I am sooooo SICK. Yeah rite, my immunity is weak (not survivor's immunity), but yeah, u can guess it correctly, I fell sick again. Dunno why everytime b4 exam muz fall sick one. Slog too hard? I dare not admit so coz i noe there are even more "sick" pple out there who slot even harder. Didn have appetite to eat today. Also didn have the mood to study. Finish the last amaths paper available - Cedar Girls. Did phys and juz study 2 shou ce full of chi words. Didn touch SS today. Sigh. What a waste of time, i mean i didn spend the expected amt of time studying. Good luck for my Os den. Didn manage to buy Yanzi 's album. Coz i dun hav a chance to leave my hse or go to any nearby CD rama to grab one. Sad. I will get one tml. I hope. Arh.....Sat nite. Sat nite !!! Nvm, juz ignore me, i am going crazy. Actually i am quite worry that i do not hav enough amaths paper to practice. COZ I DID ALL ALREADY !!! Gotta build up e momentum. Yes, thats rite. Momemtum. Study that in JC phys and u noe wad i am toking about. Haha. Cant imagine that, i dreamt of amaths this afternoon when i had my afternoon nap after taking hy medicine. Dreamt of humans last nite. Wonder what will i dream of tonite? The answer for all subjects for Olevels? Hahaa. I hope so. When i woke up, i juz suddenly remember last yr when i was taking my chinese olevel. I actually dreamt of chinese words scrolling past my sight one by one. Thats....weird? a nitemare? I dunno. Its like u study until u go crazy. What am i toking? I am crazy. Yeah? Of coz, the mentally disabled nightangel. Freako~ -_-"

Practs are over, now comes the theory paper. Slot for the whole week on SS that i almost neglected the other subjects. I dunno why, but i feel that SS is damn impt for me to focus on. I am currently studying unconvectional topics that others will not , are reluctant to, and choose not to study. I dunno, this is my strategy. Who knows i may guess it correct this time round. Also did maths everyday. A maths paper a day keeps the F9 away. Haha. Lame saying but anyway, hey, i am consistanting practising Amaths, so hope i can really achieve the A1 i longed for my 2 years of upp sec education. O Level seems to be...fun, i guess. I dunno, i feel the stress but also the joy of the mugging process. It is even better when u find ur paper easier than you expect. However, i cannot sit there are wait for my A1s to come rite, i need to search for them. Yeah rite, in a desperate search for happiness. Thats it. Stupid compo topic, wad nonsense. I am writing my arguementative n expository anyway. So where am i, yes, THE AMAZING RACE 6 IS COMING !!! And its after Olevel. Nov 16 or 17, i guess. Or at least it clash wif the last paper. How sweet. Gotta buy Yanzi's new album today. Publish today leh. Nice rite. Muz buy okay. Yanzi rocks !!!

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Today's Bio Pract is damnnnnnn....Different. I mean, the first thing we went in, i saw a stupid prawn lying on my bench and i was like...too shock for words. After the shock, i juz kept on laughing, so were the other candidates. Is like, we r expecting some fruits or vegetables to come out but what came out is a prawn. My first thought was "Oh Shit ! How the hell am i gonna label n disect this stupid prawn!" Well, things werent so bad. We r juz required to draw the actual prawn and its tail. No need labeling. Thankgoodness. I find myself drawing some portray or something. I mean, my drawing look quite real, but i dunno if thats what the examiners want. Further more, i may miss out some details which the examiners are looking out for. Had to test for urine n stuff somemore. Yucks, dirty my hand. Haha. I should have cooked some urine prawn soup or grill the prawn on the bunsen burner or something. But anything, the pract is quite easy. Hope i can score well.

