About 16 more hours.....i think i really going beng kui le. Ya, as XM mentioned in her blog, i'm suffering from the "Pre-Olevel Results Depression". I wonder wad will my reaction be when i received that slip of paper. Will be jump up in excitment and hug my teachers n friends around me? Or will i stomped out of the hall black faced. Really feeling very nervious, scared, depressed, etc right now. :'(

No, i've not prepared myself mentally to accept reality, wadever it is. For these few days, i seems to sense a very very bad feeling that my OLevel results will be detrimental. Dunno why, i juz got this feeling that history will take place again. I remembered years ago back when i was receiving my PSLE results. I am expected to score like 255+ but fate proved me wrong. I was shock at that time to get only 247. Even those that were used to score worse than me in school did better and got into special stream. I was totally devastated. And i juz got this feeling that this will come to haunt me again when i take my Olevel results. I agreed with what many of my peers told me. They said that anything can happen for Olevel. Yah, its true. There are cases of senior scoring 6 , 7, 8 points for prelim and got like 15, 16, 17 for Olevel. Stunning. And i wanna add in my own comment on this impt national examination, dat is "Its anyone's game". Serious. I am afraid i will be those scoring below average results. Suddenly, i felt that it isnt a bad thing to score "not so gd" results for prelim. Coz one will feel happier when they see an improvement in grades for olevels. However, it felt stressful for me to score "above average" results. Coz everyone will be looking up to me, they expect me to score well oso for olevel, but when i dun do well, the intense self embarassment is too great to have. I had nightmares bout Olevel results ever since CNY period. I dreamt that i scored the worst results ever and everyone gloating at me. Is this kinda retribution? Is this gonna be real? I dunno. Perhaps i am thinking too much, perhaps these r indications of me really not scoring well. No one knows me better than myself. I knew how well i did for olevels. I can say, when i am attempting the qns, esp combined humans, i can sense myself not performing as well as usual. I am really very scared. Pple in my class will notice that i tonned down alot these few days, partially bcoz i self ostracized myself but most of the time is bcoz of my fear for e results. My fate is sealed, i am gonna expect the worst, things seem to be pessimistic to me....i am dead !!!

Today is a damn slack day. Went to sch knowing that theres no PE. Yah, its e same briefing my peers had for e past 2 days' PE. Did 3 sets of 5 pull ups at own pace, and dats it. The morning PE that i enjoyed so far. Well, really felt some urge to run 2 rounds but i didnt eventually. Haha. Econs tutorial very slack, do 2 qns only. Phys tutorial go thru test. And since its Christopher Liu's last day in AJ, he gav us chocolate and took photos wif us. How nice. Afternoon --- Ponned CCA. Yah. Maryann oso not going AVA club oso. So its only lonely alfred thats attending. How sad. Rushed down to CPF building to hav my Singpass done. Finally, a big load is off my mind. Met the guys from my class there oso. They were queueing behind me. Zara was infront of me. Oh yah, and oso ting ting n lotsa students. Olevel results r coming out soon. Felt really worried and paranoid. Ahhhh.....so scary!!! Wish me all the best :)

Hey, i'm back for blogging. Haha. Hav a busy weekend and pre-weekend. Lets get things started from fri. Went to Sharmilah's house wif david melissa, peijia, tingting and sheryln to bake brownies for the sat's aj funfair. Well, the baking process was rather successful and everyone was quite glad. Oh yah, Sharmilah's family members were so friendly, and oso, Sharmilah showed us her pri sch n sec sch yr bk where i spotted some of my ex classmates, including shaun, dom and huili. Hahaha. Reached home at 5+. Felt very excited then bcoz there was oso e 1st episode of the new Survivor Palau. Sat punctually infront of e television at 10 to watch my fave Survivor Palau. Cool series, cool twists, everything was cool. Haha. Sat morning, went to school early to prepare for funfair. Felt rather ostracized coz no one tok to me. Perhaps its bcoz everyone was too bz or i self-ortracized myself. Was waiting in the stall for my friends to visit AJ. But its not my shift yet, so i guess i am very din deh in the stall, so sorrie to the rest of u guys. Finally my friends arrived. So excited. First was shengchao, den sam, den dom, alvin, etc. Showed them around the school, showed them around the stalls. So fun, i luv to play host. Hahahha. Then when the funfair was declared close, siying n jamie arrived. Similarly, i went to play host again. Haha. But very apologetic, coz no more food is left for them to eat, so we decided to go Mos Burger AMK to have lunch. Afterthat they went bowling wif the other 4E3 pple while i go home to study for my tests. Yah, toking bout tests, i hav chem n econs test on mon. I oso hav to prepare that bloody GP casino debate speech. I've finished studying for econs, oso spent the whole night cheonging my speech. Ended quite late, i think its 1am if i am not wrong. So i am left wif chem test. Haha. Planning to spend the whole of today studying chem test. O level results coming out soon. I pretty scared leh. I scared i get double digit. Sob Sob. I haven prepare myself mentally for the results yet. I hope i can still get like 9 and below. Pray hard......

All thanks to my "lovely" class 2205, an unanimous votes will be sending me to speak infront of 100s of other students on the Casino Debate for GP lesson in representation of the class. Duh. Gd la, u guys, successful sabotage. Now i hav to do such crap which i dun even giv a damn about. The debate is on Mon, yah, so are econs test and chem test. Furthermore, there is funfair this sat. Where got time to prepare. Sigh. And i think the rest of e class shd be too busy wif e funfair preparation and the tests dat they shd be not providing me any aid. Haha. Hope not. Now i felt like being left in the lion den to zi sheng zi mie. Sob Sob....SOMEONE SAVE ME !!!!!!

