Cut my hair today. Really sad. How i wish i do not need to cut my hair, its tough job keeping them so long. Hahahaha. Lame. Ok, cut my hair today, so one task down, 2 to go. Tml is new years' eve. Not going for any countdown, plan to stay at home and watch TV. Anyway, received news from some friends who enters AJ that they are being called and told what to bring, what time to report, whats their orientation grp and stuff.....AND NO ONE CALLED ME !!! Sob...Perhaps someone did call me. I recalled sleeping soundly this morning and the phone rang at around 10+, but i'm juz tooo lazy to wake up and pick it up. Hmmmm.....wont be so qiao3 ba !!! Anyway, get some info from my friends, they r as follows: 1. Bring 25 bucks 2. Wear full sch uniform 3. Report at 7am in the hall 4. Bring a set of PE attire 5. Bring writing materials 6. Bring whistle and water bottle..... Ok, rather essential information but i still dunno which grp i'm in. Hope i am not in the same orientation grp as that person. PRAY HARD !!! HELL NOT !!!!! Waiting for the phone to ring.....ring.....ring......sianz.....

Sch is reopening soon......theres still alot of things left undone. Sigh. Hope i can squeeze out some time in this few days left to complete them. First, i needa cut my hair. As much as i would like my hair to be of this length (rather long after being left uncut for 4 months) , i still need to cut my hair to present a "presentable" appearance in my new sch next yr. Darn. Second, i need to renew my Popular Card. My membership card has expired for weeks. Need to renew my membership coz i forsee that i hav alot to buy in the new sch term. Third, i need to restock my stationaries. If not i'm juz gonna use my blood for writing then. Haha. Well, there r oso some other trivial stuffs that need to be attended. How i wish holidayz will be longer. Haha. Countdown to a new sch term in a new sch wif a new environment : 5 days left !!!

Juz came back from KBox session wif Gab Edwin & SC. Well, this is the session wif the lowest attendence rate and we r totally fine wif it. Or shd i say, we are very glad to keep the numbers low. By having only the 4 of us, we can sing more songs, i guess. Started the trip to kbox wif a fustrating bus ride, or shd i sae, a fustrating bus waiting incident. Bcoz its raining, and i'm juz too lazy to carry an umbrella along, i decided to take a feedle bus to AMK Central, which is just a 5 to 10 minutes walk from my home. To my dismay, the bus just dont turn up and i hav to wait for 20 minutes b4 i sae e bus approaching from the opposite direction. Damn it. The bus still needs to make a turn kilometeres down the road where the bus only arrived at my busstop 15 minutes later after i saw it. So its a damn long waiting period for the bloody bus to come. It is really fustrating to wait for a bus in a busstop for so long, the fact that i was going to be late and that its raining cats and dogs outside (which makes me unable to "detour") aggrevated and excerbated the situation of the bus waiting incident. Ok, enough of bus waiting, took 265 to AMK central where i change bus to 159 and sit all the way to TPY bus interchange. I was late and i really feel bad about being late. Punctuality is an important value that we must uphold. Had lunch at KFC where we met Wang Lu and Lao Lai. They just watched KungFu Hustle which i'm totally not interested in, but nvm. Went to KBOX straight ahead. Sang alot of songs. Had my fair share of singing too. Well, dats the advantage of having lesser number of people attending . We r oso able to sing many songs that we hav no chance of singing b4 in e past, coz now, we hav ample time. There was once when we sang until we hav no voice. This excerbate my singing for the next few songs, esp my cheng3 ming3 qu3 : Ling Cheng San Dian Zhong. Haha. Cant reach the high parts which i usually able to reach in the past. So can really tell how bad our voicebox r at that time. There r oso funny moments when we either change our voices to make them sounds funny. Gab did his expert "act-cute" voice which is so hilarious. I did some "old singers' " voices and so on. Its funny, i would say. We also sang China Doll's Dan Yan Pi Nu Sheng (Single Eye Lid Girl) which reminds us of an examiner during Olevels whom we call her Chinadoll for her "close" resemblence. Haha. Its funny. And we sang Tata Young's "Sexy Naughty Bitchy Me" which reminds us of ms chan's performance during youth day. During the song, we emphasised on the word "Bitchy" thruout e whole song. Haha. Very funny. The grand finale consists of 2 Shin Yue Tuan Song: tian gao di hou and One Night in Beijing as well as a SHE song Superstar. Very fun. Had dinner at the foodcourt above Crystal Jade where i ordered dumpling noodles. I spotted a familar face infront of the queue. Seems like OJM (my pri sch classmate) to me but i'm not very sure if he really is. He didn seem to recognize me and i doubt his identity. So i decided not to say hi juz incase he is really not OJM. So the atmosphere is really strange as in it fits a song by elva hsiao - zui shu xi de mo sheng ren (the most familiar stranger). Perhaps even if he is OJM, i think he oso feels e same as me as in he is not sure if i'm cmh, esp when i had my glasses on (i dont wear glasses in pri sch). Dunno. Hmmm.... Gab Edwin & SC decided to watch late night movie KungFu Hustle after dinner. They bought their tickets but i'm not joining them. So they accompanied me to Popular Bookstore where i went to get the membership card application form. My membership card expired for like weeks and i dun wan to renew it coz of a stupid reason - i'm not sure about which jc i'm ultimately landing in. Ok, took a bus home where they proceed on to watch their movies. Days left b4 sch opening. Excited yet disapointed. Cant wait to meet old friends and new friends in AJC but disapointed coz holidayz is ending. Sigh......

What a disaster. Really feel sad for the victims of the Sumatra earthquake and tidal waves that hit South and South East Asia. I've learnt about the greatness of mother nature. Man has always tried to outdo nature. However, this nature disaster has proven man wrong. Man's power is indeed meagre as compared to nature. Lets all pray for them, for a better tomorrow, i guess.

Juz came back from 4E2 chalet. Well, i went there at about 12noon together wif simin. So when we arrived at the chalet, everyone was just so slackish (if theres such a word). Well, guess they do not hav enough slp. Didn know wad to do, well, i was juz bored and juz start talking crap (my hobby. Hahaha). Half an hour after i arrived, Cecelia and June wanna go play pool. So i joint them. Well, as usual, my starting game wasnt very desirable. Totally horrendous. Went back to chalet after pool where i played Uno wif Ken-neh, Ed, Gab & June. There is this "strategy planning" going on in this game such that no one can win. The moment someone's deck starts to get "dangerously" less, the other 4 will pump him/her wif "+2" or "+4" cards. So its a game without a winner and a game without an end. June quit the game out of fustration. So its down to e 4 of us guys. Well, i am juz smart enough to plan my own strategy. I had 4 cards of similar number 0 but of the 4 different colours prepared, ready to game. So i threw my last +4 card when everyone had threw all their +2 or +4 cards. Someone hav to draw cards obviously. The other 3 players didn expect my 4 different colours "zero" deck. So edwin had a blue reverse on me and i juz throw out all my remaining zero decks thus winning the game. Everyone was shock and started "kao-peh-ing". Well, being happy, i walked away wif them continue making noise. Smart rite. Hahaha. Went to play pool again, this time wif jinglun brandon cecelia and kelvin. I can say i improved as compared to the earlier game. But i eventually lose as i helped my opponent hit in THREE of their balls. Damn it. That was totally.......dreadful. Went back to chalet at about 6+ after the game. The BBQ is gonna start in minutes. Bro 4 went down to set fire while i sat down and slack. Soon, Jiajun, Spike & Roy came back from Wild Wild Wet half naked wif their broadshorts on only. And i somehow can sense the girls' eyes all focusing on them, esp Jiajun. Hmmmmm.....Wadever. Haha. Didnt really participate much in e BBQ. I spend most of my time in e chalet slacking. Didnt really eat much from e BBQ. Or shd i say, didn even eat at all. Thanks to Bro 4 who garenteed gd food for bbq and i juz cant imagine e "concortion" of food available . Nvm. 9pm, called my father to fetch me home. The teachers haven arrive yet. Wadever la, i'm not gonna wait for them rite, gotta rush home to watch Amazing Race. Being hungry, i decided to da bao KFC b4 going home. Well, talking about da-baoing kfc, my blood starts to boil. There is this 2 or 3 middle age aunties infront of me, ordering quite a portion (alot) of food. And this auntie starts requesting for more this more that. Den she started requesting things like "ooo...i want this piece brest meat, this piece drumstick, this piece crispy this piece original......" F**k u lah. Bloody troublesome u. And wads more, after all her food arrived, she starts ordering again when her family members or wadever start running out ONE BY ONE to giv extra order. I was like "Oh FUCK OFF LAH ! Cant u see there is a long queue behind u and u r taking ur time ordering your crap.....*(^*&^&$#^()(" I waited for like half an hour and when she finally finish her order (thank goodness) and wanted to pay. She starts searching her wallet searching coins ...and get this clear COIN BY COIN. I PENG LIAO LA !!!!! I feel like kicking her ASS. Ok, thanks to her partially i got pissed off. The cashier guy oso got part to play. HE IS DAMNNNNNN INEFFICIENT !!!!! I will sack him long ago if i'm e boss. He was like picking juz now's zha bo's chicken slowly and lazily and i feel like shouting some profanities at him. Nvm. Blood boil. Qi Kek. Dun wish to talk anymore about this freaking blood-boiling incident. Ate my dinner in my father's car. Juz nice reach home everything finish eating le. Haha. Quickly bathed and tuned in to watch Amazing race. Dats all. Haha. Boring day. Sigh. I was actually hesistating whether to go chalet anot this morning but i finally made up my mind to go coz i paid alreadi anyway. Haha. Ok, stop here. Nitez.....

