Inferiority Complex

Months ago, Nelson asked me if anyone told me i had inferiority complex. At that instance, i do not know what it was. Hence, i checked up wiki and here were the results.

As i read through the explanation and "symptoms" of inferior complexity, i realized that they matched how i feel about the people around me. Indeed, all along i felt inferior to the people around me, from my classmates to my colleagues to my relatives, i think i am just not good enough to be compared to them, in other words, inferior.

During my sch days, i always think my results and CCA achievements were not as outstanding as my peers.

Currently in NS, i feel even more inferior to my colleagues in CPMC for reasons of rank, fitness, appearance, intellegence, experience, hardworking-ness, attitude, qualifications, etc... I just think they are more outstanding than me, deserving more credit than me, more achieving than me.

Many a times i just feel like a nobody where people will look down on me. Although i know most of the time this is a "false impression", but i just cant get myself out of these negative thoughts. I just feel extremely uncomparable and inferior to my peers...

What a failure i am...

洋葱

For the past few months i've been spamming onions emoticons on my MSN...

Just nice Aska Yang from One Million Star sang a song specially for my fictionised onions...



So.....



RUN ONIONS RUN !!! Before they 一层一层一层的剥开你的心 !!!

熄灭

烟火。。。熄灭
灯火。。。熄灭
蜡烛。。。熄灭
梦想。。。熄灭

有人说，天上一颗行星的熄灭，等于凡间一个生命的结束。。。

行星。。。熄灭
生命。。。熄灭

行星如此巨大。。。燃烧。。。燃烧。。。猛烈的燃烧。。。

热得发红，发黄，发紫。。。

生命。。。宝贵。。。恩赐。。。燃烧
生命在燃烧。。。燃烧。。。燃烧。。。
是巨大。。。还是渺小???

行星。。。巨大。。。宇宙中却是渺小。。。
生命。。。重大。。。世界里如此渺小。。。

熄灭了。。。熄灭了。。。

生命停止。。。梦想停止。。。希望停止。。。精神熄灭。。。一切停止。。。

一颗行星一旦“死去”，遗留下的气体将形成另一颗新星行。。。
一个生命一旦“死去”，尘归尘，土归土。。。另一个生命又在世界的另一角诞生。。。

是停止，还是延续？

窗外的霓虹灯永远不会熄灭。。。点燃漆黑夜空。。。

CMH's Ang Pow Revenue

Question: Discuss the trend of CMH's angpow revenue for the past 10 years. [5 Marks]

Answer:

- General trend = annual ang pow revenue shows an overall falling trend over the period between 1998 to 2008 [1]

- Refinement = Slight increase in angpow revenue b/w 1998 and 1999 as well as b/w 2001 and 2002. Rate of fall steady over the period b/w 2002 to 2008. [0.5]

- Possible Supporting Reason 1 = Inflation without pay rise between the period of 2002 to 2008 causes people to spend more on daily consumption hence lesser savings hence lesser tendency to "wrap bigger angpow". (Quote inflation rate increase) [1]

- Possible Supporting Reason 2 = Recession period b/w 2000 and 2003 caused by series of events such as 911 and SARS outbreak causes people to have lower value asserts on hands hence lesser tendency to spend more on angpow. [1]

- Counter Reason = Reason 2 is ontry true b/w 2000 to 2003 - does not support continual falling trend from 2003 to 2008. Country experiencing growth between 2005 to 2008 hence people better off hence by right, should "wrap bigger angpow". (Quote growth rate increase) [1]

- Conclusion + Analysis = Though macroeconomic factors affect general trend of angpow revenue, internal factors also affect so. These include people's attitude towards "wrapping big angpow" and "relative visiting rate" also contributes to the overall falling trend. [0.5]

大年除夕，百花齐放！

今天是大年除夕，再多几个小时，我们将会送走猪年，迎来鼠年，十二生肖也算是走了多一轮。

Anyway, just let me continue this entry with english. Last night, my family made a last minute dash to the nursery 年华市场 to buy flowers. We went to this ulu ulu but big nursery at jalan kayu. Inside 的flower鲜艳夺利、百花齐放、玲琅满目、五花八门、鸟语花香、etc. We bought quite some plants, some for ah ma as well.