Visited SAJC open hse today with e accompany of YY & James. Coincedentally, met Niece, Mother, Jeslin & Qinqi at Harbourfront and all of us decided to go together. Further met Sharon, Geraldine, Rox & company in SA. I wasnt really interested in SA, just go for e sake of free gift. Hahhaa. How cheap skate. Then saw Jiajun & Eric, Zhenhao Spikey & company , denise & her bf, sandy n her bf, junio n trisha, etc over there at SAJC. Didn really know that SA was so popular among zhonghuarians, or perhaps, their last resort if they cant enter their dream JC. One word to describe their sch --- creepy. Its like located on one side of the hill where some buildings r high up, some are way bottom and all buildings r so old. Departed with an extra member of company --- eric. So yy, james, me n him went to harbourfront fc for lunch. Met up with Matt & KS and went to the shopping ctr for "another" round of lunch when we met Sha AGAIN. I met her 6 times today le. 5 times in SA, one time in hahourfront. How "fated". Had a chat with matt, sha n ks , etc over their choice JC. Feel that everyone is going different way. However, i dunno y but i suddenly feel the same "2E5" homeliness feeling again which i nv felt b4 for 2 years......Even though i met matt they all very frequently in sch, i nv stop down to talk to them or something. This event just suddenly remind me that i am once from 2E5 , sharing a common background as them. As we took a train home, the 5 of us boys some kinda "played" in e train or something, for e 2nd time it reminds me of my identity. Guess i really cant forget those wonderful days i had in 2E5. I really hope e chalet will be a success (even though it may seems not...sandy...plz do something....u promise karin to be incharge of it...i havent heard news yet...hahaha). Went back home and called a pri sch classmate to discuss on tips given by our respective teachers on various subjects. Kinda tok for quite a long time. Are all these events trying to remind me of my past identity? My past identity as a DQPS P6-1 student? My past identity as a 2E5rian ? It all seems to come to me after grad day.......i hav a mix n jumbled feelings towards it.........

