Channel U came our sch today to firm you hua jiu shuo....some kinda teen forum and chat show where teens air their view....yup....no wonder the cleaners start cleaning up e MPH yesterday...everyone around was excited when the VP announce this news this morning during morning assembly la....and yes....e venue is at MPH.....not e hall coz its used for J2 prelims.....

Anyway....channel u crew started coming in n prepare the props since like 11+ ? And juz nice my classroom was located above e MPH where we can look down n see everything inside from e corridor....so everytime during intervals of lesson....pple from my classroom blk will go out n look down on wads happening...actually quite a big thing u noe...considering they "dare" to choose to come to AJ...which i think will collaspe any sooner or later.....

The forum is supposed to start at 2....and all of us were released at 1.30....woohooo....but too bad i got open hse meeting...so when i was proceeding across e parade sq to the main blk...lao lai called me and ask me if i m going to watch la...i say no coz i m bz....den after e short conversation i looked infront n start walking....omg....i saw quan yi feng walking towards e MPH past me...it all happens in a split second and i was too "shock" to react...mebbie is bcoz i seldom get in close proxi wif celebrities....ya....den b4 i noe it....some girls beside me snapped "hey, its quan yi feng, pai zhao (take photos)"....den some other girls take digi cam n take her photo...den she very feng du turn, pose, smile n continue walking....woah....it all happens in a split second la....den after quan yi feng i saw desmond koh....i hav to admit...he is real damn skinny la....poor desmond....n no one bothers bout him....everyone bothers bout quan yi feng....again....i will use this chance to say...POOR DESMOND !!! HAHAHA !!!! (got hidden meanings de)

Ya...so basically went for e open hse meeting...got to noe dat basically e entire proposal for e programme grp is rejected....only my part is consider acceptable...still...there must b some changes made....haiz.....sian.....went home.....lunch....did NYJ 2003 promos maths....didn score well...sian.....desperately need help for maths.....haiz.....

This morning went mugging wif jas at e lib...QY didn turn up....i will deal wif him some other time...mug the whole morning in e cafe...they actually spend $$ hire someone to walk around e cafe askin pple to order things...duh...saw Ksoh mugging alone in e cafe oso...haiz...stressed...think this morning in e lib oso very inefficient...did chemistry....but ended up discussing phys X_X....went 2nd storey to photocopy past yr promos...yes...illegal underground xchange again...now apart from my own AJ's papers, i hav HC, TJ, NYJ, NJ(Maths...as CH n PH will come soon) and now SRJ...can open tuition ctr liao...haha...pple collect diff JC's badges i collect diff JC's past yr papers....weird...hope to get SAJ, VJ and RJ paper...but no close friends studying there leh...last day of holiday...in hrs time its sch reopen again...haiz...sian....

Gd morning....ok, its like 12.41am le, so i shd blog bout yesterday's occurance. Haha. Woke up at 8...had a quick shower, breakfast and rush off for tuition at 9. Walked to e busstop outside NYP half awoke....it isnt long b4 bus 72 arrived, i looked at my watch...9.20am...tuition starts at 10....i wonder if i will reach hougang too early...but i still boarded e bus anyway. After turning its way in hougang, reached destination 5 min b4 10...woah....had tuition from 10 to 12+.....ruqing was unable to make it to xchange papers....so i still hav her TJ papers on hostage...haha....:P

Walked to hougang bus int. took 72 back home...saw Sam...woah...long time no see...he was on his way to NYP...so we chatted on e bus journey back to AMK....we talked bout how lotsa things....too sian to mention....reached home at 1.30....walked to AMK central to da bao lunch...walk one big around yet sad to find all e hawker centres closed for renovations....oh yah...saw kelvin soo outside jubilee...:)....settled for some small hawker centre...da bao lunch n went home to eat....was online not for long when my open hse department i/c msg me online.....the proposal i sent her got "some" problems...haha...so she was like telling me all e corrections needed to b done....it took us quite a while when i realized its alreadi 4+...i needed to meet ye wee for mugging session at amk lib....so i quickly left home...

Met ye wee at amk mac....we walked to amk lib n after much searching, we finally found a seat. Saw emily n nicholas at e lib oso...everyones mugging...haiz....we did maths juz now...again i muz emphasize i sux at maths...esp trigo.....so we mug until like 8+.....kept on doing maths qns.....ya....den 8+ we went KFC for dinner....i got discount coupon but he didn...haha..nvm...oh yah...oso photocopied one set of NJ maths promos....again...illegal underground papers trading....chatted for a while in KFC until 9+. Went home, bathed and again...when i got online, my open hse i/c started msging me bout e open hse proposal...online meeting for more than an hour...ended at 10+...got lotsa corrections to b made...haiz....deadline tml...but nvm...manage to finish correcting e proposal by midnite....hope its "acceptable"...planning to do MC's script tml...i mean laterwards...haha....

Now very sian...haiz....holidays ending soon......sad.....looking forwatd to end of promos....and for now....lets continue mugging :P

Haiz....study promos until sian....no motivation to spur me to study....really feel very sian..esp wif such a humid weather that makes me wanna rush into e toilet for a cold shower...haiz....anyway, haven been blogging ever since holiday start, i guess...so i shall update bout myself wif this entry.

Firstly, HW, finish all hw by monday, so make time for study....initially i tot i will study 1 subj per day every wk, but then, i had a change in plan....i decide to study more on econs n maths, esp maths coz i totally sux in maths...yes, this is not a joke, an student who got double A1 for both maths during olevel is actually struggling wif JC maths right now...and dats ME !!! Pathetic rite? I also think so. Econs...muz memorize alot of things...haiz....maths...memorize all e formulae i guess...dunno la....chem n phys i leave the revision process to during tuition....esp chem...coz at least the short 2 hours per subj is quality time where i can really sit down seriously n absorb....haiz.....but judge on e pace i m going right now....i think promos is cant make it le...haha....yesh, dats how pathetic i m....so i hope someone can come n save me....i'm doomed.

Next, open hse...yes, me n FPE self volunteer to b part of e organising committee for open hse...we represent e alpha list...haha....well, both of us agreed that its gd to hav somehting written in our testimonial so we decide to go for it...furthermore, if i dun, i cant hav anything much to b mentioned bout wif juz being a pathetic small secrectary in my cca (esp when it comes to CCA Award...i may not qualify for i dun hav much contribution)....compare to e councilors, pres n vps....nvm....so, yup.....its still ok organising e stuff...i m part of e programme committe....details of e open hse i shall not reveal....but at least things r going fine....yup...

Finally, lets tok bout yesterday....yup....yesterday was rather hectic...woke up at 7+, quickly had breakfast n rush to sch for open hse meeting. I brought along my tuition stuff coz later i got tuition...and i anticipate the meeting is gonna take a long time...but again....i miscalculated and the meeting ended 2 hours b4 my tuition...so i went AMK central to da bao lunch home to eat...bathe...change...and got ready for tuition...well...its e first time i am going tuition alone, taking bus....(coz always is my father fetch de)...so i walked to e busstop infront of NYP to take 72....waited for a long time den 72 arrive....i hesistatedly board...wondering if it will take me to my destination at hougang....well...i managed to reach there safe n sound..as i always like to say...and oso...on time....tuition ended at 4+...went to hougang central to meet ruqing to exchange past yr promos papers....yup....muggers !!! However, when i called her, shes still @ bedok bus interchange, juz released from her sch....so i was like....-_-!!!....went to hougang mall walk walk...went popular turn rounds (dou quan)....basically trying to kill time....walked till 4.30...i went down n buy shi lin fried chicken...long queue...incompetent management...nvm.....despite e long queue dat waste me alot of time....ruqing still hav not arrived....so meaning i hav to wait even longer...finally she arrived...we exchange past yr phys n maths promos paper. Yup, underground illegal trading activity...haha....promised to return her e papers this fri..where i got another session of phys tuition.....sian.....went home wif my shi lin fried chicken chilled...not hot anymore...but still edible.....sat infront of my study table n start mugging maths....sian...again....i cant do maths....pathetic.....

Still haven photocopy the TJ papers ruqing gav me....deadline- friday......i will see wad i can do.....in the meantime....i hav to complete e open hse proposal for my section by friday.....so wif dat...cya !!!

Uuuuuu.....today is e last day of term 3 !!! Cheersz !!!! Haha....yeah rite....anyway...e whole day juz feel very slack la...so wad if its e last day of term 3....this marks e start of e mugging season for promos is here.....sob sob...anyway......kuah wasnt here today...haha...so mdm woon decide to take that period hence we dun hav any econs remedial after sch....cool....school ends at 2.15....it was drizzling la...i made my way to AMK to mug wif ye wee, my pri sch classmate whom i've not seen for 5 yrs but whom i've kept in contact wif via e msn....yup....so i made my way to e lib promptly and i saw a familiar guy standing outside e lib....i was wondering if he is ye wee...he also wondered if i'm cmh...so i say to myself...better play safe...dun acknowledge or else if recognize wrong person very malu...haha....so i walked in...gav him a call...."hello...r u e one standing outside?" "Yes" he replied....ok....so its really him....haha...cant recognize him after 5 yrs la....dats e problem....anyway...we roam e lib to find for seats but unfortunately its over packed...went over to KFC...same situation...in e end we settled at Mac...had lunch there....had some gd chat...and of coz, e main objective....SCHOOLWORK !!!! Haha.....2 muggers indeed.... we agreed to xchange promos papers, some notes n stuff....yup....some of u guys may know i m having some secret underground exchange going on where i go on xchanging past yr promos wif my friends from other sch...hehe....anyway....we mug till like 7+ where i think i shd go home....reached home only to find out that my bag n my chem file stinks....yucks....all thanks to macdonalds....i decide to wash my sch bag tml...furthermore its e holiday week hence i dun think i needa use it urgently....as for my file...i still hav no idea how to get rid of that smell....haiz....perhaps tml i will seek e help of "green tea leaves" coz they r really gd smell remover....anyway....its sept holiday....everyone mug hard...study hard....JIAYOU !!!!

