marks on that JC. As we explored the "half done" compound which is under renovation, I feel that the environment is just not condusive enough for me to study there. I mean the building is small, the colours are dull humid yellow and it just irritates me, making me feel very uncomfortable. Headed off to Temasek JC with the company of Cecelia , Celia & one other friend of theirs as the 7 of us sped over by bus hoping to make it in time before the event ended. I used to have this impression that TJC is a very stressful school. However, this visit proves otherwise. In fact, they are just fun loving and warm students who are so ever lively. This adds alot of impression marks on that school. We happened to bumped into this senior of edwin call lynette who volunteered to bring us around the whole school. Thats really nice of her. Temasek JC is real damn big. Its like a giant maze or something. We toured the Sports area where we stopped to patronize air rifling & table tennis , etc. We also went to see their tutorial room, band room, etc. The stadium is just so big and grand. I mean i like the school. But Lynette also revealed that the students there arent as good as we seemed. I dont know. No comments on that. Perhaps the open house is just a superficial "put-up". We lost SC in our tour which cause us to become frantic over his abscence. We searched for him all around the school but our attempts are futile. The open house also ended and we happened to witness the lively students being reduced to fearful "slaves" by the teacher in charge as she barked instructions for them to clear up the area. Guess i really saw the true colours behind open houses. 16th Oct 2004. Today. Well, we have lesson in the morning till 11am which deprives us alot of time for visiting. We visited Anderson JC open house immediately after school. My first impression as i stepped into the school was that "this is gonna be a boring n stressful school". The students in the folyer reception are so stern and serious. I am quite worried about myself at that point if i enter AJ. However, things proves otherwise as we bounced into familiar faces of our ZHSS ex students (seniors) and oso some friendly students who stop by and talk to us, ask us our choice for JC, tell us more about AJ, offer to bring us to view the exhibitions, etc. Well, at least the school isn't that cold anyway. I guess i will most probably be settling into AJ. We departed quite late from AJ, in compliments to some dragging of time. We took a train to Paya Lebar and had a frantic chase for bus to send us to Victoria JC. We are afraid that the open house might end as it was already 2.00pm then. We made it in time as we stepped into the gigantic school compound. The open house , i can say, is well planned. It is being made so fun loving and lively with the theme as "beach" partially due to tha fact that its located next to East Coast Park. Infact, the school itself just resembles part of the park. Haha. Its so big i tell ya. Very big. I guess its slightly bigger or comparable to the size of TJC. Just that TJC buildings are mostly flat (2 storeys) while VJ is taller. I saw many good looking guys n gals in VJ and i just could not scientifically prove it why this is so...perhaps its next to a famous beach? Haha. The girls n the guys over there are just gorgeous looking. Its like everyone is qualified for Man hunt and Miss S'pore. Anyway, had free icecream over there when we met Simin Shuyi & Aileen strolling in later than us. Guess we are not the only ZHSS over there and thus wont be alieniated. However, something bout the sch is, the students may seem to be gd looking but they are not friendly. They only mingle amongst themselves and not attend to visitors. Then i guess you wont call it an open house. No one came to us and offer to bring us around the school. No one even acknowledged our presence. Thats very sad. Utterly disapointed. Deduct alot of impression points for it le. Left that school quite a short while after we entered. Had a long walk to Parkway with Edwin & Gab. Had lunch over there and just spend the next few moments shopping around. I happen to spot Channel U's 1st runner up Agnes Wong over there. Thats Gab's idol. And when i mentioned it to Gab n Edwin, Gab reacted like as though....nvm. We also saw Ms Lam and her BF over there shopping. Well, the moment she spotted us, she tugged her bf into a bag shop to dodge us. Sigh...why are teachers so shy. We arent her student anyway. Had a long bus trip back home to AMK where i slept on the bus. Guess i was too tired. Had late nights due to studying n mugging for Olevels. Haha. So thats all. GUess its quite late where i need my slp now. I am totally deprived of rest.

