回望过去，展望未来。。。2008蓄势待发

I've decided to adopt the same slogan i used last year for this year's year-end reflection:

Reflecting The Past, Anticipating The Future

回望过去，展望未来

Alas, another year is about to end in just slightly more than an hour time. At this point of time, i would like to take a step back and looked carefully at what i've gained, what i've lost, and what i've learnt from the year of 2007.

A word to describe my year 2007 will be "Differ", "异". This is because my life completely changed in 2007 as i embarked on a new phase of my life by serving national service. The current lifestyle i am living differs from what i've in the past. The process of going through enlistment, BMT, basic medic course and now as a cbt medic at chong pang med ctr is far much enriching than i've ever thought it would be. It is a brand new type of lifestyle i've yet to go through before in the past as a student, infact, for the past 18 years.

What have i gained in 2007?

Friendship forged during the current 9 months plus stay in NS. Different phase of my NS life, i am meeting new group of individuals. Living and learning with these individuals widen my social circles and my perspective of the society and this world. More importantly, i've learnt how to live with all sort of people. Different people have different personalities, behaviors and needs. Learning how to compromise and accomodate for each other, hence making life better off for everyone, is a big gain for me in the year of 2007. It is just a reflection of society, that constitutes of different kinds of people of different backgrounds, different frontal and inner displays. Very important a gain for me.

What have i lost in 2007?

Freedom is one big aspect that i've lost in 2007. Entering NS is the admission to a very restricting environment where strict rules and regulations are all around to bound you. Apart from not having the priviledge to go home everyday, I have to follow directives and hierachy of rank strictly which is something i'm not very used to. However, i believe that 塞翁失马，焉知非福, there is gain for every loss. I believe that this lost of freedom to a brand new restricting environment can shape my character to the better, hence benefiting me in the future.

What have i learnt?

Many intagible benefits i've reaped and many invaluable lessons i've learnt in 2007. Apart from what i've mentioned earlier, i've also learnt many skills that is hard to learn from the outside world. From individual fieldcraft and handling of arms in BMT to precious life saving skills in BMC to human relation management skills in chong pang med ctr, all these cant be easily learnt from outside and i cherished what i've learnt in my year of 2007. I reassure that the learning process continues for the years ahead, even after i ORDed, till i enter university, till i stepped into the working world and then retired. 学海无涯, there is just too much to learn from, and these doesnt come in textbooks form.

Apart from enlistment to NS, 2007 is also the year i received a little bonus for working hard for the year of 2005 to 2006. Received my A level results in march this year and i am proud to say that i've attained satisfactory results for scoring 4 A lvl distinctions, though i frumbled a little in GP. This has allowed me to be invited back to college during college day to receive a prize (a trophy, a cert and book voucher) from the school. The last time i've ever went up to stage to receive an academic recognition is primary 3 when i got 3rd in class. Hence, it is a very special bonus to me for the year of 2007.

As such, my year 2007 can be described as fruitful but "differ" is still the word representing it. For the coming year ahead, i will still be in NS. I wish to challenge myself further for the coming year of 2008 for the following aspects. First, i wish to maintain or further achieve breakthrough in my fitness level. Second, i wish to improve my medical skills as i aspire to be a medic well respected by my colleagues and superiors for my outstanding performance and "very zai" skills in my medical centre, despite my role and rank. I'm not there yet but i will reach that final stage. Third, i wish to widen my social life further and make more friends, more importantly, be nicer to my current friends. Forth, i wish to complete learning driving by end of next year. Finally, i wish to further improve and polish my character, to become a better person in the future.

As such, i am ready to embark on my journey through this new year ahead...2008 蓄势待发!

I hereby wish everyone a happy and fruitful year ahead. HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE !!!

属于我2007年的3首经曲

虽然不是什么电台排行榜总结，但我选出了属于我2007年的3大歌曲。。。

这是我在2007年最喜欢的三首歌曲，排名分先后。。。

Number 3：（第3位）


Number 2：（第2位）


Number 1：（第1位）

Basic Theory Test

Took off today to take the traffic police basic theory test. Had lunch with Jas at AMK Hub subway before that because she was also going to the same driving centre around the same time for her practical lessons. We then took a feedle bus there. Arrived quite early so kinda waited and watched learners practising in the circuit. Went to the 3rd storey promptly for the test, which was carried out using some touch-screen computerised system. The test was relatively ok, managed to pass, afterwhich i went to booked my advanced theory test, which was on 29th Feb 2009. Well, it will be quite a long wait but its okay as it should provide me with ample time to study for the test. Anyway, i haven applied for PDL coz i havent find instructor yet. Hopefully soon. I can start picturing myself driving on the road soon...

今年圣诞特别“热”

2007年的据点，由大家所喜爱的圣诞节作为陪衬。其实每年都是一样，圣诞与新年相辅相衬，给人一种喜气，一种值得庆祝与一年到头值得等待的气氛。但别通往日的是，怎么今年的圣诞如此干旱，给人有种“圣诞真的到来吗？”的感觉。每年年底，当大家庆祝圣诞时，都是雨季光顾，有如老天喜极而泣，感谢与感动大家一年辛苦到头，终于是收割的时候了。但今年圣诞，怎么每天都是阳光普照，而到傍晚时分才勉强下几滴雨。这有一种“农夫一年到头饱受干旱天气，影响收割，好难才等到雨季时，却失望落空”的感觉。不知这比喻是否太扯了。但是，每年在年底看到的场景：滂沱大雨跟着细雨绵绵，今年看不到了。

这整个星期每天醒来，迎接我惺忪的双眼的，不是一滴滴可爱的雨水贴在玻璃窗外以好奇的眼光偷看进来，而是强悍中带点微弱却不缺强悍的金色阳光理直气壮地照入我的玻璃窗。天气有如太阳与阳光知道自己不该在这时候出现，却不知何故为何这时候出现的样子。这不是放纵，这是模糊。到了午后，阳光更是强烈了起来，照得天下生物无法抬起头来。太热了，太干了，太扯了！

难道这一切都是所谓的温室效应所造成的吗？说道温室效应这四个字，可说是21实际最常用的四个字。它反映了人们自相矛盾的心理。一下子高举牌子反对工业园释放有毒燃药，一下子却不顾一切，放肆地开电视电脑与空调。每天翻开报纸，都少不了一些关于温室效应以及环保的新闻。到底人们有完没完？生活在地球两端的北极熊与鵸鹅也莫名地成了焦点。但是，此时此刻，温室效应也应该是抢走我们新加坡的圣诞气氛的其中一个幕后黑手吧。

说来说去，还是坚持相信今年的圣诞，少了雨，是没有往年来得更有气氛。虽然市区一带张灯结彩，挂满了七彩的圣诞装饰，却少了这一块，这人类无法制造，只有mother nature能够带来的一块，那就是天气。圣诞装饰再多，也无法弥补天气缺少的雨季。这一滴滴小雨滴，和圣诞装饰是互相承托，相辅相成的，无可取代。现在只想老天下场绵绵细雨，给新加坡带来应得的丝丝凉意。。。

Pri Sch Clique Xmas Gathering 2007

The annually long awaited pri sch clique xmas gathering successfully took place yesterday 20th Dec 2007. The 5 of us were supposed to meet at AMK mrt stn at 12.30pm where i happened to be the latest to arrive, just 5 seconds after the "usual suspect" mk arrived. Hahaha. Its ok, at least she wont get to blame herself forever for being the latest always.

Anyway, we took a train all the way to Jurong East mrt where we then transferred to a free shutter bus service transporting us to The Chevrons. The initial activity plan was to go for the clique's first ever karaoke session where i suggested to be held at kbox in town. But FPE, being a 3SG, is a Chevron member and hence suggested booking the karaoke at Chevrons which happened to be much cheaper. I was a little skeptical of the songlists available at that place but to my surprise, it was rather updated.

We proceeded into the karaoke where we were given this long room with 2 wide screen TV seperated by the computer song dedication screen. I started to wonder which TV shd i focus on, the left or the right, or simply one eye on each. I digress. We initially spent like half an hour trying to figure out how to operate the freaking remote control and the computer system there like a bunch of morons. Being too used to the kbox system, i was totally confused by the sophistication, or rather, the simplicity, of the computerised system there. Any small insignificant breakthrough in our idiotic "trial and error" experiment with the system caused unwanted and unnecessary cheerings from the 5 of us. See how freaking spastic we were.

Oh yes, we sang alot of songs. Personally, i sang some of my fave 拿手songs such as 陈奕迅's 《十年》，《预感》，《爱情转移》，alin's 《失恋无罪》，范玮琪's《到不了》，《是非题》,etc. Oh yes, did i mention that i simply love to sing "emo tragic songs", i.e. 悲歌. The more tragic, the merrier, the more i like. Hence, it seemed always the case that everyone who went kbox or karaoke with me, needs to see a psychiatrist the following day. Hahaha.