Yoz yoz....juz came back from visiting...yes...its 31st aug....teachers day eve...and of coz most of us hav gone visiting our alma matar n stuff...yup....Went to school this morning as usual...reach at 6+....soon all e other zhssrians stream in and we hav another typical morning gathering in aj outside dance studio....bell ring....proceed on to parade sq....it was e first time we hav flag raising without e principal....ya....so after flag raising its ACES day exercise....line dance....boring....one word to describe e scene -- CHAOS...everyone basically bochap e person giving instructions la...dat poor guy oso quite helpless....everyone juz gather into grps n start chattering....den came e PE teachers.....takin over...den still there is still lotsa chaos but things get slightly better....so for ACES day....i tell u....no one is dancing la....only e teachers n e dancers zi-high-ing la...but oso feel quite pitiful for them......who cares

Den we proceed to e hall for concert....BORING !!!! Since when is AJ concert ever interesting....but at least we manage to enjoy the newly installed aircon for the first time...which is something gd worth mentioning. After e concert i went to e bkshop to print AJ promos for Simin & QY...yes....we r exchanging papers...see...i m such a full time mugger...haha. Anyway....stupid shaun left e grp first....tsk tsk....met e other zhonghuarians at e busstop...i think some 20+ of us....AVA pple den called...askin where i am coz they r celebrating teachers day for e teachers in e canteen....u noe wad...i heck care them...coz i m alreadi on e bus....haha took e same bus 853 to S'goon and walk back to ZHSS passing by NYJC.....its such a big grp la...quite grand rite....

Reached ZHSS....needa sign in at e security....stupid procedure...went up to e hall....NY pple r alreadi there....so gd rite....dats e advantage of studying near ZHSS...nvm....so went around saying hi...meet old friends....old classmates....meet teachers (while e concert is still going on)....quite nice....luv zhss to bits....all e old friends...some bcame totally different from wad i used to know....some still e same....as crazy as b4....then all 4E2 pple gathered at e canteen after e concert....yup....qinqi n jes baked 2 cakes for angster n wongster.....so nice rite....den all of us sing "happy bday song"....i mean "happy teachers' day song"....quite nice la...e whole class is still so bonded.....everyone was also so shock at how minyi slimed down so much.....Oh yah...we oso took a class photo....i think most of us r present ba...can basically name those absentee but nvm....nice.....den afterthat everyone juz sat around n crap....crap until 1+ when tanah chase us off coz e gate is closing (dun get e idea wrong, not ghost gate).

Went to J8 wif e rest for 4e2 lunch....basically that place is so damn bloody crowded we cant find a suitable eatery that can accomodate so many of us....so after stoning there for like half an hour...we decided to split up....me, shaun, yiqin n e rest went to delifrance, some went cartel...some went KFC.....so after lunch we met again....some suggest we shd go watch movie...some want shopping....me (being anti-social...haha) and shaun n yiqin decide to go home...so we took MRT home...waving gd bye to e rest....so nice....luv zhss...luv 4e2...luv everyone....e 4 yrs of wonderful memories....definitely better than AJ....esp in terms of cca....haha....no hidden meanings :P

Ok la....stop crapping le....tonight 8pm got tuition....sian.....haven finish tuition hw....better go n do now....haha....hope there will b another gathering again....oso lookin forward to 4e2 chalet...its gonna b very very fun :D !!!

Today's maths test juz sux....they gav us 2002 promos...damn it !!!! I downloaded it from IVLE like last weekend n i was hesistating if i shd try it to prepare myself for e test. And e stupid me decide not to coz i simply hav no time.......haiz.....shd hav tried e 2002 promos....den today's test sure score de....anyway.....i think i am gonna fail maths promos.....even wif e help of e cheat sheet....i cant do e qns.....all qns either left half done or left undone.....f**k !!! 2.5 hours in e damn bloody cold LT draining off all my brainjuice n yet i can barely pass.....i m a failure...loser....haiz...:(

Preparing "cheat sheet" for this mon's maths test...yes...we r allow to prepare a cheat sheet b4 hand for e test, which is a full paper....but the thing is, e cheat sheet muz only b one A4 size paper where u can write anything on it....1 A4 size paper both sides....at first i tot its more than enuff....now....after preparing halfway....i think its too little to fill in all e formulae n stuff.....omg...i m gonna fail my maths test...sigh....someone help me !!!

For the first time in my entire life....i was "late" this morning. It all happens like this....6.30am...i reached AJ as usual....e same study bench outside dance room....e same few zhonghuarians come n join in and we hav our daily morning get-together....den is like tok n tok n tok n tok....everyone was like so bonded, so happy together n stuff...i think got shaun, zara, avril, me, joyce, n a few more...den suddenly i feel like behind me no body liao....coz normally 1st bell ring everyone of us will proceed to e parade sq...then is like this morning we didn seem to hear the bell....its either we r too involved in our conversation or wad but for my part, i seriously didn hear any bell....den when i see behind me left a few pple....i sense somehting was wrong...i looked at my watch...OH NO !!! 7.29AM !!! 1 min b4 flag raising...den is like e few of us, together wif other pple (whom i think oso unaware of e time) chiong to e parade sq...but too late....e national anthem sounded....so hav to embarassingly sing e national anthem at e lockers area wif e rest...facing e J2 form teachers....walau....so malu...den after everything we very rushly get to our classes.....first thing i saw....mdm woon wif her angry stare at me...haha...den i guiltily got into e line...den my classmates start askin me if i were late...i told them i didn hear any bell....ya...dats e whole morning incident....and worse still...lim kim thye brought this incident up during mass civics today...walau...i was like...omg...i bcam a qian gu zui ren alreadi....hope mdm woon understands n dun mark me late...if not my 11 yrs of perfect record will b ruined wif one black mark...haha...anyway...today's chem lesson sux....dun wish to mention much bout it...stupid kuah...cant tahan us look for higher authority to deal wif us...gd la....n we caught her smiling when her higher authority came in n scold us...tmd....grrrrr !!!!! So dats all for today....maths test this mon...muz prepare !!! Wif dat, Cya !!!

CMH gav black face to his fellow CCA mates yesterday (dat wasnt e first time)....how bad of him right....he is obviously showing attitude....haiz....wad to do....CMH bu shuang the top 2 personals wad.....he is juz doing wad he is supposed to do....furthermore that long hair zha bor dat looks like sudako aka zhen zi oso black face CMH all e time....so she do chu yi CMH do shi wu lor....haha....shd CMH go n apologize to them ??? Well, to an extent he did....CMH had apologized to e other cca mates including his PM....but dat 2....dun wish to see them, will nv see them...haha....so they dun deserve CMH's apology ba....furthermore why shd CMH swallow his ego n pride to apologize to someone dat shd instead apologize to him....rite ? Haha...CMH juz demands for the respect n attention he deserve to receive...dats all...izzit too much for him ??? Worse still...CMH was juz standing next to his pres today outside e LT and yet he pretend not to see him....CMH very wad rite ? Yalor....but wad for acknowlegde his presence when he didn acknowledge CMH's....haiz....now CMH seems to b e villian....but if u guys put urselves in CMH's shoes....u guys will oso feel dat wad he did is justified....haiz.....wad to do....CMH is sad :(
CMH wanna sing a song to his pres, dat song dictates everything he wanna say...including e hidden meaning, dat song is Pin Guang's "Hou Lai De Wo Men"....yup....

Woah....juz finish tuition hw...lotsa TYS....yes....starting to get e hang of it, juz like in sec sch, kept on practising TYS. Anyway....i think i muz start inculcating in myself passion for the subjects i'm taking. I mean i dun take e subjetcs for e sake of taking....its bcoz i'm interested in it hence i want to do well in them...so in order to do well in these subjects, i muz hav passion to serve as e driving force to do well....esp chemistry...muz turn phobia to passion....yes...muz start psychoing myself...i luv chem...i luv chem...yes i luv chem, but i hate e teacher...hehe...
Hav been sick for e whole week...now my sore throat n running nose has turn to cough....hai...dunno when this will end....i think i spreaded my illness to some of my classmates....saw them blowing nose oso in class recently....SORRY !!! REALLY SORRY !!! I didn mean it...
Read thru some previous entries of my blog. Discovered that time past so fast...i remembered i started blogging since Dec 2003...and now its alreadi mid of 2005...haiz....and e thing is, when i read thru all e previous posts, i juz recall all e wonderful memories of e past...esp in zhss....and oso...all the events i blogged about seems to hav juz happened yesterday....haiz....looking forward to 31st aug...yes...visiting zhss for sure...all my teachers...all my friends....omg...i juz cant wait...oso looking forward to ZHSS 94th anniversary...if i'm not wrong its in mid sept...though near promos but i think i will still go back....haiz...once a zhonghuarian, always a zhonghuarian rite ?
This weekend is gonna b another busy one....muz chiong EoM, Maths Transformation Tutorial, TJ Summary, wad else....Econs Essay....etc....busy busy....well, at least i'm kept occupied....coz idle hands r the devils' workshop. With that, cya !!!

Busy busy....very busy...haha...promos coming...spa coming...pw deadlines coming....wooo....i wonder if i'm gonna survive it. Haha....but e gd thing is....i free myself of all cca responsibilities for e moment n hence can go home early...haha....lets make a bet...they r not gonna see my blog unless they r so smart to b able to detect....lets bet that i will NOT be down for teachers' day celebration duty.....who wants to bet....place ur bets plz.... Hahaha....coz i noe my VP very well....if shes gonna hav a say in whos doing duty, i will not b in....who cares anyway...haha....so lets note down this day, this date, this time i made this "bet"....lets see if its gonna come true....i m pretty confident :)

It doesn't feel nice to b sick...trust me....i shd've stayed at home n rest today....i mean i've got mc but i choose to go to sch....basically e shortest day of e week bcame e worst day of e week....i m pathetically blowing my nose every minute from sch start to sch end....wads more...theres break down in communication....coz i cant talk...haiz...Mdm woon was not able to attend class today...so we hav 2 free periods....but of coz we were assigned hw....but i m in too much agony to complete it...basically feel like fainting....head very pain....feverish....dats y e whole day i m very lethargic....haiz....reached home at 2pm....cant find any food to eat....so decide not to eat....i hav no appetite anyway....hadn been eating anything since i woke up....head too pain liao decide go take a nap....yup....woke up at 4+....copy some hw....complete chem tutorial 17....and yes...its now 8pm...ok...its time to take medicine...cya !!! Tml investiture...dunno if i want to stay back n watch....perhaps can ask mdm woon for early dismissal tml....haiz....i m so damn sick.....