Ahhhh......wad a wonderful day today. Nice weather, consider it being the evening alreadi, still see e blue sky and e sun shining from the west. Ok, lets get to today's events. Had badminton cum table tennis session wif my pri sch classmates FPE & YY today. Well, my performance for badminton sux big time, so wont mention much about it. Then we went to play table tennis. Well, as we played table tennis, we some kinda talk about. We talked about who go where (jc posting), subject combinations and our sec sch life. Talked alot as we were in the game. Very hard to withdraw myself from the talk. So its like, we talk and we play and even though the focus is not on e ball, i find the game easier to play as the ball juz came to and fro as we talk. So the game become very smooth, unlike when we didn hav any conversation, the ball juz went out of control. haha. Weird. Say gd-bye and i went home. On my way home, i start to "appreciate and enjoy" the surrounding environment and find it to possess intense "beauty". Coupled with the effect of the breeze and the not-so-hot sunshine, this place looks like spring man. Tml is 4E2 chalet. I think i wont be going for the first day, unless i am too bored at home. I wont be staying overnight, coz i dun wanna sqeeze wif so many pple in one small room (unlike 2e5 chalet where the most we hav 12 boys sharing one room.....erm...make it 11 coz harry will be sleepin at e balcony. hahahahahaha). Kinda tired of chalet after my very HIONG2 enjoyment during 2e5 chalet last week. Haha. The most juz go there show my face, play some pool, some bowling, some arcade, den bbq eat a few satay and bye bye, cya next yr, if not dun ever c u again (as u all will wish). Haha. Alreadi expect some scenarios dat will take place during 4e2 chalet. I'm trying to avoid these scenarios. Hope they wont bcom toooo Hiong2. Den it would be disastrous. Haha. Ok la, let me enjoy e remaining evening weather. Byeeeeeee.....

Okiezzz....i am free to blog about chalet now. So lets start. Chalet was fun. I always luv this class. Well, although not many attended, we still enjoy this short but memoriable 3 days. Day 1: Met qiyang and my 2 grandnieces huining & siying at AMK MRT at 1pm. Took a bus to Downtown East together. The bus damn slow, resulting in us being late. Checked in wif sam, james , xm & yy. KS, leslie, SC, jas, mother hong, jiayi and niece ru alreadi at the chalet. Had my lunch cum breakfast at 3pm at the BK. Ordered a set bu ended up having all my french fries eaten up by others. Haha. Went bowling wif siying, huining, mother hong & ruqing. I can say that my bowling skills sux too much le. Well, didn really bowled a gd game but still enjoy it. Went to play pools after that, den arcade when i started to get addicted to this car racing game. Hehe. Didn had dinner coz i had late lunch. Went back to chalet when we started to slack. Had my weekly dose of amazing race in e chalet at 10pm. Jas went home. Den we go arcade again when i continue to play e car racing game. 2 idiotic bengsters challenged us. Bloody morons sissy gays. So we sent out our 2 best racers sam n james to trash them. Well, we eventually did and they juz became sore losers. Sissy gays, go home and wipe ur ass and wear pampers la. Hahaha. Went back to chalet at around 1am when we watched Scary Movie 3 & Dodgeball. Scary Movie 3 is hilarious. Suitable for sadistic bastards like we who laughed my heads off at e show. Day 2: Woke up rather early. Didn get enough sleep but i am juz not tired. Had breakfast wif e girls n james, sam n qiyang at macdonalds. Went cycling at Pasir Ris Park when e sky started to rain. Freak. Bobian, returned back to chalet wif our bikes which r non refundable. That stupid bike rental guy juz dun wanna refund us comparing e situation to buying clothes n underwear. Didn hav lunch coz i dun feel hungry. Den, went to play pools again wif siying, mother hong, ruqing and huining. I dunno how many times i played pool during chalet. I think i lost count. Went back to chalet at around 4 when pple like joyce leeting celes karin n alesia arrived. Well, the 4E7 pple r attending their classmate's bdae party. Eventually, after their departure, only me sam siying mother hong huining ruqing qiyang n sc r left in e chalet. Played mahjong wif e girls while sc had his beauty slept and sam playing ps. Played many rounds. Rounds after rounds, it seems to hav nv ended. According to them, the way i played mahjong was "scary". Well, i am juz too aggresive, cant blame me rite. Haha. Went to da bao pizza wif e girls. Qiyang left us. Shengchao continued sleeping. So its only left wif e 5 girls, me n sam who had our dinner of pizza in e girls' room. Huining departed. Continued to play mahjong. Played until 10 something when e party-goers returned. Heard from them that everyone was pushed into e pool. So sad. But who cares. SC finally woke up. Hahaha. While e 3 girls left when to meet their friends at another chalet, the guys played ps and i was juz bored. Went to play pool at around 1am. Alas, it is closing soon so we only had half an hour of gang to play. My throat infection worsened (i had mild sore throat when i went chalet). So i decided to go cheers buy some lozenges to soothen my throat. Happened to bump into some kinda gangfight outside Cheers. Being streetsmart, or rather timid, i siam the commotion n went to buy wad i need to buy. Went back to chalet when e girls continued their nite activities. As e guys r damn noisy playing ps, i seeked e permission of siying to rest in e girls' room (theirs is empty and hav alot of vancancy since there is only 3 of them left and neither of them is back). Permission granted and i juz slept there till e next morning. Guess i am juz too tired. Day 3: Woke up at 6.30. Went to brush my teeth and went back to sleep again. YY is oso sleeping in e girls' room. The girls r back and they r oso sleeping. The guys, they r crazy, played ps non stop till e next morning. So, i went back to sleep at e girls' room again and this time woke up at 8. Xiao qiang (cockroach) came to visit us. Thankgoodness it didn run into my shoes or bag. Soon, all woke up. The guys went to hav breakfast while i am too bloody tired to follow. Siying n YY need to leave early. So i left wif them at 9am, an hour b4 checking out. So its bye bye chalet and home sweet home. End of story.

YESHHHHHHHH !!!!!!!!!! I ENTERED AJ !!!!!! Woohooooo. Cant believe it. I mean there is a tough competition this year considering the fact that we dragon year kids r soooo competitive and everyone is gonna fight for a gd place in JC next yr. And yesh !!!! I entered Anderson Junior College, my first choice. It is oso a break of my so-call "curse" for which i cant enter a school with an english name, currently, all the schools i entered, kindergarden, pri sch and sec sch all not english name one, so this is e break of the curse on me. Ya, sounds stupid. Juz came back from 2E5 chalet, damn tired n fun. I will post my entry on e 2E5 chalet afterwards when i hav time.

SURVIVOR VANUATU FINALE !!!!!!! So cool rite. And guess what, CHRIS WON !!!! Woohooo...he deserved it, for surviving 6 other women in camp. So it temporary marks the end of the survivor fever within me. However, a new season of Survivor is coming next march with a total concept or twist or something that is way different from the normal system of the game. Yesh. its SURVIVOR PALAU, in the deep sea of the pacific ocean lies these islets with beautiful flora and fauna and remains of ruins from a ferce battle of WW2. So it would be nice to see how these castaways are haunted by the hungry ghosts of the violent history of mankind that once took place there. Anyway, since survivor vanuatu finale has ended, i am now looking forward to the 2E5 chalet. Woohoo.. this wed. Gotta make use of it to the fullest man. Who knows this is the last chalet for 2E5. Hehe. Hope not.