I am always robbed of time to blog. Esp at this period of time when everyone was striving for the Os. Felt abit guilty of myself for still able to blog right now. Perhaps i should be in my room doing more other school papers, perhaps i should be browsing through or memorizing my guide books. I don't know. Edwin said this is a side effect of studying too much for prelims. I don't know. I mean i still force myself to study but i just don't feel the motivation anymore. Is this the end of me? Is the roller coaster i am sitting going down slope already? I had my haircut today. I hope this would make me fresher to study. I mean leaving those long hair is quite cool but I feel better with short hair. I started to attempt other school prelim papers instead of studying guidebooks. I felt that its pointless to flip open the textbook one more time and go through the same process i went through before in the past for at least 5 times. I believe its time i build on my current knowledge and exercise it by doing more questions. I dunno if i am doing the right time. It may serve as a double edged sword. It may just ruin me. I dunno. There will be lotsa JC open houses this coming week and i am totally excited. I mean its really nice to visit various JCs and experience their school spirit and atmosphere for the few moments when i stepped into them. However, i feel that these spirit and atmosphere "fabricated" during open houses are superficial. I mean you definitely want to put out the best to display to the public, allowing the outsiders to know how good and terrific your school is. But the fact is, when all is over and the gates closed with their own students behind the gates, are things going to be the same? I doubted it. Sigh. I guess its all about reality. In reality, nothing is perfect or as good as it seems. I may be abit pessimistic by saying this, but who knows this may be the fact. Its late up Sat night right now. So lonely. I guess i need to plan on my "socializing" project once i enter JC. I am a total Loner right now.

Wonder why i am blogging at this point of time today. But i gotta say, the weather today is terrific.Sunny but not very burning hot. I dunno but the bright sunny day brightens and lifted my spirit, making me more happy n fresh to study today. Its bright sunny out there and the green leaves of the plants reflecting the light of the blazing sun. I mean, it juz reminds me of summer time. Too bad i cant go to the beach. Coz its such a waste, such weather shd be spent on the beach doing u-noe-wad. So...i guess its such a waste. Its very seldom the weather is so gd. I mean often, the mornings r sunny n in the afternoon, it became gloomy or raining. Worst still sometimes, morning to night weather gloomy. It juz dampens my spirits lar. So.....i hope the weather for the coming days or months or even during the dec holiday is as gd as today!

Prelims results out and i can consider myself fairing moderately. I wouldnt say i did well coz i dont find having a L1R5 of 10 being remarkable. There are alot of pple getting single digit L1R5 in E1 n E7. However there are also some unfortunate souls who score very high L1R5. So, what can i say? Reminds me of the chinese saying "Bi3 Shang4 Bu4 Zu2 , Bi3 Xia4 You3 Yu2". I am quite surprise for my A Maths. I am expecting B3 n B4 but i got an A2. Guess i am just lucky. I am totally disapointed with my physics. Its a dreadful B4. Its worse than the minimum grade to study Physics in JC, which is a B3. Which means i cant study my fave phys in JC unless the teachers are kind to moderate it to a B3. So i can only pray hard now. Now that my L1R5 is revealed and i can secured my 1st 3 months in an at least "okay" JC, now i can concentrate 100% in my Olevel le. I had a headache in which JC i should go. Seriously, i intend to go NJ , but den i am inspired by VJ's principal in her talk to us sec 4 students and i change my target to VJ. Now, to suit my parents' wish and for my own convenience, most importantly to play safe, i considered AJ. Wad a headache. I dunno where to spend my first 3 months. All my friends wanna go VJ, but VJ is quite far and the travelling journey is like 1 and half hour. My school top students like hongyi n huifang want to go AJ, which provides me with alot of competition. I am totally clueless. Perhaps you all can enlighten me on which JC i should go, or which JC suit me better.