Fell sick again....yes....all those friends dat r very close to me will noe dat i kana throat inflamation again....yes....sore throat......SHI SHENG LE !!!! Bummer.....all my chem teacher's fault....she herself got sore throat...den during tutorial on fri she explain qns to me until so close....now i kana her virus....slap her arh....anyway....screwed up econs test today....haiz....i was like blowing my nose wif limited tissue paper in dat cold LT where e bloody aircon kept blowing at me....aggrevate my conditions....haiz.....i hate to fall sick....even if i were to fall sick....i rather it b fever n no sore throat....haiz....tml got MC....but i think i will still b going to sch.....coz short day, i dun mind....mebbie wed pon investiture ba...coz investiture oso nothin to see....scali see pple i dun like still make me even more sick....haha....cya !!!

FADING INTO OBSCURITY...

I have thought it rather thoroughly these few weeks....i think that its useless for me to rebel or fight back or wadsoeva....since i m born to b a nobody, i shall continue to b a nobody....i am destinated not to make it big....not in school...not in my cca....i think i shd b happy enuff to hav at least a small post in EXCO.....i remembered in my sec sch when i almost got to b video head in MC.....at least i tot i can make it...but alas...i m banished back to become a commoner....in JC...i tot i stand high chance in bcoming the pres or VP...but nv had i expected that e teacher decide to giv a twist n let "less deserving" pple take e role...juz bcoz they want them to b more involved in cca....yes, now they r more involved...i dun see my need anymore in e club...i shd juz b my commoner that i used to b.....

Of all periods of e whole yr i am born to b a Leo....Leos are suppose to b gd leaders, they enjoy attention n power...but i dun hav any....i am juz a typical leo that wants to hav some power, some say...but since i m not given e chance to hav any, i think i shd juz resort to my fate....it all boils down to e word "jealousy"...yes, i admit i am jealous, i am jealous at others' achievements, their high rank n position, the power n command they hav, their gd results...everytime i try to convince myself that i m juz jealous and i shd juz get away wif it....but i juz fail over n over again....how i wish there arent any jealousy in this world, they at least i wont feel so upset, so pissed off....

My CCA teacher once say that he hopes all e EXCO will get e CCA award at e end of next yr....but criteria being, each of us must organise an event....my pres n vp has alreadi organised investiture, my PM wants to organise AVA camp next yr....they want to let me organise some video workshop or stuff...but thinking of it, i think i would decline e offer...yes, i'm stupid, but once i feel like putting everything down, i will put everything down...i hope to feel that i will b happy enuff to b amongst e audience n clap n applause for e other 3 of my exco when they receive their cca award next yr....i want to hav it, but on the other hand, i feel that i m not deserving enuff....i m trying hard to convince myself that its juz an award, no big deal...but again, as a typical leo i am, its fame n recognition that i desire....yet i feel i shd juz let it brush pass....i m so confused...

A few days ago...i m still full of passion to make it big...but few days later today...i think that i shd juz b contended wif wad i hav now. Me n FPE went to look for wendy koh, alpha list teacher incharge, to show our great interest in organising open hse...reason....i want to hav somehting nice to b written in my testimonial...furthermore, we alpha list students r suppose to organise something....but she refered us to Lim Kim Thye, council teacher incharge....on that thought, i was like...perhaps i shd juz giv up....coz this will mean councilors will b incharge instead....i dunno yet...perhaps i may approach him on mon (i gav e excuse not to look for him today bcoz i haven cut my hair)...coz gd leaders take initiative....and i want to b e one taking initiative, come forward n lend my service...i dunno...perhaps i am not fit to do so...different thoughts r fighting inside me...if i successfully get to organise open hse...then i hav high chance of getting cca award...but on e other hand...it seems mission possible, and i am always not fated wif cca awards...

At the end of e day, i want to ask myself, wad hav i done for e past 2 yrs in college...e answer may be "yes, i played an active role of a student, i organise this this that that, and for my cca, i do this this that that..." or e answer may be "nothing much, i spend my 2 yrs without any remarkable acheievements..." I hope its not e latter. But again, since when am i fit enuff to hav e first answer. I am very self-doubtful...i am skeptical bout my own capabilities....i dunno if i m able to do it...but for sure one thing...i want to do it...i think i m a failure....after weeks of "rebeling" against my pres n vp, i think its rather childish...i mean, come on, cmh, get a life, get on wif life, stop being e childish immature cmh u used to b....but e problem is...i m that immature childish cmh...if not i will not b called cmh...haha....I may not b able to outshine e rest in terms of leadership, fame, cca achievements, etc...but i hope i can at least shine a little wif my academic...in e end of e day...its still grades that plays a more significant role....i will try to continue convincing myself that recognition in terms of cca, leadership, wadsoeva r not impt to ME....I am a failure....I am fading into obscurity....but then....its my decision.....i hav no one to blame....

PS: hope i wont get spammed after this entry....

HAPPY BDAE TO ME !!! HAPPY BDAE TO ME !!! HAPPY BDAE TO MEeeee.......HAPPY BDAE TO ME !!!!! Lol !!! I'm officially SEVENTEEN today !!!! Hahaha.....yes....one yr older liao...haiz....ageing sux....hope i m 16 every yr but then....haha....anyway....had a rather quiet bdae today....my first greeting of e day came from Jas...lol...she smsed at i think 7.15am ??? Soooo touched....remember that last yr i was e first one dat wish her...now she return me a favour...lol...den oso thanks to all my ex classmates from zhss n present classmates from 2205...thanks for e wishing....yup....i noe i am older by 1 yr liao...haha....ageing....x_x !!! Oso thanks 2205 for e little piece of present...really appreciate it.....and oso...i m soooo surprise that YY smsed me juz now !!! I mean this guy is like always unreachable....everytime sms him he nv reply....and i received his sms greetings...so touched...lol...so ya...to all....if u read this...thanks alot :)

Ok...bdae muz hav bdae wish rite...here r my birthday wish for e year:

1. Good grades for every tests and exams....esp promos....hope i can get at least 2 As and 1 S Paper....

2. Be more sociable...yah....as u guys noe....i abit anti social de....so i hope this yr...old liao...muz learn to b more sociable...make more friends....yup

3. Clear all the grudges, misunderstandings and unpleasent stuff wif my AVA EXCO....hope we can b gd friends again...and gd team mates.....

4. Get fitter, lose weight....hopefully pass NAPFA wif flying colours next yr

5. Get attached !!! Lol....i am really despo....anyone got nice girl can recommand me??? Lol !!!

6. More 2E5 and 4E2 gatherings....Lol...i mean u guys oso want this rite...hope we hav an yr end chalet....miss u guys lots...

.....still got alot alot la....but ya....finally....muz wish everyone around me forever happy....enjoy life....world peace.....(seems so politically correct) but then ya....haha....and finally, other than thankyou, still muz thankyou for all who hav made my day today :)

Happy National Day !!!! Am currently watching ndp 2005 now...one word to describe - BORING !!! Anyway....woke up early to chiong homework...haiz....still cant finish....pathetic....met my PW grp at Yishun Bus Interchange at 1.45pm....We r suppose to go Tian Wei's hse at Bt Panjang to finish WR, which is due this friday.....anyway....we took a long long bus ride that cuts thru mandai to Bt Panjang....surprisingly....i did not feel asleep. Lol !!! Reached the bus stop...alighted n theres Tianwei bringing us to his hse....his hse very big...HDB mansonatte...rich sia !!! Anyway...manage to finish compileing the WR in 3 hrs....receive an sms from my fellow tuition classmate that tuition this evening was cancelled....burmer....nvm....so left Tian Wei's hse at bout 5.30....the rest takin e same bus back to yishun but i choose to take LRT alone....took LRT to CCK den take north sth line....well...i m anti social...yes i am.....Haha...didn take LRT b4...so abit blur as in to which platform to board n stuff....but still manage to get to CCK MRT safe n sound....saw alot of pple wearing red on e MRT...i think all heading towards Yishun Residential NDP thingy....haha....suddenly feel like singing CNY songs when others r singing patriotic NDP songs....lame....but ya....very red...see until my eyes red....O_O !!! Ok...dats it...reached home bout 6+ den watch live telecast of NDP....again....its BORING !!! as mentioned earlier....Well...2 more days n its my birthday....think this yr oso no one celebrate le la....it has been a yearly practice that no one will celebrate my birthday...sad.....

Haha....juz came back...ok...today is national day eve....lets start ranting....woke up as usual this morning....damn tired...coz had tuition last night...but dats not e point....reached sch as usual at 6.40....met shaun...den tok tok tok n e rest juz joined in as usual....7am i m suppose to meet up wif ava club coz got national day celebration duty....but e thought of seeing my pres n vp make me sian....so i decided not to go...see wad can they do to me....yes...i m starting to rebel....dun like it arh??? Your problem la !!!

Before everyone knows it...it started to rain !!! Lol....and poor organisers of e national day celebration dun hav a protocol as to wad to do if weather is bad...haiz.....tsk tsk....but nvm....e rest of e ava pple left for their respective duty le...and i m still there wif my zhonghuarian...wad for i care so much...furthermore my pres ask me not to b too enthu wad...Lol....Den mr lin e ava technician came...so i went in to get my video cam n cam stand for my video duty....yes...without the rest knowing.....again....wad can they do to me...let them wait under e rain la.....hahaha.....

