Cut my hair today. Really sad. How i wish i do not need to cut my hair, its tough job keeping them so long. Hahahaha. Lame. Ok, cut my hair today, so one task down, 2 to go. Tml is new years' eve. Not going for any countdown, plan to stay at home and watch TV. Anyway, received news from some friends who enters AJ that they are being called and told what to bring, what time to report, whats their orientation grp and stuff.....AND NO ONE CALLED ME !!! Sob...Perhaps someone did call me. I recalled sleeping soundly this morning and the phone rang at around 10+, but i'm juz tooo lazy to wake up and pick it up. Hmmmm.....wont be so qiao3 ba !!! Anyway, get some info from my friends, they r as follows: 1. Bring 25 bucks 2. Wear full sch uniform 3. Report at 7am in the hall 4. Bring a set of PE attire 5. Bring writing materials 6. Bring whistle and water bottle..... Ok, rather essential information but i still dunno which grp i'm in. Hope i am not in the same orientation grp as that person. PRAY HARD !!! HELL NOT !!!!! Waiting for the phone to ring.....ring.....ring......sianz.....

Sch is reopening soon......theres still alot of things left undone. Sigh. Hope i can squeeze out some time in this few days left to complete them. First, i needa cut my hair. As much as i would like my hair to be of this length (rather long after being left uncut for 4 months) , i still need to cut my hair to present a "presentable" appearance in my new sch next yr. Darn. Second, i need to renew my Popular Card. My membership card has expired for weeks. Need to renew my membership coz i forsee that i hav alot to buy in the new sch term. Third, i need to restock my stationaries. If not i'm juz gonna use my blood for writing then. Haha. Well, there r oso some other trivial stuffs that need to be attended. How i wish holidayz will be longer. Haha. Countdown to a new sch term in a new sch wif a new environment : 5 days left !!!

Juz came back from KBox session wif Gab Edwin & SC. Well, this is the session wif the lowest attendence rate and we r totally fine wif it. Or shd i say, we are very glad to keep the numbers low. By having only the 4 of us, we can sing more songs, i guess. Started the trip to kbox wif a fustrating bus ride, or shd i sae, a fustrating bus waiting incident. Bcoz its raining, and i'm juz too lazy to carry an umbrella along, i decided to take a feedle bus to AMK Central, which is just a 5 to 10 minutes walk from my home. To my dismay, the bus just dont turn up and i hav to wait for 20 minutes b4 i sae e bus approaching from the opposite direction. Damn it. The bus still needs to make a turn kilometeres down the road where the bus only arrived at my busstop 15 minutes later after i saw it. So its a damn long waiting period for the bloody bus to come. It is really fustrating to wait for a bus in a busstop for so long, the fact that i was going to be late and that its raining cats and dogs outside (which makes me unable to "detour") aggrevated and excerbated the situation of the bus waiting incident. Ok, enough of bus waiting, took 265 to AMK central where i change bus to 159 and sit all the way to TPY bus interchange. I was late and i really feel bad about being late. Punctuality is an important value that we must uphold. Had lunch at KFC where we met Wang Lu and Lao Lai. They just watched KungFu Hustle which i'm totally not interested in, but nvm. Went to KBOX straight ahead. Sang alot of songs. Had my fair share of singing too. Well, dats the advantage of having lesser number of people attending . We r oso able to sing many songs that we hav no chance of singing b4 in e past, coz now, we hav ample time. There was once when we sang until we hav no voice. This excerbate my singing for the next few songs, esp my cheng3 ming3 qu3 : Ling Cheng San Dian Zhong. Haha. Cant reach the high parts which i usually able to reach in the past. So can really tell how bad our voicebox r at that time. There r oso funny moments when we either change our voices to make them sounds funny. Gab did his expert "act-cute" voice which is so hilarious. I did some "old singers' " voices and so on. Its funny, i would say. We also sang China Doll's Dan Yan Pi Nu Sheng (Single Eye Lid Girl) which reminds us of an examiner during Olevels whom we call her Chinadoll for her "close" resemblence. Haha. Its funny. And we sang Tata Young's "Sexy Naughty Bitchy Me" which reminds us of ms chan's performance during youth day. During the song, we emphasised on the word "Bitchy" thruout e whole song. Haha. Very funny. The grand finale consists of 2 Shin Yue Tuan Song: tian gao di hou and One Night in Beijing as well as a SHE song Superstar. Very fun. Had dinner at the foodcourt above Crystal Jade where i ordered dumpling noodles. I spotted a familar face infront of the queue. Seems like OJM (my pri sch classmate) to me but i'm not very sure if he really is. He didn seem to recognize me and i doubt his identity. So i decided not to say hi juz incase he is really not OJM. So the atmosphere is really strange as in it fits a song by elva hsiao - zui shu xi de mo sheng ren (the most familiar stranger). Perhaps even if he is OJM, i think he oso feels e same as me as in he is not sure if i'm cmh, esp when i had my glasses on (i dont wear glasses in pri sch). Dunno. Hmmm.... Gab Edwin & SC decided to watch late night movie KungFu Hustle after dinner. They bought their tickets but i'm not joining them. So they accompanied me to Popular Bookstore where i went to get the membership card application form. My membership card expired for like weeks and i dun wan to renew it coz of a stupid reason - i'm not sure about which jc i'm ultimately landing in. Ok, took a bus home where they proceed on to watch their movies. Days left b4 sch opening. Excited yet disapointed. Cant wait to meet old friends and new friends in AJC but disapointed coz holidayz is ending. Sigh......

