The Day I Conquered Southern Ridges.

The idea of trekking the newly established Southern Ridge trail sprouted months ago when me and my pri sch clique decide to do something different for our annual year end gathering. I confessed I wasnt on the right set of mind when i suggested doing so. Hours before i met the other 4 today, i even had thoughts of backing out and doing something more common and less physical instead, such as bowling or what. But we didnt back out, we proceeded on as plan. 5 physically unfit urban dwellers who were instantaneously mentally unsound decide to embark on a physical trail down Southern Ridge without any prior preparations.

We took a bus to NUS. We decided to start from Kent Ridge Park which is near NUS because by going the backwards direction towards vivo, we can finally settle down at vivo for dinner and our gift exchange. Arriving at the mids of NUS at 3, we spent 1 hour finding our way to the start of the trail, crossing the expressway and back again to the original side we were at. We discovered our unnecessary attempt to cross the expressway in the first place. Walking down South Buona Vista Road, we spotted a wooden signboard which suggests that the trail is nearby. We took the risk and walk down the deserted Science Park II Road only to our delight, we finally found the entrance to Kent Ridge Park around 4. Which means we spent 1hr looking for the entrance.

Stepping into the nature is kind of nostalgic. Reminds me 0f outfields. I hate outfields. The heavy scent of nature and wildlife embraced us. Navigating our way through the ridge is difficult in the sense of finding the right route and direction. Equipped only with a simple printed map that i found online, it serves minimal purpose as we had to rely on our gutt feelings and random direction boards planted around the forest park. I continously remind the rest to hydrate regularly like as though i am still in camp providing medical coverage.

We took many photos as we proceeded along. We never fail to amuse ourselves with our over-random behaviour, though slightly insane. We walked and walked and yet referring back to the printed map, we seemed to be further from the end point at vivocity. We passed by a decomissioned armour vehical installed as an exhibit and we took photos with it. We continue to proceed only to arrive at the first part of the newly-installed nature trail - the canopy walk at kent ridge. After that, we passed by Hortipark where we witness many beautiful colourful blooming flowering plants, both in the landscape as well as in glasshouses. Its like a natural children playground. Many of the plants, we hardly can find them at other parts of Singapore.

Proceededing down Hortipark, we finally reached the overhead bridge - the Alexandar Arch. Stretching across Alexandar Road linking Horti Park to Telok Blangah Hill, we finished 1/3 of the trail. What welcomed us immediately as we crossed the Alexandar Arch is the zig-zag canopy walk which took us damn long to walk. It brought us to the top of Telok Blangah Hill. The seaview that can be witnessed from the zig zag walk (as i call it) is quite cool. I can see PSA building and the port behind. Then came the hilly Telok Blangah Hill which at that point of time, is already 5+. We plan to complete the walk by 6.30pm as julia had to leave early.

As we walked, we do not know how long we did so but anyway, we reached the end of Telok Blangah Hill and here, welcoming us is the magnificant overhead bridge crossing to Mount Faber Hill - The Henderson Wave Bridge. It is damn magnificant as i described earlier. Its wave like structure compliments with the "magestic" green forested hill at the back (which is Mt Faber). As we cross the wooden wave bridge, we discovered that the crowd starts to increase. Taking pictures along the way, we finally arrive at Mt Faber which marks 2/3 of the journey had been completed.

Already tired by then, we were basically dragging ourselves to complete the last 1/3 of the journey. The Marang Trail which was kinda downslope proves not as easy since we were quite burnt out. The final part with continuous endless rockly and uneven steps downwards covered by canopy seems endless. I never had this kinda feeling ever since routemarch during BMT. Finally, the sight of Harbourfront (formal World trade centre) delighted us. We finally arrive at the end point. Hurray to all. We then proceed to Harbourfront where we wash up and had our gift exchange. After which, dinner at Vivo super dog.

Completeing the Southern Ridge trail, is a small small achievement. No one in the right set of mind would decide to go for it as a form of pri sch clique gathering. Considering our low level of fitness, especially the girls, it feels quite satisfying. Haha. For the 3 of us boys, i think its quite okay, way damn easier than army routemarch where we need to bring along our FBO and stuff. With light plan clothes and just a small bag, its kinda nothing compare to that. For the girls, really kudos to them. I need to give them a round of applause since they have not engaged in any form of PT (other than shopping) since JC2. Yet, the manage to pull through. I feel very proud for ourselves. I believe my legs will start aching tml morning when i wake up. Mentally prepared. As for now, i think this trail really remind us that we are not to the level of fitness yet and lots still have to be done for us, espeically us guys. Need to exercise way more. I mean, the trail has already been made easy with those canopy walks and stuff, not those undulating and uneven ground we walked through in tekong. Haha.

In conclusion, this is really something special for us as a clique to accomplish during our annual gathering. Any regrets doing it? Not really, since the girls actually had no regrets themselves, why would we guys. Will we do it again? Erm....eyeballs rolling. Haha. Guess you know the answer is kinda obvious. Anyway, a task for Julia n YY - go learn mahjong so we can play during cny, if not 3 que 1. As for YY, go learn cycling !!! We initially thought of cycling at ECP but decide to forgo it and pursue the southern ridge partly because YY cant cycle. Argh !!!

AMPT

AMPT was held this morning. Not as bad as I imagined. Thats good. Since it is half day, we were released at 11.30. But store ic and treatment ic treated us with pizza and Gelare icecream log cake. Zomg, so lavish - i mean the logcake. It would be a boring xmas this year, yet again. Merry xmas everyone...its only xmas eve...

同学会

时光飞逝，离中一中二已经有五六年之久了吧？当时刚刚踏入陌生的新中学环境，重新认识一群与本人共度两年求学岁月的朋友们。当成熟思想开始萌芽的青春交界期，当开始更了解新一层人与人之间的友谊关系不只是简简单单的“我跟你friend不friend”，这一群同学陪我领悟、陪我发觉、陪我成长。就在过去的星期六（也就是昨天），本人就出席了中一/中二的同学会。一个月前的今天，突然心血来潮，便在网上联络了一位当时的同学，表达自己想办一个同学会来更新当年美好的记忆。二话不说的他便开始招兵买马，筹划了九成的活动，虽然正天出席率未达半数，但也值得欣慰。很感谢这位同学的帮助，让我重新能与多年不见，甚至以为不会再见到的前同学重逢。在圣淘沙岛度过了美好的午后，在到怡丰城享用“团员饭”，再到处拍照留念并叙旧到晚间11点，一天就在欢笑中画下美满又有意义的句号。但我希望，这句号将不会真正结束我们友谊的旅程，而是重新发展出一段又一段更丰富的新段落。再次感谢出席和没出席的同伴们，陪我度过人生这一段美好的旅程，这一段半生不熟，沾满一点酸甜，一点尴尬又一点风趣难忘的青春期。感谢你们的存在。祝愿大家往自己的领域方面茁壮成长。

太恐怖了！！！

天啊！太恐怖了！一整天在外头，一回到家，开电脑，搜查星光四在星期五2008年12月19日的第二场PK赛事成绩～ 我所支持的一位参赛者，康祯庭，竟然首次获得开赛以来的最高分- 24分，离满分只差1分！！！好厉害哦！希望她能拿冠军，不要让观众说这次的星光四水平比前三季度低。

Bolt + Xmas Deco

Met my SMTI bunkmates at Dhoby Ghout yesterday noon. After we had lunch at The Astons at the Cathay, we proceeded to watch the animation movie "Bolt". The movie is regarding a "super hero" dog, Bolt, embarking in his self thought mission to save his owner only to realize that he does not possess any of those self-imagined powers. Together with mittens the kitten and rhino the goofy hamster, the toured the States and landed back in holywood where he saved his owner from a production studio that caught fire.

The show ended around 5+ and we decided to do some xmas shopping at PS first. I borrowed my father's digicam and we decided to walk down Orchard Road taking photos of this year's Xmas decorations. First of all, i took this photo below which is the interior of PS.

The open space outside PS is filled with many life size decorations.

We walked down Orchard Road only to find constructions after constructions between the stretch of ex Meridian hotel to Heeren. It is, what i called, a decrease in quality of life for those working or living nearby. Went to Cine and had dinner at Subway there. AFterthat, we continued walking down Orchard and it was just in time the sun is setting...

The xmas tree outside Paragon.

Outside Paragon.

The yearly recycled xmas tree inside Ngee Ann City.

Repetitive decorations along Orchard Road

CK Tang's theme of gold.

A rotating xmas tree outside Wheelock Place.

The xmas deco gate along the junction of Scotts Road and Orchard Road.

A rotating deco outside Shaw Lido

The entrance of Shaw Lido.

The final stop is Far East because i wanted to go shopping for some accessories there. We crossed the overhead bridge and i managed to snap a shot of whats along Scotts Road.

Anyway, i did not manage to get anything from Far East despite its vast range of accessories and apparals there on sale. I took bus 132 back at around 9pm to AMK. Marks the end of a day's trip.

And finally walking past the shopping mall cum bus interchange that i pass by daily - AMK Hub.

MERRY CHRISTMAS EVERYONE !!!!

LUNCH !!!

Today i cooked lunch. I had the "soup", the "starters" and the "main course". I started cooking at 11.30am and ended around 12.30pm. I merely use Campbell Soup for the "soup" part while I tried making my very own garlic bread with butter, garlic and parsley leave (and of coz left over bread from last night). The "starters" is a plate of calamarie which i used tempura flour over normal flour (because i cant find normal flour). The "main course" would definitely be my fave seafood aglio olio. Here are the end products for my 1 hour of hardwork in the kitchen...

Seafood Aglio Olio

Calamarie Rings

The full view of lunch today.

I do not usually eat so much. But just because i am in a mood to whip up something nice today, i ended up with so much things to eat. Looks delicious right? Haha. I sat down and taste my fruit of labour, it taste quite good i would say. Haiz. Inborn talent for cooking or is it just good genes from both the paternal and maternal side of my family. Hahaha.

So many things to buy !!!