Stroll up to e control room n e rest r busy setting out outdoor system...obviously they dunno wad to do due to e unexpected rain....again....i dun go n help them....wad can they do to me ??? i juz hide inside control room n fiddle wif my video cam....i m doing video duty wad...wad for help them...help le oso no cip hrs....:) Yah...den liddat lor....quite sad la...e j1s actually had to sing mari kita in e audi wif e marching contigent inside....poor thing...so once e rain has cleared....everyone came out to e parade square for picnic....i was spending my free time teaching e new J1s how to film correctly....quite self explainatory though....but still gotta teach them specific skills. Yup. So liddat lor...picnic picnic picnic...film flim flim....den rain again...everyone seek for shelther....pathetic :P Oh yah...did i mention something i m very pissed off about ??? Coz dat time raining la...den rock band finish performing le...so everyone slack lor...den juz play some songs via e outdoor system...so i take e chance to teach e new J1s somemore filming stuff AND MY VP ACTUALLY PURPOSELY TURN ON E VOLUME FOR E SPEAKERS SO THAT THE REST CANNOT HEAR ME !!!!! Jian4 rite !!!! Walau....of coz i diao her la....den she diao me back like those "why ? cannot arh" look....walau....if shes a boy i will sure punch him lor...so i go back n adjust back e volume to normal AND GUESS WAD !!! MY PRES SAY THAT LOUDER VOLUME IS FINE !!!! WALAU !!!!! My fist almost want to punch him liao lor.... IDIOTS !!! Want to go against me izzit ??? Come la...lets fight la !!! Pissed off

After celebration i instantaneously pangsehed them....wad for they need me....they don't actually need me wad...they dun even respect my presence...twirk !!! So i rush back to zhss wif zhenhao n waimeng...yup....zhss....reached there at bout 11.30 ??? No one there...so quiet....only yiqin is there...haiz....den we walk around....visit teachers.....saw angster, elim, mrs wong etc....Ms chan actually daoed us....wongster left without even waiting for us to go back...haiz....Den oso saw sharky and simin....shuhui....spikey....ya...quite a few la....and oso kelvin soo...yes...model student :)

Went back to AJ wif yiqin to get kenneh...coz we initially want to go nyp...cloudy invite us over for lunch....and bcoz yiqin is not an ajcian...he had to wait outside :P So i went in...den juz nice saw FPE....yes...had i tell u all dat e both of us wanna organize open hse ??? Yup...so we went to look for e alpha list teacher ic wendy koh but shes not in...sigh....den i guess hav to reach her on thur....WHICH IS MY BDAE !!! Hahaha....wish me success...its gonna b a very nice 17 birthday gift :) Ok...so i got kenneh out together wif ksoh....instead of going nyp for lunch...we decide to pangseh cloudy n go amk central mkt for lunch...yes....den we were suggesting if we shd go kbox...YES !!! KBOX !!! I LONG TIME NV GO LE !!!! So we very shuang kuai....go jiu go lor....so when we reach kbox....i applied for kbox membership...which i want to apply for since months ago....and ya...we got our room and we sang till 5.30...well...they say got 40% discount for NDP offer....BUT STILL SO EX LEH !!!! And sing until 5.30 only....walau...eat money !!! But nvm...so we sang quite some songs....i realize ksoh n kenneh seldom listen to chi pop...whcih is rather a pity...haiz....and yiqin rather enthu....same here....lol...i challenge myself for quite some more difficult songs...esp FOREVER LOVE !!! Its so damn hard la...sing until almost duan qi....but i think i did ok la...not that bad...but definitely not good....haha....

So afterthat nothin to do liao go home...yes....here comes 2 days break...well....got tuition tml...still hav to chiong pw WR....haiz....sad....so many things to do....so little time.....i am going crazy....

PS: To my dear pres n VP...revenge will come soon :)

I was listening to radio juz now when one of e older ndp songs was broadcasted....and its this song that let me recall of e wonderful memories i had in pri 5 when all pri 5 students went to watch ndp rehersal....den e whole stadium is so colourful wif different pri sch students wearing uniforms...so fun...simple things juz make me happi at that time coz i still dunno e complexity of e real world.....omg....to think of it...it has alreadi been 6 yrs !!! Now i am alreadi in J1 and e pri 5 ndp rehersal thing juz seems to b yesterday.....juz recall e wonderful time i had in pri 5....when my pri sch has not yet been merged n taken over by a lousy principal......when i am still attending lesson in a old matchbox sch building...though old but interesting and full of memories....and everyone juz wore e green and white dqps uniform unlike now e uniform bcom too fanciful to reflect the sch's uniqueness.....haiz.....time changes.....i've not been back to my pri sch for like 4 yrs....i dun wish to go back...go back oso no use....but i will still visit my sec sch....coz its also another place where wonderful memories remain....live the zhss spirit.....nvm....i go dinner le...bye !!!

Wa...i am so damn sian....its long weekend and i'm buried in a sea of homeworks !!! I hav tonnes of homework and i juz cant gather enough morale or enthusisasim to finish them....not even feeling like touching them.....GP essay was the most pertruding task for this weekend ba...coz need to hand in on mon...and such a perfectionist like me cant figure e best way to present my answer...i mean write my essay....so i m really sian.....

Anyway...had OP workshop today...not bad...i mean its rather enriching...however....suayness hav nv strike me like today...we were sitted according to our grps on different tables each wif a number...our grp is table 3....as far as we tot that the trainer is going by table number 1 to 5...such that we r safely e 3rd grp to present....he gav a twist to it and my grp bcoms e first to present...guess wad....i am e first speaker !!!! Meaning i am the first person out of e class of 24 to present....so damn nervous i was and i think i screwed up my presentation....i was like stuttering all over....kept on desperately looking for reference n stuff....i m dead meat :( Anyway, at e end of e workshop e trainer still gav me rather okay comments...perhaps to giv me some face but i dunno....Oh yah....we had an uninvited guest for e workshop today....a HORNET.....damn it....i am most afraid of insects and this bloody hornet juz fly in n start creating chaos within e class wif its bull-like charging.....and i revealed my fear for insects as i kept on dodging....sad....i m so shi bai....haiz.....wad to do....i m born to b afraid of insects wad....lol

After e workshop e 3 cca heads n 3 secrectarys (including me) in my class went for some stupid CCA head talk...i think its a waste of time for me to go...i mean wads e use for secrectarys to attend when he is addressing the matters concerning CCA heads.....but its a rather nice scene when in e middle of e talk 6 pple juz barge in in a straight row .... lol .... den i think we captured e rests' attention....:) But anyway....all i want to say is...my role is insignificant and it doesn matter for me to attend that talk or not....remember i once said .... i am NOBODY and in NO POSITION to make a stand :)

I'm totally disgusted !!! Yucks !!! Had chem pre SPA today....well...everything went on smoothly for me....and i guess i did all e right stuff....so dats gd.....BUT !!!! Once the pre SPA ended....my chem teacher started kao-bei-ing like a mad dog and this totally disgusted me !!! Wad kinda teacher is this....i can tollerate ur horrible accent n thats enough....AND YOU HUMILATE MY CLASSMATE IN CLASS !!!! Walau.....cant stand her liao lor.....she actually pointed out this girl from my class n say dat her SPA skills are totally lousy and she WILL fail her skill B like shit !!! Wad kindoff teacher is this....i feel very bad for her lor....i noe she shd b at e verge of tears...i mean who wont when kana humilated infront of everyone....e least u can do is to encourage her ma....point out her faults n patiently guide her....instead you HUMILATE her....thanks for showing 2205 dat....we really learn alot bout u today....why??? 2205 not triple sci class not gd la...IZZIT ?!?!? YOUR TRIPLE SCI 1105 FORM CLASS THE BEST LA !!! IZZIT ?!?!?! I tell u....u want all of us to drop chem izzit ?!?!?....WE PIAN PIAN DUN DROP WAD CAN U DO TO US !!!! Hahaha.....try us.....

Sian.....weekend again...here comes my weekly ranting...
Firstly, alot of things to do....needa complete oligopoly electure....needa complete PW stuff....needa do maths tutorial...needa understand chem...coz basically i didn learn anything ever since my chem teacher took over starting of this term.....

Yesterday i was so damn pissed off .... perhaps my whole class were pissed off.....stupid chem teacher..... nv appear for tutorial....make us happy for nothin...guess wad....she is happily attending mass civics that she forgot she got tutorial wif us.....damn it.....so we waited in the class for one whole period thinking that mebbie shes captured by aliens or something but ya...she nv made it.....den during break time....she actually appeared n told us that we needa attend make-up tutorials !!! Walau....wad is this.....ownself so irresponsible go play MIA still want us to attend make up for that.....damn it.....she better becareful b4 e whole cohort chase after her for her life....

Wed got alpha list event management course by 21st SC.....it was BORING !!! Total waste of time.....bcoz we r suppose to rotate to different venues for different events' managements thingy....so by e end of e rotation during debrief when everyone suppose to gather back at LT3....only left wif half e cohort...hahaha.....oh yah....did i mention i wanna organize open hse ??? I heard this yr open hse organized by alpha list students....well....they gav us the chance to beautify our testimonial i guess....anyway....i kinda interested in open hse la but up till now no further announcements were made regarding that...i want to b programme i/c...hehe....coz i think i will come out wif weird ideas....(evil grin).....nvm......hope i can attain this wish.....but on e other hand....if i were to b one of e organizer....then i cant help up wif AVA duty on dat day....meaning they will hav lesser manpower....coz open hse is really very jia lat one....all e system form audi to outdoor all needed.....so ya......if i were to b one of e organizers....i will really pissed off my pres n vp....but anyway....who cares.....(evil grin) .....hehe.....i juz wanna take that chance to explore myself more lor....den gain some experience in organizing big events.....i guess its e experience n lessons gained that counts ba.....

Oh yah....jer is not quitting ava....thanks to mr chan....but i guess he is still angry wif e vp n p....haiz....who wont? Haha.....but he say chan wants to see me individually....i guess i am doomed !!! Better think of ways to defend myself.....haiz.....too much internal conflict within e exco liao......perhaps its time to let e cat out of e bag.....dunno....all these ava politics stuff r driving me crazy....why couldn e 4 of us work happily together.....duh.....to think of it.....sometimes i start to wonder if its all a prank.....bcoz my bdae is near.....dunno......i hope it is coz then i wont needa further worry bout e internal situation of ava.....haiz......

Wad else can i say.....oh yah.....e clitoria i planted 3 months ago started blooming !!!! So happi....if u guys noe me well.....u guys will noe that i luv botany.....kinda like plants la......dats the reason why i study bio in sec sch.....coz i luv to study plants....but i dun wish to study bio anymore in jc la....dun wish to take trip sch coz its damn demanding.....not dat i cannot take it but my interest is no longer there....i m only interested in botany.....i dun like to study animal biology all e respiratory system...digestive system n stuff......and u can say i coward but i dun like to do disection on animal parts....hehe.....dunno.....i will rather happy wif my course rite now....PCME...best combi ba......hehe.......

Ok lor, dats it....dunno wad else to blog about....next time mebbie....cya !!!