Arhhhhh........ONE MORE DAY !!! Yes ! Tml !!!! Survivor Vanuatu FINALE !!!!! So cool. Well, as you guys know , i am a super great fan of Survivor and i am always so enthu about the show. Though the finale marks the end of this season's survivor, it also meant new seasons of survivor in other more exortic places will be coming so its something worth excited about. Okay, lets talk about Survivor Vanuatu, for those who havent been consistantly watching it. It started off with 18 castaways seperated by the gender line. The girls, who are physically weaker, proved to be strong as they won the guys in many immunity challenge causing the guys' numbers to decrease significantly. Ok, merge time. 4 guys vs 6 girls. The 6 girls held strong and voted off 3 more guys. Now its 6 vs 1. While everyone is expecting the only guy left to be sent off, miracle happened and there was internal conflict within the girls' alliance, whereby the original leader of the alliance was unhappy about losing her leadership to another younger and prettier STRONG woman. So, the older woman, who was the original leader, fostered an alliance with the only guy left, another unfeminine woman, and a pretty young girl who was on e chopping block since day 1 and start voting off the power house of the tribe. So 3 girls were sent off and of coz one of them, as mentioned in my earlier entry, is the QUEEN of survivor vanuatu, Ami. So its down to the final 4: Chris, the only guy standing, Scout, the old les who was the original leader, Twaila, the unfeminine woman who prefers to stick with the guys, and Eliza, the young pretty girl with a big mouth, and a target since day 1. So its really interesting to see how these 4 pple start to stab and kill each other in the finale episode to win the 1 million dollar. I would really hope Chris won the 1 million dollar for he is witty enough to survive the 6 girls alliance. Dun say that i am a sexist supporting guys but i think he deserves to win. However, my gut tells me that ELiza the big mouth will win. Why? Coz she is physically strong and will win the last 2 immunity challenges to keep herself in the final 2. And this cat with 9 lives will eventually make it to the winner spot. So its all on tml's finale episode. Definitely must watch.

Woah, juz came back from badminton session wif some of my ex pri schmates. Well, the badminton session was planned in the last minute, received an sms from julia yesterday askin me if i wanna attend and i say ok and dats it. Set. Cool. Met Peow Ee, julia, meikuan at the busstop infront of my ah-ma house. YY cant attend coz he is done wif fever, poor him. So we walked to the badminton court and to our relief, no ones using it. Well, its really fun and i can consider this the first time i ever exercise so vigorously ever since i graduated. Haha. We played non stop for 3 hours, 9am to 12noon. From singles to doubles to changing of partners to 1 vs 2 , 1 vs 3, wadver combinations you can think of, we played it. I had a rather shakey start when i always start with the shuttercort flying out of court. But as time goes, i find i am having an easier time, perhaps i have warmth up alreadi. Yup, enginee is hot. I am also rather amazed by my performance when i managed to receive some difficult shots frommy opponent. As compared to my past performances, when i spend most of the time picking shuttercort, i can said i improved. ABit bhb rite. Haha. Well, thats cool, at least i have better command of this sport. We stopped when it started to drizzle at 12noon. So with a goodbye we headed for seperated ways back home. Surprise, i am not feeling tired at all. Very energetic now. Thanks to the strenous exercise i had moments ago. And i hope this contributed significantly to my weight-loss plan. Haha.

There is a sudden sense of loneliness developing within me. I felt alone, lonely. I seemed to be a loner, an outcast, a lowly respected and always neglected human being. Is this the repercussion for my personal indifferent social attitudes? After 4 years of education in secondary school, I felt that i do not have many friends that i am really attatched or relate to, in terms of friendship. Yes, i have lotsa friends, but none of them are close. They are just those "hi-bye" friends that occasionally chat via various modes of communication. I feel that i do not have a friend who knows me well enough to be my so call "buddy". I doubt my own skeptical attitudes on friendship. I attempt to chat with people i know online via msn. But guess what, try proving me wrong, i feel that you guys are annoyed by my constant "hi"s on msn. Am I that annoying? The answer should be an obvious definate. I am being portrayed as an obnorxious freak in class who "speaks with his ass like as though he has diarrhoea via his mouth". Yes, i confessed i am. I tried hard but i cant change. Shame on me. Sometimes i think back on how obnorxious, abhorrent, disgusting and loathsome behaviour of mine, i felt that the intense shame in me. But when i found out my shame, they have became history that scarred people's impression of me. I felt that i am being made a class clown. Not one that brings laughter to everyone by his humourous jokes, but one that is being laughed at or picked at for all his "negativity". People just relate me as a nobody. I feel that most of you guys portray me as a pain in the neck, a nobody who do not deserves much attention, in the right way. And hence thats my greatest regret for my 4 years education in ZHSS. There are some who i really treat you as good buddies, but i am not sure if the some-of-you treat me in the same way. I am not doubting your attitude towards me, dont get me wrong. I wanna be friends with you guys who accept me, or seem to accept me, forever. But alot of my good friends in zhss has either have their own clique or for some other reasons, cause our friendship to become more bland. I dont request 100% attention from you guys, but i hope there wont be any external factors like time that deteriorate and corrode our friendship. My dear friends, i hope this entry dont deteriorate our friendship. I am just feeling hopeless of myself. And for those who really treat me as a true friend, i hope our friendship remains this way for eternity or better still, improves. I am really grateful to that.......i juz feel like crying....for being an outcast.

Today's Pri Sch Clique Gathering was kinda okay i would say. But it was indeed fun. Ok, met FPE, YY, MK & Julia at YCK MRT stn. Went to Grassroot Club's Cathey Bowl for bowling. XM didn turn up for that. Gillian, shes working. So its the P6/1 part of the clique that went bowling only. K, bowling was kinda nice. Didn really bowl for a year alreadi, skills very rusty, infact, my skills ARE rusty. Being the begineers of bowling, me and yy shared a game while mk & FPE shared a game. Julia, being the more pro player, played a game herself. We played 2 set of games. Well, Julia's excellent bowling skills proved too superior as she clinched the top score twice. Haha. Ok, thats enough of bowling. Went to J8 where we met XM there. Due to some miscalculation of time, i told xm a later time to meet us hence she couldnt have lunch with us together. So, its 2nd round in the foodcourt when she arrived and we juz watch her eat. Hahaha. The original plan was to watch movie but the movies are shown in a very late time. So, i suggest that we visit Gillian in her work place while she is working. Cool. It was her first day at work in Bugis Seiyu as a cashier. Julia & MK left us. So its left with the 4 of us to visit Gillian. Reached Seiyu Bugis at about 3.30pm. We went searching for the cashiers all around Seiyu and we finally found Gillian. hahaha. She was sooooo into her work. Hmmmm. None of us dared to walk over and say hi. We juz dodge here and there and juz cant stop giggling. We are like some weird aliens in Seiyu Bugis. Hahaha. The surrounding pple including the senior cashier noticed us but not gillian. Weird. The cashier may still think we r here to rob them or something for standing there and looking at the cashier booth for so long. Haha. Finally, i think the senior cashier told gillian about us and when she noticed us, she was like, cant stop laughing. Siao cashier. Liddat sure scare away many customers one. Hahahahah. Den we were like laughing here and there and she was too shock or surprise to do anything other than laughing. Hahahaha. Gotcha. So we wave goodbye to Gillian and we went shopping somewhere else b4 coming back to kachiao her again. Hahahaha. Went to a bubbletea shop under the recommandation of XM. So we sat down, order our drink and keng gai (chat). Talk for quite a long time. Well, we talk about our respective schools, teachers, Sg Idol, Amazing Race, XM's australia trip, etc. Seems like we stayed inside for....1 hour ? Dunno. After the keng gai session, went to Gillian's cashier booth to say gd bye for one last time and we went home, calling a day off. How sweet. To see your ex classmates or ex schmates again. I love gatherings. Hahaha. (PS: (To Gillian) If you are still working at Seiyu, look around you coz u nv know when we will pay you a visit again. hahahah. Hope you love the surprise!)