It has been decades ever since i last blogged. What should I discussed about? Prelims ? No, i shouldnt mention about such an disapointing issue at this point of the time. Yes, its a wonderful night right now. The vast dark skies decorated with glimmering and dazzling stars in random positions and a near-to-round moon hanging at a corner, seeming to be admiring the beautiful night scene from her own perspective. It is indeed the right time for screaming souls to be calmed, stressful lives to be pacified. I am just mesmerised by this single moment. The soul-calming effect is coupled by a lazy, yet full of attitude tune of jazz music played by the radio (I am listening to UFM 1003 right now), which enlightens my inner spirit, teaching me what "life" is. Anyway, back to reality. If you think that i am crazy or insane to write the above.....i doubt that i am normal too. So, I shall discuss of a recent show shown on TV which I am a fan off. Yes, if you all know me well, it is hard to guess it wrongly what i am refering to now. I will be sharing my opinion on the new Survivor Vanuatu aired every friday night 10pm on channel 5. For those who dislike survivor, please don't shun this as it may change your pespective towards the show of Survivor. Survivor has been marking into its 9th season and in this season, the show brings us to the world of cannibalism, the world where the deads are believed to have control over the living, the world that black magics and spirits are belived to exist, the world where terrific volcanoes bursting ashes and magma out of its gigantic mouth, like blood gushing out of someone's mouth (ok, i am sick). Haha. Indeed, the natives of the island indeed have rich cultures dating up to milleniums ago, practicing witchcraft, black magic, carnibalism and most importantly...sexism. (I wonder if there is such a word). This is where 18 castaways settled , the place they call home, the place they face the cruelty of reality and human relationship politics, toughest challenge of man vs nature, etc. You can call me a sadist, that i love to watch backstabbing, throat cutting and alliance forming among the castaways. But this is the really the case in our real life. People around us come in different "shape and sizes", they have different motives, different characters, different behaviours. And all of us are actually fighting in society for a better life. However, the fact states that the path to a better life is definitely not straight. There are alot of hindrances and obstructions.Physical obstructions are easy to clear, but the hardest will undeniedably come from us human. Hence, human relationship is very important in our way to success. The people around us may want to get rid of us, they may make use of us in aiding them achieveing their success, they may be a helping hand and a stepping stone for you to reach out for success. Hence, the saying "No man is an island" applies. You cannot attain success without the help of others, neither can you easily eliminate all the people around you with ulterior motives or those who are trying to eliminate you. Everyone is fighting in society. Hence Darwin's theory of Natural Selection applies too. It states that the weaker ones will be eliminated by nature, while the stronger ones survive. Yes, when i am talking about nature, i am refering to our society. Its our "nature". Its made up of different kinds of people, including us, hence the question of whether we will survive or not depends on how strong we are. This is reflected in Survivor. Some of you all may be opposing my next view. But i find it crucial for our survival in the society. Friendships. Friendships are important but always be on the lookout for any potential case of backstabbing. You never know when your friends can stab you in your back. Survivor is a game of trust. So is the real game all of us are playing in the society. Its on how far you can trust your friends and partners or alliances in the game. I am not trying to put across the idea of staying on guard against your friends but sometimes you never know. This is when trust comes important. Okay, let me put it this way, friends will never harm you, friends are for life, but you may never know for your partners or classmates or people whom you work with. Its politics. So, if you are evil enough, try stabbing your friends in their back. I am totally against this. If you are trying to gain some small benefits but using your friendships as an exchange, i find it worthless. This happens alot of times in Survivor. Well, you think i may be talking nonsense or irrelevant stuffs abour survivor. But the show reflects these facts about life. This is what i can see from the show. Be this a warning or some nonsensical joke, i dunno. But my final appeal is....WATCH SURVIVOR VANUATU AND YOU WILL UNDERSTAND.