What a disaster. Really feel sad for the victims of the Sumatra earthquake and tidal waves that hit South and South East Asia. I've learnt about the greatness of mother nature. Man has always tried to outdo nature. However, this nature disaster has proven man wrong. Man's power is indeed meagre as compared to nature. Lets all pray for them, for a better tomorrow, i guess.

Juz came back from 4E2 chalet. Well, i went there at about 12noon together wif simin. So when we arrived at the chalet, everyone was just so slackish (if theres such a word). Well, guess they do not hav enough slp. Didn know wad to do, well, i was juz bored and juz start talking crap (my hobby. Hahaha). Half an hour after i arrived, Cecelia and June wanna go play pool. So i joint them. Well, as usual, my starting game wasnt very desirable. Totally horrendous. Went back to chalet after pool where i played Uno wif Ken-neh, Ed, Gab & June. There is this "strategy planning" going on in this game such that no one can win. The moment someone's deck starts to get "dangerously" less, the other 4 will pump him/her wif "+2" or "+4" cards. So its a game without a winner and a game without an end. June quit the game out of fustration. So its down to e 4 of us guys. Well, i am juz smart enough to plan my own strategy. I had 4 cards of similar number 0 but of the 4 different colours prepared, ready to game. So i threw my last +4 card when everyone had threw all their +2 or +4 cards. Someone hav to draw cards obviously. The other 3 players didn expect my 4 different colours "zero" deck. So edwin had a blue reverse on me and i juz throw out all my remaining zero decks thus winning the game. Everyone was shock and started "kao-peh-ing". Well, being happy, i walked away wif them continue making noise. Smart rite. Hahaha. Went to play pool again, this time wif jinglun brandon cecelia and kelvin. I can say i improved as compared to the earlier game. But i eventually lose as i helped my opponent hit in THREE of their balls. Damn it. That was totally.......dreadful. Went back to chalet at about 6+ after the game. The BBQ is gonna start in minutes. Bro 4 went down to set fire while i sat down and slack. Soon, Jiajun, Spike & Roy came back from Wild Wild Wet half naked wif their broadshorts on only. And i somehow can sense the girls' eyes all focusing on them, esp Jiajun. Hmmmmm.....Wadever. Haha. Didnt really participate much in e BBQ. I spend most of my time in e chalet slacking. Didnt really eat much from e BBQ. Or shd i say, didn even eat at all. Thanks to Bro 4 who garenteed gd food for bbq and i juz cant imagine e "concortion" of food available . Nvm. 9pm, called my father to fetch me home. The teachers haven arrive yet. Wadever la, i'm not gonna wait for them rite, gotta rush home to watch Amazing Race. Being hungry, i decided to da bao KFC b4 going home. Well, talking about da-baoing kfc, my blood starts to boil. There is this 2 or 3 middle age aunties infront of me, ordering quite a portion (alot) of food. And this auntie starts requesting for more this more that. Den she started requesting things like "ooo...i want this piece brest meat, this piece drumstick, this piece crispy this piece original......" F**k u lah. Bloody troublesome u. And wads more, after all her food arrived, she starts ordering again when her family members or wadever start running out ONE BY ONE to giv extra order. I was like "Oh FUCK OFF LAH ! Cant u see there is a long queue behind u and u r taking ur time ordering your crap.....*(^*&^&$#^()(" I waited for like half an hour and when she finally finish her order (thank goodness) and wanted to pay. She starts searching her wallet searching coins ...and get this clear COIN BY COIN. I PENG LIAO LA !!!!! I feel like kicking her ASS. Ok, thanks to her partially i got pissed off. The cashier guy oso got part to play. HE IS DAMNNNNNN INEFFICIENT !!!!! I will sack him long ago if i'm e boss. He was like picking juz now's zha bo's chicken slowly and lazily and i feel like shouting some profanities at him. Nvm. Blood boil. Qi Kek. Dun wish to talk anymore about this freaking blood-boiling incident. Ate my dinner in my father's car. Juz nice reach home everything finish eating le. Haha. Quickly bathed and tuned in to watch Amazing race. Dats all. Haha. Boring day. Sigh. I was actually hesistating whether to go chalet anot this morning but i finally made up my mind to go coz i paid alreadi anyway. Haha. Ok, stop here. Nitez.....