This pot of 水仙 is one of the 3 pots we bought. One gave ah ma, two we keep. The thing is, it is only sold at 3 for $10. Well, dun see that its still far away from blooming. The secret to let it bloom fast is to add ice to it. The next day sure bloom until dunno wad.

This pot of bamboo is my sis want to buy de. It is planted in some nutrients thingy where minimum water and no soil is needed.

Ok, this is not bought last night. It is infact bought a long time ago. This mini orchid hanged at the kitchen window is starting to bloom !!!

This is the first thing you will see when you open the main gate and step into my house during this CNY.

My collections of plants placed outside my main gate along the corridor.

This pot of chrysenthymum has alot of new flower buds. I got it last night for $10 per pot. The other pot was given to ah ma.

Anyway, i just came back from reunion dinner at ah ma house. Its steamboat again, baby !!! And every year, i have to squeeze my creativity juice to come out with a new CNY dish for every yr's reunion dinner and hence i started on this yr's just now in the afternoon. I named it 富贵黄金, its basically pumpkin tofu. 豆腐的腐has the same谐音as富贵的富whereas the pumpkin made the dish golden in colour hence 黄金。

Well, since this afternoon, i started preparing the dish. I bought the pumpkin this morning at the market and i have reserve stock of 2 tofu at home. So i blended the pumpkin until it turn pulp. Then i blend the tofu until it turn liquid soya. Then i blend both the pumpkin and tofu together until it looks like papaya milk. Next, i steamed them and placed them to cool so that they can solidify.

When i reached my ah ma house, i coat the solidified pumpkin tofu with corn starch and deep fry it until it turned golden brown. Next, i kope some of the steamboat's stock and cooked it with the remaining pumpkin pulp and cooked a golden colour sauce which is poured over the deep fried tofu. Delicious. It is crispy at the ouside and soft in the inside. I blended the idea of tofu and pumpkin because i want to make use of the tofu's silkiness and the pumpkin's sweetness. Furthermore, the only ingredients used were tofu and pumpkin. Simple. The dish, overall, tasted nice as expected but the only flaw is that the tofu is too soft and it tends to go out-of-shape. Yay, hurray for my 富贵黄金!

Anyway, tml is CNY le !!! Visitings again, baby!!! Anyway, if u guys keen to come visit me plz msg me and i see if i am available anot. Ok, thats all. Happy CNY eve, waiting for countdown !!!

头痛，心烦，左右为难

真是头痛啊！工作方面还有很多东西没做完，再多几天就是过年了！听人们说东西最好不要欠过年，但是我的工作看来要欠过年了！

这几个周末一直都在兵营里度过。是的，我大约每个周末都有weekend duty，所以没有什么时间陪家人准备新年的东西。对我而言，过年前的准备工作是比新年当天还要“享受”的。因为这能让我融入与营造过年的气氛。到处张灯结彩，年货市场更是人如潮水般涌入。反过来说，新年当天外头处处冷冷淡淡，因为店铺都关门回家过年了。所以这次无法投入迎新的准备工作，算是一种损失和遗憾。

今早刚从兵营bookout，回到家里吃早饭就和同事相聚去附近的卡拉OK去小K一两首。今天喉咙不知怎么，歌声有点“撕裂”或“破”，所以唱起来并没有一向来那样“顺”或“清晰”。觉得今天的歌声有点“raw”，真是对大家都一种不尊敬。

唱完K后，本人就搭巴士到旧家那剪头发，准备迎新。看来仅剩这一天的周末有很多事要做。由于天气不作美，所以临时取消和家人去逛年花市场的计划。当会儿还有第一轮团圆饭要吃，所以mummy正在准备当中。年除夕才到阿嬷家去吃第二轮的团圆饭。

对了，刚才我还从网上下载了教育部奖学金的表格，打算申请这 MOE Teaching Award。去年由于自己对教育界这条道路还有点犹豫，所以搁浅了申请奖学金的念头。今年肯定了未来要走的这条道路，所以打算申请试试看，请大家助我一臂之力吧！

二月贺岁片多，又有《长江7号》，又有《功夫灌篮》，又有《老师嫁老大》。但我向往观看的这部，不知算不算是贺岁片。但既然是在二月份上映的，就勉强算是吧。这部就是《L Change The World》！！！


相信更我一样喜欢看Deathnote到朋友都会非常期待这部算是续集的电影。二月二十二号，拭目以待！