Wow Wow Wow....juz watched Channel U's The Next Big Thing Finals. Wad can i say, not as gd as i expected. Esp the first to perform, he spoil e song, no stamina, forget his lyrics, didn sing out e feeling...but who am i to criticize rite, juz give my opinion as a member of the audience. Very happy that Number 5 didn make it to the top 5. Haha. But very surprised he kana eliminated at 2nd round, which was e wushu round (frankly speaking, i think he did okay u noe, dunno why he was booted out). But i was happy bout that. The winner is Benjamin Ng, whom i rooted for. The other girl i rooted for got most popular award, she is contestant no. 8. Haha. Congrats. And the "FHM Potential" girl mentioned and supported by Gab n Edwin , though made it to final 5 but didn win anything. Too bad. Trust me or not, some, even though didn win, will still kana signed by Channel U one lor. The worst thing is...some even will be signed by Channel 8, snatch them over one. Dunno y , but i got this feeling a couple of them will jump to channel 8. Sick man. Thankgoodness Channel U kop the best. haha. Or else channel u will be grooming artists for her rival. Haha. Juz like that Jennette Aw case. Sch opening soon. So happy, and its back to prelims......i dunno if i studied enough, perhaps i still hav a long way to go. Hope everything will run smooth.

Freaking stupid, studying for Geo right now...though i told myself not to concentrate so much on geo....Phys remedial today, i clarify my doubt for moments and thats nice. I wonder if i can score for phys theory paper? Pray hard man. There bio pract tml...suck man. And its at 2.30pm somemore, is he nuts? I guess so. I rather it to be in the morning. My ah-ma house carpark having this 7th month ge tai that will be having a getai marathon stuff liddat tml from 9am to 11pm. Gotta be very high...for those uncle auntie ahpek ah soh. Haha. No comments...but not for yuppies like me. Nah Nah. Thankgoodness i will not be in my ah ma house tml most of the time or i will be insane-tified by those screeching sounds that disturb me from studying n mugging. Oh prelims.....i dun expect u to be sooooo soon...i mean arrived liao. Soon, at a blink of my eye, its Olevel. Give me a break....

I wonder if i have a foul mouth or something, once i mentioned "smooth sailing", all my other papers came crashing down with lousy performance. Haha. I better keep my mouth shut next time. Its the sept holidays and here i am pnia-ing for my remaining papers. Sigh. I committed a serious big mistake in my phys pract, so i hav to score like above 80 this time round for paper 1 n 2 to get an A1. Thats pathetic. By hoop or by coop, i have to get this very impt A1 for phys...even i noe chances r slim as Elim was the setter. Sigh. I am at a loss rite now, i noe i am going to do dreadfully for this prelim....all my confidence have disintegrated and i am left wif a sense of dispair. Sigh......Help me...anybody...plz....!!!!

Woah...so long very blog le, and prelim have started. Woohooo. So nice rite. Yeah rite, i am crazy. Well, juz finished SS n A Maths Paper 1 today. Now i shall analyse on my performance for prelim. Well, after taking 4 papers already, i can say that the start of the journey is abit shakey, now its smooth sailing. English, i think i didn perform as well lar, i can sense it when i write my compo...compre was abit better than compo. Perhaps bcoz compo was the first ever paper of prelim. Chem pract is more steady. Except that my reading for titration is abit too high. Hahahha. But who knows i may be right. I pnia damn hard for SS for the past few days and i can say today's performance for SS is quite up to expectations. A Maths was also quite easy, juz pray that i dont commit too much careless mistakes. So its smooth sailing from now then. Juz oso pray that the future journey is also smooth sailing lor. Let me easily n effortlessly surf pass prelim. Haha. Well, why today i got some spare time, coz tml is teachers' day celeb and the day after is holiday. Gd, more time for me to study. Haha. And my video sharing is cancelled. How sweet. Cancelled 2 times le. Quite irritating though but i am happy with that decision. Ok, finally, good luck to the rest of you guys for prelims and the coming Os. Work hard, dun give up, hope to see u all do well for prelim......at least let me score better lah. Hahaha. Jokin.