Ahhhh......wad a wonderful day today. Nice weather, consider it being the evening alreadi, still see e blue sky and e sun shining from the west. Ok, lets get to today's events. Had badminton cum table tennis session wif my pri sch classmates FPE & YY today. Well, my performance for badminton sux big time, so wont mention much about it. Then we went to play table tennis. Well, as we played table tennis, we some kinda talk about. We talked about who go where (jc posting), subject combinations and our sec sch life. Talked alot as we were in the game. Very hard to withdraw myself from the talk. So its like, we talk and we play and even though the focus is not on e ball, i find the game easier to play as the ball juz came to and fro as we talk. So the game become very smooth, unlike when we didn hav any conversation, the ball juz went out of control. haha. Weird. Say gd-bye and i went home. On my way home, i start to "appreciate and enjoy" the surrounding environment and find it to possess intense "beauty". Coupled with the effect of the breeze and the not-so-hot sunshine, this place looks like spring man. Tml is 4E2 chalet. I think i wont be going for the first day, unless i am too bored at home. I wont be staying overnight, coz i dun wanna sqeeze wif so many pple in one small room (unlike 2e5 chalet where the most we hav 12 boys sharing one room.....erm...make it 11 coz harry will be sleepin at e balcony. hahahahahaha). Kinda tired of chalet after my very HIONG2 enjoyment during 2e5 chalet last week. Haha. The most juz go there show my face, play some pool, some bowling, some arcade, den bbq eat a few satay and bye bye, cya next yr, if not dun ever c u again (as u all will wish). Haha. Alreadi expect some scenarios dat will take place during 4e2 chalet. I'm trying to avoid these scenarios. Hope they wont bcom toooo Hiong2. Den it would be disastrous. Haha. Ok la, let me enjoy e remaining evening weather. Byeeeeeee.....