Anyway, everyone's singings were okay. I mean all of us were once in choir b4. Me, YY, MK and FPE were in pri sch choir (if you've not known), we were kinda forced to join to put up a performance for the pri sch's 18th anniversary. Julia was in choir in her sec sch days. Hence there werent major 音准 and pitching problems in this session. After the end of the 3 hours of continuous singing, we were surprised, or rather, shocked, at how much the bill was. It was only $27, inclusive of the $11 jug of greentea we ordered. My was that cheap. Sorry, i shall rephrase, it is BLOODY CHEAP !!!

Attached below is a photo taken in the karaoke room. Obviously YY is missing coz he is the one taking the photo. But its ok, not going to have any negative impact on the overall photo with his absence. Hahahaha. Just joking. =P

Anyway, after the karaoke session which ended somewhere around 5.30pm, we took a bus to vivocity for dinner and gift exchange. I initially suggested Orchard Road (same as last year) because there were more to see at Orchard Road. I am refering to the xmas deco, not the filipino maids, thankyou. Hahaha. Ok, sorry for being lame. The direct bus journey took approx 45min and we arrived at the bus terminal at harbourfront. Upon making our way through the crowd to vivocity across the road, we realised that we were hungry. Yay !!! Babies and children must not be kept hungry for this will affect growth. (As though we have any much to grow, ahahhaha) So we surveyed the shop directory only to realise the most economical venue to eat is actually, the foodcourt. (See how sarcastic i sound.) Anyway, we took the lift to Food Republic on the 3rd storey and engaged in a game of "musical chair", i mean, finding seats in the packed foodcourt. But then, we were not very good in the game you see (cause we no childhood) so we couldnt find a seat. So we went back to the basement and fortunately enough, found a seat the kopitiam foodcourt. If i did not recall wrongly, last yr's xmas dinner was also at kopitiam food court, just that it was at PS. Maybe kopitiam organisation can consider sponsoring our annual xmas dinner from next yr onwards? Hahaha.

Anyway, after dinner, YY need to leave early because he need to book in that night. So we did an advanced gift exchange for him. The fk up thing about this yr's gift exchange is, we have paper but no pen. Last year, we have pen but no paper. I wonder whats next year? The photo below shows all the presents "posing" for a photoshoot. Hahhaa. Can you recognise the darker blue one at the bottom? Its from me.


Anyway, we managed to substitute the role of the pen with MK's hairpin, which is kinda pathetic. But then, we are very adaptable to different circumstances hence we can make do with anything. Hahaha. Thankgoodness they didn insist on using my blood for i am a medic. YY received MK's present. Congrats. Erm...ok, nothing to congrats. Hahahah.

After YY got his present, we decided to 送him离开，千里之外. Erm...i mean, send him home. But before that we needa take a group photo. We managed to make our way to the entrace of vivo and found this fountain landscape place (photo below) to do our annual grp photo shoot. It was done with FPE's cam coz mine was chwee enough. The flash is over bright, auto is over dark. Kinda pathetic. We manage to stop this guy in the nearest proximity to us to do us this favour, hopefully he didn think that we wanted to rob him or somehting.


After which, i started to whip out my cam and started snapping about. Woohooo. The photo below on this crystal glass xmas tree placed just inside the entrace of vivo was taken while the 2 girls went toilet. So got ALOT OF TIME to take this photo. Hahahhaa.

After that we decided to continue our gift exchange at the amphitheatre at the top of vivo. Upon reaching the top level, what greeted us was this gigantic beautifully decorated xmas tree erected infront of the amphitheatre. (Plz do not question my use of vocab) Grand, isnt it?

So we decided to proceed on with the gift exchange. Results of the lots drawing indicated that FPE got julia's present, which was a self-made "coloured sand in a glass" thingy. She really took the effort to grind the chalk to make the sand and stuff. Yah. A round of applause for her please. MK got my present, which is a mug i bought at marina sq. Julia got FPE's present which was a pair of small decorative purposes wine glass. I got YY's present which was a big decorative glass. See any similarity in all the presents we got? ALL MUGS AND CUPS AND GLASSES, i.e. water storage equipments. Hahaha. Got alot of 默契rite we? Hahaha. This year i set the rule of "no chocolate", next yr i guess i am gonna enforce another rule of "no mugs and cups and glasses". I wonder what will be the resultant.

Anyway, after the gift exchange at the amphitheatre, we continued snapping photos of that freaking big tree. Yah, its kinda weird to do so but it is the ONLY obvious deco we can see up there. Everyone else was doing so, so we followed the crowd. MK esp, snapped it at all possible angles (of that gigantic tree) she can find to the extent that the deco management might want to collect copyright fee from her. Hahaha.

This is taken at the base of the gigantic tree. It writes "Christmas sparkles at vivocity".

This is a photo of the gigantic xmas tree taken from far.

After all these "nonsenses", we embarked on our journey home, time check 9.45pm. I got outfield cover the following day (which was today) so i gotta reach home early. We took bus 166 back to AMK bus int where on the way to the busstop, mk damaged her heels, due to her "awkward way of walking", according to her. So she faced some difficulties walking to the busstop but this did not stopped me from "forcing" the 4 of us including her, to dash across the road with a blinking green man shown on the traffic light. She could be cursing and swearing i guess.

Anyway, on the bus journey, we engaged in our fave activity - crapping. I admit i was kinda tired. But as and when i passed by any deco, i would take out my digi cam and snap snap snap.

This is one pathetic foto i snapped at the deco outside The Central at clark quay.

This one is part of the long stretch of deco along orchard road. This shd be at the end of orchard road and the start of bras brasah road, near Paradiz ctr and SMU.

This one that looks like rain of gold was the deco for United Square at novena.

Anyway, i kinda reached amk bus int, exhausted, at 10.30pm approx. Walked home. The moment i reached home, i bathed, pack my bag for today's outfield and then wait for my hair to dry before i called it a day and enter dreamland.

Anyway, the 4 of u hor, plz dont chase me for the photos. I've already uploaded them. The link can be found at the function menu at the right. Thankyou. For the rest of u guys, plz enjoy the photos i've taken. For those pictures that featured me inside, please dont send it to the Singapore Paranormal Investigators coz reassure thats not a ghost inside, thats me. Thanks. Kinda regret not going down to orchard rd at night to take foto. 2 more days to xmas, i wonder if i shd make the trip down.

Cest La Vie ?

Was reading my previous years blog entries for the past half an hour, i realised how much crazier and more fun i was back then as compared to now. Perhaps i've matured over time, perhaps i've lost the "fun side" of me over time, perhaps i've learnt to be more "adult-like" over time.

Why?

Perhaps the more i've experienced, the more i became like that? Perhaps time really changes me? Perhaps the increase intensity of hardship, hard fact and hard feelings experienced over time has shaped me to be more restrained over my feelings? Am i going to turn into a frankenstein?

Why?

Friends come and go. We still keep in contact, we are still friends, but in terms of time spent together, its different. P6-1 classmates... 1E5/2E5 classmates ... 3E2/4E2 classmates....2205 classmates....BMT platoon mates... BMC platoon mates ... chong pang med ctr colleagues. They are not the same bunch of people. Different groups of people made up different leagues of my life, different periods of my life. As this constant change shaped me to what i am today?

I realise that i do have a very fun past. They constitute a crucial part of my memory. Fond memories. I am not as happy with my army life as compared to back then. Infact if life is so miserable on me, my coming 1 year 3 months could be not as happy. This is going to affect me. Just when i feel that i am so unfortunate comparing to my peers, the people i know past and present, perhaps its important for me to think that NS life, though forms a part of my memory, my life, but it is also only a small part. Lets say i get to live until 70. Two years of my NS life forms only a small part of my entire life's memory. The last moment, my last breathe. 2/70 = 2.9%? I still have so much wonderful past memories that constitutes a larger component than 2.9%.

What can i do?

Trying to live a carefree and happy life after NS could be a challenge but also a possibility to this current crisis. And then, what is 2.9% to me?

It really makes me smile when i read through my past entries. To think of it, i've blogged for 4 years. Since dec 2003. To compare with my peers who currently achieve more than me in NS, perhaps i can think, do they have these wonderful (at least) 4 years of memories i've got? It really stirred my thoughts and feelings by reading the past entries while being bothered by current unhappiness. Past memories = permanent. They are there for sure. Current unhappiness = permanent? Definitely not.

Well, this is life. People come and go. Events, major or minor, constitutes part and parcels of your life, just like bricks to a wall. This is life, cest la vie....

Alvin & The Chipmunks

Just went to watch "Alvin & The Chipmunks" movie with Jas at AMK Hub. My goodness, they are so freaking CUTE !!!

