DOUBLE ORGAS !!! AHHHH !!!
I went Orchard Road today with my parents...
First stop --> Kinokuniya:
Well, i introduced this bookshop at takashimaya to my parents (obviously they dont visit town regularly) and apart from the fact that they are amazed by the size of the bookshop, i found something that made me very excited...
A whole shelf of chemistry and physics reference books !!! Hahahahaha !!! Those thick thick heavy heavy ones, nv seen in school library or normal popular bookshop. Wow, zou3 bao3 liao !!! 2 years from now when i enter NUS Sci fac i know where to find reference books le. Yes, somehow the sight of these books make me orgas. Haha. But then har, i take out, flip flip then look at the back cover, walau eh, 90bucks...another one...60+ bucks. Siao lar, where got money to buy. Haha. Hence must start saving NS pay le...to buy reference books and of coz a laptop. Haha. Ok, i think i've gone crazy, havent i?
Second Stop --> Far East:
Parents and parents, they dont appreciate the things sold there at Far East - all the hip stuffs. They find it boring but thats their problem, as far as i am concern...WOW !!! This is where after Bugis street i can find so many youngster street wear. It took me quite some time to finish window shopping. Feel like buying but no money leh. I got 30 bucks in my wallet which i hav to survive on until the end of this week. I saw this belt very nice one...but dun hav the colour i want. Then got this zinc bag discount until very cheap, very hip oso, there is this urge from me to want to buy, but then another voice within tell me not to...coz i hav to save money...but the bag aft discount 28 bucks wor...alamak...in the end i hav to leave the shop wif disapointment...money problem u see. Haha. Then also too embarassed to spend parents' money...yar...then got another set of chains can hang on jeans one...walau eh...9.90 bucks...dare not buy coz too ex. Alamak...feel like buying but cannot. But at least i know where to find streetwear apart from bugis street....ORGAS !!! Cant bear to leave that place. Haiz....ok, dinner time...ciaos !!!
June 20, 2007
June 17, 2007
Its block leave and i am trying to do everything that i want to do and do not have a chance to do after enlistment. Well, be it savouring the well-missed hawker food, shopping at various shopping malls, movies, kbox, etc, now all i want to do is to enjoy my remaining block leave by leading a normal "nothing-to-do" worry-free life - Everyday wake up anytime i want (most prob will wake up automatically by 9), happy happy go down nearby foodcentre takeaway breakfast, happy happy search for any remaining food at home to cook myself a lunch, spend my time surfing the net, watching tv with my radio blasting behind, taking a sip of coffee, and in the evening, go ah ma house eat dinner, and thats all for a day. Well, thats really a "sinful indulgence" for me but then, once i enter unit, how many chances could i do so...
June 14, 2007
June 01, 2007
Hello guys !!! Its the long weekend and i'm here for blogging. Ok, the past 1 week is rather short. 3 days nia. And yes, the spirit in camp is accelerating day by day coz we can see POP approaching. A few more days, less than 2 weeks and we officially become privates. And then what comes after next...well, its not for us to decide. Anyway, i'm left wif 24km route march and hopefully i wont die halfway during the march and get eaten by the wild boars inside the wild. Recruits evening and games day is something for us to look forward to. Anyway, i dont think theres anything to add as for now coz i am running out of idea with regards to what to write. Erm...yesterday night after dinner took a train down to PS to shop for essential items for monday's "stand by pirate". Coz this coming games day is pirates theme u see, so we hav to dress up as pirates. Yah...didn manage to get anything much except for the stripe tshirt. And yes, QY promise to lend me his scarf so that i can use to tie my head. All these ideas come from plt 3 encik lar. Personally i feel that the fashion sense is abit weird but then to distinguish us from the rest of sch 1, i guess thats the thing we have to do. Oh yes, did i mention i see one of my platoon mate in the MRT train with his underaged girlfriend on my way home from PS? Its about 10+pm. He saw me also and he tried to hide behind his gf but yar, these kinda things hard to hide lar. Haha. Anyway, later going to collect cert plus go klunch. Ciaos.