Today's outing turn out to be a failure. Met James ,Jas, Ru aka niece & Hongjin aka Mother @ AMK MRT. I was expecting YY & Karin to come but both turned out to be absent. Sticking to the original plan, we went to Grassroot Club Cathey bowl but bad news struck as the lanes are all booked for an event and we cant have any. Bummer. Took a bus to Hougang Plaza expecting the bowling ctr to be still there but alas its not. Played pool instead out of fustration. Well, its my first time. Managed to hit in a few balls with the help of Hongjin (shes pro). Contacted Karin , YY & Matt after pool and we planned to go Orchard Lido Shaw for movie. Only Matt arrived. Sad. Mother and niece left us for their SJAB thing. The 4 of us felt deceived. We didnt watch movie afterall. Went shopping around in Orchard. Visit an arcade in Cineleisure but there was limited stuff for us to enjoy. Went to Heeren and then its bye bye Orchard. Went to AMK, visit the arcade at Jubidee under the recommandation of Jas. Nothing much as well. Accompany Matt for his dinner at the S11 with James. Talked quite abit. Well, at least we tried to make the best out of anything that is left. Wave goodbye to Matt and Jas. Me & James actually went to Popular Bookstore to look at A Level stuffs. Yes. We are toooooo lame. I flipped some econs stuff and find familiar terms that i can find in my geo elect sylibus. Great. Econs shd be a 2nd choice for me for JC's subject combination. Hahahah. 7pm, went home without dinner. Dun wish to hav any dinner anyway. Had my weekly dose of Survivor. This is the episode i enjoyed the most. Queen Ami was finally booted off. So happy. She is such a sexist that she wants all guys off the game. How bad. She loved to control the whole game soooo much. Well, at least she is gone, thanks to the strong but unpredictable alliance consisting of Chris Scout Twaila and Eliza who also sent Leann packing last week. Tribal council was kinda emmotional when Eliza cant bear to vote off Ami. Both of them cried. I almost touched me to tears too, even though i would wish AMi to be gone sonner or later. For that moment, i dun really blame or hate AMi. Weird. Alas, Eliza voted off Ami and shes gone. Yeah. The Queen is overthrown. Oso wanna quote a saying from Tribal Council that Scout said about Ami for being the controller of the whole game : The lighting will stike the tree at the mountain peak the fastest. Quite true, makes sense. Juz like the chinese saying "shu4 da4 zhao1 feng1" But Scout's saying was more intense. Ok, thats all for today. Looking forward to Monday's Pri Sch Gang Gathering.

Spent most of the day looking at prom photos taken by others who hav attend the once-in-a-life-time event. Everyone seems to hav enjoyed themselves. Upon looking through the photos, i can imagine how glamourous and grand the event was, however, there are also mixed feelings inside me that i would now like to voice out. I kinda regret not attending the event, however, on the other hand, i seems to feel that i made the right choice of not attending. I developed a sense of regret coz i cant be there with my friends and classmates and accquatince for the last time , perhaps. I regretted not being able to show others the "goodlooking" side of myself. Everyone looks great in the event, i mean, guys in suit girls in dresses, splendid apperance. I also wanna portray myself to be able to produce a good image/appearence infront of others to. I hav once imagined what i would wear if i were to go prom but i do not know if the reality of me wearing such great suits fabricates desirable images or not. Everyone enjoyed themselves, and the photos taken hav kept track of the historical moment. These photos kept the memories for eternity (if they dun disintegrate) and i wanna be part of the image casted in these great photos. I wanna take photos wif all my friends n classmates out there when we are of our best apperance. However, i some kinda feel happy i am not there. I dun wanna make pple unhappy by sharing the same table with them (u know, most pple do not like me). All my friends are either from other classes and hav their own clique to share a table with or they are not attending the event. This will spare me and others from being deprived of the enjoyment of the event. Secondly, i am sure i will be "sabotaged" to be "humilated" on stage. Yesh, these r healthy activities but u guys must understand that i am shy by nature and do not wish to be the limespot unless i am in a group of friends that i am comfortable with. Thirdly, i am pessimistic about how i look in those nice clothes to be worn to prom. I somehow feel that i am ugly, short and fat and i dont look nice in anything. I do not want to be a laughing stock throughout the whole night. Although the saying goes "beauty lies in the eyes of the beholder", i some kinda feel that there is a line of distiction between good looking and not good looking, and unfortunately, i fall in the category of being not good looking in the eyes of majority. Yes, you may argue that its not the apperance that matters but i beg to differ. In reality, outer apperance do matter, sad to say. However, if you ask me if i will attend another prom that consist of the total graduating population, i may consider saying yes to it. I dream prom is to be able to share a table with my best friends out there and everyone enjoyed the different and unique atmosphere which cannot be moulded in any situation. Whether my reasons to and against attending the prom are valid or not, i still think that its a choice i hav made and i should bear no regrets for it. One hav to believe in himself. If i feel that this is the best way for me, and fate wants me not to prom, and here i am not attending prom, i shd hav no regrets.

Singapore Idol Finals tonight and Taufik won. Wat can i say, Taufik deserves it, he definitely sang better than Sly. Well, infact, both of them did well tonight and its a hats-off performance i can say. Whereas those negative critics and news and informations fabricated because of the competition on family background or racist votes or anti-whoever, i hope they can come to an end. The result is fixed and no one can change it, so the other die hard fans of sly or any other finalist, plz learn to accept it, i guess. Well, although i think Taufik deserves the title, my own singapore idol is still olinda coz i think she has a fantastic vocal and can tackle all genre of music thrown to her. Well, its her powerful vocal that i am impressed of and i think she is a really professional singer. But too bad luck is not on her side or she is not "appealing" enough to the mass public as compared to sly n taufik that she got eliminated. However, her powerful vocal will still live in the hearts of many, i guess. So thats enough of Singapore idol. Its rather strange of me to devote the whole entry to SI when i am not a very consistent or loyal viewer. I am juz a "second-class" viewer, not the "full-time" viewers. Haha. So, lookin forward to SI 2 and of coz world idol where sg will hav her first very own representative to step on the stage of such a prestigious and renown global competition.

Juz came back from K Box Session. Yup, sis 3 & bros 4 except zh went. Arrived at the meeting spot (TPY Bus Int.) rather early, so i decided to shop around the popular bookstore for quite a while. At around 12.05pm, i guess, all arrived and we decided to hav lunch in KFC. Shuyi, shes nuts. She played "murder" in KFC where the victim is none other than a pathetic plate of cheese fries. Yup, i dunno wad she did to the fries and it juz looked like a scene of a traffic accident. "Poor" sc hav to finish the fries for her, which i think he is also quite delighted to. Went to KBox TPY at 2pm. Simin was very excited when we were notified of the room we r allocated to. I joked that Simin was soo excited bout "kai2 fang2". Hahaha. Lame. Sang quite many songs. Time really flies, i mean so fast and its left wif half an hours left. We still hav many songs unsung in the list. So we sing half and axe the song. The grand finale will be the singing of SHE's Super Star. Well, we dun actually sing the song. We screamed the song. Haha. Had dinner at the foodcourt above crystal jade with the departure of shuyi. After the dinner, we sent off the only 2 girls left. So we went looking around the shophouses of TPY central. Gab got his hp card or wadever nonsense from a M1 shop wif a rather weird shop attendent. Haha. Wont elaborate much on it. They went to look at comics and i juz followed. Well, i aint very interested in comics actually. I aint know nothing bout comics. Haha. Ed wants to drag time. So we drag time, as in going home later. So we went lookin around in popular n cd rama as though we hav all e time in e world. 9.15, took a train home. And dats all. Tml we going to orchard. Dunno la, i am juz too bored at home and i will grab any chances to get out of my cage, i mean my house. Haha. Happy holidayz.