"另一个"星期一

I am clearing leave currently. So quite eng at home. But hor, i received a call from med ctr ask me this fri go back to cover for some stupid activity bcoz manpower shortage!!! Walau, i am on leave leh. ON LEAVE YOU FREAKING UNDERSTAND??? 嗨，没办法，说什么会補会我的假期，都不知道会不会对我的这一个“小小牺牲”有所感激。

由于今天请了假，下午时分没事做，便自己一个人到市区走走，散散心。

我家走几步路就到巴士转换站。就乘这个机会给你介绍本区（宏茂桥）刚建成的冷气转换站。我比较喜欢搭巴士。虽然路途及时间比较长，但风景比较多。。。

巴士刚要驶出转换站，我正坐在这辆double decker的第二层。

This is AMK Hub. Took this foto when the bus juz turned out of the interchange.

发现今年许多购物商场的圣诞装饰都大同小异，都是Xmas Tree!!!

在路途中，天开始下起雨来。。。

我在Bugis Junction下车。在那儿逛了逛。也买了自己喜欢吃的台湾炸鸡。
这是Bugis Junction里头的圣诞布置。

After that i walked down to National Library where i stopped to browse the books there for a while. After which i walked to Bras Brasah Complex to look at more books. Haha.

记得在读中学的时候，很喜欢到百盛楼购买assessment books, guide books and reference books.
这样说来会不会显得我有一点mugger?

雨越下越大。但自己又没有雨伞。好后悔。I'm walking in the rain。
Walked a short distance to Raffles City. Look at the deco, its Xmas TREE again !!!

既然到了Raffles City, 就得买那里出名的Donut !!! 幸好queue不长，所以排了一会儿就买到了。


The interesting thing bout the queue there is, it is kinda seperated in the middle in order not to block or obstruct the human traffic flow. Saw this signboard at the queue。 Kinda interesting they notify their customers that the availability of the donut might be compromised by the larger number of customers buying.

买完Donut后，便走去Plaza Singapura那里的Times Bookshop买书。It is proven that I cannot read books because the moment i read 2 to 3 pages i started to fall asleep. But then i needa spend the Times voucher (gotten as a prize by my JC for scoring 4 A lvl dist) b4 it expired early next year. Anyway, 路途中路过了SMU，发现那一带改变了很多。SMU也建得非常新非常美，真可惜那不是我想报读的大学，因为我对business management 之类的科目没兴趣。

Anyway, 逛完了Plaza Sing就搭地铁回家。路途中有一个很没有礼貌的uncle用他那不知道装什么的红色low class plastic bag撞我手中的那盒donut。好像揍他，but 看他是 "senior citizen"所以放过他这一回。这一撞可撞坏了我的donut。买给家人吃的donut可遭殃了！

Anyway, 回到家打开盒子一看。。。

有点像donut刚出车祸的样子，但还没面目全非。看起来依然可口！！！

Lets take a closer look.....

OMG !!! Arent they delicious?

Seriously speaking i've yet to taste donut factory's donut b4. I got try other brands la, but this is the brand that got the recent donut craze started.

Cant wait to sink my teeth into one of them !!! Yummy !!! Oishi !!!

Anyway, 这是我用voucher买回来的一袋书籍。Hehehe...

这个星期四的好友圣诞聚会的礼物也准备好了。是我昨天到Marina Sq买的。希望收到礼物的朋友会喜欢。Its kinda present exchange thing you know. So yah, looking forward to this thursday man.

说来这样多，该是搁笔去吃donut的时候了。Bye.....

12月16日，晴

今天去K，好过瘾。刚巧路过世界书展，便钻进去逛了逛。书展场地大，摆放的书籍包罗万象，却没一本让我看上。终于买到了圣诞礼物，也算是 one thing down my to-do list。今晚有《红星大奖》aka 《分猪肉的时候》。看来明天，后天，大后天又有得“讲”了。Seriously speaking, its all crap。Everyone knows why。

雨天

大雨正要开始不停地下。。。

雨一直下，气氛不算融洽。。。

你能体量我有雨天，偶尔胆怯你都发现。。。

看窗外的雨，它滴滴答答下个不停。。。

又到年底的雨季，天空一直在下雨，好想念阳光哦！！！

下雨能清洗空气，增加我国水量，却带来低洼地区淹水，以及衣服晾不干的问题。

年底雨季 - 开心？ 难过？

开心因为圣诞佳节即将来临。难过因为华人冬季面临而来。（华人最担心家中老人家与体虚者难熬过冬）

唉，我也不知道自己在写什么，只是突然心潮澎湃，但如今风平浪静。

布偶

在百货商场逛街时，发现摆放在一个角落的一篮售卖的布偶。不知是童心未泯，还是一时好玩，便把手伸进布偶，开始小玩起来。玩了一会儿，发现其余经过的大人们都会停下玩一玩正在售卖的布偶。原来人虽然长大了，心中却仍有一个长不大的心灵。。。

旧 VS 新

最近我的medical ctr有很大的人事变动，来了很多新人。本身虽然不算是最新加入，但也算是属于新一代。庆幸的是，我有幸度过了一段很短的“旧一代”生活，完全与现在的“新一代”截然不同。怎觉得“新一代”的生活比不上“上一代”的生活。现在的工作环境更加拘谨严肃，尤其是当几天前刚加入的4位specs进来时，把一股严肃的气氛带了进来，让我无形中感受到一股莫名的压迫感。总觉得他们会“与大气小”，用rank来压我们。可能是自己想太多了，但总没有之前所拥有的安全感。其实，人事变动从我加入这个大家庭时就在如火如荼地展开。先是换新MO，再是换新snr medic，再来appointment holders又来个大风吹，我也因此成了其中一个appointment holder。当大家开始适应新环境以及自己的新职位时，有来了一批新人，听可靠消息说，appointment holders又会来一场打分吹。刚来的那4个specs又对一些现有的职位虎视眈眈，看来自己的“饭碗”也不保了。新官上任三把火，他们一旦接获新职位，一定会展开大改革，甚至更我们现有的制度唱反调。虽然在NS里有什么职位没什么大不了，但一想要让所有的spec占据所有的职位，就有点吞不下这口气。难道man就做得不够好吗？难道我们man就没有spec这样zai?可能这样说来，会显得一些power hungry,但是我就是要为所有的man争一口气。因该是自己的ego太大了吧。能不能保住我现有的职位，也是上司的决定。我暂时对新一批之前加入的成员非常的comfortable。只是对这新来的这4位spec有点质疑以及不安。可能需要时间来让我们更相识，产生合作的火花，我也希望能如此，所谓多一个朋友好过多一个敌人。至于现在，只想抛开工作的烦恼，专心享受假期。自己已apply了annual leave，到圣诞前夕才回到工作岗位。在此希望接下来的日子能好过一些！加油！加油！加油！

星光4少 + 2205 Class BBQ

在两天前的星期六，我出席了Radio 1003在IMM广场所主办的《星光4少PK擂台赛》，一是刚巧路过，二是想见证《超级星光大道》所“出产”名副其实的星光4少，水准有没有如同在电视节目里看到的那样"zai"。我在三楼的一个角落找到了一个“落脚处”，便在那儿等待节目的开始，足足等了一两个小时才等到4少的出现。原来1003找来了一些所谓"Local talents"的本地唱将来PK4少。一像对本地人的歌唱实力有所质疑的我也对其中的一些挑战者刮目相看，果然能比得上“老外”。哈哈！其中让我影响深刻的是一位24岁的男生，声音非常的高而细，有点像女生，却负有爆发力，果然引来了全场的欢呼和掌声。万万没想到的是，1003既然找来了《绝对Superstar2》的男季军,孙文海，来挑战星光4少！

全场挤满了歌迷！

等待已久，星光4少终于现身！

周定"Rain"以他的一首舞曲《我不会唱歌》让观众疯狂尖叫！

刚付完兵役的潘欲文带着一顶白色帽子，从远处看还蛮像陈雷的，哈哈！

许仁杰以一首抒情曲迷倒全场观众及掳获他们的心！

PK赛道高潮！星光冠军林宥嘉既然被本地Superstar2的男季军孙文海挑战。两者势均力敌，结果握手收据。真的是扮演了一场惊赞的“台湾星光VS本地Superstar”!

星光4少接受访问，全场一片肃静。

观看完星光4少的PK擂台赛后，便从本岛西部直奔另外一端的东海岸，参加初级学院班级的烧烤会。由于对东海岸公园不熟悉，所以花了一段时间才找到本班的烧烤台。值得欣慰的是，班上的大多数同学都有出席，大家久违了！大家沉积叙旧。没想到“多日不见”的我们，既然还能在碰面时像当年一样如此有凝聚力，真是难得。一年前的今天，大家刚考完A水准，“普天同庆”。一年后的今天，女的上大学，男的服兵役，真所谓岁月不饶人。

难得聚在一起，当然得拍一些照片留念。。。

Well, bcoz the next day i got weekend medical ctr duty, so i didnt stay up very late with them. Finally, i want to say...