Graduation day today. Things are getting emotional and high. I mean, time flies, four years have passed just like that such that I didn even notice it coming when suddenly i felt that its all over. Perhaps i should learn to cherish these 4 years more but things have became history. The Ceremony was like...speechless. I mean we gotta walk the red carpet after 4 years with juniors saluting to us, it feels weird. Den gotta see some slide preview and hear pple talk "crap". Everytimes it got something to do wif our class, we juz cheer. I doubt we are mature enough for our age, but at least this is something good. The post ceremony was very more high. Pple taking photos like no body's business and in my class, a rape team was formed to rape pple. Haha. The current victims are weijie, kelvin n kenneh. Well, oso engaged in photo takings but i think its not the last time we are gonna see each other right? I mean we still hav to see each other for another half a month during Olevels. But i really appreciated that. Gotta thanks alot of teachers for their guidiance. Now i shall use this entry to thank everyone of them. Firstly, lower sec, gotta thank my 1E5 science teacher for half a year but was promoted to be a VP, Ms Tan Wee Lim. Gotta thank maths teacher Ms Leow for putting alot of faith in me for being a consistant performer. Gotta thank Mr Ong who took over ms tan and eventually become our form teacher in sec 2E5 and my chem teacher in 3E2. Although i didn perform well for chem in sec 3, but i hav proved my passion for chem by topping 4e2 chem (together wif huifang) in prelims, thanks , really. This also proves that 2E5 students are achievers and its all your effort, mr ong. Gotta thank specially Mr Ducro, my lower sec hist teacher and oso form teacher for sec 1 semester 2. You are e best hist teacher and 2E5 will remember u always. Gotta thank Mr Leong, my 2E5 maths teacher. We will always remember you as a gd maths teacher , not forgetting ur "french kiss" and ur "service" to harry. Gotta thank Mr Heah, my sec 1 geo teacher and sec 2 english teacher, Ms Chan, my sec 2 geo teacher , sec 3 Comb Humans teacher and Sec 4 SS teacher.Thanks for believing in me , thanks for making me ur SS rep and thanks for ur guidiance for humanities. Gotta thank Mrs Raj, my lower sec Lit teacher. You are a great lit teacher. I remember the days when u read the whole Outsider and Hse of 60 Father book in class even though sometimes ur throat is in bad conditions. Thanks for tollerating wif our class's nonsense and oso its hard on u to tollerate our peers in 2e1's nonsense. Upper Sec teachers wise, gotta thank, firstly Zhang Lao Shi for being my HCL teacher for 4 years from sec 1 till i graduate. Mrs. Lum, sec 3 rowling eng teacher. Even though u "pao qi" us in sec 4, but rowling will always remember you as a great eng teacher. Gotta thank Mrs Singh, my sec 1 English teacher and eventually fate make you us rowling's Sec 4 English teacher. Mrs Ramana, sec 3 phys teacher...i hav failed to top my class phys, so very sorry bout that. One of my fave's teacher, MR CHUA WEE PENG !!!! You are THE BEST BIO TEACHER IN E WHOLE WORLD AND 4E2 MISS U ALOT. Oso gotta thank Mr John Yeo for taking over Bio in sec 4 and ur efforts n passion will be very much appreciated. Gotta thank Mrs Elim , sec 4 phys teacher, thanks for tollerating our incapability for e subj but we promise to deliver u gd results and we really APPRECIATE ur efforts. Gotta thank Ms Yam, sec 4 Chem teacher, your passion helped me regain hope and faith for chemistry. Its partially bcoz of u i can top 4e2 in chemistry, Thanks alot. Mr WONG !!! You are next. Thanks for ur passion and ur "love" for 4E2. Being the unofficial Co-form of 4E2, it shd be very hard on u but we really appreciate ur efforts. I remember e day when i fail my first emaths test, fail my second, and so on bcoz of the transaction from sec 2 to 3. Thanks for helping me regain back my Aces for maths. I promise to strive for double A1s for maths. Gotta thank THE ROCK MR ANG !!!!! Wooohoooo. 4E2 is really fortunate to hav u as our form teacher. Although u dun teach me, but i can really tell that u r a gd form tee and 4e2 will always remember u. 3 cheers for mr ang !!!! Gotta thank Mrs Wong Chek Siew, our sec 4 geo elect teacher. You took over us from ms chan in sec 4 and u converted 4E2's phobia for geo to passion n love for geo. Thank you very much. Thanks for making me ur geo rep and believeing in my capability in e subj. I guess its about it. Of coz there are more teachers teaching some "less impt subjects" but you all are oso as great. I apologize if i miss out any teachers out there but you will still get my appreciation for your hardwork and guidiance. Once again, THANKYOU TEACHERS !!!

O Level chem pract today sux. I was totally taken aback by my titration reading. Me & my classmates have extra high readings as compared to my friends from other schools. (I checked with them the readings in the afternoon) This cause me to be unable to think well for the planning of an experiment. QA was okay. I did some parts without even conducting any experiment. So all i can do now is to pray hard that my QA is okay and study hard for theory. Graduation day tomorrow. How sad, it is actually the last day of my secondary school life. I don't know whether to feel happy or sad or being emotional but i really admire my friends and i for being able to ensure the 4 years of "hardship". Haha. But undeniedably speaking, there are really alot of fond memories left behind. So i guess its time to say goodbye. Its fated that we are once classmates (even if u dun like it), but i guess we shd cherish these fate. Of coz, we shd oso not forget our teachers for their guidiance and support all these years. We promise to deliver good results during Olevels as a tribute to ur harkwork.