Okiezzz....i am free to blog about chalet now. So lets start. Chalet was fun. I always luv this class. Well, although not many attended, we still enjoy this short but memoriable 3 days. Day 1: Met qiyang and my 2 grandnieces huining & siying at AMK MRT at 1pm. Took a bus to Downtown East together. The bus damn slow, resulting in us being late. Checked in wif sam, james , xm & yy. KS, leslie, SC, jas, mother hong, jiayi and niece ru alreadi at the chalet. Had my lunch cum breakfast at 3pm at the BK. Ordered a set bu ended up having all my french fries eaten up by others. Haha. Went bowling wif siying, huining, mother hong & ruqing. I can say that my bowling skills sux too much le. Well, didn really bowled a gd game but still enjoy it. Went to play pools after that, den arcade when i started to get addicted to this car racing game. Hehe. Didn had dinner coz i had late lunch. Went back to chalet when we started to slack. Had my weekly dose of amazing race in e chalet at 10pm. Jas went home. Den we go arcade again when i continue to play e car racing game. 2 idiotic bengsters challenged us. Bloody morons sissy gays. So we sent out our 2 best racers sam n james to trash them. Well, we eventually did and they juz became sore losers. Sissy gays, go home and wipe ur ass and wear pampers la. Hahaha. Went back to chalet at around 1am when we watched Scary Movie 3 & Dodgeball. Scary Movie 3 is hilarious. Suitable for sadistic bastards like we who laughed my heads off at e show. Day 2: Woke up rather early. Didn get enough sleep but i am juz not tired. Had breakfast wif e girls n james, sam n qiyang at macdonalds. Went cycling at Pasir Ris Park when e sky started to rain. Freak. Bobian, returned back to chalet wif our bikes which r non refundable. That stupid bike rental guy juz dun wanna refund us comparing e situation to buying clothes n underwear. Didn hav lunch coz i dun feel hungry. Den, went to play pools again wif siying, mother hong, ruqing and huining. I dunno how many times i played pool during chalet. I think i lost count. Went back to chalet at around 4 when pple like joyce leeting celes karin n alesia arrived. Well, the 4E7 pple r attending their classmate's bdae party. Eventually, after their departure, only me sam siying mother hong huining ruqing qiyang n sc r left in e chalet. Played mahjong wif e girls while sc had his beauty slept and sam playing ps. Played many rounds. Rounds after rounds, it seems to hav nv ended. According to them, the way i played mahjong was "scary". Well, i am juz too aggresive, cant blame me rite. Haha. Went to da bao pizza wif e girls. Qiyang left us. Shengchao continued sleeping. So its only left wif e 5 girls, me n sam who had our dinner of pizza in e girls' room. Huining departed. Continued to play mahjong. Played until 10 something when e party-goers returned. Heard from them that everyone was pushed into e pool. So sad. But who cares. SC finally woke up. Hahaha. While e 3 girls left when to meet their friends at another chalet, the guys played ps and i was juz bored. Went to play pool at around 1am. Alas, it is closing soon so we only had half an hour of gang to play. My throat infection worsened (i had mild sore throat when i went chalet). So i decided to go cheers buy some lozenges to soothen my throat. Happened to bump into some kinda gangfight outside Cheers. Being streetsmart, or rather timid, i siam the commotion n went to buy wad i need to buy. Went back to chalet when e girls continued their nite activities. As e guys r damn noisy playing ps, i seeked e permission of siying to rest in e girls' room (theirs is empty and hav alot of vancancy since there is only 3 of them left and neither of them is back). Permission granted and i juz slept there till e next morning. Guess i am juz too tired. Day 3: Woke up at 6.30. Went to brush my teeth and went back to sleep again. YY is oso sleeping in e girls' room. The girls r back and they r oso sleeping. The guys, they r crazy, played ps non stop till e next morning. So, i went back to sleep at e girls' room again and this time woke up at 8. Xiao qiang (cockroach) came to visit us. Thankgoodness it didn run into my shoes or bag. Soon, all woke up. The guys went to hav breakfast while i am too bloody tired to follow. Siying n YY need to leave early. So i left wif them at 9am, an hour b4 checking out. So its bye bye chalet and home sweet home. End of story.