2205 RAWKS !!! 友谊万岁!!!

Random funny video

Jellyfish Head

Whats with the recent woohaa of 水母头aka jellyfish head? 只因为可爱教主杨丞琳在最新专辑《任意门》中剪了一个水母头，而最近刚来到新加坡做宣传，因而掀起了一股水母头的热潮。

Jellyfish - Jellyfish are marine invertebrates belonging to the class Scyphozoa of the phylum Cnidaria. They can be found in every ocean in the world and in some fresh waters.


Rainie Yang's jellyfish head


OMG !!! Isnt that Radio 1003 DJ, Jianwen?!?!?

Anyway, was walking home just now from workplace. I always thought jellyfish head in singapore is overrated. But as i was taking an escalator down, i saw this lady with a funny hairstyle...after closer observation, it is JELLYFISH HEAD !!!

改头换面，焕然一新！

I changed the format of my blog from the previous dark version to this simplier and neater version. Hopefully i will not receive any violent objections from you guys readers out there. Thankyou for support for my blog, whoever is reading this. If you guys noticed i am also starting to blog in chinese. Not because i want to flaunt my mandrian or sucking up to the govt's "chinese cool" campaign, but because i feel like some things are better expressed in chinese, while others in english. So you may notice that i alternate between the two language in my to-come entries. Once again, please give my feedback on how i can improve my blog while i try to retain my style of entries. Thanks again one and all.

开始感受到圣诞的到来。最近到来市区好几次，也看到了各大百货商场已装上了圣诞布置，璀璨夺目。不只是眼前所见，耳边了传来了悦耳的圣诞曲目，承托了佳节的脚步慢慢逼近。

刚刚在下午时分与好友到来Plaza Singapura观看了电影 "The Tattooist". 这是一部由本地与纽西兰所合作制作的恐怖片。说的是一名tattoist不小心被纽西兰土族的刺青工具刺伤，因而被死在工具的主人手下的受害者灵魂附生，利用他给予他人的刺青杀人。

看完了整部戏后，直觉得又是另一部恐怖片，可能是因为rating是NC16的关系，所以恐怖画面并没太血腥。想了想，也不知道故事最终要传达的含义是什么。Maybe the moral of the story is: carry out proper sterilised wound cleaning technique. 可能是因为自己在medical centre工作了太久吧。Hahaha. 指的是男主角被刺青工具刺伤的伤口。受害者在被灵魂“杀害”的过程中，刺青会蔓延全身，血管涌入刺青的墨汁，最终皮肉血管爆炸，墨池喷满地，有如家中的printer突然爆炸，有些好笑。哈哈！

看完电影后陪好友购物买圣诞礼物。他需要买礼物送给家人与两位较好的“女性朋友”。不知之间有什么暧昧关系。逗乐几圈都找不到什么。别误会，我指的是他，不是我。才发现原来大家所说“男生不爱购物”是真的。但本身也是男儿身，却对购物没什么厌恶。他最终买了什么复印上名字的种子和一碟卡片给他那两位女性朋友。在逛书局时发现了这本与宠物有关的书：50 Games To Play With Your Cat.

翻了翻，内容顾名思义，是在教读者如何用简单游戏与家中小猫玩耍，但不知怎么，我觉得书名因该改成 "50 Ways How To Torture Your Cat"。哈哈哈！

逛了好久，也该是回家的时候了，在搭地铁回家前，本身就站在DVD店门外，一面想用购买的台湾炸鸡块，一面观看该店所播放的《881》。自己想，如果真的需要买礼送家人，这《881》DVD最恰当不过。

现在感到非常sian！因为明天又得回去上班了！好像放假！！！

Ever seen anyone so drunk while singing?



就是欣赏他在歌唱时的那份陶醉。。。

On leave !!! Woohoo...but then nothing to do abit sian. Ok la, take it as a rest day. Shall rest to my heart content. When i expect dec to be abit of slower pace, things got worse. I have 4 weekends !!! 4 weekend duties, baby !!! Wow. Haha. Wtf. The new medics haven come in yet, i heard it is because our dear course commander extended the current P033 course. Haha. Argh, everyone pushing me to take ippt le, cannot la, cannot jump how to pass...remain a private forever le. Like i care liddat. Hahaha...ok la, damn sian, go watch tv le, bye !!!

Woohoo...the recent saga over mediacorp's Singapore Radio Award 2007 is stirring bigger and bigger. Woot. As a loyal supporter of SPH Unionworks radio (Radio 1003 and Radio 913), i think that it is time the other two non-mediacorp radio companies start to make some noise and stop mediacorp from thinking that all the radio stations under its umbrella are the only radio stations in singapore and no one else. I personally feel that mediacorp is still living in a state of self-denial, thinking that she represents singapore, which is not true. Arent there other radio stations around trying to make a living? Competition amongst the mediacorp stations and non-mediacorp stations have become a very sensative topic on air ever since dont know when. As the term "Singapore" is used to name the radio award, every stations and djs, irregardless of belonging to mediacorp or not, shd be given a fair chance to compete, in my opinion. If not, giving the award to your own is really meaningless. I agree that many out there share the same opinion as me. Furthermore, SRA claimed that it is the time to judge every single radio station and dj fairly and the hardwork they put in for 2007. Then we ask, is it an irony that the word "fairly" is used when the non-mediacorp stations are excluded from the award. Are they trying to say that the other 4 non-mediacorp stations are not putting in hardwork or their hardwork shdn b recognised? In fact i think the other 4 stations are working doubly hard to gain listenership in competition with a giant dorminating organisation that has access to most of the media coverage in Singapore.

Like some people out there, i think that such annual award shd be organised by a neutral organisation with neutral panel of judge to be fair to all. All stations and djs shd be given a fair chance at this award. While some may feel that it is stupid for mediacorp to spend money organising SRA and give the award to someone else, but then at least dont claim that the SRA is a platform to recognise ALL hardworking radio-personals in SINGAPORE. The issue here, i guess, is that the other stations deserve equal opportunity and also mediacorp is NOT the only player in the playing field.

I recalled the only once where mediacorp (then TCS) was fair to all was when there was this programme call "Qiang zhong zhi you qiang zhong shou" 10 years ago approx where they make the DJs from all mandrian stations, mediacorp or not, to compete with one another to crown the best of the best. If i am not wrong, the winner then was Huang Wen Hong who was then from 958 and now in radio 1003. Why cant this fairness be carried on till now? As such, omy.sg has organised a fair competition - Omy guang bo da shang, open for ALL mandrian radio stations. The voting started days ago and will end on 27th Nov. At that time, the best radio programme, best male and female dj will be crowned, irregardless of stations, mediacorp or not. While some feels that there is still abit of unjust since omy.sg belongs to SPH and SPH unionwork's Radio 1003 has an upperhand at this award, at least it is open to ALL mandrian stations, unlike SRA. So people, go omy.sg and vote for ur fave mandrian dj NOW. Haha.

I personally voted for radio 1003's jianwen and limei coz i find them to be very outstanding and most importantly, entertaining. Esp jianwen, i think he has the quality to make it big as a very outstanding radio star like his shifu, wenhong, or infact, overtaking him. Currently he is in the top 3 run for fave male dj together with wenhong of 1003 and cruz of 933, which i hated alot. Find him irritating and its an irony he calls himself Singapore quietest DJ when he is so annoying. So pple, vote!!! Hahaha.

Yippee !!! I survived the long treachous outfield. And now i am back. Well, as i said previously that xmas mood will settle onto me asap the outfield is over, i sadly declare that i've yet to feel much of it. BUt its ok, i have one month to go.

After booking out yesterday evening, i went to meet 2 of my SMTI bunkmates, nel and gor at city hall mrt for dinner. We walked round and round the food outlet surrounding suntec city fountain of wealth only to settle for fish and co. I ordered peri peri catch of e day, AGAIN while nel ordered baked salmon and gor ordered some freaking big fish collar. Anw, its good to find out that everyone's life after graduating from nee soon camp smti has been much more "enriching". Now we are full-fledged medics who passed our ojt tests, its time for some serious business!!! Haha. Life as a platoon medic seemed much better than a medical centre medic. Because they do not need to bother about the workload in medical ctr nor the daily duties. They just need to take care, or should i say, stick with, their platoon and that is. Nel said he might be going back to tekong next yr, gd luck to him.

I met phee and zc just now at sommerset mrt. I thought i was late enough to arrive 15min later than the designated time. But someone was worse. Haha. I shall not mention who. We went for klunch at orchard cine. I am so happy they had guang liang's new song "bu hui fei li" which i tried singing. Me and zc had lemon fish set while phee had steamed chix (which sounded abit cheapskate). Haha!