Woah, did many things these few days. Lets talk bout yesterday first. Yesterday was the first day of PAE registeration. Accompanied by Edwin Zhihao & Gab, walked all e way to AJ to register JC. We dun really trust the internet thats why we dun register at home. But Alas, we are deceived. Its the same in JC. They juz let u use their com lab to register. Duhh.....Nvm. Got Sims 2. Finally !!!!!!!!!!!!!! Yesh. Finally, i got Sims 2. So spend the rest of the day and night downloading Sims 2 and familarising wif it. Woke up late today. Went online to finalize the pri sch gathering stuff wif yiyang n peow ee. Julia cant make it online. So....nvm. We decided to go bowling in the morning and movie in the afternoon. Cant wait for the gathering. Hope it can be successful unlike last yr where julia n meikuan were absent. Played Sims 2 for the rest of the day. Den at night by giv way to my sis. So i decidec to pack my room at night. Yesh, i cleared all the sec 3 sec 4 books n notes from my shelf, room, cupboard, table, wadever and squeezed them into a big box now temporary located outside at the living room. Well, my room is now BARE. Its sooooo bare that it feels clean. Give me a sense of satisfaction n accomplishment. 10pm, had my weekly dose of Survivor Vanuatu. This episode was damn shocking. I mean, the very vulnerable only guy standing in the game survived the girls. He was expected to go home under the strong alliance of the 6 women. And for some reason, they decided that big mouth eliza shd be out. And then chris formed an alliance wif scout n twala and of coz eliza to take advantage of her vulnerability and voted off the always-flying-under-the-radar leann. That was like, omg. Coz no one is expecting her to leave, so its a big shock. Finally the all-girls' alliance is broken. Woohooo. 3 cheers to chris, the only guy standing. The tide of the game is turned. Thats all today. If you dun understand wad i am toking bout this episode's survivor, den nvm.

Went back to school for PAE briefing today. Well, i expect the briefing to be more detailed and not soooo brief. Haha. So yes, i got my leaving cert which some believed is the testimonial but who cares, and i got PAE's Form A and i nothing else. Nope, haven received the year book that we paid for 4 bucks. Paid KS the money for 2E5 chalet and then went to Mac wif alvin, qiyang n amos. Didnt really do much today. Haha. Tml is JC 1st 3 months registration day. Sad. I haven churn out the list of 12 JCs that i wanna attend. I mean how the hell can you choose 12 that u are qualified for from only 17 JCs as compared to P6 when u have to choose 6 out of like 169 sec schs. So i guess i am having a tough time priortizing the JCs i want to attend and that fits the list. I am only confirmed wif my first choice of JC and thats Anderson JC, the rest......i dunno what to do wif them. Sigh. So these are the JCs i considered. They are: Anderson JC, National JC, Nanyang JC, Temasek JC, Victoria JC, St Andrew JC and 2 others which is not so much being prioritized: Serangoon & Catholic Dun really know how to rank them in the list, thats giving me the headache. Gonna make a trip down to AJ tml to submit form A. Hope i can get into AJ. I dunno, i may seem to be at a safe spot but things r unpredictable rite. DUnno. Duhhhh.....

Holidayz.....must spend it well rite. Plan to keep fit during this short holiday. Hope i am discipline enough to do so. Haha. So these r my plans: Jogging 3 times a week at the park next to my block. Play Table Tennis until my hands drop. No la. Kidding, Play bowling !!! I luv bowling. 100 Sit ups n push ups everyday. I dunno if i can accomplish them. But hope it works. Hope i can like improve my stamina n lose some weight during my holidaz.

ITS FINALLY OVER !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ARHHHHHHHHHHHHHH !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! OVER !!!!! OVER !!!!! OVER !!!!!! OVER !!!!!! Yesh, i am some kinda mad rite now. ITS FINALLY OVER !!!! OLEVELS IS OVER !!!!!!!!!! So happy. But hor, i am now at a loss, i dunno wad to do after olevel is over. Hahahahhaha. Gotta enjoy life. Gotta play, yesh, play like shit. Hahahhahahahahaha. I SURVIVED !!!!! I SURVIVED OLEVEL !!!!!!!! Ok, enough of this, better not carry on b4 the ambulance stuff from woodbridge start knocking on my door.

26 hours 15 minutes more to END OF O LEVELS !!!!!! So near........yet so far........... Arhhhhhh !!!!! Continue study chem liao ...... -_-!!!

Things I Want after O Levels: 1. CHALET !!!!!! 2E5 Chalet !!!! 4E2 Chalet !!!! Hougang Chalet !!!!1 <---- duh...... 2. K Box : Sing until peng sang (*peng sang = collaspe) 3. The Sims 2 : Popular sell at $54, so if i use my popular card membership, it will be $48.60 4. A Navy Blue Cap, preferably Nike or OP or Converse 5. L1R5 <> 6. New Handphone !!!! Nokia or SonyEricson 7. Movies !!!! Lotsa Movies ....watch wif my friends of coz 8. Outings & Gatherings !!!! Outing with bro 4 n sis 3, Outings wif my 2E5 buddies , Gathering wif DQPS P6/1 2000 Clique !!! Lotsa OUTINGS !!!! 9. Enter AJC in 2005 !!!! 10. A sweater wif a "rain cap"...dunno wad izzit call, u noe the those wore by Jay Chou and Slyvester during the SI Asian Pop night. 11. NEW TRACK SHOES !!!!! Nike !!!! 12. LOSE WEIGHT !!!! Hahaha. Mission Impossible 13. New Bermudas.....those that covered 3/4 of ya legs ya know. Hahaha. 14. New School Bag !!!! My current sch bag is torn and tattered and it has been "tortured" for 4 years. Sigh 15. New Hairstyle, new image, a brand new CMH !!! U know, those very cool very shuai image...Ya, Thats rite. (Does this means i need to go EXTREME MAKEOVER ??? Hahaha ) 16. erm....cant think of any liao, i will add on when i can think of somemore. In Conclusion, CMH is very very greedy and seems to want everything from the world. Haha. Someone save this deprived kid (me). Grant me my wishes. Hahahahah.

Finally !!!! Finally there will be a 2E5 chalet. All the credits must go to KS, thanks alot for booking the chalet and making it possible. So all ex-2E5rians, the chalet is from dec 15th to 17th, so see ya all there. I have start planning my holiday schedule. I mean its one more week and Olevel is over. However, as far as i want to enjoy the long-deserved holiday, i must not divert too much as i still have Olevels going on this week. So, i shall not be too carried away. Shall talk bout e holiday activities after Os.

Its finally a break from the hectic schedule of Olevels examination, or should I call it, bonus time to study for the remaining papers. 4 more papers to go (if Paper 1 n 2 r considered as 1 paper). 4 more and i am done wif it. Well, as the days progress, i find it harder to concentrate when i study for any papers. There seems to be a very very WRONG thought telling me that "hey, why study so hard. Olevels r suppose to be easy, juz giv it ur 80% and u will be fine". This thought has been pestering me for a very long time. However, if you know me well, i am someone who will put in 120% of hardwork in anything i do. Well, although my results dont show, i value the importance of the process of hardwork and not the fruit of labour. Well, seems noble of me to say that but thats what i personally believed. Imagine living life meaninglessly and aimlessly, everyday eat and sleep and do nothing, its terrible. At least you have something to study and do to keep you occupied, you may find it tiring, but at least you live your life with an aim or goal in mind. I often feel guity of myself when i take a nap in between the process of studying or sleep early in the night. I somehow develop a sense of guilt that i am not spending enough time on my studies and i ought to be more hardworking. This inevitable sense of guilt has revealed my incapability of putting loads down temporary and it is definitely detrimental to my psychological well-being. I am soooo miserable. Well, I am born a pessimistic, always looking at the bad sides of things. Although i may seems "optimistic" or "noisy" or "very out spoken" or "cheerful always wearing a smile" or wadever guy infront of u guys, I am actually a very pessimistic guy who shuns from the outer world when i am alone. I dunno which is my true self and which personalitiy is actually a mask i am wearing. Thats confusing. Perhaps i have what its called a dual personality.Guess me trying to act normal may seem to be perceiving and deceiving myself as well as the others. Well, i am a weird guy indeed.

Arh.......Bio Paper tml. Yesh, i hav been studying bio for the past 5 days trying to squeeze in every single crap of stuff into my brain but i guess these attempts are futile. Sigh. Haha. I wont say i gave out hope on bio but its a subj i feel i shd score for. Well, every subj is an opportunity to score, depending on whether i went to seize the opportunity anot. But i must not let myself down, must not let Mr Yeo down, must not let Mr Chua down. Yesh, therefore i conclude i will do all that is necessary to get that A1. Yeah rite......i am hopeless !!!!! Tml paper in the afternoon leh. First time having a full paper in the afternoon. Its like 2pm to 6pm? I scared i do half way fall asleep take afternoon nap leh. How ?!?!?!?!?! Haha. And this time slot applies to all the 3 Sci i am taking. Arh !!!! I cant stand afternoon paper !!!!. Why muz it be in the afternoon when i am so freaking tired and slackish (is there such a word?) and irritated and unfresh and restless and lazy and wadever. Yea, u all will think that i shd shut my mouth at this pt of time. Whose fault? Mine? Cambridge? Wadever. Bio...........think positive, actually. This will be my LAST bio paper in my life, perhaps. So, rejoice !!!! Yeah, how hypocritical.