YESHHHHHHHH !!!!!!!!!! I ENTERED AJ !!!!!! Woohooooo. Cant believe it. I mean there is a tough competition this year considering the fact that we dragon year kids r soooo competitive and everyone is gonna fight for a gd place in JC next yr. And yesh !!!! I entered Anderson Junior College, my first choice. It is oso a break of my so-call "curse" for which i cant enter a school with an english name, currently, all the schools i entered, kindergarden, pri sch and sec sch all not english name one, so this is e break of the curse on me. Ya, sounds stupid. Juz came back from 2E5 chalet, damn tired n fun. I will post my entry on e 2E5 chalet afterwards when i hav time.

SURVIVOR VANUATU FINALE !!!!!!! So cool rite. And guess what, CHRIS WON !!!! Woohooo...he deserved it, for surviving 6 other women in camp. So it temporary marks the end of the survivor fever within me. However, a new season of Survivor is coming next march with a total concept or twist or something that is way different from the normal system of the game. Yesh. its SURVIVOR PALAU, in the deep sea of the pacific ocean lies these islets with beautiful flora and fauna and remains of ruins from a ferce battle of WW2. So it would be nice to see how these castaways are haunted by the hungry ghosts of the violent history of mankind that once took place there. Anyway, since survivor vanuatu finale has ended, i am now looking forward to the 2E5 chalet. Woohoo.. this wed. Gotta make use of it to the fullest man. Who knows this is the last chalet for 2E5. Hehe. Hope not.

Arhhhhh........ONE MORE DAY !!! Yes ! Tml !!!! Survivor Vanuatu FINALE !!!!! So cool. Well, as you guys know , i am a super great fan of Survivor and i am always so enthu about the show. Though the finale marks the end of this season's survivor, it also meant new seasons of survivor in other more exortic places will be coming so its something worth excited about. Okay, lets talk about Survivor Vanuatu, for those who havent been consistantly watching it. It started off with 18 castaways seperated by the gender line. The girls, who are physically weaker, proved to be strong as they won the guys in many immunity challenge causing the guys' numbers to decrease significantly. Ok, merge time. 4 guys vs 6 girls. The 6 girls held strong and voted off 3 more guys. Now its 6 vs 1. While everyone is expecting the only guy left to be sent off, miracle happened and there was internal conflict within the girls' alliance, whereby the original leader of the alliance was unhappy about losing her leadership to another younger and prettier STRONG woman. So, the older woman, who was the original leader, fostered an alliance with the only guy left, another unfeminine woman, and a pretty young girl who was on e chopping block since day 1 and start voting off the power house of the tribe. So 3 girls were sent off and of coz one of them, as mentioned in my earlier entry, is the QUEEN of survivor vanuatu, Ami. So its down to the final 4: Chris, the only guy standing, Scout, the old les who was the original leader, Twaila, the unfeminine woman who prefers to stick with the guys, and Eliza, the young pretty girl with a big mouth, and a target since day 1. So its really interesting to see how these 4 pple start to stab and kill each other in the finale episode to win the 1 million dollar. I would really hope Chris won the 1 million dollar for he is witty enough to survive the 6 girls alliance. Dun say that i am a sexist supporting guys but i think he deserves to win. However, my gut tells me that ELiza the big mouth will win. Why? Coz she is physically strong and will win the last 2 immunity challenges to keep herself in the final 2. And this cat with 9 lives will eventually make it to the winner spot. So its all on tml's finale episode. Definitely must watch.