Anyway, i made a conclusion just now, that my vocal chord only opened or warmed up after eating. Hahaha. Coz i sang terribly before the meal. Dont noe, weird theory. Shd try next time again to test again. Haha.

After kbox we walked to ngee ann city where there is this singtel roadshow outside. People mountain people sea. But then what is the use of seeing when i juz got a new phone (non camera one) 3 days ago. It only makes me feel more greedy. Haha. Realized that the xmas decorations are up almost done. Woot. I do not know if i had said this before but i think that this year's deco looks abit plastic. Welcome to the plastic century!!!

When i walked into ngee ann city for some free aircon, i saw this signature xmas tree again.

I wondered how many years have they recycled this tree but it seemed to be there every xmas season for decades. Cut cost huh? But on the other hand, on the other 11 months when the tree is not up, where is it hidden? Haha. Well, whatever it is, there are still so many people taking fotos next to the tree. Maybe at the exact spot where they took every year? To show how they have aged through years but not the trees? Bummer...

As the vehicle pulled through the darkness, dimly lit by the lamp-posts parallel to the pathway, my heart sank deeper. Soon enough the vehicle came to a halt while the others proceeded further for deployment. I recalled past memories of being attacked by the large swamp of mosquitoes and sandflies.

I came prepared this time. I brought a pair of old gloves that i would dispose after the outfield, I brought insect repellent spray and mosquito coil, all ready to counter-attack the habitant "predators".

I was sure i was still awake, at least i thought i was. Silence. There was silence except for the sound of other heavy vehicles moving on the uneven terrain. This was unexpected. I was expecting to hear the excitment of the party of pests ringing in my ears. Where had they been to.

To play safe, i slowly withdrew the pair of old gloves, that looked like those from a durain seller, from my bag. I slit it down my fingers and palm. Silence. Soon, my vehicle started to pull forward, inch by inch to the actual deployment site. I alighted, standing in an open space where the nearest tree was hundreds of metres away. Nothing seemed visible within an arm's length.

And just as i took a few steps forwarded, an expected ring broke the silence. Bzzzzzzz....Yes ! That nasty irritating and horrifying sound made my man's greatest enermy (then) which survived through millions of years, outliving our ancestors as well as the dinosaurs before man ever existed. I took out my towel and wrapped my head. It was not enough to prevent this irritating species from annoying me. Bzzzz...Bzzzz...Bzzzz....The sound of mosquitoes and sandflies zooming past my ears like fighter planes making kamakazee dash during the world's largest battle.

The tentage was up. I laid down my stretcher and tried to sleep with my face wrapped by the thick towel and hands "protected" by the old pair of gloves. Mosquito coils were spammed throughout the tentage. Still, i can hear the buzzing sound of mosquitoes around my ears. They were driving me crazy. I shut my eyes tight, trying to coax myself to sleep and hopefully everything would be over once day break. It continued. The mosquitoes and sandflies were attacking every single part of me that was in contact with the open. My layers of protection went futile. I could sense the jubilant celebration of success by the enermy (mosquitoes) forces' troops in conquering the entire platoon of deployment. It was a horrendous night that i had much expected and anticipated.

Soon enough, the first ray of sunlight broke the vast empty land. The irritating sound faded away. I released a sigh of relief. Unfortunately, this was only the first night i spent on the unforgiven land. I had days and nights to go. My heart sank even deeper. My morale was low...

Went to hell this monday and came back this wednesday. Thought i am not going back again, at least not so soon...but the freaking unit switched me for the coming outfields from a not-so-hellish place to hell again. Juz came back from hell today. Going to hell again this sunday and will stay for the entire week. SIAN ARH !!!!

I went Orchard Road to jalan jalan with wil today. It has been quite some time ever since my last visit there. Met wil at AMK MRT and we took a train there. Alighted at Orchard and we proceeded to Food Republic for lunch. I had Nasi Briyani for lunch, which apperance reminded wil of Tekong cookhouse food. I felt "as though i was being poured by cold water". Haha, thanks for the comment. The price of the food in town is extremely expensive and this puts a strain onto my financial status. I went to Cold Storage at Ngee Ann City to buy myself a drink instead of doing so in the food court. At least supermarkets dont charge too much for a bottle of peach tea i guess. On the way we met dear Eric who was waiting for his friends, according to what he claimed. I caught him smoking red-handed. Bad boy Eric picked up smoking. As the "unofficial ambassador of healthy living", i condemned on such habits and urge my dear friends to stay out of it. Hahaha. Ok, the last part is crap.

Walked to Far East Plaza where it is a haven for trendy youth clothes. Realised that the Xmas decorations were up. Think its kinda early to put up the deco. I have yet to feel the Xmas mood yet. But rest assure i did not feel any deevapali mood although the festival just passed for a day. I think the decorations this year is kinda plain. Or is it the case that they have yet to finish the decorations. Look quite plastic to me. Furthermore the thought of 2 weeks consecutive outfield from monday onwards deters me from feeling any bit of xmas mood. Perhaps it will come after i survive the coming 2 weeks.

Happened to walk pass the (in)famous new shopping mall on its way of construction, Orchard Ion. Nice name. As someone passionate about chemistry (i am intending to pursue a degree in sci, chemistry in NUS), i totally find the name interesting but is, unfortunately, currently still unable to draw any parallel between an ion to a new shopping mall in orchard. Not dwelling into the past debate over the naming of this new mall, but perhaps future chemistry textbooks will have new content:
Ion
Definition: A charged particle caused by an atom or a molecule gaining or losing electrons.
Cation (Defn): A positively charged particle caused by atom/molecule losing electrons
Anion (Defn): A negatively charged particle caused by atom/molecule gaining electrons
Orchard Ion (Defn): ??? A new shopping mall at Orchard Road??? (What about the electrons?)

Upon arrival at Far East, we shopped for quite some time from basement to level 3. There were alot of shops but i could not find anything that meet my satisfaction. The clothes were either too expensive or too plain/ugly. I have to confess that it is very difficult for me to buy clothes, especially with my high "sense of fashion" and my extreme "sense of thrift". Many a times, i would go around shops comparing price and in the end decided not to buy because the desire just diminished. Poor wil had to accompany me "waste time" in the mall. I did find some very nice ones but they were way above my budget. Wil got himself a pair of shade which i still feel is too big for his head. No offence for that.

We then took a bus to Heeren where i realised all the trendy fashion shops seemed to have "extincted". Perhaps after the renovation work earlier on, the high rental has deterred any potential/existing fashion shop owners from starting/continuing business there. Walked to Central Point where i visited Times bookshop. I realised that months after i received my $60 Times voucher as part of the reward i got from my JC for scoring 4 A lvl distinctions, they were still unspent. I mean, i dont mind Kino or Popular vouchers where i can buy chemistry reference book but hey, Times is like all fictional books, if not business management books. And if you come across my friendster account, you would have picked up this: "Fave Books --> I dont read books, i BURN them!!!" But its ok, i bought myself this book call "freakanomics" which have good feedbacks from my friends. Intending to spend my 2 weeks of ardious outfield cover reading it, to kill time.

After these we took MRT back to AMK. Heading home i would say. There happened to be this girl who is quite cute standing infront of me. I thought wil didn notice her but he shared the same opinion as me after we alighted. Gave me a "pleasent" journey back home. Haha.

Was watching Chao Ji Xing Guang Da Dao recently. It is the taiwanese version of Singapore's project superstar if you guys do not know. Well, the standard of the contestants in taiwan were extremely high, easily better than any single Proj Superstar contestants. I personally like one of the Chao Ji Xing Guang Da Dao's contestants call "Yoga". If i am not wrong he won the competition ultimately. This is one of his competition piece with famous taiwanese host-cum-comedian, Kang Kang. Enjoy.

As i always say, my medical centre medics are endangered species. Reason being the numbers are decreasing at a very rapid rate... Then we have 13, now we have 7...

My hands were attacked by mozzies during my 2 days outfield this week. Very itchy.

Planned to go clubbing with Wilson and Phee but in the end something cock-up...so i have to pangseh them, feeling very apologetic and guilty.

Its deevapali !!! Meaning public holiday...

Oh yes, did i mention in the previous post, i passed my OJT Test !!! With flying colours.

I want to go out with my friends but time always clash. Haiz...

Sian arh....

This is the first time i publish a MTV on my blog. I like this song. Its a new song by Guang Liang call bu hui fen li (will not seperate). Enjoy !!!