Waaaaaa........!!!!!!! One of e saddest day in my life ....I LOST MY CALCULATOR !!!!!!!! Ya...i noe u guys reading it will think that its no big deal....but i beg to differ.....i hav grown so dependent on this calculator that i cant do calculation without it......this is my first calculator....bought it during sec 1 and since then i've not change a single calculator....so the calculator is so impt to me....it wif me throughout my sec sch life...from sec 1 to 2 , to 3 to 4...even O Levels.....i'm depending on it for every single maths and sciences test n exams......all my gd grades....brought to me by this calculator....AND ITS NOW GONE !!!! U guys wont understand how i feel....it may sound stupid but i kinda felt "attached" to this personal belonging of mine....i m so season wif this calculator i can use it without even looking......now i've to depend on my fx 95ms caisio calculator which is bought during sec 4 juz for its function to b able to factorize cubic n quad eqns.....but seriously....i m not season wif this fx 95ms......I WANT MY SHARP CALCULATOR BACK !!!!!! I dunno how i lost it....i remember using it during chem pract.....then when i went for phys pract.....i found it GONE !!!! I went back to e chem lab and CANT FIND IT !!!!!! So sad....haiz....without my sharp calculator....now i've no sense of security.....no sense of confidence when attemping qns........finally, to my dear sharp calculator..wherever u r, plz come back to me fast .....and if u r really gone forever....i wont forget the wonderful 5 yrs u walk thru wif me for every single test n exam....:(

PS: I'm not crazy for goodness sake to write this post....

VERY COLD !!!!! Ahhhhh......woke up this morning alreadi heavy rain...was hesistating whether to bring my wind breaker anot....but decided not to coz i prefer a lighter bag......but i totallly regretted the decision la....thruout e whole day its raining....and worse still....all my classes r in air con venue....VERY COLD !!!!! Worse still....audi econs lecture.....i was shilvering thruout la.....n bcoz of e extreme coldness i cant concentrate on wad puay san is toking bout her labour thingy......was basically hibernating.....damn it.....went back to class that time i still feel abit feverish lor....like juz got fever den whole body cold liddat.....i think i m gonna fall sick soon....didn feel really well after sch when i got home....very lethargic....ahhhh....if tml oso liddat i m gonna wear my sweater......damn it....someone who is so damn cold (me) is actually feared of coldness....wad an irony....

Project work sux !!!! Project work sux !!!! Project work sux !!!! I juz realized i m in e hot spot right now.......so many deadlines to meet.......first draft of WR due by 12/8 !!!! EOM due by 22/8 !!!! Ahhhhhhh !!!!!! CANT TAKE IT LE !!!!!!

This is e 200th post ever since i started this blog 2 years ago.... HAPPY 200TH POSTS, BLOGGIE !!!! :P

I think the frequency of my blogging has decreased significantly....i hardly hav the time n the mood to blog nowadays. Got a few things to blog about for e past 1 week. Nothin much but oso worth mentioning.

Firstly, results....got back all my mid yr papers....ok la...managed to pass all of them though some r like "hanging on the edge of the cliff by a thin thread", esp GP and Chem....nvm. Guess i need tuition seriously. Sad......compare the present me to the past me.....dunno wad to say.

Secondly, i think my class is really irritated by one of our teachers la. Shall disclose his/her identity hence i shall name him/her K. Dunno why but i think everyone cant stand K's broken english....i wonder how he/she manage to pass her olevel english oral. Then during one of e lesson last last fri, where half of e class reported late, he/she started kb-ing and claim that he/she VALUE PUNCTUALITY....ya, and he/she comes late for class somemore for other periods.....haha....everytime his/her period i always cant stip laughing....ask my grp members n u will noe...haha....esp e "hit small pple" part. Lol !!! :P

Thirdly, AVA. I am proud to announce that we've got 3 new members....previously from astro. Yup, i heard alot of pple quit astro bcoz of their j2 president....dunno. Anyway, stayed back for MLDDS performance rehersal yesterday.... suddenly i felt very useless.....everyone had something to do except me....i start to feel that my ava skills r not gd enuff...not professional enuff...i felt a sense of lack of power, lack of control, lack of attention, lack of involvement.....i was truely depressed then...even XXX, whose skills r worse than me in e past oso got very involved and pathetic me...ditched aside....:( We asked 2 of e 3 new members to come n gain experience oso....i taught them how to set up a mic stand.... perhaps dats e only part i m pro in....dunno....but at least i felt that i contributed a little....unlike e rest....contribute so much that i was so demoralized....sob sob....the rehersal ends at 8.30 where i went to popular to buy diskett...to save those ava admin stuff (i m e secretary wad)....haiz....alot of admin to do...sian....

This morning met my PW grp at AMK lib analyse survey results.....shd i say analyse our faked results....haha....sian.....got home by lunch time, eat, do hw....and stoned infront of e com...wondering bout last evening's incident....DUnno...i seriously think i provide too little contribution to the club....i want to do more but it seems that other pple's capability r preventing me from doing so.....i m so demoralized.......

Ahh....normal lessons resume....there goes the "wonderful" times mugging for mid yr. Anyway, got back chem paper, maths paper n econs mcq le.....one word to describe...dreadful....ya, i know i shdn say that but pardon me for my perfectionism attitude....so if i offended anyone, i apologize. Anyway, yesterday afternoon stayed back to edit choir video....yes, AVA gonna sell performance cds from various aesthetic ccas, e.g. choir, guitar n harmonica, CO, etc.....we film their concerts n sell them for a very low price....well...AVA is despo for money, wad to do. Haha. Furthermore its my responsibility to b incharge of AVA fund, so...haha....i can only say its near to zero le. Hehe. The footage for choir performance is like.....omg....haha...so gotta spend more effort editing it to near perfection. Haha. Jeremy in e recording room wif me too....so we left at 5pm, den go KFC hav dinner den go home. Hehe. Sian arh....weekends le, here comes e hw. No mood n motivation to do leh.....someone help me !!!

Woohoo...juz came back home....Not very tired, i m ready for more activities but the rest r simply tired. Anyway, this morning, woke up only to realise that i no need to go to sch...so i continue to slp for another few hours.....den wake up...omg...10am le, was suppose to meet Simin at AMK long busstop to go zhss collect cert. Ya...so basically wash up hav quick breakfast n run to AMK central long busstop. Simin then called saying she went to e wrong busstop n i was like.....ok...its still e simin i used to know. (no offence) hahaha. Anyway, ya, we took a bus down to ZHSS. Omg, how much i miss e bus trip that i used to travel for e past 4 yrs........sigh.....sui yue bu liu ren. Walk the familiar yet unfamiliar path to zhss....all e memories.....and ya...was stopped by e security outside at e gate. Den she asked for my IC or student pass inexchange for visitor's pass. However, i only brought my student pass...if i surrender it i cannot collect my cert coz i need e pass. So i try to explain things to her la. Den she say nvm, juz giv her anything that got my identification......so i search search search....finally found a clinic card wif my personal info on it...and guess wad....i've not been to dat clinic for decades....hahahaha.....and she accepted it...so i was like...okay....haha. Den at e gate saw joyce n her bf. So e 4 of us go GO la, where i collect my cert....first look inside e sch...."r they having some carnival or stuff.....y not many pple around liddat"....heard from e admin lady (i forgot her name) dat e sch having learning carnival....den all e teachers sending students all around singapore for some sorta learning activities la....so....ya....

So after that we walked around e school la. Is like....hello.....no ones around...only a few booth set up as part of learning carnival....no teachers oso.....so pathetic....worse still....i felt cheated....pple promised me that they will b visiting n guess wad....there r only 4 of us visitors.....haiz.....so we went around look look. See old 4e2 classroom, sci labs to look for elim n yam.....hall.....den at e canteen finally saw elim. So me n simin went over to say hi.....omg....did i mention how much we miss elim...hahaha...but dats not e point....first thing she saw us...."aiyo....u all grow so big liao arh...why r u all here". So we explain stuff n she even forgot that we r her last yr batch of students !!!! She tot we r some older batches !!!! Haha...but she really very hungry la....so we let her enjoy her meal. Den we walk around, saw mrs raj...ms yam....ms tan (my media club teacher), mr. ong....mrs wong....all e same leh...but cant find angster wongster n chan...coz they go all parts of singapore liao, for dat learning carnival thingy. So is like go back abit wrong time la. Haha. Den afterthat, had a short chat wif some of e teachers....we miss them so much, we miss zhss so much...haiz......also had a short chat wif some of my media club juniors....convincing them to come aj join AVA club....haha....so we wait till aileen come....den i bid gd bye coz i gotta rush to orchard to celebrate jeremy's bdae.

Took a train over to orchard.....den met Maria n desmond at e mrt. Maria brough along a friend of hers from cresent girls....her name is siyu...think so...sorrie if i got ur name wrong.....so ya, e 4 of us decide to go somewhere else buy some wonderful present for jeremy b4 he arrived. We went to cine first but there nothin to buy. So we go centrepoint where at one of e gift shop buy a big big yellow spoongebob squarepants balloon !!!! Lol....so then jeremy arrived and she surprised him wif e surprise present we got for him. Hahahah. Den we tied e balloon to his bag and let him walk around orchard rd wif dat balloon floating above his head....hahahah....we r so evil.....Its like very malu to him la....feel so guity...coz everywhere we walk, there will b those curious eyes of passerbys attracted to his spongebob balloon....lol.....ok..so we went to e pizzahut at centrepoint basement eat.....e service there hor....haiz.....hahahah.....better not say......desmond hav to wait for his food for like half n hour while e rest of us alreadi finished ours....but e manager say bcoz of e late serving he giv us a further 2 bucks discount la....so ya....hahaha.

Then we walk to cine, we initially plan to treat jeremy to kbox la...but he sorethroat....so cannot sing. So we go cine cathey cinema see got wad nice movie...nothin nice. Den we plan to watch initial D.....so we walk all e way to Lido Shaw where jeremy paraded down orchard rd wif his cute cute spongebob balloon....lol.....reached lido at bout 4+ where we bought tickets for Initial D 5.15pm slot.

