I think i am gonna fail every single paper of my mid yr exam...

None of them, after attempting, i feel confident about...

Screw up GP compre...screw up pure maths ... screw up econs MCQ & DRQ...screw up chem essay qns...screw up phys sect B & C...

I can easily be the last in class...class in school liao

I am damn f**k up i shd go n die...yah...gone from this world maybe some people around me may be happier wif my absence...

I guess this few days i've been back on track again for my mid yr revision plan. Thats good, but i feel it can be better. Lets hope for the best ba. Went medical checkup last friday, well, things werent that horrifying as i heard from outside before i went. I thought it was rather an eye opener. And i muz specially think sc for making the trip with me. And after all the body check and mental checks at CMBP, we went got 5hr non stop kbox...juz the two of us so u can imagine how much each of us sang. Haha. I wanted comment on a sight or shd i say an experience that i've been through after the medical checkup. Coz we decide to cross over to Redhill central and take a bus at the bus interchange there to the city. Upon walking at the so call town central of Bukit Merah aka redhill...i juz cant believe that its actually a town centre. That place is so bloody ulu and the place is like so dead, the shop houses r so old, some r closed somemore...furthermore its lunch time...shd b very busy rite? One reason could be because the HDB Office shifted from there to TPY thus bringing the crowd along. Another reason could be due to the ageing population in that district. But all i can say is that place is so real dead. Shd hav taken some photos n post it online. The bus interchange is also so damn small. Perhaps i shd hav to stop complain about my Ang Mo Kio central. Comparing both AMK central and Redhill central...i think AMK central is definitely far much better. At least it is not a ghost town. Furthermore AMK central building this aircon bus interchange that house e biggest NTUC fairprice in SG...to think of it, i m so niave then to complain about the size of the new building. Well well, i've learnt that sometimes we do really needa compare to pple worse off than us thus realizing how fortunate we are. But i am digressing, oh well, its world cup season...my daily routine is basically study n mug in e days, watch soccer at night...haha...oh well...tml morning got tuition...gtg...bye

Today's econs workshop was rather okay, just that it gets abit draggy at the end. Well, at least i learnt something, which i will hav to apply tml's especially coz tml's part of the workshop is a case study timed practice. Freak. Stayed in the library to study after the workshop coz its raining and also got afternoon PE at 3. Was rather disturbed by this group of J1s that talked so loudy in the library. Such to speak that another guy from my front table has to ask them to keep quiet. Haiz...

I do not know why i am so sian today...today is like extra lethargic lar. Like as though my life is going to end tml or something. Touchwood sia. Maybe it is because today whole day rain. Maybe its bcoz today is 666...but i am not that superstitious so wont sorta believe in it too much. Well...might as well go sleep early...but its only 9pm...sian. Week 2 of hols almost everyday muz wake up early like normal sch days sia...mon got GP at 7.30, today and tml got econs at 8, fri got med checkup at 8.30...so sian...MSN oso no one to chat with...everyone see me online all siam liao...coz too irritated by me chatting with them. Muahahahaha...

This weekend World Cup starts le. I hav to say i am an extraordinary guy who dont watch soccer. I know nuts about it. But i know brazil is gonna ski thru again like previous seasons...maybe this time got some big surprise as claimed by England...lets see if they can even make it to the final 4...this yr alot of newcomers sia...and the way they group the teams can roughly tell which 2 will enter de lor...unless there is another "senegal history" repeating this yr...but to call it a history somemore when it didn even appear in this yr's list. Hahahaha. No wonder it is history. Nvm...who am i to critic about world cup and soccer when i dun even hav much interest in it. Maybe this yr more interesting coz got robot dance and wadsoeva...yeah rite...but me may be supporting argentina ba...dun ask me why...even though i think brazil will win again...oh well...we shall see.

I've been following my study plan as accordingly and thats good. However, i m skeptical about the effectiveness of a study plan. Don't know. For example i am supposed to study differentiation, 1st order DE and applications of differentiation today...and how did i study...juz by reading the notes. Even idiots will know such way of studying maths = can go and jump down from building and eat shit...well...i juz dont have the motivation to try many many questions until i am 100% confident about the chapters. I dont know why...since sec sch i hav been abnormal in the way i study for tests and exams...and the result...people score better than me. Is it because they are smarter than me or is it because i didn study smart? There is a high probability both applies on me. Why do i hav to study the shit out of myself and still get mediocre results. I juz cant adopt the way other people study coz its juz too taxing on my brain. Maybe i am not putting enough efforts in my studies...i am juz a good for nothing idiot who juz happen to make it to JC...i am juz someone who seemed to know my topics well but on actual fact hav absolutely NOTHING inside my brain...they are juz coconut juice. I am juz overpowered by my insolence, my laziness and my poor attitude towards study...perhaps i am on my way to self implosion...i am in the process of self destruction...