It is november !!! Which means the start of "hell-month" has begun. My entire month's schedule is packed tightly with extremely long outfields and medical ctr duties. Well, the begining of winter marks the coming of spring a while later, so i guess i will have to endure through it. Anyway, yesterday was the last day of a reservist medic, Mr Kuan, in our medical centre. He is a very very nice guy. He helped us so much during his 3 weeks stay in the medical centre that it made everyone so guilty and embarrassed for his aid to us. He even treated us pizza on his last day. Well, i can see he has a good future as he is a good nature and good character as well as promising qualification and job in the public sector. As such the medical ctr would like to express our heart-filled gratitude to him. After booking out yesterday, me went to meet Wilson and Phee at suntec for dinner. We settled down at Fish n Co. Wilson seemed so sua-ku for reasons i am lazy to explain here. Reached home around 10+ shagged. Initially wanted to stay online until midnight but dozed off around 11.30. Also, i must thank phee for sending me all the songs in jay chou's new album hence saving me 25 bucks. Perhaps it is my expectations for jay chou being too high, i kinda disapointed with all his new songs in his new album. Well, beauty lies in the eye of the beholder and hence others might think otherwise. Well, i have weekend duty tml so i guess i better enjoy today...

My weekend saturday duty ended this morning where i booked out at 0800 hr and went to meet JL for a swim. The weather was fantastic then, just that only the middle section of the pool is open for public use. Kids learning swimming, couples flirting in the pool, narcissistic guys lying under the sun tanning themselves and other swimmers doing their routine weekly/daily swim, i guess...what a day to start with. I went back at noon time, took a shower and go out with my parents to have lunch outside in town. After which they did some shopping around the area. Came back when the sky started raining heavily. Made me very sleepy. Juz went to took a nap. Anyway, i have weekend duty again next sunday. Well, i should have accepted the high frequency of doing weekend duty ever since i was posted to my new camp, especially when we now face severe manpower shortage. November is coming and i can confess that this could by far be the busiest month for me here in camp. I have overnight outfields every week with one that is most significantly long. The whole med ctr is involved i should say. Felt very sian upon welcoming november. I wish i can endure through the ardious month in a blink of my eyes... i hope. Doing a HOTO file from scratch is difficult. Especially when there is no Dispense IC in the past. It would be a year before i can hand over my appt to my successor, do not know why i am rushed to produce the file so early. Well, i realize things were not as simple as they seemed to be...

My upper study who is ORD-ing soon wrote on the nominal role board, everyone's ORD date...

Guess what he wrote for mine...

"Fucking long, dont bother" =(

The most dreadful walk to the MRT station...happened less than an hour ago.

Walked from camp to MRT in civi and canvas shoes.

Not wearing any socks so i suffered abrasion at my right heels.

Plus it is raining, hence i carried Juson's big pink umbrella on one hand, pulling the right side of my jeans on the other (my jeans are dragging on the wet floor)

Reminds me of routemarch somehow...

Too lazy to wear socks...too "thrifty" to take feedle bus...

What a day...

New appointment roster out... i am the new Dispensary IC... dont know blessing or not.

Went kbox just now with my friends... boring leh... not as crazy as i expect it to be

Bookout this morning, book in tml morning...

Changed driving test date online to a later date (the next available date is one month after the initial one) bcoz of med ctr commitment

More shit coming...

I am thinking of revamping my blog... shd i???

Week 7:

Nothing in this world is constant except changes. This week has yet to be over. I just happened to be on nights out where I can muster some time to blog about the past 4 days. Exactly, there are changes all around. Just when you think you've comfortably settled down on something you think you are comfortable with, here comes constant typhoon blowing you out of your comfort zone. Just before IQA last week, our new senior medic came in, eager to change the way the medical centre is running, for the better. After the horrendous results of IQA, the changes came bigger and faster than anyone can expect or hide for shelther. It just came pouring. I was unfortunately one of the victims. Just when i thought i am the new perm MOPA, learning all the MOPA things, there came my unexpected and uninvited surprise just hours ago...I am transferred over to Dispensary Dept. And that could mean i no longer need to do PA duty. While being a Dispense medic is an easier job, i somehow feel that what i've learnt as a MOPA for the past 3 weeks have been put to waste. Hopefully they could seek my call to allow me to continue PA-ing for like 1 or 2 days a week so as to put what i've learnt to continual usage. As such, this could have mean that Baby MOPA has yet to survive the game and thus shall "restart the game" as a Baby Dispense. Darn!!!

Another thing that is bothering me and is going to continue bothering me, is the annual leave problem. Currently, we experience severe shortage of manpower. With all our ORD-ing seniors clearing their offs and leaves, there are only 7 active medics left in the medical centre. All of us 7 active medics have our own annual leaves to clear. And we know very well that in this scenario where manpower problem arise, one person's taking of cleave is at the expense of another. As such, we face the first level of problem in annual leave taking where we hardly have enough people for daily routine duty plus covers for other unit. The second level of the problem surfaces when our "fave" unit wants to indent 8 medics on the same day (some day in nov) for some impt cover (reason i shall not disclose). If we only have 7 medic with one being a service (cannot go outfield), where on earth we find 8 for them? Furthermore the 1 week long cover (same for all 8) starts on my driving test date !!! Which means i have to either cancel or postpone my driving test. This could've mean 3 months later for my driving test??? As such, we are expecting our "fave" unit to bombard us with more of these kinda things in the month of dec which means how on earth do we have time to clear our leave??? I think my annual leave sure kena eaten le.

Well, i am expecting more things to come my way. I really envy the ORD personels....

PS: I've heard Jay chou's new song "cowboy very busy"....IT SUX TO THE CORE !!! Sorry jay chou fans out there reading this...i really cannot accept his new "wang fu sound alike" song.

Week 6:

I've learnt a lot being a MOPA for the past one week. That is even though I've only PA-ed 4 out of the 5 days according to my duty schedule. However there is still much to learn and I still have a long way to go as a PA. Hopefully i can attain the efficiency of my upper studies soon enough. I feel quite irritated this month especially during weekends because I may be called back anytime for a reason i shall not disclose. Just feel very annoyed as i have to constantly keep my phone on and be prepared for any sudden call or something. Cannot even enjoy my weekend. Sigh. Anyway, IQA was horrendous. We failed miserably and i guess the consequence of that is going to be detrimental, though not yet surfacing but soon to be. Well, we shall soon see... and lets pray my phone or assigned pager dont sound off tml night...

Week 5:

My last week of OJT. Things are going to change this coming week onwards. First we have I am no longer under study and I will have to function as a real duty medic. No mistakes to be made or i will be dealt with accordingly by the book. Second, our new senior medic Staff Patrick will be officially joining us and this means more regimentations and restrictions, stricter rules and guidelines to follow. Thirdly, IQA on tuesday would more or less prove miserably deadly due to the medical ctr's incapability to do function up to standards. As far as I am concern, the storeroom is in a mess; docu dept's dockets not updated, piles of unfiled memos, MCs, FFI forms, etc ; treatment room also in a mess; everywhere in a mess; some seniors gave up hope; and on and on and on. I think we will fail miserably for the coming IQA which means our senior medic will give us more hell.

Anyway I felt quite depress for the past 3 days after i came back from outfield. This feeling was never felt ever since JC days when I encountered some "power struggle" in my CCA. I somehow feel that I am useless in the medical centre as compared to the other 3 new medics (ah fu and the 2 new specs). This is because the other 3 medics are succeeding 3 of the 5 ORDing medics as department ICs - sickbay/ambulance, MOPA & Training. As for me, i am succeeding nobody i guess. I am in no department. At least thats what i felt. Every now and then, i witness the 3 old ICs passing on their knowledge, skills and responsibilities to the 3 new medics such that they are ready to take over the significant "torch". As for me, I only sat in for a few PA sessions with one or two senior MOPAs and thats it. I was not taught as much area of speciality as the other 3 medics. My new role in the medical centre is a permanent MOPA and thats it. Hence as i see the 3 new medics helping up in the IQA while me stranded alone not knowing what to do, it kind of got back to me on what is my purpose and worth in the medical ctr. Furthermore, my rank is the lowest in the medical ctr and that puts me in an even more insignificant spot. Perhaps it is self-paranoia, perhaps it is self-worthless, perhaps it is self-discrimination. Perhaps the rest did not view me as what i viewed myself. I am just trying to act normal as far as i can. Had a short chat with the medical ctr clerk during friday's lunch. I asked him whether it is a blessing not to have any responsibilites or have minimal responsibility in the medical ctr or in the SAF context. The answer given by him was "yes" and that really made me reflect on all my past paranoia experienced. Perhaps it is really a blessing for me not to have any huge responsibilites compared to the 3 new medics.

Another thing, i have to clear my IPPT by mid nov where according to an email sent to the MO, i am due for promotion. I personally feel incapable of clearing my IPPT due to my lack of skills and performances in the SBJ station. I just cannot jump. I guess that will jeopardize my promotion chance for the 1.75 yrs to come. And also, in such a short period of time, i am unable to train till i can pass nor can i book a schedule date to do my IPPT. I guess i am destined to remain a chao private.