Woah, juz came back from badminton session wif some of my ex pri schmates. Well, the badminton session was planned in the last minute, received an sms from julia yesterday askin me if i wanna attend and i say ok and dats it. Set. Cool. Met Peow Ee, julia, meikuan at the busstop infront of my ah-ma house. YY cant attend coz he is done wif fever, poor him. So we walked to the badminton court and to our relief, no ones using it. Well, its really fun and i can consider this the first time i ever exercise so vigorously ever since i graduated. Haha. We played non stop for 3 hours, 9am to 12noon. From singles to doubles to changing of partners to 1 vs 2 , 1 vs 3, wadver combinations you can think of, we played it. I had a rather shakey start when i always start with the shuttercort flying out of court. But as time goes, i find i am having an easier time, perhaps i have warmth up alreadi. Yup, enginee is hot. I am also rather amazed by my performance when i managed to receive some difficult shots frommy opponent. As compared to my past performances, when i spend most of the time picking shuttercort, i can said i improved. ABit bhb rite. Haha. Well, thats cool, at least i have better command of this sport. We stopped when it started to drizzle at 12noon. So with a goodbye we headed for seperated ways back home. Surprise, i am not feeling tired at all. Very energetic now. Thanks to the strenous exercise i had moments ago. And i hope this contributed significantly to my weight-loss plan. Haha.

There is a sudden sense of loneliness developing within me. I felt alone, lonely. I seemed to be a loner, an outcast, a lowly respected and always neglected human being. Is this the repercussion for my personal indifferent social attitudes? After 4 years of education in secondary school, I felt that i do not have many friends that i am really attatched or relate to, in terms of friendship. Yes, i have lotsa friends, but none of them are close. They are just those "hi-bye" friends that occasionally chat via various modes of communication. I feel that i do not have a friend who knows me well enough to be my so call "buddy". I doubt my own skeptical attitudes on friendship. I attempt to chat with people i know online via msn. But guess what, try proving me wrong, i feel that you guys are annoyed by my constant "hi"s on msn. Am I that annoying? The answer should be an obvious definate. I am being portrayed as an obnorxious freak in class who "speaks with his ass like as though he has diarrhoea via his mouth". Yes, i confessed i am. I tried hard but i cant change. Shame on me. Sometimes i think back on how obnorxious, abhorrent, disgusting and loathsome behaviour of mine, i felt that the intense shame in me. But when i found out my shame, they have became history that scarred people's impression of me. I felt that i am being made a class clown. Not one that brings laughter to everyone by his humourous jokes, but one that is being laughed at or picked at for all his "negativity". People just relate me as a nobody. I feel that most of you guys portray me as a pain in the neck, a nobody who do not deserves much attention, in the right way. And hence thats my greatest regret for my 4 years education in ZHSS. There are some who i really treat you as good buddies, but i am not sure if the some-of-you treat me in the same way. I am not doubting your attitude towards me, dont get me wrong. I wanna be friends with you guys who accept me, or seem to accept me, forever. But alot of my good friends in zhss has either have their own clique or for some other reasons, cause our friendship to become more bland. I dont request 100% attention from you guys, but i hope there wont be any external factors like time that deteriorate and corrode our friendship. My dear friends, i hope this entry dont deteriorate our friendship. I am just feeling hopeless of myself. And for those who really treat me as a true friend, i hope our friendship remains this way for eternity or better still, improves. I am really grateful to that.......i juz feel like crying....for being an outcast.