Time seemed to have pass so quickly. Before i know it, 1/3 of the Olevel exam is over. Wont comment on how well i have done. For no reason, i produced some kinda class video wif the photos available in e class web. Haha. Quite lame. So wont talk about it. The 2E5 chalet would most probably be a failure. No one wants to book it. Sigh. Guess there wont be any 2E5 chalet this year and forever then.

SS IS FINALLY OVER !!!!!!!!!! ARHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! BURN SS !!!!!! Yeah ! Cool man. Social Studies is finally over and for the rest of my life I WONT HAVE TO TOUCH SS ANYMORE !!!!!!!!! I feel like burning all my notes but i feel that those are painfully written notes n shall be passed on to my sis. Haha. Cant bear to burn them. The paper was okay. Thanks to my Cath high friend, his teacher helped to spot topics and i follow according to his prediction. And POOF! All the 3 topics he spot and i studied came out !!!! Lucky rite. Haha. Gotta thank him. Quite afraid of my links coz if they r down, my whole paper is down. Sigh. Gotta pray. Anyway, i dun care if i fail or wad, SS is finally out of my Life. So its worth celebrating, at least for this once. So its down to all e other papers that shd be easier to study as compared to SS. I dun like memorizing work. I hate memorizing. And SS is about memorizing. So i dun think i will be taking Humanities anymore in JC. I prefer thinking subjects. Haha. So gotta work hard for e other papers n hopefully u all can see my on stage next yr. Haha. Jokin. But if i am given e priviledge n chance to, i wont hesistate to accept it. So gd luck guys.

I am sooooo SICK. Yeah rite, my immunity is weak (not survivor's immunity), but yeah, u can guess it correctly, I fell sick again. Dunno why everytime b4 exam muz fall sick one. Slog too hard? I dare not admit so coz i noe there are even more "sick" pple out there who slot even harder. Didn have appetite to eat today. Also didn have the mood to study. Finish the last amaths paper available - Cedar Girls. Did phys and juz study 2 shou ce full of chi words. Didn touch SS today. Sigh. What a waste of time, i mean i didn spend the expected amt of time studying. Good luck for my Os den. Didn manage to buy Yanzi 's album. Coz i dun hav a chance to leave my hse or go to any nearby CD rama to grab one. Sad. I will get one tml. I hope. Arh.....Sat nite. Sat nite !!! Nvm, juz ignore me, i am going crazy. Actually i am quite worry that i do not hav enough amaths paper to practice. COZ I DID ALL ALREADY !!! Gotta build up e momentum. Yes, thats rite. Momemtum. Study that in JC phys and u noe wad i am toking about. Haha. Cant imagine that, i dreamt of amaths this afternoon when i had my afternoon nap after taking hy medicine. Dreamt of humans last nite. Wonder what will i dream of tonite? The answer for all subjects for Olevels? Hahaa. I hope so. When i woke up, i juz suddenly remember last yr when i was taking my chinese olevel. I actually dreamt of chinese words scrolling past my sight one by one. Thats....weird? a nitemare? I dunno. Its like u study until u go crazy. What am i toking? I am crazy. Yeah? Of coz, the mentally disabled nightangel. Freako~ -_-"

Practs are over, now comes the theory paper. Slot for the whole week on SS that i almost neglected the other subjects. I dunno why, but i feel that SS is damn impt for me to focus on. I am currently studying unconvectional topics that others will not , are reluctant to, and choose not to study. I dunno, this is my strategy. Who knows i may guess it correct this time round. Also did maths everyday. A maths paper a day keeps the F9 away. Haha. Lame saying but anyway, hey, i am consistanting practising Amaths, so hope i can really achieve the A1 i longed for my 2 years of upp sec education. O Level seems to be...fun, i guess. I dunno, i feel the stress but also the joy of the mugging process. It is even better when u find ur paper easier than you expect. However, i cannot sit there are wait for my A1s to come rite, i need to search for them. Yeah rite, in a desperate search for happiness. Thats it. Stupid compo topic, wad nonsense. I am writing my arguementative n expository anyway. So where am i, yes, THE AMAZING RACE 6 IS COMING !!! And its after Olevel. Nov 16 or 17, i guess. Or at least it clash wif the last paper. How sweet. Gotta buy Yanzi's new album today. Publish today leh. Nice rite. Muz buy okay. Yanzi rocks !!!

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Today's Bio Pract is damnnnnnn....Different. I mean, the first thing we went in, i saw a stupid prawn lying on my bench and i was like...too shock for words. After the shock, i juz kept on laughing, so were the other candidates. Is like, we r expecting some fruits or vegetables to come out but what came out is a prawn. My first thought was "Oh Shit ! How the hell am i gonna label n disect this stupid prawn!" Well, things werent so bad. We r juz required to draw the actual prawn and its tail. No need labeling. Thankgoodness. I find myself drawing some portray or something. I mean, my drawing look quite real, but i dunno if thats what the examiners want. Further more, i may miss out some details which the examiners are looking out for. Had to test for urine n stuff somemore. Yucks, dirty my hand. Haha. I should have cooked some urine prawn soup or grill the prawn on the bunsen burner or something. But anything, the pract is quite easy. Hope i can score well.

Visited SAJC open hse today with e accompany of YY & James. Coincedentally, met Niece, Mother, Jeslin & Qinqi at Harbourfront and all of us decided to go together. Further met Sharon, Geraldine, Rox & company in SA. I wasnt really interested in SA, just go for e sake of free gift. Hahhaa. How cheap skate. Then saw Jiajun & Eric, Zhenhao Spikey & company , denise & her bf, sandy n her bf, junio n trisha, etc over there at SAJC. Didn really know that SA was so popular among zhonghuarians, or perhaps, their last resort if they cant enter their dream JC. One word to describe their sch --- creepy. Its like located on one side of the hill where some buildings r high up, some are way bottom and all buildings r so old. Departed with an extra member of company --- eric. So yy, james, me n him went to harbourfront fc for lunch. Met up with Matt & KS and went to the shopping ctr for "another" round of lunch when we met Sha AGAIN. I met her 6 times today le. 5 times in SA, one time in hahourfront. How "fated". Had a chat with matt, sha n ks , etc over their choice JC. Feel that everyone is going different way. However, i dunno y but i suddenly feel the same "2E5" homeliness feeling again which i nv felt b4 for 2 years......Even though i met matt they all very frequently in sch, i nv stop down to talk to them or something. This event just suddenly remind me that i am once from 2E5 , sharing a common background as them. As we took a train home, the 5 of us boys some kinda "played" in e train or something, for e 2nd time it reminds me of my identity. Guess i really cant forget those wonderful days i had in 2E5. I really hope e chalet will be a success (even though it may seems not...sandy...plz do something....u promise karin to be incharge of it...i havent heard news yet...hahaha). Went back home and called a pri sch classmate to discuss on tips given by our respective teachers on various subjects. Kinda tok for quite a long time. Are all these events trying to remind me of my past identity? My past identity as a DQPS P6-1 student? My past identity as a 2E5rian ? It all seems to come to me after grad day.......i hav a mix n jumbled feelings towards it.........