Anyway, outfield on monday was terrible. I shd say it was on tuesday. Woke up at 3am just to report on time at 3.30am. Was transported to pasir laba camp where we took a long winding track to some mosquitoes infested area. Basically spent 2 days feeding mosquitoes. No amount of coils can help. Went back shagged. Infact alot of us medics were involved in outfield cover on week 5. But when i saw the condition of returning Jeremy, i felt so lucky. His whole back and thigh was manifested by red mosquitoes bites like small pox or something. Disgusting. I hate outfield covers.

Nonetheless, this coming monday, i am going to function alone as a MOPA. Working together with the MO proves challenging but i am determine to strive hard. I will work hard and learn from experience as fast as i can to upgrade myself in terms of experience and performance to be an outstanding PA in the medical ctr. I do not want to let the MO feel fustrated by my incapability. That is, i guess, the only way to match up with the other 3 new medics in terms of worth in the medical ctr. Haha. Yes, i am determined !!! I shall be a good and useful PA to the MO !!!

I was supposed to go running this morning with QY however i decide to call it off last night due to possibility of overpacked schedule and also personal laziness. I just wanted to wake up late and snuggle in bed. After breakfast at the nearby market with my parents, i went home, bathed and went to meet some of my tekong friends for k lunch session. I arrived at City Hall MRT 10 minutes later than planned. Upon proceeding to marina square kbox, we met the last member of the quad there and hence indulged in 3 hours of maddness in singing. Basically i managed to surpass some of the usual songs i used to sing and instead challenge myself to other songs available. My 2nd attempt for JJ Lin's westside failed miserably again (1st attempt was last month kbox wif shuyi they all) as that song is extremely suicidal. The original key is too high for me to reach and lowering of the key will put me in an extremely awkward singing. After klunch, i bid farewell to my friends and went to meet Jas at J8 to watch the semi-finals of radio 1003's Ti Guan Da Lei Tai. It is a DJ talent search competition held bi-annually to recruit and discover fresh talents. It was a little disappointing that the crowd there wasnt as huge as i've expected. I personally think that the 19 semi-finalists' standards were of mediocre. Only one or two caught my attention. As such, may the best man win. Went home after that. Reached home at approximately 6pm. Had dinner at home. Felt very lerthagic right now because there were no activities at night. Hopefully i get to enjoy the remaining bits of this weekend before i get to suffer another 2 days 1 night for tuesday's outfield cover.

Week 4:

Ouch! I've got an ucler under my tongue. My goodness, it must be an indication of my body being very "heaty". It is very pain. I've forgotten when it developed, perhaps on monday or something. However the pain is tolerable and hence I've yet to consult medical attention regarding it. I've seen somewhat similar cases before when I was PA-ing with the MO and according to him, it is the salivary gland being blocked up or something. Hopefully mine is just an ucler and not anything worse than that. I guess its time i cut down on all the heaty food and drink more liang-teh to cool myself down.

Most of the medics in my medical ctr would have agreed with me that coming to this camp will cause bankruptcy. Reason: the cookhouse food is very condemned. All thank to the cookhouse for serving "outstanding delicacy", we often resort to spending money on canteen food and spec mess food. Imagine spending $3 per meal on average, the total sum of money spent on food alone would be terribly high. Allow me to introduce you the sumptuous gourmet served by our wonderful cookhouse. Firstly, we have the "zup-pish vegetable" (zup = gravy) that is so "zup-pish" that the "zup" would flood our entire plate of whatever is on it. Next we have "bart-teng" aka meat cubes that seemed to come from some expired can-food. In addition, we have chicken wings cooked in all sort of "creative sauces". And please do trust me, the "creative sauces" are indeed very "creative". So creative that it made me wonder if its biochemically hazardous or radioactive. At least it tastes so.

Apart from me and ah fu and the 2 new medic specs, we have another new member to the medical ctr family - xiao3 xue3. No, it is not a beautiful young sexy female medic as the name may suggest. It is Mr Sea-bass' new pet rabbit bought just across the street. I confess that it is very cute. However, it has caused Mr Sea-bass to divert much of his attention on it such that he is, most of the time, not to be seen during free time. Well, Mr Sea-bass is an extreme rabbit lover. I shall say, rabbit-phile or rabbit-philic. He has 2 rabbits at home, xiao xue would be his 3rd.

I've started PA-ing for the MO. Well, i am trained as a MOPA you see. It means Medical Officer Personal Assistant. However, it is under the supervision of my senior lao-jiao PAs - Mr Chiu2Cheng3 (hand gun), Mr Juson and Mr Sea-bass. Well, i didnt give the real names to protect their identity. I get to understand that being a MOPA is not that simple. Because it requires much concentration and patience. Concentration, because I must listen carefully to what the MO says when he examines the patient and hence i will type it down on the computer system. Patience, because the system is freaking slow and it often hangs. Most of the time MOs can see patient faster than normal, it is just that the system is the limiting factor. Haha. There were times when some patients were obviously chao-kenging (aka malingering) thinking that we medics and the MO do not know. Well, i can say our MO is very kind not to fuck them upside down. There were a few that went to the extent of churning out every single excuse he can think of hoping to lets say fail FFI or get MC or down pes or something that it almost cause me, my upper study and the MO to fuck him one time good one. But he is lucky enough to escape unharmed. Imagine this... baby MOPA fuck Mr chao-keng upside down...followed by lao jiao MOPA fuck Mr chao-keng upside down again...followed by MO fuck him upside down yet again. How nice can that be. Haha.

Well, thats only my 4th week here in my new camp. 5 seniors are ORD-ing. It is really very heart-aching to see the ORD-personals indulging in ORD mood. Haha. I dare not count when would it be my turn...

Week 3:

My first outfield turn out to be fine. Just that i got to sit until my butt went numb. The uncles, i mean reservists, of 160 SQN were very nice to me. Keep asking me questions like as though they wanted to introduce their daughters to me. Haha. But still, my first experience of outfield cover alone was rather okay, nothing major happened, thankgoodness.

There were 2 new specs posted into the medical centre. Both are of my age. Although i still remain the lowest rank of all medics around, i am no longer the youngest because there is one new spec whos birthday is 2 days after mine.

I finally started my on job training for MOPA, which is my assigned role. I finally understood that being a MOPA is very mentally tiring because you have to concentrate and listen carefully to what the MO say when he is examining the patients. Furthermore all those relevant data must be key in correctly in the very-confusing system call PACES II. But the good thing is, i will get to learn alot on dignosis, drugs given, common medical conditions, etc. My upper study aka senior named me Level 1 Baby MOPA. Soon, as he'd said, I will level up and evolve into the ultimate Level 70 Papa MOPA. Sounds lame, but i thought the name was kinda cute.

Ever since i was posted to Chong Pang Camp i've yet to exercise much. I guess i need to find the discipline and time to start on my daily exercise regime to maintain my level of fitness.

I guess thats about all for this entry... yawn !!!

One week has passed and my stay in Chong Pang Camp has become more meaningful. I mean, i have a clearer view of how the medical centre runs and the job scope expected of me. I'm glad i am able to help up in some of the things around in the short-handed medical ctr but there is definitely more things to learn. This week seemed to pass rather slower compare to in SMTI. Perhaps it is because the official working time is 8 to 5 (though we have to stay in). Anyway, some of the highlights this week were: evacuating a patient to TTSH, IPPT cover, night deployment cover, etc. Some of which is really interesting but i shall not elaborate due to security reasons. Anyway, I've learnt alot for the past 1 week and the coming week, i am going to put them into good practice. Welcoming me on monday when i report to camp will be a 2 days 1 night outfield cover which i will be doing ALONE. I am feeling rather nervous about it because it is the first time i am covering an activity alone, i can start to feel the heavy responsibilities on my shoulder now. Furthermore, i do not know how to handle potential unreasonable demands that is beyond my jobscope and responsibilities there. But still, wish me all the best. Anyway, there will be 2 new specs joining us on monday which i cannot welcome due to my outfield cover. I am really starting to appreciate my little "family" in the medical ctr bcoz everyone is so good to everyone, well at least for what i can see now.

Anyway, i managed to get myself an airforce dryfit tshirt, shorts and most importantly the airforce beret and crest which i am proud to wear. But still i cannot get my camp pass process due to complicated reasons with regards to who the medical ctr now really belongs to. Some say gombak, some say sembawang some say chongpang. No one wants to take the responsibility to process our pass i feel. As for the medic vocation badge, i still cant manage to find it. Not many places sell those.

I went to book my highway code basic theory test today. Witnessing that all my seniors in the medical centre knows how to drive, i am more determined to get my license earlier. Hence without much hesitating i proceed on with the booking this morning. My test date is on 16th Nov. It is a friday which means i have to take leave on that day. Wish me luck.