Christmas is coming and its time for shopping. But with limited money, the issue of want and need surfaces. There are so many things i want to buy for myself. This has resulted in an ambiguity differentiating want and need. Excerbating the situation is the fact that i am a spendthrift where, as described by my mother, "money come into pocket, very hard to come out". Now you see i am going to ORD in 88 days time and i need to prepare for uni days. With the already pathetic pay from NS (which will last me another 3 months) plus a small insignificant sum of money from tuition, it is not going to last me long enough for all i need to spend. At least i should change it to "for all i want to spend". Here listing the items on my shopping list:

1) A new Adidas shoe for casual outings (the only Nike one that i have and wore almost everyday since J1 has its sole detached) - Cost: ~$125 / Need / Urgent

2) A new Sony ericsson C905 8.1 megapix 3G camera phone that can serve both as a phone and a professional digicam where i can use after i ORD and into my uni days. - Cost: $595 w/ renewal of plan / Want / Not Urgent But very Tempting

3) A new pair of jeans for outing and schooling in the future. I currently have 4 pairs of jeans and looking at the high frequency of me wearing them, i think i should stock up on this. - Cost: $<50, probably from sales / Want / Not Urgent

4) New clothes. I am revamping my walldrobe. - Cost: <$30 each / Want / Not Urgent

5) New running/exercise shoes for my coming exercise regime launching 2009 - Cost: $0, buy from SAF emart using credit / Need / Urgent

6) A proper gyming towel for my coming exercise regime launching 2009 - Cost: $0 (waiting for people to give as Xmas presents =P / Need / Urgent

7) Christmas Present for Clique gathering on 28th Dec 2008 - Cost: $<10 / Need / Urgent

8) A new belt (the old white one i am using has been stained from dirt) and a beaded necklace to go with my plan design shirts. Its time to dress up better to attract girls' attention. - Cost: ~$20 / Need / Urgent

9) A new laptop for Uni days. - Cost: ~$2000 from Student Discount / Need / Serious not urgent until school starts next year

10) Application of some cards that will provide offer to certain places or shops. Can be credit card, member card, debit card, wadeva card. - Cost: The lower the better / Want / Not Urgent

Funny Road Signs

Was surfing the net when i found this funny road signs thingy. For those who just took their basic theory test or is going to take, you may want to reconsider what you've learnt in your theory book. =)

Aglio Olio Version 3.1

After my many attempts of cooking a decent plate of Aglio Olio, i finally suceeded in achieveing a taste near similar to those i've tried outside. With minimum spices and ingredients i have at home, i experimented with the many different ways of cooking this pasta dish, which is my favourite pasta amongst all. I hereby shall list out the steps of cooking it:

1. Cook sphagetti until al dente (i dunno the correct spelling but it means 3/4 cooked), in a pot of boiling water with salt and olive oil in it. Afterthat, run it with cold water and toss it with salt and olive oil.

2. Chop finely 3 big garlics, 2 chilli padi (with seeds removed unless you enjoy the orgas feeling of having them in your mouth) and 1/2 tomatoes (with seeds and placenta removed as well).

3. If you want to add seafood (which is wad i did), marinate fish slice and prawns with salt and pepper.

4. Heat sauce pan with olive oil, add chopped garlic. Stir it so that each grain is evenly fried.

5. When garlic turns brown, add chopped chilli padi and tomatos. Be prepared for a facemask or what just incase the chilli makes you cry for the next half an hour.

6. Add half a cup of water. BEWARE !!! This step will cause vigourous smoking. (I once activated my house's fire alarm because of this)

7. Add your seafood in so that they will be cooked and let the flavours seep into the liquid in the pan.

8. Add sphagetti and let it simmer inside the liquid and all the liao wadeva u hav inside.

9. Add salt, pepper and parsely leaf flake (that stupid leaf flake cost me freaking $4 from colds storage !!!)

10. Serve while hot. Enjoy your freaking plate of aglio olio while thinking of the amount of washing and cleaning after your freaking meal. =)

星光4艺人PK 之 《疯子》

若像我有一直追看《星光4》的朋友们应该对其中一位参赛者的突然开发感到非常欣慰。今早从兵营值周末班回家后便到youtube观看星期五在台湾首播的《星光4》。进行的是艺人歌手PK赛。就在最期待的这一回观看后没有半点失望 —— 那就是本地绝对Superstar新人何维健与星光4的康康，康贞庭较劲。由于PK者是本地熟悉不过的新加坡歌手，对上一直以来都非常欣赏与给予高度评价的一位参赛者，这场赛真是值回票价。不必多说，也可预料到本地的何维健应该是凶多吉少，不是说他实力差，而是他不行碰上康康！特别喜欢康康这次的演出，有点处于歇斯底里的状态内，完全把歌曲的味道凸显出来，好过瘾。加上她那奇怪的服装，可是为她加分不少。

Another random day in camp

With the addition of 3 new members to the med ctr, the med ctr is no longer as quiet as before when ord-ing personels start clearing off and leave. Came back from leave on Monday and there leave me so much shit to clear. It sux. But i know i have to rely on my understudy for sure as he is taking over in one month's time. I am just too tired for the unnecessary things to do like getting my card problem solved (i cannot log in after changing e password) and worrying for the daily stockcheck and management of drugs all around the med ctr in different depts. Things must be done properly in order to avoid any possible trouble when auditing or surprise checks come visiting. Its just somehow a "perfect" attitude to adopt, which i am tired of having for the past 1 year plus. It was one of the unit's COC and i have to stay until the entire parade was over at 6+. When i got home, i received some NUS administrative package on confirming of enrolement online and via mail. The deadline is 15/12/08. Some of the parts which i do not understand, i need to clarify with other people. As for now, its one more thing to keep in view and hopefully get done with before the deadline.

Christmas Is Coming

Was on leave again, infact it started from yesterday till the end of this week. Went swimming again this morning as the sun was quite bright, dont wanna waste the good weather. My skin kinda red from the exposure right now. Met a long time no see friend for dinner at Novena. Afterwhich we went to Orchard to jalan jalan. The christmas lightings were up already. Its the christmasty mood all over. Nice. I love christmas. But the price of the shirts and items i see at orchard has yet to raise up to the occasion. Still no sales. So ex, cant bear to buy. The lightings were not much diff from last year. At least its still as bright. The ERPs along Orchard Road still stands out uniquely from the rest. Awwww....and i heard Christmas songs all along orchard road, only to realize they install speakers on the decos. Zzzzz...anyway, Christmas is coming !!! Shall indulge in the wonderful christmas mood. Lalalala...

NTU Gate Crash

This afternoon after lunch, i met Jer from CPMC to gate crash NTU. After leading the life of a NSF for so long, i wanted to indulge in the atmosphere of an educational institute. Furthermore, i am always curious with regards to the life of an uni student, which i will start leading for the next 4 years in NUS. Its time for the mugging spirit to diffuse into me and start my brain activity after not functioning for so long.

I met Jer at Boon Lay station and we took bus 199 to NTU Hall 11, where Yissue stayed. Was quite surprise to find out how long the queue of the other bus 179 is to NTU as the queue formed by the students covered half the bus interchange. Alighting infront of Hall 11, we met Yissue who brought us back to his hostel room. Basically its exam period and everyone is mugging. So the entire university is kinda like a ghost town.

After staying for a while, the both of us wandered off to the other side of NTU at the South spine where Jer visited the computer shop first to enquire with regards to buying a Apple laptop at student price. We then topo our way to Popular bookshop where Jer bought his engine book at very low price. I wanted to buy too but was not too sure which textbook i will use in NUS. I've bought John McMurry's Organic Chem 7e at Clementi bookshop the other time and it was $10 more ex than NTU popular, nonetheless still $20 cheaper than kino. I spotted the inorganic chem textbk which i might use - Sharpe & Housescroft which cost $53 but didn buy because i am not sure if i may be using it next yr. I cant find Atkin's Physical Chem 8e. The books were damn cheap and i got the urge to buy to read ahead. Not sure if NUS Co-op will sell as cheap.

It was 4pm when we proceeded back. I was to meet my family at IMM, which is nearby. On our way back down the East West Line, i spot this Officer Cadet Trainee (long white sleeve, black pants and a OCS golden collar pin) eating famous amos biscuit and drinking bubble tea in the train. Thats so shocking. Being OCT, trained to be a leader and commander, blatently violating the rules in the train, where eating and drinking is prohibited. He was lucky i did not take a photo of him and put onto Stomp for if someone is to do so, he would be much dead. I am not against officer of what. To think that a commander in the making actually behaves like that, how could he serve as a role model to his subordinates.

I Like To Move It Move It ...

Watched Madagascar 2 with Nel this afternoon at The Cathay. I totally enjoyed the full 90 minutes spent in the theatre. The show was hilariously funny. I simply love the Penguins especially, they were so evil yet cute. Not forgetting the little baby lemur who was chased by a shark all the way from Madagascar to Central Africa.

The show started with the penguins, the 4 main characters, the chimps and the 3 lemurs taking a plane off the island of Madagascar, only to realize that fuel is not enough to sustain them through to New York. The 4 penguins who were in controlled had no choice but to force a sudden landing by a giant parachute, only to land in central Africa, where Alex the lion was borned. While the penguins ,inorder to continue their mission, worked on repairing their wrecked plane by stealing the tourists' jeeps, the 4 main characters stumbled upon Alex's homeland where he reconciled with his parents. The 4 characters started enjoying their life in the wild and fusing into their own kind. Meanwhile, the chimps brought his own coloney of chimps to aid the penguins in repairing the plane, only later they started fighting over labour union rights. That was one of my favourite part when the chimps threatened the penguins with scandalous photos of one of them with a doll only to earn maternity rights for the other chimps in labour.

While the New York tourists were strained in the wild (as their jeeps were stolen by the penguins), the started building a dam to survive, which restricted water supply to the animals in the protected zone. Alex the lion solved the water issue for the animals by breaking the dam (after a though fight with his old enermy - the gusty old granny, who was the leader of the strained survivors) and earned the respect of the rest of the animals. Meanwhile, a live sacrifies taking place on the volcano by the Gifraffe, was interrupted as he was saved by his crush, Gloria the hippo. As the shark chased the baby lemur all the way from the coast to the volcano, the 3 lemurs reconciled with the shark falling into the volcano crate.

The show ended with the leader of the 4 penguins marrying the wooden doll he loved and the other animals live happily ever after in the wild plains of central africa. As i mentioned earlier, the show contained alot of crude humour that i enjoyed. It was really worth watching if you want some time to laugh off your ass without thinking too much.

Minli's Birthday + NUS Advance Placement Programme Talk

Friday 071108:

The weather was good in the morning and i went swimming at YCK to get some exercise and also some sunshine. Swam 30 laps, my legs were abit acheing at the end. I love swimming on weekdays because the pool is so almost entirely yours.

In the evening, met up with my JC classmates to celeb minli's birthday. Had dinner at PS Pizza Hut. The photos (taken by thad) can be found on facebook. Also, i spotted Seabass, who happened to be with another girl, presumely his gf. What a surprise. Went over to say hi. He dyed his hair brown. The next thing i know, i start mass msg everyone in med ctr about this shocking piece of news.