Weeee.....4 more days to prelim. Things are getting interesting. Well, i can see the teachers' efforts in not giving us too much hw so that we have time to study. However, tests n stuffs liddat are still going on. I will take that as an opportunity to revise then. Tomorrow onwards no SSP, how nice. Finally. Haha. Well, we ought to be given time to study. But i dunno why i juz couldnt calm my excitment i have for the prelims, it juz makes me happy instead of stress. Is this a symptom of studying too much and start to become insane? Dunno. I started on my SS juz hours ago. I will start wif Growth of Nation. Well, most pple will skip the theme except me. I think they r easier to study coz u got housing n education and people n stuff liddat. Long but nice. I started education le. Next will be welfare system. I planned not to study industrialisation coz it is disgusting. So if exam comes out industrialisation for growth of nation, i will hav to do my backup theme, which is Venice n deterence. But i hope education will come out coz i am quite confident at it. My most confident topic "Sustaiable Development" has came out for last yr's olevel, so wont come out this yr. Sad. But i hope it will come out again and caught everyone unguarded. Haha. My fave team for amazing race 5 is eliminated. Sad. Yah, the midget and the bitch. I can see how sad the host is when they were eliminated coz he was crying when telling them the bad news. I was somehow sad oso. I mean the midget is an inspiration. I salute her for her determination and courage. I oso wanna qoute something she say. "I just wanted to prove to the world how much I can do, and it's not easy when there's…always people thinking you can't do it and you have to work extra hard to do it…[but] you have to do it. You have to accomplish your dreams."

Fri nite...Fri the 13. How nice. Nothin weird happened to me today anyway, so why r everyone so superstitious about it. Nvm. Tml got tripple sci supplement sia : 7 to 8 Bio, 8 to 9 Chem , 9.45 to 2 Physics. Sigh* How nice could it be. Anyway, Prelims are really really and i mean REALLY near. I hope teachers will start giving lesser hw so that we can really sit down n start revising. Anyway, i wont be staying up too late today. Hav to get up in time tml to go to sch. Haiz. Hope that everything will go on fine tml.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME !!!!! Yea !!! 16 liao, old liao...so sad, today really come home empty handed. Haha. Got alot of last minute greetings...dunno where these pple know my bdae from but anyway, still thank u all. Oh yah...Bdae resolution...erm....wad huh? Of coz is score tremendously for my O level lar. Bye !!!

Bought Jay's today. Now listening to it while i am online. Haha. Currently at track 2..lag lar. Anyway, today is e chem test on Macromolecules. No kick lar. Haha. I did the questions b4 in the chem workbk. So, those who nv do the workbk may lose out lar, but i wont sae they will not do well...nvm. Alot of hw this long weekend !!! Pathetic sia. If the teachers continue to fill our weekends wif tonnes of hw, we wont be able to find time to start revision lor. But too bad i started early ago liao lar. Haha. Lame. Still cant finish the sylibus by prelim leh. Quite worry. Anyway, i am looking forward to the prelims...so...lets see how things work out lor. 4 More Days TO MY BIRTHDAY !!!! Yea. So excited. A few more days and i will be officially 16 (can watch NC16 movie liao haha!) Well, i dun really expect to be shower wif gift n blessing from my friends coz u noe i am not a very popular guy in class n sch lar. Haha. But i hope i wont go home empty handed. Haha . I so bhb sia. Ok , let me finish this cd lor. I think its gonna turn out nice. Edwin sae not nice coz the songs he sang this time r not of this taste. Well, they suit me quite well. Haha. EVERYONE MUZ BUY QI LI XIANG HOR !!!!

Hi guys, havent been blogging for weeks..too busy le, so plz pardon me for that. Tml is school national day celebration. How nice. Everyone is gonna wear red and i should expect a big pool of blood in school tomorrow. Haha. We havent been celebrating national day in school for 2 yrs leh, so it should be quite refreshing this time round. Everyone around me bought Jay's Qi Li Xiang already. I havent buy, buying this week end. So sad, they all come n zhuai wif me their qi li xiang. Haha. Jokin lar. I will oso have my copy this weekend. Haha. O Level English coming. So scared. Mine is on 12th Aug. And here i am starting to feel some irritations in my throat. Pray hard i will be fine for my oral. I need that distinction badly. My birthday oso coming. Yea !!! This coming wed !!! So excited. But i wont expect you all to remember my birthday lar. I wanna keep a low profile oso. Haha. Juz give me a peaceful birthday can le. That day oso my SS test. Diao. Hope it would be my lucky day den. Ok lor, gtg le. Bye!!!