Graduation day today. Things are getting emotional and high. I mean, time flies, four years have passed just like that such that I didn even notice it coming when suddenly i felt that its all over. Perhaps i should learn to cherish these 4 years more but things have became history. The Ceremony was like...speechless. I mean we gotta walk the red carpet after 4 years with juniors saluting to us, it feels weird. Den gotta see some slide preview and hear pple talk "crap". Everytimes it got something to do wif our class, we juz cheer. I doubt we are mature enough for our age, but at least this is something good. The post ceremony was very more high. Pple taking photos like no body's business and in my class, a rape team was formed to rape pple. Haha. The current victims are weijie, kelvin n kenneh. Well, oso engaged in photo takings but i think its not the last time we are gonna see each other right? I mean we still hav to see each other for another half a month during Olevels. But i really appreciated that. Gotta thanks alot of teachers for their guidiance. Now i shall use this entry to thank everyone of them. Firstly, lower sec, gotta thank my 1E5 science teacher for half a year but was promoted to be a VP, Ms Tan Wee Lim. Gotta thank maths teacher Ms Leow for putting alot of faith in me for being a consistant performer. Gotta thank Mr Ong who took over ms tan and eventually become our form teacher in sec 2E5 and my chem teacher in 3E2. Although i didn perform well for chem in sec 3, but i hav proved my passion for chem by topping 4e2 chem (together wif huifang) in prelims, thanks , really. This also proves that 2E5 students are achievers and its all your effort, mr ong. Gotta thank specially Mr Ducro, my lower sec hist teacher and oso form teacher for sec 1 semester 2. You are e best hist teacher and 2E5 will remember u always. Gotta thank Mr Leong, my 2E5 maths teacher. We will always remember you as a gd maths teacher , not forgetting ur "french kiss" and ur "service" to harry. Gotta thank Mr Heah, my sec 1 geo teacher and sec 2 english teacher, Ms Chan, my sec 2 geo teacher , sec 3 Comb Humans teacher and Sec 4 SS teacher.Thanks for believing in me , thanks for making me ur SS rep and thanks for ur guidiance for humanities. Gotta thank Mrs Raj, my lower sec Lit teacher. You are a great lit teacher. I remember the days when u read the whole Outsider and Hse of 60 Father book in class even though sometimes ur throat is in bad conditions. Thanks for tollerating wif our class's nonsense and oso its hard on u to tollerate our peers in 2e1's nonsense. Upper Sec teachers wise, gotta thank, firstly Zhang Lao Shi for being my HCL teacher for 4 years from sec 1 till i graduate. Mrs. Lum, sec 3 rowling eng teacher. Even though u "pao qi" us in sec 4, but rowling will always remember you as a great eng teacher. Gotta thank Mrs Singh, my sec 1 English teacher and eventually fate make you us rowling's Sec 4 English teacher. Mrs Ramana, sec 3 phys teacher...i hav failed to top my class phys, so very sorry bout that. One of my fave's teacher, MR CHUA WEE PENG !!!! You are THE BEST BIO TEACHER IN E WHOLE WORLD AND 4E2 MISS U ALOT. Oso gotta thank Mr John Yeo for taking over Bio in sec 4 and ur efforts n passion will be very much appreciated. Gotta thank Mrs Elim , sec 4 phys teacher, thanks for tollerating our incapability for e subj but we promise to deliver u gd results and we really APPRECIATE ur efforts. Gotta thank Ms Yam, sec 4 Chem teacher, your passion helped me regain hope and faith for chemistry. Its partially bcoz of u i can top 4e2 in chemistry, Thanks alot. Mr WONG !!! You are next. Thanks for ur passion and ur "love" for 4E2. Being the unofficial Co-form of 4E2, it shd be very hard on u but we really appreciate ur efforts. I remember e day when i fail my first emaths test, fail my second, and so on bcoz of the transaction from sec 2 to 3. Thanks for helping me regain back my Aces for maths. I promise to strive for double A1s for maths. Gotta thank THE ROCK MR ANG !!!!! Wooohoooo. 4E2 is really fortunate to hav u as our form teacher. Although u dun teach me, but i can really tell that u r a gd form tee and 4e2 will always remember u. 3 cheers for mr ang !!!! Gotta thank Mrs Wong Chek Siew, our sec 4 geo elect teacher. You took over us from ms chan in sec 4 and u converted 4E2's phobia for geo to passion n love for geo. Thank you very much. Thanks for making me ur geo rep and believeing in my capability in e subj. I guess its about it. Of coz there are more teachers teaching some "less impt subjects" but you all are oso as great. I apologize if i miss out any teachers out there but you will still get my appreciation for your hardwork and guidiance. Once again, THANKYOU TEACHERS !!!

O Level chem pract today sux. I was totally taken aback by my titration reading. Me & my classmates have extra high readings as compared to my friends from other schools. (I checked with them the readings in the afternoon) This cause me to be unable to think well for the planning of an experiment. QA was okay. I did some parts without even conducting any experiment. So all i can do now is to pray hard that my QA is okay and study hard for theory. Graduation day tomorrow. How sad, it is actually the last day of my secondary school life. I don't know whether to feel happy or sad or being emotional but i really admire my friends and i for being able to ensure the 4 years of "hardship". Haha. But undeniedably speaking, there are really alot of fond memories left behind. So i guess its time to say goodbye. Its fated that we are once classmates (even if u dun like it), but i guess we shd cherish these fate. Of coz, we shd oso not forget our teachers for their guidiance and support all these years. We promise to deliver good results during Olevels as a tribute to ur harkwork.

It was realy an "Open House Weekend" I can call it. I mean i visited quite a few open houses in just a span of 2 days. Well, I am really impressed by some but some just totally freak me off. Lets start from yesterday - 15th Oct 2004 Fri. Edwin, Gab, SC & I embarked on our Open House Trip when we started off by heading to the nearest Nanyang JC. Its of the closest proximity to our school and I guess I can make my way there real fast. First impression counts. Well, the school don't really gave us a good impression. We were at the back gate hesistating to enter when we saw 2 students of that school approaching. They are entering via the gate as well. However, instead of stopping and asking if we need help, they ignored us as though we were not present and just walk straight in leaving us all in awe. I don't really generalise that all students of NYJ are liddat as its really unfair if I do so. However, thats the first impression they gave me and i guess it is going to cause me to deduct alot of my own impression marks on that JC. As we explored the "half done" compound which is under renovation, I feel that the environment is just not condusive enough for me to study there. I mean the building is small, the colours are dull humid yellow and it just irritates me, making me feel very uncomfortable. Headed off to Temasek JC with the company of Cecelia , Celia & one other friend of theirs as the 7 of us sped over by bus hoping to make it in time before the event ended. I used to have this impression that TJC is a very stressful school. However, this visit proves otherwise. In fact, they are just fun loving and warm students who are so ever lively. This adds alot of impression marks on that school. We happened to bumped into this senior of edwin call lynette who volunteered to bring us around the whole school. Thats really nice of her. Temasek JC is real damn big. Its like a giant maze or something. We toured the Sports area where we stopped to patronize air rifling & table tennis , etc. We also went to see their tutorial room, band room, etc. The stadium is just so big and grand. I mean i like the school. But Lynette also revealed that the students there arent as good as we seemed. I dont know. No comments on that. Perhaps the open house is just a superficial "put-up". We lost SC in our tour which cause us to become frantic over his abscence. We searched for him all around the school but our attempts are futile. The open house also ended and we happened to witness the lively students being reduced to fearful "slaves" by the teacher in charge as she barked instructions for them to clear up the area. Guess i really saw the true colours behind open houses. 16th Oct 2004. Today. Well, we have lesson in the morning till 11am which deprives us alot of time for visiting. We visited Anderson JC open house immediately after school. My first impression as i stepped into the school was that "this is gonna be a boring n stressful school". The students in the folyer reception are so stern and serious. I am quite worried about myself at that point if i enter AJ. However, things proves otherwise as we bounced into familiar faces of our ZHSS ex students (seniors) and oso some friendly students who stop by and talk to us, ask us our choice for JC, tell us more about AJ, offer to bring us to view the exhibitions, etc. Well, at least the school isn't that cold anyway. I guess i will most probably be settling into AJ. We departed quite late from AJ, in compliments to some dragging of time. We took a train to Paya Lebar and had a frantic chase for bus to send us to Victoria JC. We are afraid that the open house might end as it was already 2.00pm then. We made it in time as we stepped into the gigantic school compound. The open house , i can say, is well planned. It is being made so fun loving and lively with the theme as "beach" partially due to tha fact that its located next to East Coast Park. Infact, the school itself just resembles part of the park. Haha. Its so big i tell ya. Very big. I guess its slightly bigger or comparable to the size of TJC. Just that TJC buildings are mostly flat (2 storeys) while VJ is taller. I saw many good looking guys n gals in VJ and i just could not scientifically prove it why this is so...perhaps its next to a famous beach? Haha. The girls n the guys over there are just gorgeous looking. Its like everyone is qualified for Man hunt and Miss S'pore. Anyway, had free icecream over there when we met Simin Shuyi & Aileen strolling in later than us. Guess we are not the only ZHSS over there and thus wont be alieniated. However, something bout the sch is, the students may seem to be gd looking but they are not friendly. They only mingle amongst themselves and not attend to visitors. Then i guess you wont call it an open house. No one came to us and offer to bring us around the school. No one even acknowledged our presence. Thats very sad. Utterly disapointed. Deduct alot of impression points for it le. Left that school quite a short while after we entered. Had a long walk to Parkway with Edwin & Gab. Had lunch over there and just spend the next few moments shopping around. I happen to spot Channel U's 1st runner up Agnes Wong over there. Thats Gab's idol. And when i mentioned it to Gab n Edwin, Gab reacted like as though....nvm. We also saw Ms Lam and her BF over there shopping. Well, the moment she spotted us, she tugged her bf into a bag shop to dodge us. Sigh...why are teachers so shy. We arent her student anyway. Had a long bus trip back home to AMK where i slept on the bus. Guess i was too tired. Had late nights due to studying n mugging for Olevels. Haha. So thats all. GUess its quite late where i need my slp now. I am totally deprived of rest.