Saturday 081108:

Just came back from NUS advance placement programme talk, i.e. special term. We were offered to take special term after we ord before the regular term starts. Was considering whether to do it because it would serve as a good start and adaptation period for me who has not been studying for the past 2 and 1/2 years. However, if plan wrongly, it may clash with freshman orientation camps and its definitely something i would not want to miss.

The talk was kinda useless, i think it would be better off if they just mention in the invitation letter that the slides will be up online. The talk lasted for less than an hour. After the talk, i went to Clementi ctrl with kenneth who accompanied me. Oh yes, my thanks to him for lending me jay chou's album to copy. Had KFC for brunch (i did not have breakfast) and i bought a reference bk at Clementi bkstore for studying. Its always good to have a headstart.

Afterwhich i headed home. Time past fast. Soon i will be in uni. I wonder if i am able to catch up with the rest of the cohort.

放假

难得在百忙之中抽空给自己放一个长假，感觉是在爽。这些日子以来，似乎自我亏待，入伍后就一直忙于兵营里的事，有周末值班，也把 off-in-lieu 累积起来不使用，十四天年假一天也还没碰。如今，本人还有多四个月就退伍了，打算松懈下自己，也算是对自己的一个补偿。这次就放了三天假，配上一个长周末。兵营里的事自己也不想管那么多了，因为自己已经找到一个接班人，预计明年一月交棒，把事情交待好，一切就无牵挂。在家里虽然无所事事，偶尔上上网，偶尔出出门。朋友们都还得上班上学，也就不要打扰他们了。看来我放了假，似乎是在家里浪费时间。但是我曾经说过，浪费时间是一种奢侈，就如花钱买名牌货：平时不应该这样做的，但偶尔这样做来宠宠自己也蛮不错。这几天风光明媚，看当会儿能不能出去游泳，然后跟朋友吃午饭，打发打发时间。哦！放假感觉是在爽！

月光

超级星光大道1，我从开始就非常看好与喜欢林宥嘉。Yoga也发了自己首长专辑《神秘嘉宾》，深受大家喜爱。

超级星光大道2，我最支持的是梁文音与黄美珍。美珍与2届冠军组成了“神木与瞳”发了专辑。文音的天籁之音也非常让人期待她的新歌。

超级星光大道3，我最喜爱的参赛者，也是新加坡的代表，黄靖伦，终于将要发个人首张专辑。虽然他的知名度在本地还没那么强，但他可是台湾观众最喜爱的星光3参赛者，让他成了星光3人气王。非常独特的阴阳嗓，有时听不出是真假音，听不出是男或女，难以取得。他也是星光3班首位发专辑的参赛者，抢先于冠军徐佳莹。他签进“伟忠帮”成了杨宗伟的师弟。为你介绍的首张专辑《伦语录》的首播主打《月光》。请大家新加坡人多多支持本地新人！

Popoye Chicken

Me and my medic course friends went down to Singapore Flyers yesterday evening to satisfy our craving for Popoye Chicken. In the past, only when i visit the airport then can i grab the opportunity to consume this american fastfood restaurant. Now that it opened another branch in Singapore Flyers, it is much for convenient for us. Anyway, the chicken wasnt as tasty as the branch in airport, and its quite ex. After that, we took a shuttle service back to City Hall and had Ben's & Jerry icecream which we ate and chatted until 10pm. So much for the TGIF mood yesterday.

你不是真正的快乐

为大家独家介绍五月天收入在将要发最新专辑里头的主打歌《你不是真正的快乐》。歌曲风格是抒情摇滚，由阿信作词作曲。星期一首次在网上听到台湾电台首播这首歌时就被吸引住了。本人觉得歌曲的涵义很有意思，说的是在笑声背后，笑道人是否真的快乐。就如其中的歌词“你不是真正的快乐，你的笑只是你穿的保护色”与其“这世界笑了 於是你合群的一起笑了”。我们是为了什么而笑？是因为自己快乐吗？还是受到当时下短暂的某事件、因素、挑逗而开怀大笑。但是，笑玩了，又归回原本，自己之后又是否是快乐的？如果不是有为什么会笑呢？是因为大家都在笑吗？为何不能坚持自己的心情心境，若不快乐又为何要笑呢？以上是本人对于歌曲的自我分析和歌曲给本身传达的含义。

观看的此歌独家首播的MV，是关于一个男生在街上卖笑话，传达快乐，为的是筹钱买条衣服给瘫痪的女友。街上的受惠者，也是购买者都在听了笑话后开怀大笑，但是之后又回到自己之前的心情。而这个卖笑话的男生，虽然自己在传达快乐，但自己一点也不快乐。MV中又出现另一名女生，在游乐园里版白雪公主抖大家快乐，但下了班卸了妆却一点也不快乐。同样的，这两位本身都不快乐，却在经营快乐的兜售，体现出个矛盾。最后男生带瘫痪女友到游乐园去跟白雪公主拍照。男友跟女友讲了个笑话，女友笑了。不知你看了MV会是感到伤心，难过或启发。本身是心潮澎湃，也引起了我对于笑与快乐之间关系的思考。我觉得这是一首很有意义的歌，所以大力像大家推荐，请大家多多益善！



人 群中 哭著 你只想变成透明的颜色
你再也不会梦 或痛 或心动了
你已经决定了 你已经决定了
你 静静 忍著 紧紧把昨天在拳心握著
而回忆越是甜 就是 越伤人了
越是在手心留下 密密麻麻 深深浅浅 的刀割

你不是真正的快乐
你的笑只是你穿的保护色
你决定不恨了 也决定不爱了
把你的灵魂关在永远锁上的躯壳

这 世界 笑了 於是你合群的一起笑了
当生存是规则 不是 你的选择
於是你含著眼泪 飘飘荡荡 跌跌撞撞 的走著

你不是真正的快乐
你的笑只是你穿的保护色
你决定不恨了 也决定不爱了
把你的灵魂关在永远锁上的躯壳
你不是真正的快乐
你的伤从不肯完全的愈合
我站在你左侧 却像隔著银河
难道就真的抱著遗憾一直到老了
然后才后悔著

你值得真正的快乐
你应该脱下你穿的保护色
为什麼失去了 还要被惩罚呢
能不能就让悲伤全部结束在此刻
重新开始活著

The Houseflies, the Scorpion & the Wild Boar

I'm back from "Exercise B", alive. I'd always thought i would die in the wild of Life Firing Area in my one week stay there. Its so psychologically challenging for a softie like me who's so used to staying in aircon room and look at computer screens in my NS life. It has always been the case when I've gone through shit or was on-going through shit that i've learnt how to appreciate the convenience and comfort of my daily life. What a loser.

Anyway, there were some non-combat aspects of this exercise that i would like to mention, or dictate. Being deployed in one of the many many giant hills in LFA, i was so exposed to the torments of this tropical vegetation. First of all, the houseflies. These creatures irritated me for the true few days i've been out there. More so than the mosquitoes (because i brought along mosquito coils and repellents to spam).

But anyway, pardon me for digressing previously, these little houseflies were true irritants. They were not in sight when we first arrived at the spot of deployment. Rather, we do not exactly know where they come from. After setting up the admin area where food and water were introduced, these little creatures started swarmping in from nowhere, occupying our rest area like tyrants. They multiply as the days went. More interestingly, they seemed to be over-enjoying their buffet that they started landing on our sweaty SBO or even us human beings, as though they've mistaken us for the food on the table instead. They constant merry-making, flying around like little children run wild in a play house were complimented with our fustration and frequent swarpping. Totally nuisience.

Anyway, talking about food ration during outfield, i am always totally turned off by the pungent of strange concortion of smell diffusing from the re-used meal bags thats not often washed. Leftover food in the meal bags create even more "aromatic-theruputic effect" that made me feel like puking. As such, i seldom eat outfield and it may serve as a good source of diet plan.

On the friday night, one of the personels was stung by a freaking scorpion at the neck. He initially came looking for me with complains of sharp pain at neck, as though an insect bite, but did not know what is it. I dismissed him off after observing the area, finding no marks of bite, hence suggesting him to seek me if he was to develop any forms of anaphalytic reaction. However, moments later, he came back to me with a plyer in his hand. On the damn plyer was a pathetic looking scorpion he caught crawling over his body. At that moment i was so shock and hence decided to evac him to the nearest medical centre. However, what disgusted me was how slow the admin procedures of the camp and medical centre was in this case. You can feel my fustration as i yearned for immediate medical assistance from the med ctr for my dear patient who could fell into anaphalytic shock anytime (though he is still able to talk and walk). Oh well, cursed that scorpion who got me into these mental traumas.

Anyway, during my stay in the LFA, i wasnt as lonely as i thought i would be due to frequent visits by wild boars. I suspected that they were the same 2 wildboars that kept on visiting the deployment site. My first sight of the wild boar caused me great shock as i wasnt prepared for it. It was especially during the evenings that they visited, probably searching for food around. Or it could be possible that we intruded into their territory. Anyway, there was this once where i was alone in the admin tentage and the wild boar started circling the area, as though it was to barge in anytime to steal food. I never dealt with wild boars before so i was rather afraid at the point of time. The last thing i would ever want then was a wild boar charging at me in fury. Anyway, back to the scene, the fearless wild boar started approaching the tentage with me inside. I was in a lost of what to do. Just as it was about 1 to 2 metre away, i stood up, about to run out. But it stopped advancing. I stared at it with my arms folded like some angry owner guarding his territory. Little did i expect the wild boar to walked away as i gave a sigh of relief. But repeatedly, the wild boars still came back to visit, waiting upon opportunities to steal food from us. It had caused me sleepless nights for fear of it charging in when i was asleep.

So much about the torments i've gone through during my few days stay in LFA, with regards to the creatures and the fact that i could not sleep, eat and shit in peace, i feel that this visit to LFA has got its merits. This restricted area has actually alot to offer for nature lovers. The beautiful and majestic landscape comprising of reservoirs, big hills and greenery is really good for the eye. The scenery from the top of one of the hills, overlooking the entire LFA, is fantastic. As we deployed in many hilltops, i got to see the untouched side of singapore's natural tropical vegetation. Well, perhaps the natural landscape was so well preserved due to its restricted entrance to civilians. Only soldiers who are training can enter.

But anyway, thanks to this long outfield, i came back this afternoon, after switching with my colleague, taking a long hot water bathe and wash my boots which were so stained by mud of the wild. Will be back to medical centre tml with alot of unfinished and outstanding tasks in hands. It would be a busy week ahead.