Today's Pri Sch Clique Gathering was kinda okay i would say. But it was indeed fun. Ok, met FPE, YY, MK & Julia at YCK MRT stn. Went to Grassroot Club's Cathey Bowl for bowling. XM didn turn up for that. Gillian, shes working. So its the P6/1 part of the clique that went bowling only. K, bowling was kinda nice. Didn really bowl for a year alreadi, skills very rusty, infact, my skills ARE rusty. Being the begineers of bowling, me and yy shared a game while mk & FPE shared a game. Julia, being the more pro player, played a game herself. We played 2 set of games. Well, Julia's excellent bowling skills proved too superior as she clinched the top score twice. Haha. Ok, thats enough of bowling. Went to J8 where we met XM there. Due to some miscalculation of time, i told xm a later time to meet us hence she couldnt have lunch with us together. So, its 2nd round in the foodcourt when she arrived and we juz watch her eat. Hahaha. The original plan was to watch movie but the movies are shown in a very late time. So, i suggest that we visit Gillian in her work place while she is working. Cool. It was her first day at work in Bugis Seiyu as a cashier. Julia & MK left us. So its left with the 4 of us to visit Gillian. Reached Seiyu Bugis at about 3.30pm. We went searching for the cashiers all around Seiyu and we finally found Gillian. hahaha. She was sooooo into her work. Hmmmm. None of us dared to walk over and say hi. We juz dodge here and there and juz cant stop giggling. We are like some weird aliens in Seiyu Bugis. Hahaha. The surrounding pple including the senior cashier noticed us but not gillian. Weird. The cashier may still think we r here to rob them or something for standing there and looking at the cashier booth for so long. Haha. Finally, i think the senior cashier told gillian about us and when she noticed us, she was like, cant stop laughing. Siao cashier. Liddat sure scare away many customers one. Hahahahah. Den we were like laughing here and there and she was too shock or surprise to do anything other than laughing. Hahahaha. Gotcha. So we wave goodbye to Gillian and we went shopping somewhere else b4 coming back to kachiao her again. Hahahaha. Went to a bubbletea shop under the recommandation of XM. So we sat down, order our drink and keng gai (chat). Talk for quite a long time. Well, we talk about our respective schools, teachers, Sg Idol, Amazing Race, XM's australia trip, etc. Seems like we stayed inside for....1 hour ? Dunno. After the keng gai session, went to Gillian's cashier booth to say gd bye for one last time and we went home, calling a day off. How sweet. To see your ex classmates or ex schmates again. I love gatherings. Hahaha. (PS: (To Gillian) If you are still working at Seiyu, look around you coz u nv know when we will pay you a visit again. hahahah. Hope you love the surprise!)

Today's outing turn out to be a failure. Met James ,Jas, Ru aka niece & Hongjin aka Mother @ AMK MRT. I was expecting YY & Karin to come but both turned out to be absent. Sticking to the original plan, we went to Grassroot Club Cathey bowl but bad news struck as the lanes are all booked for an event and we cant have any. Bummer. Took a bus to Hougang Plaza expecting the bowling ctr to be still there but alas its not. Played pool instead out of fustration. Well, its my first time. Managed to hit in a few balls with the help of Hongjin (shes pro). Contacted Karin , YY & Matt after pool and we planned to go Orchard Lido Shaw for movie. Only Matt arrived. Sad. Mother and niece left us for their SJAB thing. The 4 of us felt deceived. We didnt watch movie afterall. Went shopping around in Orchard. Visit an arcade in Cineleisure but there was limited stuff for us to enjoy. Went to Heeren and then its bye bye Orchard. Went to AMK, visit the arcade at Jubidee under the recommandation of Jas. Nothing much as well. Accompany Matt for his dinner at the S11 with James. Talked quite abit. Well, at least we tried to make the best out of anything that is left. Wave goodbye to Matt and Jas. Me & James actually went to Popular Bookstore to look at A Level stuffs. Yes. We are toooooo lame. I flipped some econs stuff and find familiar terms that i can find in my geo elect sylibus. Great. Econs shd be a 2nd choice for me for JC's subject combination. Hahahah. 7pm, went home without dinner. Dun wish to hav any dinner anyway. Had my weekly dose of Survivor. This is the episode i enjoyed the most. Queen Ami was finally booted off. So happy. She is such a sexist that she wants all guys off the game. How bad. She loved to control the whole game soooo much. Well, at least she is gone, thanks to the strong but unpredictable alliance consisting of Chris Scout Twaila and Eliza who also sent Leann packing last week. Tribal council was kinda emmotional when Eliza cant bear to vote off Ami. Both of them cried. I almost touched me to tears too, even though i would wish AMi to be gone sonner or later. For that moment, i dun really blame or hate AMi. Weird. Alas, Eliza voted off Ami and shes gone. Yeah. The Queen is overthrown. Oso wanna quote a saying from Tribal Council that Scout said about Ami for being the controller of the whole game : The lighting will stike the tree at the mountain peak the fastest. Quite true, makes sense. Juz like the chinese saying "shu4 da4 zhao1 feng1" But Scout's saying was more intense. Ok, thats all for today. Looking forward to Monday's Pri Sch Gang Gathering.