Chem test today. How nice. i mean quite easy lar....except for one or 2 parts of a question i dunno how to do, the rest are okay. Should be able to score well lar, keep my fingers cross. Had physics pract immediately after that. This is the worst phys pract i ever had. Bcoz my readings for the elctricity part got messed up. Well, the reading seems fine but the power calculated out of the readings giv weird flactuating results. And my graph got some weird shape that seem illogical. Damn it, i have to repeat the experiment over n over again. But i still managed to finish in time when others spend alot of time on their part 2 whereas i juz breeze thru part 2 without sweat.Haha.   Got home a few hours ago. When i am about to do my hw, I FOUND OUT THAT I FORGOT TO BRING MY PENCIL BOX HOME !!!!! I left it in the class. Duh. And how i hell i managed to finish my hw i oso dunno. Haha. This is stupid. Sian arh !!!! Next week got emaths test, bio test, phys test, HCL test....mei2 wan2 mei2 liao3. Well, at least there is cross country next sat for me to look forward to. Life goes on......

I LOST MY VOICE !!!! Duh....my sore throat seems to worsen. Nvm, hope i regain my voice soon. Bought ZChen's new album yesterday. Nice. Elva's new album was also out but i cant make my decision on which to buy since i only had enough money for one. Jay Chou's new album publishing this 3rd aug. I guess i have to start saving money for that, I am going broke soon. So many of my fave singers start publishing their new albums...and such a loyal fan like me hav to buy them. Haiz...nvm.

Weeeee....alot of things happened today. Today is a busy day. First, i gotta COLLECT MONEY for e stupid Brotherhood Movie n the Phys June Paper early in e morning ever since i stepped into e class. I hate collecting money, it sux. U hav to bear alot of responsibility and den u got to run around e sch chasing after pple to get money. It makes me looks like a beggar or someone despo for money. Nerd.
Secondly, photo taking for 2pg special. Very rush sia, well, every class is like that, i mean wait till the eleventh minute den do. Sigh. Took photos in e rain. Fun. I mean i luv taking photos (abit BHB rite? hhaha).
Thirdly, there is still stupid NAPFA 2.4 retest which i didn really run quite well. I dun really wanna pass, juz go n show my face thats all. HAd some delays in e process of going, so , dunwan to tok bout that, i mean that makes my blood boil.
Forthly, went to see a doctor. Sigh. I FELL SICK AGAIN. Me so weak sia. But quite gd le, 4 months no sick le. Haha. Lame. I got phlemge n throat irritation since 2 days ago and it worsened today. So bobian, cannot surpress it without medicine, had to see a doctor.

The Amazing Race 5 episode 2 was yesterday. So nice, i watched until 11pm. I luv e show, n u guys must watch i tell u, wont regret. Beri late le, hav to go slp. Tml still got phys pract n double chi. Sux.

Yoz guys, long time no blog le. Let me count...it has been ONE WEEK. How terrifyng....Like Real. Well, i have started my intensive revision le. Thats why. So that means lesser time for blogging.

The Amazing Race 5 started last wed. So nice. Well, bcoz it ends quite late up at nite, i tape it n watch the following afternoon. Its so nice i tell u. There are interesting pple like a midget, female twins, 2 fat obnorxious bro, some bickering couples n so on...the standard i shall say. Haha. Well, they went to Uruguay for e 1st leg of e race. Fun. The team i initially supported got eliminated. Sigh. I mean the so-far-gd-looking guy among all e racers comes from that eliminated team. Wad can i say. He is sheer stupid or he is too kind...let 4 other teams board the taxi b4 him. Siao. Haha. Well, i oso quite support the father-daughter team coz that stupid old man fell down a few seconds after e race start. Stupid rite. And he got 26 stitches for his would. I oso quite support e team wif one midget. I dunno i support them bcoz i symphatise her or i admire her courage, but i juz wanna see how some physcially disabled person can kick major butts off e race.