Pre Outfield Syndrome

There will be a major exercise lasting 2 weeks starting this weekend. All innocent, honest and upright combat medics in my medical centres are down for this exercise as cover medics for the different units involved. I have my share of it by having to cover for 5 days. It will be the case of 5 days surviving with nothing but my medical equipments in the unforgiving mosquitos-infested forest of western Singapore. As such, my pre-outfield syndrome starts to kick in, damping my morale to a new low, even though its the weekend. My cover officially starts on wednesday evening. I've experienced this kind of tormenting environments many times before in the past hence i will not wish to experience it for even one more time. Me fighting the boredom and the commando trained mosquitoes is a dreadful thing to do. Time seems to past very slowly during outfield and the mosquitoes seem to be a bigger enermy than any other human aggressors. In the morning, you battle the boredom, the weather, the heat waves, the houseflies....at night, you battle the mozzies in their fighter jets. Argh !!! And a few days later, your hair turns clay-ish, your nails stained with dirt, your face filled with grease....its horrible. Nonetheless, i will continue to encourage and motivate myself to survive through it. Winter signifies the arrival of spring. I can tell everyone, at least i am a MAN, i survive through these! At least i am honest and upright not to plan some crafty, scheming evil plots to dodge these outfields. At least i dont visit these place as often as the infantries, guards and commandos. At least i am only there to cover as a medic, and not to be physically involved in the manning of equipments. Or at least i am just consoleing myself. Weekend, its time to stock up my outfield comfort items, be it real physical relief or just psychological relief....insect repellents? books? tibits? Haiz....just want to tell my friends who have not been through NS that...if you think that your life as a student is tormenting enough, think of your friends hiding or camping in the forest (not Mas Selemat!!!), protecting SG. Oh well.

Pharyngitis

I am freaking sick now, after the weekend duty yesterday. Suffering from pharyngitis, i.e. sore throat. Must be too much karaoke on wed le. Now its complicated with running nose. Argh...have thoughts of taking MC outside but chosed not to because i am just too good a boy. Oh well...

追追追

Today damn crazy at Kbox. Initially tot of going topone but they were fully booked. So me and my friends went to Suntec Kbox instead. The usual hits were out again by each and everyone of us. But never did they expect me to start off with a Hokkien song by Jiang Hui called 落雨声. This spurred them on to start singing song2 hokkien songs like 一支小雨伞 and 要拼才会赢 . As a resort to win everyone, i made my first and most probably only attempt on this extremely extremely SONG2 hokkien song 追追追 by 黄妃 . Argh...its total mayhem. Damn funny. Anyway, the 5 hrs kbox session ended with everyone becoming mute. Anyway, here is a youtube video on the song which i sang. Damn funny and song2. Enjoy!

对自己的十大不满

人生无一切完美，往往会对自己生活的各个领域产生不满意之处。这种种不满，有些是自己能够控制的，有些则是认天由命，束手无策。起着完美主义的我也对自己多许不满，希望有朝一日能够填补生命中的这些瑕疵。

1· 样子长得不够帅

2· 身高比一般男子矮，只有166

3· 头脑没其他人灵敏，不够机智

4· 身体不够壮，瘦小身躯还囤积碍眼肥肉

5· 没养成健康习惯～饮食与运动方面欠缺

6· 不懂得与人socialize，社交圈子小

7· 胆小怕事，从小强到出门见识见识都怕

8· 没固定兴趣与嗜好，也没有什么过人之处

9· 斤斤计较的吝啬鬼，钱进口袋很难再出来

最后

10· 生活枯燥乏味又单调 ～ 还有6个月才ORD，身边又没有女朋友，钱又不多！

Random Day 12/09/08

The new stockcheck directive is so stupid! I spent the entire morning reading it and came out to the conclusion that its gonna make my life more difficult. Anyway, i did my first monthly stockcheck that is keyed into the system. The previous ones that i do were manual hand written ones so they werent really officer. Going back to camp tml for duty so i will continue from where i stop today.

Before dinner i went to the ATM to cash deposit my tuition fee earnings. Then i brought my new pair of grey coloured jeans which i bought a week ago at J8 bossini to AMK hub bossini alter. Its a free service anyway so why not make full use of it. Then went to NTUC to top up on my tibits supply to be brought into camp. Oh well, it will be 3 consecutive weekends burnt from now. At least its gonna make me save some money i hope.

New Blog Address

Hey guys, i've changed the official address of my blog to www.cmh-random-thoughts.blogspot.com !!! From now on, ye tian shi is HISTORY!!! Hahahaha. I've received feedback that the former address was kinda childish which i agree too. I adopted that name since like Pri 6 and used it for my blog address since i started blogging in 2003. You can date my first entry until now, this blog comes a long history. But as for now, this blog will move on, just like everyone of us, moving on in our different phase of life. I hereby declare the official change of address for my blog, please change your links to the new address. Thx!!!

Driving Test

After 5 months of practical lessons, its finally the day for me to reap what I sowed. And yes, its my driving test today ! Specially took a day off for this major event in my life. I started developing signs of stress such as diahorrea, stomach cramps and even fever one week ago with the condition escalating just yesterday when i felt weak throughout that i cant even climb out of bed. I wonder if these were just the product of my stress or i am really contracted with gastroenteritis.

I woke up this morning feeling the cramps in my stomach again. Damn. I looked out at the window praying that it will not be a rainy day...well its partly cloudy, as per my wish. I basically did nothing the entire morning even though i thought i may hit the pool for a swim, however gave myself the excuse of not wanting to tire my legs out during the test. I was emotionally feeling normal, or at least i tried to remain calm and normal. 11.30am, i walked out of my habitat and bought lunch at subway. I did not have breakfast. It could be due to the gastroenteritis again that i've lost my appetite.

After lunch, i slacked for a while longer and then took a bath before leaving for the driving centre. I reached at 2.30pm for my warm up session. I was one of the few early ones. The warm up session was okay, no major gross errors, it was rather a smooth one. I hope my test would proceed as smoothly, i prayed. Then the SSDC instructor brought me up to level 3 to wait where i waited for the examiners to claim us.

The wait was a rather long one, it makes my heart beat faster, then came the examiners who briefed everyone about the test. Computer balloting of testroutes and instructors gave me test route 8. Upon knowing i was to do test route 8, my heart sank. "Shit!" i said inside me. Its the shortest but most difficult test route of all - lane changing across 2 major roads with heavy traffic (AMK Ave 6 and Ave 5) with a very sharp u-turn of no stopline ! I knew i was done for it.

I followed the fierce-looking instructor down to the car i warmed up earlier on and then started out with the circuits. I was calmer than I thought i would be. Everything was smooth until i hit the roads. The examiner lambasted me at how slow i drove in this kinda road condition where every car is speeding for their life. Then he asked me to made a uturn infront (which was not the designated ones). Then i recalled what my friends said - dont memorise test routes, the examiners may not follow through the entire course. At this point, i analysed that i either drove too lousily or had one immediate failure that the test process must be cut shot so as not to waste time, or that my driving was okay and there isnt need for further assessment.

Nonetheless, as i tried to remain optimistic and returned to the circuit, just before i was about to turn into the gate, this pedesterian appeared from nowhere wanted to cross the gate but i did not notice her fast enough to slow down and merely just turn in. SHIT !!! I thought to myself, there goes many many points. Its that kinda mistakes you never wish you would have committed, or at least bumped into by chance during your test.

As my car pulled to a halt, i followed the tester into the room at level 3 waiting for my results. I was, again, suprisingly not feeling very panic or anxious, i was just, calm. With the results slip in his hand, he lambasted at me again for how i never hit gear 4 at the major roads outside and how i did not slow down for that lady pedestrian (curse her!!!) and then he handed me this...

I did not feel elated or relief upon receiving this when i saw the demerit points. As you can guess, I merely scraped through the test. I hid the demerit pts part so as to avoid gloating from others. I know its something not worth celebrating. If not for that cursed pedestrain that poped out from nowhere i could have scored MUCH better, she cost me 8 points!!! Damn, at least i passed, but sadly and disapointedly, a borderline one.

After coming out of the examiner office, filled with guilt and self blame, i was made to watch this 7 min long video on road safety and then queued for more than half an hour to register my license card. Because the pass will take a month or so to be made, i temporarily received this that certifies me legal to drive:

After the big woohaa that happened in the driving centre, i walked to AMK Hub where i spent $13 bucks on the probationary plate:

Well, at least i can drive my father's car from now. At least i passed.

Jeans + Mooncake Fairs

I bought a pair of grey colour jeans this afternoon which cost me $39 (original price $46 but i borrowed my sis' popular bkshop card which gave me 15% discount). I initially set aside $70 to buy John Mcmurry's Organic chemistry reference book but i've spent part of it on this pair of jeans. Well its the colour that i've been looking for, for quite some time, hence the opportunity cost of this pair of jeans will be the reference book. Guess i'll have for Sept pay day to gather enough money for that book.

Recently noticed the prevalence of mooncake fairs appearing at almost every single shopping mall in Singapore in celebration for the coming mid autumn festivals. I've visited Parco bugis, Takashimaya, J8, AMK Hub, Tampines Mall, etc and there were mooncake fairs in each and every of them. Surprisingly, the similarity of these fairs are that those participating retailers came from the same few top notch hotels like Marriot, Swissotel The Stamford, Orientol, Goodwood Park, etc. While the mooncakes on sales are largely similar, the eye catching part happens to be their packaging of mooncakes, getting more and more luxurious and delicate. Those traditional metal boxes used to store 4 mooncakes in the past were no longer in fashion now as the different retailers came out with their unique plastic/paper/cardboard boxes of striking colours and patterns that one would not bare to throw them away after consuming the mooncakes. It seemed like the various retailers are competing in terms of packaging than the mooncakes itself.