Now lets tok bout initial D. I think the movie was quite nice la....though many r skeptical bout jay's acting....but e main thing is....e movie is able to capture and command our attention...which is gd. There r oso a reasonable dose of humour coz its from a comic...and comic always got humour one.....the car racing part oso very nice. I like how they cut e shorts such that they make us believe that the actors r really racing the car.....its dat kinda cutting la....and by learning this, it will b beneficial for our SVA competition. ANyway.....i luv e racing part.....its like...i am totally attracted to all e scenes lor....n very exciting too....very pro....hahaha.....i like e whole movie in overall.....its nice n i think those of u who haven watch shd go watch it.....they r able to make a simple story plan interesting lor.....coz is like if add too much twists n stuff will make it confusing, but i like e story plan, short, simple n sweet....and e fact that they r able to squeeze 3 series of e comic into a 2 hour film....i m impressed.

So after e movie, we walked to MRT lor....den we take MRT home....haiz....its only 7+ then....i tot still got more activities de...but everyone is tired so muz spare a tot for them...anyway...pardon me for this long entry....boring pple like me hav very little to blog normally....so its rather rare i got so much to blog...hahaha.....wif dat...cya !!!

NOOOOOOOOOOOOOO !!!!!!!!!!!!!! I BEG TO DIFFER FOR THE RESULTS OF JUE DUI SUPERSTAR !!!! Its damn unfair man. All along, everyone of us knows its e tele company dats making money n dat its not talent that will garentee one's advancement in this game. TALENT GONE DOWN THE DRAIN !!!! Juz watch jue dui superstar. Cai weiyi, dai ailing and wendy r out....and guess wad WILLIAM IS OUT !!!! I feel sad for him, i almost cry loh. He got the highest score of 38 amongst the 24 of e finalists and he got voted out !!!! Its unfair, juz bcoz he is a foreign, he has a smaller friendship network, juz bcoz he isnt as appealing in terms of looks compared to the rest....he dun deserve to go. I really think he deserve every single right to stay in e competition. I mean u see his performance last on wed nite, its fantastic, but yet. Sigh. I hope that the producers can really change e competition format making equal weightage or near equal weightage for both viewers' votes n judges' marks. Its simply unfair to let the audience ruin talents.......sorrie if i offended u guys audience but i m juz too agitated that rare talent like william hav to go.......same case as jia xin last wk....sad......pple go for looks compared to talent......if talents like kelly kana voted out next round....i think i shall boycott e show liao...no point watching.

Exams over....i am sooooo dead. Yup, basically failing every paper. Sadddd.....all e muggings put into waste. Haiz.....at least exams r over....i always hate e aftermath of exams....gonna b screamed at by e teachers liao.....sad. I still owe dat video guy treatment.....no mood to write sia !!!

So fast, holiday will b ending in 2 days time. How i wish i can tetain time but i cant. Been reflecting upon myself whether i've spent my holidays ideally, and i guess i will giv a partial no. No because i've not really enjoyed myself to e fullest. Yes bcoz i did alot of mugging. Well, its such a boring saturday night. Lets me discuss on some of e blogs i've visited, either recently or previously.

As blogging becomes a prevalent phenomenon, bloggers blog not for e sake of blogging and staying in the trend but for various purposes. While i m not fortunate enough to know of pple or friends who blog to tell their meaningful stories on how they conquer difficulties and obstacles in their lives, i discovered many interesting styles of blogging among the pple i know. For privacy sake, i will not mention whose blog it belongs to but ya, if u happens to read it and u think it matches ur blog, so be it:

--> Lets name this person A. A's blog is all about personal reflection. Almost every entries are reflection of what he has done and what he has observed. Reading A's entry is like understanding what he feels inside him and ya, the thing that impress me most is he uses proper english most of the time. This really impressed me because it betrays the fact that blogging ruins and corrodes our language. A hardly dictates wad he has done for the day or stuff but describes what he has gone through inside him. From a simple event like a change in someone's behaviour can result in a long entry of analysis, self reflection n discussion.

--> Next, we hav person B. Person B likes to dipict every single thing he has gone through. He notes down every single minute detail of e day and i think that it is not very necessary. But who am i to pick on his style of blogging. For example, a simple outing wif a few friends can end up to be 2000 words long when he adds things like "on e way, i go 7-11 and buy myself a packet of XXXX brand YYY favoured potato chips" or "so after M say good bye to me and i say goodbye to N, i took bus no. XXX home together wif Z and on e way , we do this, we do that. When i reached the busstop, i press e bell and e uncle open edoor for me to alight. Den i go to Mac and get myself a double fillet o fish burger wif extra tartar sauce n cheese........(and on n on n on n on)". Personally, i feel that blogging acts as a memory bank to help us remember significant days of our lives, just like a diary. However, personally, i feel that its e event that i want to remember and not the minute details like wad kinda chips i bought that i wanna remember. Yah. So B's blogs is usually long and its hard to locate where the focus of e entry is (though i admit that most of my entries r without focus)

---> Ok, now we hav person C. C's blog, similar to B, likes to depict every minute detail, not of things he do but things his friend say. Yup. And correct me if i m wrong, its normally e same few person saying things. Or mebbie, C oso notes down things that they as a grp suggest as a joke or stuff. For example, simple things like eating mint sweet can hav things that "ooo...den Z comment that eating mint sweet affect male productivity, and i say i shd believe coz i m a male afterall...blah blah blah". Dunno. It makes e whole entry seems that alot of things hav taken place and e enjoyment they had for e whole event is not 100% but 200%. Actually, its juz a simple outing, for example. It also make e blogger seems to b actively engaged, full of friends, fun loving, humourous n stuff. But ya, actually, he is juz a normal guy like u n me.

---> Finally, we hav person D. Person's D entries r short n sweet. Not much elaboration. For example, class chalet, "Ooo...had XXX class chalet today. Very fun...how i miss these guys. Friendships rulz. Ok, i'm tired. Cya". And yes, thats not a sentence in e entry but e whole entry itself. Well, short n sweet, i hav nothing to comment on it but i find it interesting as it cheng tuo the other 2 types of bloggers- B n C.

I wanna clarify that i am not against anyone's style of blogging. I am juz showing how different pple adopt different styles of blogging, which is quite interesting if u spend a few minutes observing n pondering. On the other hand, i am oso looking into my own style of blogging. I can consider myself e rojak style where i adopt any style i wish to adopt. Perhaps my style of blogging may be too direct that it attracts criticism. Dunno. Anyway, dats juz a little meaningless entry. If either of e above mentioned styles happens to be urs, its by pure coincedential. Wait, wad m i toking. If its u think its ur style and i am actually refering to u, den ya, haha. If u think its ur style and i am not refering to u (how would u noe whether i am refering to u or not), den its pure coincedental. Wif dat. Cya !!!

Hey hey, last night was jue dui superstar female quarters and results show. Ok, e girls performed better than e guys, in overall. The highest score of all 12 also came from e girls, if i m not wrong its kelly poon who sang mei li ben nu ren. But i guess its not the first or second time she sang that for e competition. Haha. Anyway, results show. 2 guys n 2 girls will be kicked out. Guys wise, its darryl, the one scored e lowest amongst the guys and sugi, e one i said i dun like his accent. Well, i think guys wise the results is quite expected or fair coz ya, i think they r e weaker 2 amongst e 6. So yah, as for e girls. Very shocking. The first girl to be kicked off is the last contestant who sang baby dui bu qi. Well, i think, ok la, she scored e lowest, so yah, kinda expected. But the 2nd one is sooo dammnnn shocking. Its dat hongkong girl who sang hui zhe chi pang de nu hai. I was like omg. She is so damn gd, she scored a high score of 32 lor. I was expecting like cai si ni or e other girl who paired wif pan jia li. But yah....reality is so cruel. Sob sob.....feel sad for her. So wasted, talent gone down to drain juz liddat. During her performance i was like tot shes gonna make it big coz she got wad it takes !!! But nvm, reality is cruel and we pple, controlled by reality shd b able to accept this fact to carry on in life. So yah, sheng bu jiao bai nu nei, all e best to e rest n oso those kana kicked out. Next wk is e 2nd round of quarters. My feel like (sorrie, this is very objecttive) the youngest guy who like to sing li sheng jie song may be out.....and female wise, i hav no idea. Coz all r gd. But i will really bang my head against e wall if black pearl aka li li jun is out. Shes gd,.So yah, gonna continue watching.......wif dat, i continue revise my maths le. Cya !!!

Oooo....juz watched Jue Dui Superstar. Anyway, today's 1st semi-quarter finals is damn shiok. 6 of e 12 male finalists got their chance to sing. They each muz sing a duet den a solo. Hmmm....let me comment on their performance. The first guy, from indonesia.....pardon me but ya, i cant stand his accent. He irritates me. 2nd guy, the one who sing 4ever luv. Not bad, but ya, i was so worried for him thruout the whole song coz the song is so diffcult to sing n i scared he cant reach the high parts. So yah, i wei ta nie yi ba leng han. Not bad, he score e 2nd highest out of e 6. 3rd guy is the most pro. He sings JJ's jiang nan. Woah, nice choice, coz i always k that during kbox. Haha. Previously during e duet he sang dong jie, oso another nice song i used to k during kbox. Anyway, u cant believe it, he got this good boy look, quiet quiet type, and he sings 99% like JJ. And i was like....woah....like really listening to JJ sing liddat. I like his vocal. He rawks. He scored the best out of all 6 and i think he is really gd, at least for that performance. No.4, gone case.....i cant sense anything from him. He also scored e lowest. No. 5, the blind guy....well, i hav high expectations on him coz he got gd reputation wif his singing. But i think he misperformed la, didn perform up to expectations. He sang I believe. And at e last part i think i can sense him zhao snia. But ya, gd effort. Overall is still ok. The last guy, e oldest of all, sing ai ru chao shui. Dunno la, he giv me e impression that he is 30+ though he is 26 and sings songs that r old. From the choice of song can see le, ai ru chao shui n zhang xin, all e early 90s songs. Haha. His ai ru chao shui chorus very fast, cant catch up. Izzit me that is slow or izzit him. Dunno. Overall....i think no. 3 is still e best. The score tells. I think the score r quite fair la. Looking forward to tml's female semi quarters. Yah....wif dat, gtg. Cya !!!!