It was realy an "Open House Weekend" I can call it. I mean i visited quite a few open houses in just a span of 2 days. Well, I am really impressed by some but some just totally freak me off. Lets start from yesterday - 15th Oct 2004 Fri. Edwin, Gab, SC & I embarked on our Open House Trip when we started off by heading to the nearest Nanyang JC. Its of the closest proximity to our school and I guess I can make my way there real fast. First impression counts. Well, the school don't really gave us a good impression. We were at the back gate hesistating to enter when we saw 2 students of that school approaching. They are entering via the gate as well. However, instead of stopping and asking if we need help, they ignored us as though we were not present and just walk straight in leaving us all in awe. I don't really generalise that all students of NYJ are liddat as its really unfair if I do so. However, thats the first impression they gave me and i guess it is going to cause me to deduct alot of my own impression marks on that JC. As we explored the "half done" compound which is under renovation, I feel that the environment is just not condusive enough for me to study there. I mean the building is small, the colours are dull humid yellow and it just irritates me, making me feel very uncomfortable. Headed off to Temasek JC with the company of Cecelia , Celia & one other friend of theirs as the 7 of us sped over by bus hoping to make it in time before the event ended. I used to have this impression that TJC is a very stressful school. However, this visit proves otherwise. In fact, they are just fun loving and warm students who are so ever lively. This adds alot of impression marks on that school. We happened to bumped into this senior of edwin call lynette who volunteered to bring us around the whole school. Thats really nice of her. Temasek JC is real damn big. Its like a giant maze or something. We toured the Sports area where we stopped to patronize air rifling & table tennis , etc. We also went to see their tutorial room, band room, etc. The stadium is just so big and grand. I mean i like the school. But Lynette also revealed that the students there arent as good as we seemed. I dont know. No comments on that. Perhaps the open house is just a superficial "put-up". We lost SC in our tour which cause us to become frantic over his abscence. We searched for him all around the school but our attempts are futile. The open house also ended and we happened to witness the lively students being reduced to fearful "slaves" by the teacher in charge as she barked instructions for them to clear up the area. Guess i really saw the true colours behind open houses. 16th Oct 2004. Today. Well, we have lesson in the morning till 11am which deprives us alot of time for visiting. We visited Anderson JC open house immediately after school. My first impression as i stepped into the school was that "this is gonna be a boring n stressful school". The students in the folyer reception are so stern and serious. I am quite worried about myself at that point if i enter AJ. However, things proves otherwise as we bounced into familiar faces of our ZHSS ex students (seniors) and oso some friendly students who stop by and talk to us, ask us our choice for JC, tell us more about AJ, offer to bring us to view the exhibitions, etc. Well, at least the school isn't that cold anyway. I guess i will most probably be settling into AJ. We departed quite late from AJ, in compliments to some dragging of time. We took a train to Paya Lebar and had a frantic chase for bus to send us to Victoria JC. We are afraid that the open house might end as it was already 2.00pm then. We made it in time as we stepped into the gigantic school compound. The open house , i can say, is well planned. It is being made so fun loving and lively with the theme as "beach" partially due to tha fact that its located next to East Coast Park. Infact, the school itself just resembles part of the park. Haha. Its so big i tell ya. Very big. I guess its slightly bigger or comparable to the size of TJC. Just that TJC buildings are mostly flat (2 storeys) while VJ is taller. I saw many good looking guys n gals in VJ and i just could not scientifically prove it why this is so...perhaps its next to a famous beach? Haha. The girls n the guys over there are just gorgeous looking. Its like everyone is qualified for Man hunt and Miss S'pore. Anyway, had free icecream over there when we met Simin Shuyi & Aileen strolling in later than us. Guess we are not the only ZHSS over there and thus wont be alieniated. However, something bout the sch is, the students may seem to be gd looking but they are not friendly. They only mingle amongst themselves and not attend to visitors. Then i guess you wont call it an open house. No one came to us and offer to bring us around the school. No one even acknowledged our presence. Thats very sad. Utterly disapointed. Deduct alot of impression points for it le. Left that school quite a short while after we entered. Had a long walk to Parkway with Edwin & Gab. Had lunch over there and just spend the next few moments shopping around. I happen to spot Channel U's 1st runner up Agnes Wong over there. Thats Gab's idol. And when i mentioned it to Gab n Edwin, Gab reacted like as though....nvm. We also saw Ms Lam and her BF over there shopping. Well, the moment she spotted us, she tugged her bf into a bag shop to dodge us. Sigh...why are teachers so shy. We arent her student anyway. Had a long bus trip back home to AMK where i slept on the bus. Guess i was too tired. Had late nights due to studying n mugging for Olevels. Haha. So thats all. GUess its quite late where i need my slp now. I am totally deprived of rest.