Wall E

Went to watch Wall E at The Cathey with Nel yesterday after work. Basically braved the rain while i made my way to the MRT where i caught a train down all the way to Dhoby Ghout. Was in a rush due to late last parade. The show was nice, overall. It is a rather family orientated cartoon which touched on topics like environment issues and also pure simple love. I love the cuteness of Wall e when he interact with Eva throughout the entire film. The scene started off with Earth being overwhelmed by rubbish and waste that it is no longer sustainable for life. The entire human race went onboard on a Multinational company branded spaceship that brought them to space to live for the next 700 years. Wall E the only surviving robot left on Earth was attracted to Eva who came to Earth to explore and search for plants and liveform. They eventually fell in love and Wall E tracked all its way to the spaceship when Eva was deactivated and brought back upon the discovery of a surviving plant. Back in the spaceship, the captain was surprised by the discovery of lifeform in Earth and wanted to head back home while it battled the "evil" computer generated advisor who suggests remaining in space. Eventually human beings were brought back to Earth with the aid of Wall E and Eva and they started learning how to lead a Earthing human life. It gave me an apocalyptic feeling at the end of the firm when human beings so used to technology in the outerspace and once belong to earth, had to relearn how to survive in earth like making fire and farming just like their first ancestors of the caveman era. I love how they inject humour and cuteness into the robots, specifically wall e, eva and the cleaner who cleans foreign-detected dirt. At large, i strongly recommand this film for all to watch, be it in the cinemas or at home "pirately" downloaded.

乒乓热

我国乒乓女队从北京奥运凯旋归来，掀起一股乒乓热潮。国人不止开始消遣打乒乓，也在茶余饭后谈乒乓。大家在给予乒乓选手热情掌声之余，也给予首争议性的乒乓事件热烈轰炮。这场风波，可说是闹得满城风雨，惊天地泣鬼神，被无辜牵连的球员们也是无时无刻处于尴尬场面，赢了奖牌也无法好好庆祝一番，真是可怜呆！事件终于在今早当事人（闹事人）的道歉下挂上句号，结束了几个星期的激烈争执。但是，凡走过必留下痕迹，凡被打过必留下瘀青，相信被卷入风波者应该还需要一些些时间心理疗伤，让一切沉淀下来。

好啦，不说这种敏感的话题了。我的兵营里也开始越来越多人在打乒乓。相信一切都是我医疗中心里的同僚们开始的吧。由于我的同事中有一位受过专业训练的校队选手，常常邀其他同事在有空时大乒乓，便慢慢的受到其他军队注意到。其他军队的士兵们也渐渐出现一些热爱打乒乓的玩者来抢地盘。其中，也出现了一些球技惊人的乒乓怪卡。这些怪卡都是前校队的球手，隐藏在兵营里茫茫人海中，但球技却是不可忽视。虽然知道自己更本无法跟他们相比，但看这些怪卡互相打起专业水准的球来，也是蛮精彩的。这几天本医疗中心来了三个新人，其中之一也是前校队成员！期盼观看他与另一位同事过招，甚至与其他怪卡来一场乒乓厮杀战，相信一定不敌在奥运现场观看球赛。这场乒乓热相信会在不久的将来继续燃烧，它也激励了我把自己没受过训练又不到半桶水的球技继续进步。加油！

十二莲花

上周末与好友到狮城大厦观看《十二莲花》。由于去年我们俩都看了陈子谦的《881》而给予高度欣赏，所以非常期待观看该导演今年的另一巨作。无奈的是，我们都对这部同样与歌台作为题材的本地电影感到失望。踏入戏院的那一刻，就明白传媒所报道关于《十二莲花》不卖座的新闻并非续传。戏院是空当的，只有不到十个观众入席。电影一开始就无法抓住我的注意力。本身虽然不是专业的影评人，但却苟胆发表我的观后言。我认为整部戏没有高潮。重开是到结束，就一直述说主要人物“莲花”的坎坷一生。从小莲花到少年莲花到大莲花，电影一直在做她们有多惨，看到我也好惨，有点浪费钱浪费时间的感觉。歌台的亮丽景象大大减少，没有比去年的《881》精彩。福建歌可是无时无刻，随时随刻伴奏演出，就算是吃饭化妆，只要有机会，主要演员就会开口唱，有如歌舞剧一样。到来最后，当大莲花被夺取母亲代代传下的名贵项链而被折腾到死去活来时回想起从小到大所经历的坎坷一生后就结束。我觉得这个结束有点突然，没好好交待结果。这就如初院时写GP作文的一个段落一样，有thesis，有elaboration，有很巩固的evidence，却没有一个很好的conclusion。因此，我建议要前去观赏的朋友们再三思。

我错了！

人非圣贤，孰能无过。一人一生的生涯中往往会犯错。而我，却犯下了滔天大罪版严重的错误。这关系到本人的专业，更关系到被牵挂的他人。等待面对“控状”的我开始为犯下的错而困扰，甚至茶饭不思。反省了很多，还是无法潇洒坦然的放下这件事。只因为我问心有愧，就算他人可不计较，本人也过不了自己良心这一关。看着这件事如意料到版的越闹越大，渺小的我顿时感到无奈无助。这一切只是短短的几分钟，却给我给他人刻下难以磨灭的伤痕。我好懊恼，也很忏悔。我知道这是我不应该犯下错，但却不知为何明知故犯，真是有点说不上去。大家都说，一个人犯了错，最重要是改过，从中吸取教训，并且得到大家都原谅。但是，就算得到他人的宽容的原谅，我却无法原谅自己，继续周旋在我个人的自卑感里。因为这一切，已重重地打击了我的自尊心与自信心。我无法振作起来，重回当年的光彩。我觉得我会继续地活在自造的罪恶感中，难以托生。会改过自新又如何，被宽恕了又如何，若自己无法原谅自己，过自己这一关，那将会是一错再错。我是一个自卑感很强的人，我很在乎他人对我的评价与观点，所以常常会努力把自己的本分做到尽善尽美，以得到他人的认同与赏识。我也从中培养起完美主义的自我要求。可能在他人眼中，我是个很优秀的，常常会把我当成一个目标。但是真实的我却是个彻底的失败者，因为我不重视自己。常听他人说，如果自己不重视自己的成绩，又如何让其他人重视自己呢？我认为，我这一路来所建立起的“美好形象”就这样被我无意犯下的这错给摧毁了。自卑的我，觉得从今天起，大家会以不一样的眼光看我，我不再是大家眼中的“质优生”了。所以说，这次的错严重地打击了我的自尊与自信。很懊悔！我错了！我会从中学习谦卑。我会牢牢记住这一天的教训，时时刻刻在脑里提醒自己做事要更加谨慎，三思而后行。

祝我生日快乐

“生日快乐，我对自己说。蜡烛点了，寂寞亮了。。。”

明天8月11日是本人20大寿。好啦，20岁并不算是什么大寿，只是另一年的生日。一年过一年，开始有点麻木了。尤其今年将从1字头迈入2字头的岁数，真的有点不期盼。不是因为怕老才这么说，而是觉得每年生日如依，没什么特别值得期待的，只不过是另外一天罢了。

记得小的时候很期盼生日的到来，尤其是幼稚园的时候，会要求家人准备一些糖果之类的玩意儿，将它们精心包装，然后带到幼稚园与大家分享。这可是当时幼稚园里的一种“习俗”，看到别人这样做，自己也要跟风。回想起来，也觉得那是有点无聊。这么做为得到的喜悦来至于分享的快乐，还是以父母的金钱换来一些别人给予“必须”的生日祝福？

到来小学、中学，然后初级学院，身旁的朋友给予的生日祝福也渐渐减少。由于自己“孤僻”又“慢热”的个性，所以很少交到友谊很深的朋友伙伴，自己常常也是同学群中一边的野草，不受瞩目，不受欢迎。所以生日时，祝福与庆祝也自然少了。不怪别人，也不会自责这是自找的，只是会在每年的今天决定一点点孤单，但这孤单也渐渐的随着时间淡化。

如今，每年的生日都是与家人度过。这也好，至少受到的祝福是真诚扎实的。并不是说这一路来给予我生日祝福的朋友们都是虚伪不真诚的。但是我觉得“今年祝你生日快乐，明年少或不见面后就忘记你存在”的例子太多了。还是朋友因为当天上网时刚好收到Friendster或Facebook的生日提醒时才临时寄送一则简讯祝贺。但我还是很感激一小群年年都记得本人生日的朋友，从不迟到的祝福，对于这，我非常感激，也非常感恩彼此存在的友谊。

生日嘛，也不是每年家人请吃一顿丰实的后就过来。没什么特别。自己也并不要求他人精心安排一场轰轰烈烈的世纪庆祝会。只是常常问自己这个问题“然后呢？”吃了一顿好的，然后呢？收了礼物嘻嘻哈哈的过一天，然后呢？轰轰烈烈的搞一场派对，然后呢？特别的这一天过去了，然后呢？我也无法回答这问题。是不是自己早衰早老化的问题，所以才有这种对自己生日不再重视的感觉？在接下来的几年，甚至会不会起厌恶？我也不知道。感激母亲辛苦把我生下，然后养大。其实生日应该是来感恩母亲的吧？感恩她当时经历精神上与肉体上的疼痛，把你我带到这世上。

现在距离生日，倒数不到一小时。我不要什么大庆祝，我只要平平静静的过这一天。。。

SHINE for Singapore

今天是国庆日，刚好碰到星期六，幸好兵营有补回一天假给我们，否则绝对会摧心肝。今早原本要去游泳享受太阳，但伙伴却令是退缩，所以觉得自己一个人游也好无聊，就打消了念头。今早被恶梦吓醒后，就听到刚好附近的联络所传来庆祝声。确实是居委会所举办的国庆观典。享用了早餐后就赶往乌节路那会见朋友唱K。没想到刚巧碰上另一位朋友也在那唱K。由于下午有教补习，所以本人体现离开。唱完K又教补习，可说是累坏了我的嗓子！教完补习后也已经是5点多钟了。外头正下着雨。这几十年的国庆日，好像没下雨呀，怎么今年那么特别。不应该是“晴空万里”的吗？哈哈。怎么天气那么不作美。扭开电视观赏国庆典礼。看着看着雨也渐渐停了。没想到天空也会“Shine For Singapore” ，不错不错。由于昨晚刚好看了北京奥运开幕典礼，壮观的场面难免让我拿来与今天的典礼相比。逊色多了。但，我觉得两者都共同具备了一样的信念，那就是把各自的表演做的最好，以表示对自己国家的致敬。夜色低垂，典礼的灯光效果璀璨夺目，果然是在“Shine for Singapore”。最后的压轴烟花表演也让人顿时心潮澎湃，国歌奏起，大家感谢与感激自己身为新加坡人。好了，本人就在此祝贺我国43岁生日快乐！