One more week to go....and its e official mugging season for us jc students. Yah....wad to do, mid yr coming. Basically finished phys n chem over e past 2 weeks. Started on econs this morning, managed to clear demand and supply & elasticity by today. So yah...left wif cost and production, which i am very blur of. Had no idea wad cost n production is talking about. Anyway, i think fate wants me to stay at home and study. The kbox session tml is cancelled !!!!! Sob sob. First is mother hong sore throat, den is niece no money. Haiz....... i guess i will hav to b a gd boy n stay at home to study ba. Had not really enjoy myself thru-out e whole holidayz, except for AVA camp and J2 farewell party. The bowling session last fri was soooo short...hardly hav time to enjoy ourselves. Sigh......still got one more chapter for econs n e whole maths 9233 stuff to study. Arh !!!! i giv up hope on maths le. So difficult, totally different from olevel amaths lor, in terms of standard. And stupid trigo...so many identities formula....how to memorize !!!! Sigh.....i go contact e rest bout e cancellation of e kbox session le. Wif dat, cya !!!

Went bowling @ Grassroot club cathey bowl wif my pri sch clique at 2.30pm. Haiz....bowl a very lousy game juz now. Yah. Den after bowling go play e arcade outside. Very boring day. I go slp le ....zzzz......

Yoz yoz, 2 days nv see me online...miss me anot. Haha. Ghost den will miss me. Anyway, ya, AVA camp juz officially finished and the farewell party oso went on "smoothly" last night too. So...ya, gd lor. So alot to blog bout today, lets start from AVA camp day 1. *****AVA Camp Day 1****** Everyone gathered outside dance room at 7.50am. We J1s are expecting this camp to b kinda fun like filled wif games n stuff but ya, we r obviously disapointed. Maria was late coz he juz returned to SIngapore that morning from China. So ya, we hav to wait for her b4 reporting to the classroom coz we need full strenght, Anyway, the whole camp is a learning camp la where the seniors pass down almost everything we needa know so....haha. First, we learnt hall system again, this time more indepth. We took the whole morning, which is like....woah. Oh yah, we oso went to e recording room inside dance studio to familiarize ourselves to our "future home" in ajc for the next 1.5 years. We oso learnt something bout Ulead which is quite fei4 actually but den no info is useless rite. So its e best part of camp....lunch. Well, perhaps we overestimate this aspect coz we r rather disapointed wif lunch. Haha. Undeniably speaking, the food sux, utterly sux. But ya, muz learn to b thankful wad....so bo bian hav to eat. After lunch we learn audi system which again we r quite familiar of, juz dat this time more indept, den we oso learn something damn cool ..... live feedback. Its something like live telecast thingy where u can connect wadeva u r filming at one end of e sch to a mini satellite, which transmit to another satellite connected to the projector or visualizer and it can b shown in e hall or audi. Cool rite. Xian chang zhi bo leh. So yah, very fun, dats e most fun thing la, in ava technology. So....we ended at bout 5 where me, maria n jeremy go j8 n prepare to e bbq e day after. (For more details, read my previous post). *************AVA Camp Day 2*************** As usual, everyone gathered outside dance studio. I carried e bbq stuff all e way from home to sch. Yah, so does other pple that r responsible. Everyone is in farewell BBQ mode la, but den, we still hav a learning camp to attend rite. So firstly, we learnt outdoor system. Outdoor system is kinda ma fan la, coz we hav to carry 4 big heavy speakers that weigh bout 10kg each and fix them up on stands (hey, we r doing work against gravity, the speakers gain GPE...dortz). Den we oso muz bring mixer, amplifier, equalizer wadeva wif lotsa cables. I tell u, i hate the cables, they r so ma fan, both to uncoil n coil. But ya, its wad we needa know. So we locate ourselves outside PE dept where we start blasting music (after we learnt how to handle e system). And den i think it disturbs e teachers inside la, so Lim Kok Wee n Aurthur lim came out to see wad e hell is going on. Haha. Anyway, we den hav to set up everything right from e scrach outside e audi as well as outside e hall la. We r given time limit oso...so fun. I tell u e speakers r damn heavy....i still dunno how e hell we got them up on e stand. But ya, its a success. This took us the whole morning where den its lunch. The J2s ordered from e same stall again n of coz, needless to say, e food sux. Haha. After that we hav an external guy to come giv a tok on video production. This allows us to skip afternoon PE. So nice. That guy is an ex ajcian la, and i think its one of e earlier batch considering his age. (Ooopps) So he tok bout how we shd start filming, how we shd produce professional standard video n stuff...but ya.....i still managed to keep myself awake. So the talk wad like chao1 shi2 lor, we r suppose to end at 4.30 but we ended at 5. Die, lesser time to prepare for farewell BBQ. So immediately after e thing end, everyone of us J1s chionged to our destination to prepare for our BBQ. Haha, yup, we muz develop e sense of urgency in us. ***********Farewell BBQ************* I dunno bout e rest but i shall tok bout how me, maria n jeremy prepare for e party within e short period of time. The 3 of us chionged down to bishan J8 by MRT, managed to reach there at bout 5.15pm? So we went into e NTUC, where i grabbed a basket, and start shopping for e food. The bulky stuff we brought earlier on e day b4 rite, we let tony n desmond bring them down to east coast pk first la, coz desmond rich ma, got private transportation. So we went to e chiller section where we bought sotong balls, crabsticks n stuff. Den went to BBQ section to buy charcoal, which to our surprise, happens to b lighter than it seems to be. So ya, we basically finish buying our stuff. So we proceeded to e Pola cake shop to collect e bdae cake we ordered the day b4. I think we managed to do that by 5.40, so we ran to e bus interchange to take a bus (service no. 55) down to East Coast Pk to meet wif e other grp of J1s. During e bus ride right, there was this grp of students, whom i think r younger than us by 1 year or so, sitting infront of us la. Den this guy in green kept diao-ing us 3 la, juz bcoz e 3 of us talked abit louder...juz abit only. This caused maria to b very bu shuang of him la. Den i was like...ok....xi shi ning ren better. Anyway, we took a damn long bus ride down to east coast pk. We alighted opposite Tao Nan School where we walk across e HDB flats n across ECP using e underpass. We arrived at Marine Cove where it started to rain, to our dismay. I mean, b4 that e sky alreadi damn black le. So bo bian, e bbq still hav to go on. We quickly go to our pit where Tony n desmond they all alreadi started to fire. Maria quickly ran away to hide the surprise bdae cake. Well, i think things r quite obvious le but ya, true, Des didn really notice anything bout our surprise. Oh yah, i muz mention bout how nice Des's parents were to help us alot at e BBQ, even bought us extra food, we r damn so touched, serious. Thankyou auntie uncle. So yah, as e drizzle continued, e fire starting process continued. We placed our bags at the shelther that was occupied by another grp of pple, they r so kind to let us place our stuff. Anyway, it was 7 when e seniors arrived. Me n maria went to fetch them at Marine Cove. Well, i can tell they had a hard time locating the venue. Thanks to me, perhaps. Hahaha. So ya, as more n more seniors arrive, we proceed on to our bbq process. It was quite fun la, actually, all of us really enjoyed it. The rain even stopped, to our likeing. Well, as e sky darkens, lightnings can b seen far away at the sea, which i joked that "ava farewell party got natural lighting effects somemore". Haha. But we r quite lucky not to b striked by any. So ya, soon (well, not very soon coz it was alreadi 8+ to 9), the teachers arrived. Erm....however, we didn really hav much food left for them but ya, they still get their share. Den suddenly maria n i played MIA la, obviously to prepare e cake for desmond. So as we walked towards e pit wif e cake in her hand and e umbrella in my (quite a funny scene), e candles extinguishes. Hahahaa. So funny. Yah, Desmond was kinda surprise la, den everyone sang happy bdae song to him. Awwwwwww......e cake was rather a small one, and he noticed our wordings. Hahaha. So cut cake, blow candle, wadeva, we enjoyed melted choco cake. Duh. Den Maria suggested we play games (well, not suggest, coz we plan them b4 hand). So yah, we played zong ji mi ma lah, where e dio-ed victim gotta drink some strange concortion comprising of softdrinks, curry, wadeva disgusting things u can find. Haha. Yucks. We managed to victimize Mr Eugene Ng oso. Hahaha. Can sense the disgustment, really very disgusting. However, he very sporting la, he finished his special cocktail we prepared. Next, we played sissor paper stone, where e winner can splash a cut of water on the loser. Its kinda adapted from some taiwan variety programme la, but who cares. Everyone got wet in e end. So ya, after much enjoyment, its 10pm. Everyone started packing, some left alreadi. The last few of us left e pit at 10.40pm where we took e same bus 135 home. I reached home at bout 11.30pm la, not as late as i expect. Yah, we enjoyed ourselves n i trust that e seniors enjoyed themselves too. At least our efforts r not put to waste. *************AVA Camp Day 3**************** Nothing much happened today. We had our individual situation test. All of us are to individually set up stuffs in a very short time. Yah, very stressed la. We got 5 stations, that includes hall, audi, outdoor system, live feed and one more, that i forgot. Anyway, marks r counted la. Obviously, i so lan4 how can score well. Hahaha. So that took us e whole day. We oso had group test la, where we got a series of events happening minutes after another n we gotta get the stuff ready. Haha. That one is like, almost like mission impossible la. In one of e preparation, i gotta prepare outdoor lightings la. So i gotta climb this shakey laddar to hang 3 heavy spot lights n drop lights outside e hall. Wa, i tell u, i was like shaking la, not bcoz i too weak to carry the heavy lightings up, but bcoz i scared they will drop down n kill someone if i hang them too loosely. haha. Very scared. The pple around me oso very scared. Yah, basically that was e most difficult part la, and we were not taught on how to hang the stupid light up there lor. So yah. After everything, we got movie screening cum pizza dinner at dance studio. So yah, left sch at 7+ and went home straight. So here i am, back from AVA camp. Lol. Wif that, cya !!! (Long entry sia)

Hey hey. Today first day of AVA Camp....well, i am quite tired now so i will blog bout it some other days. Juz wanna tok bout wad happened after AVA camp. The 3 of us AVA Farewell Party Organizers (aka new EXCO excluding president) went down to J8 NTUC at bout 5+ to survey e price of stuff. Yup. Bought the drinks le, 5 bottles of 1.5 litre softdrinks, 5 different flavours. Yah. Oso bought Mr Chan's thankyou present. Yup, its Merci Chocolate coz merci means grateful, according to Maria. The other stuffs will b bought FRESH tml. Haha. And after a long weekend, alot of unforseen circumstances arose thus we hav to make some minor adjustments to adapt to them. Ya wad, AVA pple muz b neng qu neng shen one. Haha. Oso went to Pola to see Desmond's surprise bdae cake for tml's party. Maria booked e choco one and the auntie says its FOC to hav wordings on it. So ya, i suggest writing "Happy Birthday, Mr. President". So funny. Cant imagine his expression when he sees it. Yup, we really wrote that. Hahaha. By right me n saigang shd go Maria's house help chuan4 the souveniers she bought for e seniors. Some kinda keychain got alphabets one. Yah, and the wordings are "AVA"...wad else. Haha. So ya, but den since there r only a few, she dun need much help from us so we go home lor. B4 going home i went J8 basement da bao Shi Lin Fried Chicken. Haha. Long time nv eat le. One piece enuff to settle my dinner. So ya, went home lor. Reached home at 6+ 7 where i quickly devoured the shi lin fried chicken and go study for chem. Yesh, i officially started studying chem today, after finishing phys last wk. Juz hav continuous mugging for 4 hours until now. Haha. Managed to finish 3 chapters. I really play MIA sia. Not as in missing in action but mugging in action. Dun admit i m a mugger oso cannot. Haiz...wad to do, i no life wad. Haha. Very tired le, tml still hav to wake up at 6+ reach sch by 7.50am. So ya, gtg, wif dat, CYA !!!!