I am always robbed of time to blog. Esp at this period of time when everyone was striving for the Os. Felt abit guilty of myself for still able to blog right now. Perhaps i should be in my room doing more other school papers, perhaps i should be browsing through or memorizing my guide books. I don't know. Edwin said this is a side effect of studying too much for prelims. I don't know. I mean i still force myself to study but i just don't feel the motivation anymore. Is this the end of me? Is the roller coaster i am sitting going down slope already? I had my haircut today. I hope this would make me fresher to study. I mean leaving those long hair is quite cool but I feel better with short hair. I started to attempt other school prelim papers instead of studying guidebooks. I felt that its pointless to flip open the textbook one more time and go through the same process i went through before in the past for at least 5 times. I believe its time i build on my current knowledge and exercise it by doing more questions. I dunno if i am doing the right time. It may serve as a double edged sword. It may just ruin me. I dunno. There will be lotsa JC open houses this coming week and i am totally excited. I mean its really nice to visit various JCs and experience their school spirit and atmosphere for the few moments when i stepped into them. However, i feel that these spirit and atmosphere "fabricated" during open houses are superficial. I mean you definitely want to put out the best to display to the public, allowing the outsiders to know how good and terrific your school is. But the fact is, when all is over and the gates closed with their own students behind the gates, are things going to be the same? I doubted it. Sigh. I guess its all about reality. In reality, nothing is perfect or as good as it seems. I may be abit pessimistic by saying this, but who knows this may be the fact. Its late up Sat night right now. So lonely. I guess i need to plan on my "socializing" project once i enter JC. I am a total Loner right now.

Wonder why i am blogging at this point of time today. But i gotta say, the weather today is terrific.Sunny but not very burning hot. I dunno but the bright sunny day brightens and lifted my spirit, making me more happy n fresh to study today. Its bright sunny out there and the green leaves of the plants reflecting the light of the blazing sun. I mean, it juz reminds me of summer time. Too bad i cant go to the beach. Coz its such a waste, such weather shd be spent on the beach doing u-noe-wad. So...i guess its such a waste. Its very seldom the weather is so gd. I mean often, the mornings r sunny n in the afternoon, it became gloomy or raining. Worst still sometimes, morning to night weather gloomy. It juz dampens my spirits lar. So.....i hope the weather for the coming days or months or even during the dec holiday is as gd as today!

Prelims results out and i can consider myself fairing moderately. I wouldnt say i did well coz i dont find having a L1R5 of 10 being remarkable. There are alot of pple getting single digit L1R5 in E1 n E7. However there are also some unfortunate souls who score very high L1R5. So, what can i say? Reminds me of the chinese saying "Bi3 Shang4 Bu4 Zu2 , Bi3 Xia4 You3 Yu2". I am quite surprise for my A Maths. I am expecting B3 n B4 but i got an A2. Guess i am just lucky. I am totally disapointed with my physics. Its a dreadful B4. Its worse than the minimum grade to study Physics in JC, which is a B3. Which means i cant study my fave phys in JC unless the teachers are kind to moderate it to a B3. So i can only pray hard now. Now that my L1R5 is revealed and i can secured my 1st 3 months in an at least "okay" JC, now i can concentrate 100% in my Olevel le. I had a headache in which JC i should go. Seriously, i intend to go NJ , but den i am inspired by VJ's principal in her talk to us sec 4 students and i change my target to VJ. Now, to suit my parents' wish and for my own convenience, most importantly to play safe, i considered AJ. Wad a headache. I dunno where to spend my first 3 months. All my friends wanna go VJ, but VJ is quite far and the travelling journey is like 1 and half hour. My school top students like hongyi n huifang want to go AJ, which provides me with alot of competition. I am totally clueless. Perhaps you all can enlighten me on which JC i should go, or which JC suit me better.