看完烟火再回去

国庆典礼总彩排，附近的滨海湾桥与鱼尾狮公园都挤满了人，想抢先偷看国庆典礼的烟花表演。在傍晚7时抵达鱼尾狮公园的我，陪伴着家人参与其中。目睹了空军部队战斗机的惊赞演出，实在令现场观众在捏把冷汗的同时赞叹不已。天渐渐暗了下来，在不远处的国情舞台灯火灿烂。虽然看不到舞台上的表演，但大众的心情是高昂的，期盼的就是那璀璨的烟火在眼前头上绽放。终于等到了8时左右，黑暗的天空被第一蕊烟花给装扮了，接踵而来的是5分钟不间断的烟火表演，在万众期待下激情引爆。亲眼目睹五彩缤纷的烟火近距离地点燃夜空，令人心潮澎湃。一盏盏红、黄、绿、金、等颜色的烟火争先恐后地从水面上不起眼的小船上往无尽的夜空奔放，再从高处引爆成莎莎雨点般的烟花，点燃狮城滨海湾的夜空。我抬头往像那热情奔放的烟火，它们仿佛像激光枪的子弹想我扫射，让我顿时呆住了。烟火表演结束后，大众激情地喝彩，表达自己的欣赏。没后悔面临现场，没后悔保持站立的姿势，在人海拥挤的人潮中苦等1小时。我带着满足却不舍的心情离去。。。

生活平井

生活到了一个平井，实在的闷！还有大约7至8个月才退伍，好希望那天快点到来。7月也到了个结尾，8月即将来临！很快的，生日将要到来，20岁生日，希望过个不一样的生活。至于现有枯燥乏味的日子，也希望早日有所突破。

Dilbert Comics

I've borrowed a few Dilbert comics for my own leisure reading and time wasting during outfield covers. I simply love this comic because the content is totally relevant to my current working environment hence allowing me to relate to them. From office politics to superior-subordinate relationship to work management, they are all perfectly fictionised in this wonderful comic strips. Because i can draw parallels between it with my work life, they never fail to make me laugh. Characters like Pointy-hair boss, Alice, Dilbert, Intern Asok, Dogbert, Catbert can all be compared to people in my medical centre, just that i wont want to mention who is who. Personally my favourite character is Dilbert for his sacarsm towards everyone else and also Catbert the evil HR director for his funny anti-employee policies just to satisfy his sadistic tendencies. As such, you can see how these office politics can drive normal people crazy. Sadly i am also a victim of it.

青年节

放长周末假期，今天算是最后一天，明天就得回兵营报到。刚好今天是青年节假期，难怪我家那年龄最小的没上学。今早出门也碰到很多学生。 想起来，自己好久没有过青年节了。虽然说自己芳龄19（附加几个月，因为今年过来生日后就迈入20岁关口），但想起最后一次庆祝青年节是中学时候，那时学校还有庆祝典礼来欢庆天下年轻人的青春。到了初院就没什么庆祝，因为刚好碰到年中考试。

所谓青春是短暂的，不饶人的岁月会匆匆地把每人的青春时代带走。所以，我们应该要好好地珍惜这宝贵的十几二十年，错过了，再也要不回来。这时的我开始思考，自己是否在蹉跎青春。为什么这样说？因为我觉得自己并没在进行与享受其他年轻人正在享受的。看看我身旁的朋友吧，看他们是进行什么活动：户外行的会玩足球、篮球、到圣淘沙沙滩享受阳光，宅男行动会玩电动、网上游戏、搞音乐如吉他打鼓等，狂欢行动会泡夜店。。。而我，没什么兴趣，偶然唱唱K，看看电影，逛逛街，生活好无趣哦！

这也怪不得人们把我形容为闷骚。身边好朋友也没几个。常常一天到晚呆在家。偶尔陪家人走走。。。真是所谓的"no life"。但若要我去踢球泡夜店的，进行一些自己不喜欢没兴趣的活动，又对不起自己。好乱喔! 我也搞不懂自己啦！只希望往后回头看，不会觉得自己浪费了青春。算了，祝天下年轻人青年节快乐！

TP Here I Come !!!

Took off today and managed to snatched a mid-morning driving lesson slot which i attended. Today's lesson officially marked my end of the learning phase, i.e. module 1 to 3. Now i am left with the last module which is revision and preparing for the ultimate TP - 31, 32 and 33 !!! Though i am rather not confident, but i am keen for my TP day to arrive - 8th Sept HERE I COME !!!

Ok, afternoon i had nothing on so i went swimming with JL who also happened to be on off. Tml sat my colleagues (forcefully) jio me go clubbing but i havent decide on whether to go. Basically i've not gone clubbing before. I do not enjoy loud music (or shd i say noise) and my parents dislike me to reach home late, not to mention clubbing = reach home in the wee hours like 3 to 4am? Sure kena hanged. Nonetheless i feel that i've grown so old and yet to experience what clubbing is like. So its quite a dilema here.

Anyway i am on off until monday. Returning to work on Tue morning to be greeted by a reservist MO who according to Seabass who already ORD-ed, he is very very fierce. Oh well, gd luck to me. As for now, i shall concentrate 100% on enjoying my off !!! Bye !!!

Long Time No See

Oh well, i guess i am back from a hiatus of blogging for the past few weeks. I've been very busy. Apart from covering a 4 days outfield (suddenly thrown to me) and lots of weekend duties, i've yet to get sufficient rest. Oh well, there is so much i want to blog about but i do not know from where and how to start. But anyway, i shall continue blogging this weekend when i have more time and also, more substantial and concrete things to blog about. Bye.

PC Show 2008 + Incredible Hulk

Went to visit PC show this afternoon with my ex-colleagues. It was chaos there. Didnt manage to get anything out of it. It was quite a waste trip. We initially thought of watching Incredible Hulk somewhere near there but was kind of discouraged by the crowd. In the end we went back to AMK Hub for the movie. The movie was kind of okay, just that at many times the sound was too loud for me. After the movie, i went dinner with my family and bought 1 shirt and 1 cartigan at a total price of $22. Okay, tml i will have to report to camp for duty. This coming week will be a long one. Hopefully the crisis in the medical centre can 守得云开见月明。

Friday The 13

The spotlight is on my medical centre for setting the record of having the most BOI and creating the most trouble in the corp. This made CO extremely unhappy with us and hence everyone else including CO is going to come down hard on us. A surprise visit by CO excavated so much problem in us that questioned our capability in handling the calls of needs. The absence of our MO due to a very long oversea trip has seen the work ethic of the med ctr deteriorate to a devastatingly record low level. The recent passing of 2 servicemen has turned the spotlight to us medical service providers - are we competent enough to handle such serious cases? The rippling effect of this would be stronger emphasis on our work procedures, medical skills and also daily 4 man drill, which were kind of ignored during "time of peace". A 4 man drill done this morning has surfaced our level of incompetency in handling urgent medical cases. Everyone was just too rusty after a long period of hiatus (of 4 man drill). As part of the 4 man drill this morning, i also felt hopelessness in the way we handle a mock casualty, so to speak for a real one. I agreed with my store ic that we should have daily 4 man drill to sharpen our skills. He commented that, rather than being ticked off for being incompetent while performing a long-time-no-do drill, it would prove better to do the drill daily to ensure our performances were of tip top condition. At least at the end of the day, we learn. While personally, as a NSF, i do prefer a slacker life in my 2 years serving, but sometimes, we should just never take the easy way out in some procedures. What must be done, must be done. While it still makes my blood boils to see one or two of my colleagues totally display no sense of commitment during work, causing the rest of us to do their portion of work, it serves as a mirror for me to reflect on my work ethics as an individual. Well, i admit i have alot of room for improvements, especially in my medical skills wise. While it is just 2 years of serving in the NS, but i have landed myself in one of the most useful vocation. Just like the saying goes, no one is here by chance. As a medic, after i ORD or ROD, when in times of need to the people around me, i have to believe that i CAn make a difference. Rest assure i've not been totally brainwashed, but it is just another random entry nothing to do with the title itself. Happy Friday the 13...


PS: Happy birthday to our dear docu IC - JM !!!

Kungfu Panda

Went for dinner and movie after work with one of my SMTI friend last evening. Basically full gear bitching about camp's work during dinner at PS Cartel and then went for movie at The Cathey which cost each of us a bomb in the tix. Watched the animated movie Kungfu Panda. All i can say is, it is really made suitable for children. But whats better than a brainless laugh after work where you need to stress about 101 things every now and then. Reached home around 11.30pm. I slept...

Karaoke @ Topone KTV + GSS 2008

Went karaoke with my friends at Topone KTV yesterday. It was my first visit there, just like the rest of my company, but we had fun. At least we found another good place to K in the future. Well, immediately after giving tuition yesterday, i had a quick shower and rushed down to Bugis to join the rest of my friends who already booked in earlier on at Topone. I had no trouble locating it and immediately joined in the fun as i proceeded up via the lift to 3rd storey and entered room 302. The room was rather small, compared to the usual rooms i got during my visits to Kbox. Nonetheless, the ambience was there and the songs were pretty updated. The thing about the song chosing system in Topone is, it has a console at the corner of the room for us to chose our songs. As the screen was rather large, i was rather tempted to use it like a touch screen console but was constantly reminded by the rest that there was a "keyboard" for me to press. The system was rather user-friendly, though there would be certain degree of unfamiliarity at the start.

Another thing about Topone was the endless free flow of drinks we can enjoy. However, it was only limited to the 6 types of cordial drink which tasted rather diluted. Well, at least we got ourselves fairly hydrated to the extent of frequent toilet usage. It was made known that we can change the ambience and stuff of the room by pressing the console keyboard, for e.g. disco, soft, stage, etc. Nonetheless, no matter which ambience button i pressed, all seemed the same to me, i.e. no observable changes. What bothered me the most was the smoke button where once pressed, there should be smoke coming out from all corners of the room to give those high class seventh-month getai feel. No matter how many times i pressed, there was no smoke. It was later figured out the smoke function wasnt functioning as stated in all other rooms when Jas made a sneaky attempt to enter other rooms after the session to try the button.

One thing i love about Topone was that I can change the key of the songs. I was rather bothered by the fact that most male singers' songs were of too high key for me while most female singers' songs too low. Hence, it allowed me to sing at a comfortable key by having the power to dictate the key of my fave songs sang yesterday. On our way out of the place, i felt that the lift smelt of bbq food only to realize a steamboat stall at level 1 which was the likely source of contribution to that. Overall, the karaoke experience at topone was rather nice, given the long hours we have, the freeflow of drinks and the price of 20bucks nett.