Ooo....juz came back from SVA discussion / meeting. Ok, woke up at 7 this morning, took my damn time to wash up n get ready n left home at 7.50. I was e earliest to reach AMK MRT, where i waited for the rest to arrive. Weeleng came, den desmond, and jeremy replied he he had an headache, which we later found out that he is still sleeping after we called him 15min after 8. So nvm, we proceeded to mac without him where discussion start. Hmmm....the discussion was like sian sian de, perhaps its bcoz pple see my face alreadi sian le. I had my breakfast there b-t-w. So I brief them bout the video criteria n stuff which i knew from expereince as well as the SVA briefing last tue. Then, at bout 9, Jeremy appeared. So i hav to re explain e whole thing again but ya, i dun think anyone would care. So we start brainstorming. We decide to do drama, which is rather challenging. Its my first time doing drama in my 4 yrs of experience, so ya. We came out wif many topics. I also explained to them that SVA judges are sadists (which is true) coz those who won are sad films, not comedy. So we needa do something really sad n touching or wadeva. We finally agree on a drama wif e theme "discrimination". Kinda narrates my life, haha. No la. I wont say much about it but it will sure bring about alot of "fond" memories for my ex class 4E2. Hahahaha. My strategy for the drama is, keep the content short n sweet but varies in e techniques portraying the scenes. Ya. However, after wasting 2+ hours in mac, we only managed to come out wif e start n the end but not the body. Which is quite.....sad. Anyway, we went to Popular after that to see wad souveniers we can buy for J2s for farewell party.....nothing seems suitable, i guess. But anyway, i hope Maria will get something for e souveniers in china. So ya, got back home n here i am. Wif that, cya !!!

Before i know it, i've finish revising for physics. However, i still hav that kinda feeling that perhaps i didnt study enuff for physics, similar feelings like last yr, is like finish revision le still feel that there is something lacking. Dunno, i think i still needa move on to other subjects. Time is running short. Talking about physics revision, i really miss the sec sch days when Elim made us do n do n do alot of stuff. I still remember how she print us alot of compiled other-schools-questions and insist that we finish the day after. I still remember how she go thru qns by qns wif much elaboration, making us understand every single bit of it. Now, in JC, no such thing le. Where got teacher giv us pass years papers or other school qns, thats something i needa adapt to. Therefore, i did myself a favour by compileing my own sets of qns from past yr papers inherited from my cousins. However, i still dun really understand some parts, and i m really "enlightened" by some qns whereby they seems simple by look but there r lotsa hidden steps that leads to e ultimate answer. I think i need more practice. I understand that i m not as smart as some of my peers and hence twice e effort muz b put in. Pple seems to overestimate me, and think that i am boasting or bluffing when i say i m not that intelligent. But the fact is, i am indeed not that smart, its all juz base on hardwork. Wadeva it is, i know many of my peers r at home sharpening their knives, so i shd not slack too much also. Sigh....why am i suddenly talking bout all these things. Anyway, hav SVA discussion tml morning at 8am. I dunno why am i so crazy to make it at 8am but ya. Haha. I needa go n slp, hopefully can wake up early tml. With that, cya !!!

Dont ever remind me how stupid is outdoor survey. Haha. Walked around raffles place for like more than an hour and we only got 6 or 7 responses. Haiz....i shd hav known this, but i still cant accept the fact that people take us as transparent, i mean, at least kindly reject us and not walk pass us though we r not present. However, i still gotta thank those who stopped by and do our survey, we greatly appreciate that. I realized that majority of those who helped us wif e survey are young men...perhaps bcoz they once suffered e same fate as us a few yrs ago when they r still studying. So ya, next time got outdoor survey (i hope not) muz target these people. Yup. After an afternoon of pao tou lu mian, i hope i can visit raffles place next time without them recognizing me. Haha. So now its out last resort, faking results. Hahahahha.

Juz watched jue dui superstar. Very disapointing. They made it sounds so glamorous, comparable to idol but den none of e audition clips tickled me to laughter. The judge r oso not fun de. All act like mr nice guy and try to b angels fluttering about the audition room sprinkling warmth and kindness. Ya, i understand that this is e kinda judges needed by the contestants but then dont mediacorp knows anything bout good television effects? "Crazy" judges like simon cowell n ken lim that dares to fault others r good for tv. Thats wad e audience wants to watch. Duh...nvm...i will not yet boycott the show but ya, still think the first episode is very disapointing. On e whole, i still think they r trying to make it Singapore idol chinese vers juz that they change e name n logo to avoid paying copyright fee.

So yup, dats all. Looking forward to this sat's SVA discussion. And oso muz start hunting for souveniers for J2s during farewell party. Hmmm....ok lor, cya !!!

Ahhhhh.....sian arh !!!! Very sian !!!!! I woke up damn late today....latest thru-out my june holiday, 10am. Haha. Ya, seems early to some of u. Dunno la, today rainy weather feel like sleeping dun feel like doing anything. Juz finish revising work energy power for physics. I am half way thru physics, plan to finish everything by this weekend...i got 5 chapters left....seems impossible at the rate i am going. Ya, after i m done wif work energy power i juz cant carry on liao...so i decide to lie on my bed and act half dead. And the worse thing is, i haven start on other subjects. Haiz.....i juz dun feel like doing anything today la. I juz feel like sleeping. Afterwards got survey to do @ Shenton way....dunno how things will turn up. 3 of us 5 going. Haiz......but i am more worried bout the pace i m going wif my revision. Aiya, lets all juz flunk mid yr together............sleepy........sleepy.....zzzzzzzz......

Yoz yoz yoz, wazzup. Haha. Abit tired today, dunno y. Juz now went to MOE Headquarters for SVA (Schools Video Awards) competition briefing cum tea session. Was suppose to met one of e AVA Mr. Eugene Ng in AJ at 1pm. But he was late for 10min coz he is driving. Anyway, he drove us there in this style-lo car of his, ya, cant imagine it belongs to him but den, ya. Haha. So he questioned me on hows stuff going in AVA on e way there....but most of time, silence takes over. Reached MOE headquater at bout 1.40pm. I tell u that place was damn zai...haha...suddenly feel like joining MOE. Haha. Anyway, i, as a visitor, gotta exchange my student pass for a visitor's pass, the security quite tight sia. Proceeded to e audi where we registered n signed inoutside. Pardon me for being a mountain tortise but ya, i think e audi oso damn zai. I luv e stage, its so big, bigger than AJ's. Haha. The thing started wif us being address by some kep personals but i dun really care much. Alot of pple attended, so cool, suddenly felt so priviledged. Then they show us some award winning clips from 6th video awards. Wad can i say, they r of quite high standards, i am rather impressed. On e other hand, as a student video producer, i start to question inside me wads e significance for certain scenes or certain angles or wadsoeva. Haha, i think i got zhi2 ye4 bing4 sia, but den, cant help la, is like been doing video for 4 yrs le, so ya. They showed us e platinum award drama winning clip from VJC, about some grandmother stuff. Ya, quite nice, quite touching oso, they oso use alot of symbolisms, metaphors...(izzit, i dunno, i didn take lit for quite a long time, i am trying to say things that symbolizes somehting else). But i still think Canberra Sec's 4th SVA's platinum award winning video is still better. Haha. The whole thing ended at bout 5. Mr Ng sent me back to AMK, so nice of him. Haha. Oh yah, i oso notice that he listens to UFM !!! Yeah !!! UFM RAWKS !!! so many listerners. Yup, i m oso a loyal listener of UFM. I seemed to hav some problems wif PW. My grp cant find a suitable time to do survey. Its quite fustrating la, is like everyone agree on a day den suddenly last min got unforseen circumstances call off or postpone. Haiz...very sian lor. SVA meeting oso liddat, cannot find a suitable time for meeting. Haiz.....someone help me !!!!

Waaaa.....so fast, first week of holiday gone liddat. Why muz time b so cruel on me that it pasts so fast. Anyway, finish most of my hw, dun admit i m a mugger oso cannot, but dats not e point. Hmmm...lets see wad i can tok bout from my boring and meaningless life, PW, yes, PW. My grp showed our survey to mdm woon yesterday and she said its fine. Meaning we can carry on wif our survey. My grp will b going Shenton way to survey those working adults this coming wed. I noe its hard coz u noe their attitude, the "siamers". Lol. Meaning pple who "siam" when they r approached. So ya, its gonna b challenging. AVA camp cum farewell BBQ on week 3. The discussions n meetings r more or less fixed. Mid year exam...plan to study from next week onwards. Oh yah, got SVA briefing at MOE headquater wif Mr. Eugene Ng coming tues....haiz....since i m e only student going, he is gonna grill me wif qns bout e farewell party i organize....lets see how i can handle him. Wad else, actually nothing much, i hope i can get my hands on HCJ and TJ physics n chem notes...i hinted niece ruqing and karin le, but dun think they get my hint, so nvm. AJ phys notes juz sux la. Oh, and the jeans i bought the other day, muz bring to alter this weekend. OSo muz buy paper plates, forks n cups n wadeva for e farewell party. Haiz.......i sounds like a desperate student, somehow similar to desperate housewives...haha....so dats all, cya !!!