Just now went for bunk outing at marina sq. Sadly only 4 pple including me turned out. Had lunch at sweet secret which i feel is a little ex (but the rest feels it is of affordable price). I dont come from a rich family you see. After that we went to play pool where malic n kyn have to leave for personal reasons. That left me and nelson to watch the legendary locally produced movie <<881>>. Although i has been out for near one month, the show still gains great popularity now as the entire theatre was at full capacity. The movie was very nice. I would have easily given it 5 stars out of 5 stars. The wide range of costumes donned on the actresses were very nice and colourful. The setting was so heartland. Most importantly, it made me and my friend (as well as the entire theatre) cry. The final part (where little papaya was hospitalised and dying) was so sad that i just could not control my tears. I was trying to hide them, trying to control and trying to secretly wipe them off but each second as the final part of the show proceeded, more tears just flow out. The songs were song2 (old fashioned in hokkien) but nice. Definitely worth the money. Now i understand why all my friends that watched it gave great comments for it.

Anyway, after the movie when me and nelson walked out, our eyes were freaking red like we have gotten conjuvatities. After that it was 9+ and i went home. So yes, thats basically for this week. Next week...outfield...haiz...hopefully i dont "die somewhere in the wild" as quoted by one of the enciks in my bmt coy.

Returned to SMTI on thursday morning, the day after POC. This time, it felt different. I was back as a trained medic waiting for posting unlike before where i went back as a trainee. It was good to see the same old building, same old trainees, same old sgts there welcoming me. But I was tense. Everyone was tense. We were very nervous over our posting, which decides the fate of our remaining days as a medic in the army. Got my cert, got my skill badge, got my AED n mask fitting card. Very proud of them, esp the skill badge. Finally got something can sew onto my uniform. Then we, all 3 platoons, were gathered at the open audi where the truth was about to be revealed. As the names were read out one by one according to respective units, i witnessed my friends leaving the pack, some with disapointment, some with shock, other with relief. The group shrink in size as more names were read out. My heart pounded faster and faster. 1SIR, 6SIR, arti, armour, SCE, etc...Soon it was left until about 1/6 the original size. And then master warrant past a remark to the corporal reading out our names "i think thats all for army". We were all very excited upon hearing that. Meaning we shd either end up in RSAF, navy or those cmpb, mmi thingy. And then i heard, RSAF ADOC...a few names followed my mine. I suddenly felt a quick sense of relief. RSAF !!! Omg...after one big round i am back to RSAF. Well, with regards to this, it is a long story dating to back then before i received my medic posting. So i wont elaborate much on that. Me and ah fu both posted to RSAF ADOC medical centre at chong pang camp. I heard its quite good, just that we have occasional turn-outs. I felt damn happy. After lunch and well-wishing some of my fellow platoon mates, me and ah fu embarked on our journey to chong pang camp. It was pouring. We had a hard time flagging a taxi that transported us there. Ah fu's friend working in that camp came out and fetch us. Upon arrival at the medical ctr, we were sorta warmly welcomed. The seniors (corporals and sgts) there are nice people. Very friendly. We learnt that our understudy will commence this monday. In the meanwhile, we sat around and observe. We were shown our bunk. The cookhouse food was not much better than anywhere else. Because we exchanged our 11B for visitors' pass, we cannot have our breakfast since our seniors were not with us to lend us their 11B. So we went up to canteen for our first breakfast there. We balonglong-ed all the way to medical ctr. Not very used to it. This morning we learnt how to prime injections and jab pple. We found ourselves some live-victims from a batch of NSmen going overseas for training. We also learnt how to do ECG and we did it on a newbie and also an encik. We learnt how to draw blood, on the expense of each others' arms. Afternoon after lunch, did not join the rest of my seniors for soccer. Went out of camp at around 5pm. Seemed to be a very slack day. But then i guess when understudy commence and we know our stuff, we should be very busy like our seniors. So hoping for the best, hopefully i get to stay there and have a nice time there.

PS: I am gonna go emart and buy the RSAF tee shirt, PT singlet and beret w/ crest. Omg !!! Sooo cool !!!!

Today is our big day. It is the day me closed one chapter of our life and start on another. It is out passing out parade for us basic medic course trainees. Held at old ford factory where the "superior looking" bukit timah hill stood firmly behind us, in such a "historically significant" place, we witnessed the birth of a new batch of medics from SMTI. Seriously speaking, i really feel very numb then throughout the parade, when the commanders donned the armband on me. Not much feelings. I wonder how far i can go this 2 years with the limited skills i've learnt. I've read one of my sgt's blog on his friendster acct. He is doubtful of our skills. Seriously speaking, i am also a little doubtful of our ability currently to handle a crisis. Perhaps through time and experience, we could, but as for now, being freshly passed out medics, i really dont know. Anyway, most of us will get our postings tml. It is really nerve wrecking. I really wanted to go to a good unit, hopefully near to my house. 8 to 5 is a priviledge I long desired. I can only pray for the best.

9 weeks !!! Before i knew it, i've came to the end of my basic medic course. The next scary thing which i hated and had once experienced 9 weeks ago - posting. Green beret, black beret and khaki beret are equally horrifying for me...plz give me blue. Hahaha. And this final weekend i had as a BMC trainee, i still have to study for 2 more test - M Pam and Prev Med. Sian siah. But i think i've enjoyed enough yesterday. Went kbox lar, its ok and i wont elaborate on it. What else? Oh yes, our grad ceremony will be held this wed at Ford Factory. It is really weird for our course commander to chose a place outside SMTI to have our grad ceremony. And i still have doubts on what to bring to camp, what to bring home and stuff. We are gonna leave our luggage in camp and our postings will b read out this thurs where we will be instantly "sold off" to our new units. Haiz. Still thought i could at least have one day break or something where i can wash my LBV, boots and stuff. Anyway, i am really wishing for an 8 to 5 job. Wait long long is the answer for me with regards to my wish. Haha. Dunno what to expect siah. Hmmm...my fellow friends from SISPEC and navy seems to be graduating from their course at this period of time also. Haha. Its all about postings again. Yawn. Anyway, i know my blog has become the hottest topic for my platoon in BMC, busybody noseparkers. Haha. And plz dont ask me why nightangel...i know it is a lame nick but plz spare me coz i am being very uncreative enough to think of a new nick ever since pri 6. Hmmm...this week gonna spend lotsa money oso i guess. FIR new album and Jolin new album. Haha. Guess whos agent J as asked in my MSN nick...i guess the answer is obvious.

Lets talk about this week in camp. I can say this is the worst week yet in my course. Firstly, when i booked in last sunday, the first bad news that greeted me was that a cat urinated on my book-in-book-out book and i have to rewrite everything from the start and start a new book since I am the book-in-book-out IC. With the week long of tight schedule, i hardly have enough time to restart a decent book and i can say the new book is still now in a mess despite the help of some of my platoon mates...i emphasize the word SOME. Secondly, this week schedule is very tight with BCS and chemical defence. BCS requires us to set up and tear down the BCS over n over again from day till veyr late at night hence we were very shag by the end of each days' training. Chem defence is ok but wearing of the chem defence suit and mask really made us go mad coz its very hot inside. Now i can say i salute the MRF pple. Went into gas chamber, the experience was not as bad as i tot it would be, but still...due to the tight schedule on that day, our sgts were screaming and punishing us whole day long. Yesterday was very mentally challenging for us as a platoon. We were supposed to book out at 7+. And we tot juz like every week, we would make through the gate. Alas, i suspected something was wrong when my snr sgt decided to marched us to the gate from coy line. And yes, my instincts were right. When we were about 20m away from the gate, he berhenti us and started questioning our worth in the course, our attitude towards the course and our deserves to really book out. After the psychologically tormenting lecture by him, he finally announced "gentlemen, you are booking in now" and with that, we ker kiri puseng and march back to coy line and be "confined". While some of my plt mates cursed and swear at his decisions, i was loser and failure enough to sit aside and cry coz i tot i put in so much effort the whole week, all the book in book out thingy and all the tiring bcs sessions juz awaiting for this day to book out, were all gone down the drain. We dunno when we were confined until so when it was 10+, we decided to give up and turn off the lights to sleep. Juz then, we were asked to fall in and given another lecture by him again, this time, we were allowed to book out. With regards to this incident, while i admit that my snr sgt was not very right to play with our book out timing, he was really smart to use this, perhaps as a final warning to us to be serious about the course. I tot it was really effective in drilling some sense into us but then the repercussions of it would still prevail. Anyway, i wont bear any grudges with him coz i understand he also need to do his job. Finally, i am going to book in soon, this time sat night for guard duty on sunday. I was on the standby list, but most probably i will kena later coz some of the real guard duty pple were black listed for not turning up. So i would say i have a very very very slim chance of coming back home later. Still, i have to suck thumb and serve my guard duty i guess. Anyway, it is down to the last 1.5 weeks of this course. I dunno how it is gonna be, how its gonna end, we shall really see...