After K, we went across the road to Parco Bugis for dinner followed by shopping. As it was Saturday night, in compliment to Great Singapore Sales 2008, the crowd present was remarkable. We did a fair share of shopping at Parco Bugis where everyone except me got something. Well, i have to defend myself for that, quoting the reason that i am a very difficult shopper. I would walk around the mall 3 rounds surveying every stalls' quality and price before settling down to what i should buy (though most of the time i did not buy anything in the end). Furthermore, when i see clothes or apparals that attracted me, the first thing i would look out for is the price. If it was above my budget (most of the time they were), i would give up and continue looking other place. Hence that explains all why you all should not go shopping with me. I was specially taken to attention to the fact that some mid-to-high range branded stalls offer lousy quality apparels and clothes at extremely high price - totally not worth the purchase. Nonetheless, they still receive high degree of patronage hence i shall not further comment on the stupidity of these consumers.

Oh well, i took off on fri and will be on off tml (monday). I managed to book a driving lesson tml morning 8.15am last minute-ly, after my auto driving lesson today. Did i even mention how easy to drive auto cars are? There will (likely) be new medics coming in tml which i do not have the privilege to meet them first-handed. Oh well, things are getting mundane. Its time to spice up my life !!!

National Runway Cycling & Skating

2008 National Runway Cycling and Skating organised by SAFRA and PLAB was held at PLAB runway this morning. And i was one of the fortunate few RSAF medics involved in the cover for this event. We were basically deployed out in the runway in seperate First Aid post, each far apart. Me and Jeremy were paired for post 8, which was situated somewhere in the mids of the runway.

The day before when we gathered at the medical centre for briefing and recee of the ground, which happened to be my first time entering a runway, i realised how large a runway was. Basically when our minibus took off for the runway, driving from one end to the other to show us our various first aid post, i was shocked to know its size. I could hardly see the end of the runway and i felt as though the bus was going to take off into the air as it sped down the runway. We were briefed of all sorts of possibilities in terms of types of casualities, major or minor and hence it was our responsibility to keep on a constant lookout.

This morning, we all assembled at the medical centre at 6am sharp. I woke up at 5am, which was very very early. Upon arrival, we had our arrival, a quick last brief and off we went to the various allocations. Just before we were deployed, there was a quick rain which sort of cooled down the area but soon enough, the sky was cleared and the sun rose as usual. Standing in the mids of the vast runway, i could roughly spot the carnival tentages and estimate the crowd. All our first aid points were unshelthered which means we stood in the middle of the runway with our stores only, braving any sort of weather that torments. I believe that there could be a higher chance for us to get heat injury than any of the cyclist or skaters.

At 8.30am, the sun was up and everyone gathered at the starting point. The ground was just starting to warm up. As the GOH flagged off the participants, i see a big flock of them raced off from the starting point. The race had 3 categories - family route (shortest), leisure route (15km) and endurance route (>50km). Me and jeremy witnessed them cycled past us. Cyclists and skaters of all sorts, competitive and non. We even spotted familiar faces. The event was grand.

Soon enough, it was around 11am. The sun was almost directly and vertically above us. We were all sweating like pigs. All the participants ended their tour around 11.30am and we were all asked to stand down. A minibus came to pick us up from various deployment grounds and we were back to the medical centre where lunch and a small debrief beckoned.

In summary, i think it was really a great experience for me. Not only is it my first time entering an airbase runway but also my first time covering a big public event where i had the chance to attend to and interact with the civilian casualties of all ages (fortunately for me, they were all of minor bruising and abrasions) which i do not have the opportunity to in camp. I even attended to a 7 year old girl for cuts and abrasions. Seeing smiles of gratitute from the people we attended to gives us a genuine sense of satisfaction.

蚊子咬咬

刚从传闻中的双溪阁栋军营与外野cover回来，被当地的蚊子与sandflies咬到不堪。尤其是我脖子前那没被军服遮住的部分，更是被咬到起肿，有如蜂症病似。相信这几天一定很多人会“关心”地问我那儿发生什么事。好痒呀! 4天3夜的外野受训，真叫我这个城市男子吃不消，回来那霎那，直接往厕所冲去清洗一番。

明天早上得到PLAB报道，attend这星期天runway cycling的briefing。之后可能会和同事吃午饭，可能与朋友去游泳。这周的忙碌，就有来临星期一与二请的假来补回吧。好了，就让我这个四天没睡觉的人去好好仆从睡眠。晚安!

Finally Promoted !!!

Yay !!! I'm finally promoted, after the tough fighting by my MO (and me). Well, at least one thing off my mind and i wont be bothered by peers and friends asking me why am i still a PTE or a LCP. I went Golden Mile to sew rank on 3 of my number 4 and 1 number 3. Basically took this hassle because i do not trust those neighbourhood PRC tailors who do not know the SAF standard. I still have 2 more number 4 in camp which i will sew next week if i have the time.

I gave a miss to 2 social gatherings this weekend because i do not have the time and mood to attend. One being my colleagues clubbing outing to Dbl-o and another my class outing at ECP.

The weather for these few days quite good so i still managed to find time for a swim ytd. Done my haircut and then attended driving lessons as usual. Had no time to play Cabal which i installed last week. Tml will be in camp doing Vesak Day duty which i shall spend doing my May'08 Dispensary Stockcheck. Will be going on a 3 days 3 nights outfield cover at the legendary ulu ulu Gedong this coming week which i fear and dread. Oh well.

Just went to AMK Hub to stock up my tibits supply for this coming week and the outfield. Initially went to the lib, trying to borrow some books for the outfield to spend time but didn manage to find any because i simply dont read books. Anyway, after the week long outfield will be runway cycling cover this coming weekend. Busy busy week ahead.

Driving

Heh, just received the news that SSDCL will be moving to its new premises in Woodlands in April 2009, which is less than a year from now. Hopefully i am able to get my license before it ever moved there. Currently halfway through my driving course, lets hope its smooth sailing. If by then haven get license i dont know how liao le...because it is said that trainees will have to resume training in the unknown ground of woodlands if they have yet to attained their license by the time of moving. Jasmine told me she failed her driving test again. It is her 3rd or 4th one, i am not sure. Just as i joked to her i am catching up with her and might get my license earlier than her, i fear for the worst that i suffer the same fate as her since i have brain-hand-leg coordination difficulties. Hahaha. Oh well...lesson resumes this afternoon, lets hope i can learn fast, pass fast...

Swim ~ Sun ~ Tan =)

The weather these few days were HOT. I guess its going to be hotter these coming few days. So hot that i have to seek shelther in aircon room. Just booked out from med ctr this morning and went for a swim with long-time-no-see JL at yishun. Oh man, the amount of sun casted upon us was encouraging. Had some suntan lotion applied on us and we remained in e pool for an hour or so. Thankgoodness i applied the suntan lotion if not i would be burnt. I am enjoying every bit of the sun, the swim, and of coz the babes!!! Ok, waiting for driving lesson now. This month 5 weekends burnt wor, including yesterday's duty. Haiz....and can anyone quench my aggrevating kbox thirst???

Tired

Don't know why these few days returned home from work feel damn shag and mentally drained. Maybe its because i am growing old. Yar, entering the 20s club soon in a few months time. Soon enough all of you can call me uncle instead of gor gor. Haha.

May timetable is out, its bad. Lotsa outfield and weekend duties. I still object to the idea of sending 2 medics for the same oversea exercise but its the higher authority's final decision so i shall not challenge it. We will just be in deep shit la, with manpower shortage after 3 ORD, 2 gone overseas and 2 starting to clear off. When the 2 come back from overseas, they will be clearing off also, so its rather taxing on the rest. Whatever lar, i should learn from YS, saying "its not in my scope of concern" but then its way too early for me to say that. Helping with the oversea stores for the drugs part. I plea to them not to touch the drugs because i do not want to mess up my stock balance. I will help them gaodim everything swee swee from head to toe for the drugs part. Kind of hard and restricting on them but i have no choice. Its either they die in the shortrun or i die in the longrun.

These few days no time to exercise. Arh, fk...damn unfit already. Maybe the reason for my recent shag-ness is my physical inactivity. Whatever.

那些女孩教我的事 + 传说

身为“Emo教主”的我为你介绍最近本人非常喜欢的两首新歌：《那些女孩教我的事》品冠 与 《传说》林宥嘉&刘力扬。请洗耳恭听！

好久不见

天啊，真的好久没有上网blog了！这几个星期过的还好，就是每天如常上班，下班，周末教补习，学车。好无聊哦！真的没什么可以分享的。怎么办。。。既然没话说，就干脆不说算了。哈哈！！！

Ken Lee

After working for 3 months and more with my dedicated Dispensary 2IC Ken Lee in CPMC, i find him to be a very hardworking, dedicated and outstanding colleague of mine. I am really glad to know him as a person, as a colleague, as a friend. As such, being CPMC's dispensary IC, i shall specially dedicate the following video to my favourite 2IC Ken Lee =)

$10 Cut

Alright, i am always skeptical about those $10 haircuts which sprouted all around Singapore's neighbourhood centres and shopping malls. It is now a past phenomenon but their presence still prevails significantly. I wanted to go back to my usual barber shop for an haircut (juz b4 my MO can nag at me to do so) but upon arriving, i realized it was closed. Hence, i LLST have to visit the $10 cut at AMK hub near my house to get my hair done.

As i decend from the escalator, my eyes started observing the $10 cut shop, my mind still filled with skeptism, thinking could they do a good job. But out of desperate measures, i have to patronize them. As i enter the shop, the barber, or wadever u call them, greeted with a smile as i slot my only $10 note left in my wallet to the money eating machine that vomitted a card as a "by product" of its money meal. I was offered a sit where then i told her i need to have a cut, make it short, sides must not touch the ears and stuff because of NS. I added that the fringe can be shorter but plz help me layer my hair so that i can style during weekends. Without much hesitation, the barber started processing on my hair.

The time taken for my hair to be cut was real damn short. The outcome was satisfactory but i feel the sides were abit too high. But its much better than my worst thought - too ugly that i needa shave my head. The barber handed me my free comb and i walked out thanking them, in my mind thinking if i look okay with this new haircut... ...

赶场

Ytd was a busy day for me because i had to rush to meet 3 different groups of friends from morning till evening. Lets talk about the morning one, i took a train to Marina Sq to meet up with Wil, 大只and phee for K lunch because Wil just came back from Thailand a few days ago and will be flying for Taiwan today. So yes, the K lunch was satisfactory except that i get to strain my vocal cords a little by singing the more difficult songs like 你是我的眼 and 一眼瞬间.