Enough of TAR5, lets tok bout today. Basically hav phys pract. And e stupid pract i hav done b4 one. Sigh. AFter pract when to Toa Payoh wif gab n ed. Gab wanna go e music hut there to yu gou machi's new album. So me n ed accompany him. Juz after e phys pract, we witness "them" confronting "him" about all e harassment. I wont say that "he" deserves all e scolding but i think it isnt going to make things better. So i wont interfere into that as long as "he" dun come n bother me. Reached TPY ctr...had lunch at e new foodcourt above crystal jade. Well, we observed this pair of "guys" from some sch sitting near us. And i tell u they are DAMN SISSY LOR. Me ed n gab witness it all. The guy was like his hands gestures n e way he sit cross-legged (like chessy) and how he sweep his hair at e ear like a girl....we bo wei gong. Haha. Damn funny. We were like laughing at them from e other corner of e foodcourt. Better not let them find out. Haha. Ed even suspect them to be gays or something.

Went to TPY Library after that. We headed to e adults session n we try to find some books for some of our classmates. Haha. Like "anger management" or "self improvement" n stuff like that. Haha. Funny. Coz we think they need it desperately. Haha. How bad sia.
Went to music hut, gab cant yu gou his machi coz the stall keeper was sooo astonish when she heard his order. Haha. Went home after that. I continued my intensive revision n life goes on. Haha. Sian sia.

Sunday Nite, waiting for broadcast of Variety Big Bro, not Euro cup lar. Haha. I am not a soccer fan, sooo nvm. Practically stayed at home e whole day. My eng tutor can made it today, so no tution. Finished all hw alreadi, so did some bio revision, i started off wif transport of Man. There is a class outing tml, i am not going. Why? I juz dun feel welcomed. Even if i go, i will either be ditched aside, or i will be made fun of thru-out e whole thing. So wad for i go n make myself unhappy, make others unhappy. Sian arh....youth day sux ! Why muz there be youth day, isnt it better if we convert this holiday to another sch days where more constructive work can be done. Nvm, dun kill me if u all see this.

Yesterday was youth day celebration !!! The teachers put up a damn gd performance. Well, it is call wad ZHSS MTV award...lame name got nice content. The older teachers keep the ball rolling by dancing some country dance or wadsoever. And we saw teachers like elim n yam dancing and we were like...screaming. Hahahaha. Well, that was only the start. Den we hav the SHE...they call themselves STL but i call them SHIT. Hahahha. They sing superstar that is like....out of tune. Nvm. Mr. Keong followed up next by singing some oldies...that time is zhong guo ren...dis yr is shanghai beach. Diao...and he always get his gym pple jumping behind him while he sing...no meaning at all actually. We only scream when kawaii jumped. haha. The English Dept put up a fashion show. And there is AI QING 72 BIAN. They use the song for the fashion show. Hahahahaa, me ed n gab were like singing along wif the song, esp e opening part. Den there is this Indian Costume part and the models r...Mrs Singh...diao. Haha. ANd a few more like tobias n that songbird, i forget her name. And everyone of them hav to shake some indian dance. Haha. Mrs Singh did a gd dance...dunno she can "dance" so well. haha. No offence.