I am always robbed of time to blog. Esp at this period of time when everyone was striving for the Os. Felt abit guilty of myself for still able to blog right now. Perhaps i should be in my room doing more other school papers, perhaps i should be browsing through or memorizing my guide books. I don't know. Edwin said this is a side effect of studying too much for prelims. I don't know. I mean i still force myself to study but i just don't feel the motivation anymore. Is this the end of me? Is the roller coaster i am sitting going down slope already? I had my haircut today. I hope this would make me fresher to study. I mean leaving those long hair is quite cool but I feel better with short hair. I started to attempt other school prelim papers instead of studying guidebooks. I felt that its pointless to flip open the textbook one more time and go through the same process i went through before in the past for at least 5 times. I believe its time i build on my current knowledge and exercise it by doing more questions. I dunno if i am doing the right time. It may serve as a double edged sword. It may just ruin me. I dunno. There will be lotsa JC open houses this coming week and i am totally excited. I mean its really nice to visit various JCs and experience their school spirit and atmosphere for the few moments when i stepped into them. However, i feel that these spirit and atmosphere "fabricated" during open houses are superficial. I mean you definitely want to put out the best to display to the public, allowing the outsiders to know how good and terrific your school is. But the fact is, when all is over and the gates closed with their own students behind the gates, are things going to be the same? I doubted it. Sigh. I guess its all about reality. In reality, nothing is perfect or as good as it seems. I may be abit pessimistic by saying this, but who knows this may be the fact. Its late up Sat night right now. So lonely. I guess i need to plan on my "socializing" project once i enter JC. I am a total Loner right now.

Wonder why i am blogging at this point of time today. But i gotta say, the weather today is terrific.Sunny but not very burning hot. I dunno but the bright sunny day brightens and lifted my spirit, making me more happy n fresh to study today. Its bright sunny out there and the green leaves of the plants reflecting the light of the blazing sun. I mean, it juz reminds me of summer time. Too bad i cant go to the beach. Coz its such a waste, such weather shd be spent on the beach doing u-noe-wad. So...i guess its such a waste. Its very seldom the weather is so gd. I mean often, the mornings r sunny n in the afternoon, it became gloomy or raining. Worst still sometimes, morning to night weather gloomy. It juz dampens my spirits lar. So.....i hope the weather for the coming days or months or even during the dec holiday is as gd as today!

Prelims results out and i can consider myself fairing moderately. I wouldnt say i did well coz i dont find having a L1R5 of 10 being remarkable. There are alot of pple getting single digit L1R5 in E1 n E7. However there are also some unfortunate souls who score very high L1R5. So, what can i say? Reminds me of the chinese saying "Bi3 Shang4 Bu4 Zu2 , Bi3 Xia4 You3 Yu2". I am quite surprise for my A Maths. I am expecting B3 n B4 but i got an A2. Guess i am just lucky. I am totally disapointed with my physics. Its a dreadful B4. Its worse than the minimum grade to study Physics in JC, which is a B3. Which means i cant study my fave phys in JC unless the teachers are kind to moderate it to a B3. So i can only pray hard now. Now that my L1R5 is revealed and i can secured my 1st 3 months in an at least "okay" JC, now i can concentrate 100% in my Olevel le. I had a headache in which JC i should go. Seriously, i intend to go NJ , but den i am inspired by VJ's principal in her talk to us sec 4 students and i change my target to VJ. Now, to suit my parents' wish and for my own convenience, most importantly to play safe, i considered AJ. Wad a headache. I dunno where to spend my first 3 months. All my friends wanna go VJ, but VJ is quite far and the travelling journey is like 1 and half hour. My school top students like hongyi n huifang want to go AJ, which provides me with alot of competition. I am totally clueless. Perhaps you all can enlighten me on which JC i should go, or which JC suit me better.

It has been decades ever since i last blogged. What should I discussed about? Prelims ? No, i shouldnt mention about such an disapointing issue at this point of the time. Yes, its a wonderful night right now. The vast dark skies decorated with glimmering and dazzling stars in random positions and a near-to-round moon hanging at a corner, seeming to be admiring the beautiful night scene from her own perspective. It is indeed the right time for screaming souls to be calmed, stressful lives to be pacified. I am just mesmerised by this single moment. The soul-calming effect is coupled by a lazy, yet full of attitude tune of jazz music played by the radio (I am listening to UFM 1003 right now), which enlightens my inner spirit, teaching me what "life" is. Anyway, back to reality. If you think that i am crazy or insane to write the above.....i doubt that i am normal too. So, I shall discuss of a recent show shown on TV which I am a fan off. Yes, if you all know me well, it is hard to guess it wrongly what i am refering to now. I will be sharing my opinion on the new Survivor Vanuatu aired every friday night 10pm on channel 5. For those who dislike survivor, please don't shun this as it may change your pespective towards the show of Survivor. Survivor has been marking into its 9th season and in this season, the show brings us to the world of cannibalism, the world where the deads are believed to have control over the living, the world that black magics and spirits are belived to exist, the world where terrific volcanoes bursting ashes and magma out of its gigantic mouth, like blood gushing out of someone's mouth (ok, i am sick). Haha. Indeed, the natives of the island indeed have rich cultures dating up to milleniums ago, practicing witchcraft, black magic, carnibalism and most importantly...sexism. (I wonder if there is such a word). This is where 18 castaways settled , the place they call home, the place they face the cruelty of reality and human relationship politics, toughest challenge of man vs nature, etc. You can call me a sadist, that i love to watch backstabbing, throat cutting and alliance forming among the castaways. But this is the really the case in our real life. People around us come in different "shape and sizes", they have different motives, different characters, different behaviours. And all of us are actually fighting in society for a better life. However, the fact states that the path to a better life is definitely not straight. There are alot of hindrances and obstructions.Physical obstructions are easy to clear, but the hardest will undeniedably come from us human. Hence, human relationship is very important in our way to success. The people around us may want to get rid of us, they may make use of us in aiding them achieveing their success, they may be a helping hand and a stepping stone for you to reach out for success. Hence, the saying "No man is an island" applies. You cannot attain success without the help of others, neither can you easily eliminate all the people around you with ulterior motives or those who are trying to eliminate you. Everyone is fighting in society. Hence Darwin's theory of Natural Selection applies too. It states that the weaker ones will be eliminated by nature, while the stronger ones survive. Yes, when i am talking about nature, i am refering to our society. Its our "nature". Its made up of different kinds of people, including us, hence the question of whether we will survive or not depends on how strong we are. This is reflected in Survivor. Some of you all may be opposing my next view. But i find it crucial for our survival in the society. Friendships. Friendships are important but always be on the lookout for any potential case of backstabbing. You never know when your friends can stab you in your back. Survivor is a game of trust. So is the real game all of us are playing in the society. Its on how far you can trust your friends and partners or alliances in the game. I am not trying to put across the idea of staying on guard against your friends but sometimes you never know. This is when trust comes important. Okay, let me put it this way, friends will never harm you, friends are for life, but you may never know for your partners or classmates or people whom you work with. Its politics. So, if you are evil enough, try stabbing your friends in their back. I am totally against this. If you are trying to gain some small benefits but using your friendships as an exchange, i find it worthless. This happens alot of times in Survivor. Well, you think i may be talking nonsense or irrelevant stuffs abour survivor. But the show reflects these facts about life. This is what i can see from the show. Be this a warning or some nonsensical joke, i dunno. But my final appeal is....WATCH SURVIVOR VANUATU AND YOU WILL UNDERSTAND.