After K lunch i rushed to vivo to meet up with my CPMC colleagues. They basically went sentosa that morning to celeb farewell for 大牛who will be going for his BMT recourse. But on my way to vivo, they told me they were coming back from sentosa hence sparing me a trip to sentosa. I guess the sentosa trip has turned them into lobsters as they were so freaking red after much exposure under the sun. Had lunch with them till evening where i rushed to meet up with my lower sec classmates.

First met Jas at Harbourfront MRT and then the rest drizzled in. The turn up rate was disapointing but the most impt thing is, i am not the organiser so its not in my scope of concern. We had dinner at James' fave Whitedog cafe which cost us quite a bomb but its ok. Oh well, i can tell that my e5 exclassmates were still relatively the same so theres not much to comment about.

After the dinner i went home to watch my fave 超级星光大道2. Today and tml on off. Yes, clearing off by order of snr medic. Now i fuck care bout manpower problem in e med ctr for this month coz its clear off month. I've done my outfield oso le. So yeah, later got driving lesson. Ciaos.

I Cooked Fish & Chips !!!

Ok, i confess i am a great cook. Haha. Yeah rite. I prepared dinner tonight, which was fish and chips. This is the first time i am trying to cook this and it turns out to be a success. I basically transferred what i learnt on TV about cooking chicken cutlet on the frozen fish bought from coldstorage and it turned out fine. Yay!

Firefly + Rejection

Just came back from a 3 days outfield at Simpang area. It is always excrucinating for me to go outfield for i cant stand the boredom and deprivation of both tangible and intangible comfort. Nonetheless, it widened my "myopic" sight and experience as i got to, for the first time in my 19 years of life, come in contact with Firefly ! The occasion occured around 7pm during my first night out there as i was resting in the tonner facing the bush. As the sky darkened, i spotted specks of lights appearing on and off around the bushes. Upon closer observation, these lights started to fly about randomly only to my realization that these are actually fireflies. These beautiful little creatures never came across my thought that they exist in Singapore, a relatively hot and humid habitat. They were actually smaller than i thought, or perhaps they were smaller version due to the harsher condition here. But these little shining creature served as a form of consolation to my "terrible plight" of being stuck outfield.

I got back home only to find a letter lying on my study table. Upon opening it, i got a letter that reads disapointment into my eyes. Its a letter from MOE telling me that my application for the teaching award is unsuccessful. At that instance, i just stared at the letter blankly. I was rather surprised, after that, with my reaction for i felt no dispair nor disapointment. Perhaps i did not take the application too deeply, or perhaps i was too numb. But still, it took some time before a little disapointment set in. Its not for the money but for the recognition, pride, honor and prestige that matters to me. I think my friend and colleague Kenneth has a high chance of getting it for he is more charasmatic than me and can better express himself to impress the interviewees. This natural charisma is a very vaulable asset of his which i do not have. It is hard not to feel a little sour if he gets it and not me despite my "better academic results" but as a good friend of him (i treat him like my bro) i truthfully congratulate him and wish him the best. I will be happy for him, really. As such, i should now work learning to put this chapter of my life to an end and carry on with my life, you know, move on. As i said in my MSN nick, I didnt manage to get it, but its ok...人总要从挫折中学习更坚强 .

Am going for a long break soon. I took off on monday and tuesday hence i will only return to work on wed. Long weekend. Perhaps i need some time to take a break, reflect on my life all these while before recharging and moving on. Yes, move on, I WILL move on...

好久不见！

I reckon that i've been blogging less during this period of time. Well, i guess i couldnt find the time to do so. Lets see whats there to blog with regards... Nothing really. Haha. Just a few more outfield this few weeks and this coming week i shall have a super long one. Oh, i've borred books from the library to keep myself occupied during the period of time. But still i must emphasize that i hate outfield cover, i would rather be in my med ctr doing stuff.

Just now after swimming, i accidentally dropped my phone in the changing room and the battery came out. Oh dear. The last time i dropped it was one day after it was bought and the same thing happened. And more importantly for this time, the floor is wet. Thankgoodness there is no instant death taking place.

I've accumulated up to a record high of 18 offs-in-lieu and i have to clear them in April, because the limit is 10. Thats it, after the one week long of outfield it would be mass spamming of off. MO says he will fight for my promotion, as well as for ah fu and seabass. Hopefully i get my well-deserved promotion now that i've met all criterias. Its really embarassing when my friends asked me about my current rank.

I think i am getting more and more unfit now after i passed my IPPT weeks ago. Oh well, i guess its exercise time. I must start psycho-ing myself that daily playing of table tennis after work with my colleagues is not equal to exercise. At least not to much of an extent.

There are more new songs and albums coming this period of time. I'm so excited. We have 吴克群、戴爱玲、张栋梁、何耀珊、五月天、etc, publishing new songs. Finally a reasonable surg of new songs after a drought period.

Anyway, QY and Wil came back from Thailand and they bought me a shirt from Thailand. So sweet of them. Haha. But they are leaving for Taiwan next week so we do not really have enough time to really go out or something. Oh well, dont really envy their army life. Still guess life as a medic in a med ctr still rules, and i get combat pay too...just that sometimes the units around have some slightly unreasonable request that we have to comply to thats all.

Ok, thats all for today, shall attempt to blog more next week after my one week long outfield. Bye !!!

Breakthroughs

Ok, the news is out, no more Maple Flag. Coz the medic attached will not come from CPMC. So no more fights over it.

Took IPPT with Ah Fu on monday. I'm glad to announce after 5 to 6 years of failing, i finally passed - w/o prior training. I do not know how, i do not know why, but all i can say is, i took it with a normal heart (平常心) and so i guess the 得失心 isnt that great hence i manage to barely scrape through i guess. So that good, ready for promotion le.

Did a very quick stockcheck on Tues night...did until midnight. Shag. Then 2 consecutive days of duty medic somemore. 大伤精神!

Wed took half day off to apply PDL. On my way to SSDCL it rained heavily and i am terribly drenched the time i got there.

Today is the day, where 2 impt events occured in my life. First, my MOE Teaching Award interview this morning. My father drove me to MOE HQ this morning and it jammed the entire journey there, coupled with the tormenting rain. I was the first interviewee to reach, followed by 3 other. I thought i dressed too simple - long sleeve white shirt founded up and black pants. Waited until 9.10 for interview. Being the first to be interviewed, i was trying to hide my nervousness. Furthermore i didnt prepare for the interview. I just told myself 平常心、平常心、平常心! And yes, i managed to remain my compost throughout the interview. However i guess i didn manage to impress the interviewers. I really cant describe how i fair because i myself have no idea. It is like...in a split second i am answering their qns and next, i am done with the interview. After which, i got this 6th sense feeling that i didn make it. Its like...i didn really perform well enough to sell myself infront of the interviewers. So i guess what i can do now is to keep my fingers cross and hope for the best.

In the evening, i went for my first driving lesson at SSDCL. The instructor was quite okay, but because of my slow pace in learning, i guess i quite irritated him. For half an hour, i repeatedly drive forward n backward. Next, i was told to drive around the circuit which i am not, at that point, mentally prepared for. But i managed to continue my next 1.5 hours driving round and round the circuit until the sky darkened. Basically i was not that sure of the techniques like which pedal to depress first and stuff which i think led to some fustration amongst the 2 of us. Managed to complete my first lesson w/o knocking down anyone, nevertheless to say, kill anyone. Thats quite an achievement i guess. Hahaha. Abit stressful. Oh yes, i ran into Hongjin aka Mother Hong, after the lesson. She going to take her test next tues. Gd luck to her.

Tml morning have Kbox session again. Yay. Hopefully its successful. Ok, thats all. Once again, i really hope i got the scholarship ad hopefully i get to master the techniques of driving soon enough.

SBF

This morning just when i was about to leave the house to apply my PDL, i received a call from mindef notifying me that i've been mobilised. Mixed feelings. Sian being my entire saturday will be wasted by going back to camp. Relief being SBF would finally be over after today and i do not need to live my weekends with worries.

Anyway, MO announced that one medic from our med ctr will be picked for the oversea exercise in Canada. It is the most "prestigious" oversea exercise and instructions from CO is to pick the "most deserving" medic. I know alot of my colleagues are eyeing this exercise for a long time, esp the specs. For me, i do not have any keen interest in going overseas for exercise but for this exceptional case, i really feel some inclination to go for it. I mean how often you get the chance to go so far, to Canada and experience the beautiful scenery there. Definitely a very wonderful experience. Furthermore the trip is fully paid by SAF which makes the opportunity even more rare. Well, alot of the specs are interested which means i have lower chance of being picked. Coz i am not a spec. I was like thinking, getting a man to represent sg for the exercise cover in canada seemed very awkward. Furthermore, i think one or two of the specs that expressed interest are "more deserving" than me to represent my medical ctr, namely Jeremy and my 2IC Kenneth. I will be happy for them if they get picked and i will voiced by support for them to the MO. On the other hand, i feel like giving it a try and maybe if i really got picked, that really shows how much the med ctr recognises my performance, skills and knowledge. So its quite a dilema for me here.

IQA

IQA was held last tues. Fortunately enough, CPMC passed. At least one thing off our mind.

Wed went for 18DA heli lift outfield cover. Due to the rain, the outfield was dragged until very late. Hence i only returned back to med ctr when sky falls. Basically was stoning under the rain the entire day.

On Thurs, i received a call from MOE saying i was shortlisted for the MOE teaching award interview. Woohooo. So happy. And i was to fax in my O and A lvl results and testimonials in by the next day. My 2IC kenneth also got the notification. Congrats to him also. Now both the dispensary IC (me) and 2IC are done for e interview. Woohoo. Nice. It will be on next thurs morning to afternoon. Wish me all the best man. Hopefully i am able to get that scholarship and thus lessen the financial burden of my parents on my future uni fees.

IPPT on thurs cancelled due to rain. Postponed to monday....thinking bout it makes me even depressed. Giv me a sense of failure....

This morning CPMC had its very first master parade. Very lame i know but what to do. Smart 4, beret, kiwi-ed boots, medic arm band...well, you tell me what you think about it.

Might have recall tml morning, which means i may not have time to apply PDL tml for sunday's first driving lesson. Quite panicking. Coz i might face being screwed by my instructor, on my very first lesson. So i put my sunday morning lesson on trysell hopefully able to if not i will be screwed. Lucky enough it was successful hence i booked next sunday afternoon.

Now i shall wait for tml's recall. Hopefully sunday can go NUS open hse (aka my future school) kope freebies, see cute girls and walk walk see see.

Anyway, this whole week i mood swing. Sometimes happy more of the time depressed. Haiz. Someone please cheer me up. Very much appreciated. Argh !!!!