I am starting to lose interest in blogging...perhaps for these few days. Dunno y? Mebbie i am too tense up wif the release of O Level results, mebbie its bcoz there is nothing much for me to comment on. Tml got PE. Damn it, i hate morning PE. Those in AJ should know why.....i prefer fri afternoon PE. Sux....Results r coming out soon....as much as i hate AJ's horrifying PE lessons, i wanna stay in AJ after first 3 months....its an investment of time. Nvm.

Its CNY eve, yah, decided to use red font to suit the festive season. Haha. Had a very short celebration in AJ. Yah, i mean e performance is short. The usual stuff, but i think they r oso as lame as ZHSS. So nvm. But at least their lion can dance better than ZHSS's. Released at 9am. I think we r e JC that released the earliest. Basically, the inevitable problem arose. Yah, he was going to stick to us back to zhss while we wanted to escape from him. So he stick to Shaun but shaun lied to him he is going home. He stick to Michelle but she lied dat she is going out to buy a gift for her bf. He stick to Zhihao but he lied that he had to go temple pray. All of us ran to e toilet to hide. While we thought he was away wif those e7 girls, we went back but was shock to find him still at e folyer. So we sneaked out of e sch without him noticing and quickly board an approaching 853 to zhss. So 853 sent the 5 of us to Serangoon Ctrl when we settled our breakfast at Mac. So we walked back to sch eating our breakfast. Was the first few to reached ZHSS. They r still having their concert and we went to view. Yah, its e same old john yeo entertaining the "kids". Was greeted by many teachers, including Mr. Lim. The teachers were like so happy to see us back. Soon, the other AJcians arrived and it was heard that he stuck wif e e7 girls. Walked around. Pretty happy i am back in somewhere i am familiar wif and that i can relate to. Yah, realised how attached i was to zhss after graduating from zhss. Met lotsa old friends. My cute and adorable 4E2 ex-classmates, my wonderful 2E5 ex-classmates and not forgetting my fascinating juniors. Lol. Oh yah, oso meet lotsa teachers, Mr. Wong, Mr. Ang, Mrs Wong CS, Ms Yam, etc. Ahhh.....I MISS ZHONGHUA !!!! I LUV ZHONGHUA!!!! Ok, enough. Haha. Went to J8 wif my beloved 4E2 ex classmates. Didn sat down wif them for lunch coz the foodcourt is damn too crowded. Settled for Shi Lin Fried Chicken. Yah. Haha. So went home, slept. Juz came back from reunion lunch. Lol. Meet my 2 lovely cousins. And guess wad, e older one of them who is in Pri 1 now can play chinese chess. Impressing. Lol. Hahaha. Ok, dats all. Wanna wish everyone Happy Chinese New Year and good luck in wadeve u guys r doing. And most importantly, to those of my batch, Olevel results r out in a week or 2, so good luck, all e best. Yah. HAPPY YEAR OF THE ROOSTER !!!!

Hey hey, has Kbox session wif Ed, SC and Gab today. Met them at e usual place and we set off for lunch at e foodcourt below Yum Cha Restaurant. Checked in early. Sang lotsa songs, as usual. Oh yah, this session abit special, coz we sang a lot of Jay's songs. I think we sang more than 15 Jay's songs. Haha, we even overran, sang until the Kbox pple chase us out. Lol. Hav dinner at the cheap cheap Jap restaurant above Macdonalds. Ordered Tempura Udon, and guess wad, its my first time having jap food for a meal (Last time order Tempura only serves as side order...). Well, its rather ok, i mean e food. So went walking around and time had brought us to 9pm. Took an MRT home wif SC while Ed & Gab opt to walk home. Looking forwards to this Tue, coz its CNY eve, meaning i will get to visit ZHSS and oso hav our 4E2 reunion lunch after that. Yeah !!!! Fun rite, of coz. Haha. Ya. But mon got maths test. So sian...haven study. Chiong finish all e tutorials except for maths. Planning to mug maths tml. Soooo yah, gd nite all. Bye !

It seems that all teachers like to "churn up ur smooth sailing life" before letting you off during CNY. Yah, history hav proved it. Recalled having Physics test and lotsa TYS to do during last yr's Pre-CNY period. Things hasnt improve this yr. Hav maths test juz e day b4 CNY eve. Lotsa tutorials to complete during the last weekend of e chinese year too. Got maths which consists of inequalities and Bimomo theorem (I like to call Binomial as Bimomo), got physics which consists of temperature and measurement technique (which i need to redo coz i did it using unorthodox methods), got chem which consists of the whole chapter on ideal gas and soooo onnnnn.......Yah, cant slack le. Going for kbox session this sat afternoon, seems like i may be jeapodizing some of my precious time that can be used to complete my tutorials. Hmmm....opportunity cost??? Hahaha. Feel like ponning sch, ponning tml (coz got PE), ponning Tue (coz release at 11am...SO LATE RITE !!!), ponning Fri (3rd fay of CNY)......ya, feel like ponning everything but den, ability and desire may not come in hand u know. Oh yah, tml is XM's bdae, didn buy present for her, coz i no time and no money. Sorrie siah, hope u can forgive me. Haha. I will repay back by giving u my most sincere birthday greetings tml. So dats all for today, going to slp liao....zzzz...