THE FUN PART STARTS HERE. WE GOT NOT 3 NOT 4 !!!!!!! ZHSS's new boyband consisting of e rock mr ang, mr wong, mr. ng n mr choo i think. Haha. Witnessing our form te n unofficial co-form sing 5566's Wo Nan Guo , the enthu 4E2 definitely scream lar. Haha. And we were like keep shouting "THE ROCK , WO AI NI". Hahaha. He acknowledged us. See, we r such a supportive form class. Then came "Mama Young" and thats Ms chan. Waseh, she perform that "Sexy Naughty Bitchy" damn HOT lor. MS CHAN, I DUNNO U CAN SO SAO ONE. Hahaha. She was like keep dancing those seducive dance twist here twist there like no body's business. Waseh, ms chan, i peifu u. Haha. Is like when she perform , she got too carried out i think. This also reveals that she goes to pubs n clubs n perform on bartop one. Haha. Well, the 4 male teachers behind her damn extra lar, dunwanna say, esp when ang is one of them. Haha. The grand finale is definitely WILLIAM HUNG. AHHHHHHHHHHHH. SHE BANGS SHE BANGS OH BABY ~ Mr. Quek immitate William hung, den dance She Bang, bring the whole sch population to the highest point. ANd almost everyone of us sec 4 up here in the gallery was like dance the "She Bangs" part. Haha. Fun sia. She Bangs Rocks!!!!!

After the concert...well dun think is youth day liao. We pitiful HCL students hav to go back to correct past yr prelims ourself. And this stupid St Marg paper's compre answer was like SOOOO LONG. SIao lar, this is compre lor, not compo. Duh !

~ 3rd July Sat ~

Arh....sat !!! The others hav Listening Compre, I dun hav. Hahaha. Well, while my father drove me to sch, i was like listen to the 92.4 n do the listening compre...IN THE CAR. Duh. Went to sch for phys test. The test damn difficult. But i manage to get some hard ones correct. Hehehe. Waited for jas to finish her test, return her FIR Cd and she lent me JJ n Jolin's CD. Hehe. Intend to go lunch wif ed n sis 3. Went to mac, cant find a seat. Den go S11, oso cant find a seat. Everyone yi xin lan shan, so go home lor. Hahaha. Duh.....boring.

Hey guys, long time no blog le (* Look at calendar....),nvm. Haha. School started and by juz a blink, its thur alreadi. There is youth day concert tml performed by the teachers....well, gd try but i think those singing will sing out of tune, according to their rehersal. Nvm...i will appreciate it anyway! Actually frankly speaking, i dunno that there is youth day concert or any youth day that exists until today. Hahaha. I busy until dunno when is youth day liao, diao...i am going crazy. Nvm.

Ok, there is something to tok bout which is quite old liao, it happens on tue but i still hav to tok bout it since i am a chi pop listener. Penny Dai & Jiang MeiQi came to zhss on tue for assembly, thank to 883fm. There were these 2 weird creatures who came out of stage that claim to be 883 dj. Oh plz, i mean who will listen to 883...so ulu...and they left only 4 DJs...i feel like going down to stage and sing UFM theme song. Hahahaha. Coz i am a 100% loyal listerner to ufm !!! Ok, Jiang Mei qi came out first, sing sing sing...i mean i was listening and it was first time i can see the real her. But half of the sch were like "who the hell is she". See lar, the major problem of eating potatoes! Half of e sch population listen to eng songs only mah...how can...considering they r manjority chi. Nvm...only pple like me ed n gab will noe who the hell she is. Den came Penny...she so short but so chio. nvm...and she was like keep on hu4 dong4 ing wif the audience. Haha. Thru-out e mini concert, the whole sch population were like not active at all lor...only a few claps n catcalls...so boring...boring pple. And 4E7 peeps were like waving the stupid pom pom n like soooo supportive big die hard fan....plz, this is not a sports meets or something. Me gab n ed were like keep on waving to them when they r singing but they juz dun respond to us. Haha. Felt so dejected. Nvm, after the concert, chase down to e bball ct where they get into their mini-van n drove off...we were like waving n she wave back to us and nvm...THP was like went there personally n say hi n bye n thanku and wadever. Diao...no comments.

Tml is youth day celebration, still got lessons somemore, but nvm, this day dun exist in my calendar...so who cares, life goes on.......