Spent most of the day looking at prom photos taken by others who hav attend the once-in-a-life-time event. Everyone seems to hav enjoyed themselves. Upon looking through the photos, i can imagine how glamourous and grand the event was, however, there are also mixed feelings inside me that i would now like to voice out. I kinda regret not attending the event, however, on the other hand, i seems to feel that i made the right choice of not attending. I developed a sense of regret coz i cant be there with my friends and classmates and accquatince for the last time , perhaps. I regretted not being able to show others the "goodlooking" side of myself. Everyone looks great in the event, i mean, guys in suit girls in dresses, splendid apperance. I also wanna portray myself to be able to produce a good image/appearence infront of others to. I hav once imagined what i would wear if i were to go prom but i do not know if the reality of me wearing such great suits fabricates desirable images or not. Everyone enjoyed themselves, and the photos taken hav kept track of the historical moment. These photos kept the memories for eternity (if they dun disintegrate) and i wanna be part of the image casted in these great photos. I wanna take photos wif all my friends n classmates out there when we are of our best apperance. However, i some kinda feel happy i am not there. I dun wanna make pple unhappy by sharing the same table with them (u know, most pple do not like me). All my friends are either from other classes and hav their own clique to share a table with or they are not attending the event. This will spare me and others from being deprived of the enjoyment of the event. Secondly, i am sure i will be "sabotaged" to be "humilated" on stage. Yesh, these r healthy activities but u guys must understand that i am shy by nature and do not wish to be the limespot unless i am in a group of friends that i am comfortable with. Thirdly, i am pessimistic about how i look in those nice clothes to be worn to prom. I somehow feel that i am ugly, short and fat and i dont look nice in anything. I do not want to be a laughing stock throughout the whole night. Although the saying goes "beauty lies in the eyes of the beholder", i some kinda feel that there is a line of distiction between good looking and not good looking, and unfortunately, i fall in the category of being not good looking in the eyes of majority. Yes, you may argue that its not the apperance that matters but i beg to differ. In reality, outer apperance do matter, sad to say. However, if you ask me if i will attend another prom that consist of the total graduating population, i may consider saying yes to it. I dream prom is to be able to share a table with my best friends out there and everyone enjoyed the different and unique atmosphere which cannot be moulded in any situation. Whether my reasons to and against attending the prom are valid or not, i still think that its a choice i hav made and i should bear no regrets for it. One hav to believe in himself. If i feel that this is the best way for me, and fate wants me not to prom, and here i am not attending prom, i shd hav no regrets.

Singapore Idol Finals tonight and Taufik won. Wat can i say, Taufik deserves it, he definitely sang better than Sly. Well, infact, both of them did well tonight and its a hats-off performance i can say. Whereas those negative critics and news and informations fabricated because of the competition on family background or racist votes or anti-whoever, i hope they can come to an end. The result is fixed and no one can change it, so the other die hard fans of sly or any other finalist, plz learn to accept it, i guess. Well, although i think Taufik deserves the title, my own singapore idol is still olinda coz i think she has a fantastic vocal and can tackle all genre of music thrown to her. Well, its her powerful vocal that i am impressed of and i think she is a really professional singer. But too bad luck is not on her side or she is not "appealing" enough to the mass public as compared to sly n taufik that she got eliminated. However, her powerful vocal will still live in the hearts of many, i guess. So thats enough of Singapore idol. Its rather strange of me to devote the whole entry to SI when i am not a very consistent or loyal viewer. I am juz a "second-class" viewer, not the "full-time" viewers. Haha. So, lookin forward to SI 2 and of coz world idol where sg will hav her first very own representative to step on the stage of such a prestigious and renown global competition.