May 27, 2007
Hey guys, i'm back again. The past one week has been abit slack for me in camp. We did our 16km on monday and IPPT on friday. Apart from that i dont think we have anything major. Oh yes, not to forget i did my first guard duty at the ammo dump (i dunno how to spell, but it sounds something liddat) on tuesday night. Well, at least time past very quickly and before i know it, its 2 weeks more to POP. The real hell will start in a few weeks times when i was posted out to my new unit. Anyway, the commanders were really kind to us during OC evening. They served us food like those cookhouse aunties and uncles!!! This put us recruits in a difficult spot, i.e. nan2 zuo4 ren2. Haha. The OC muster parade earlier in the morning of OC evening was sorta...yah...haha. I managed to scrape thru with my fucked up uniform without receiving any confinement or show parade when our OC did a check for every single one of us.
Anyway, my NUS letter arrived late. Just when i thought it is not and never going to arrive, it came yesterday evening when i opened my letter box. To my dismay and expectation, i didn get into my first choice - chem eng. Rather, i got into sci. I have to confess i really like sci but i do not know how do sci fac students get into their area of specialisation i.e. majors. But then if i can get into NUS chem eng it would be the best coz its such a prestigious course. I lose it to many of my peers who got lesser A lvl distinctions than me bcoz my GP fucked up. If not for my GP i could hav gotten in. Now i have to chose b/w NTU chem eng, which is less prestigious, and NUS sci. Maybe i shd appeal for NUS chem eng. Shall take some time to think bout this.
Anyway, I realize i hav this specialisation in making enemies with pple. Haha. And i've made one a few days ago...some idiot who sleep next to me in bunk. For no reasons u call me fucked up and "becareful". Hey dude, i mean moron, if you think i am fucking fucked up, look at yourself first. Who is more fucked up? For no reason you keep on attend A, B, C until Z, talk like no body's business during marching, in the file, even when the command says DIAM. Look at your fats growing all around you, look at how fucking untidy you were, all your fucking shit thrown all over and all around your area. Look at how fucking lazy you are everytime juz sleep sleep and sleep...liddat still want to go OCS bcom Lt? I doubt you can even pass your IPPT. Lets see who is more fucked up. This kinda fucked up lazy, bochap, "i'm living in my own world", "i'm the biggest", heck care attitude? Haha. So you are rallying for the whole platoon to fuck me...you can succeed bcoz u r more sociable than me, but your fucking attitude and upbring wont land you anywhere good, fucker. So stay out of my way and i wont see your fucking face in 2 weeks time...neither will i let you see mine. Haha, i apologize to other readers for my harsh words against some bastard but then yar, it is really saddening, maybe i will reflect on my part but if this fucker thinks he is "totally not in the wrong", he better fucking think also. I doubt anyone in my platoon can find my blog. I didn disclose it to anyone yet. So yar, if anyone can find it and inform that fucker bout what i wrote bout him, i am impressed.
Anyway, can anyone out there plz help me decide on my uni decision. I really dunno what to do. Shd i appeal? The chances are slim...argh...maybe i shd take double major in sci? Dunno lar, go hav breakfast le. Today book in quite early. Ciaos !!!
Anyway, my NUS letter arrived late. Just when i thought it is not and never going to arrive, it came yesterday evening when i opened my letter box. To my dismay and expectation, i didn get into my first choice - chem eng. Rather, i got into sci. I have to confess i really like sci but i do not know how do sci fac students get into their area of specialisation i.e. majors. But then if i can get into NUS chem eng it would be the best coz its such a prestigious course. I lose it to many of my peers who got lesser A lvl distinctions than me bcoz my GP fucked up. If not for my GP i could hav gotten in. Now i have to chose b/w NTU chem eng, which is less prestigious, and NUS sci. Maybe i shd appeal for NUS chem eng. Shall take some time to think bout this.
Anyway, I realize i hav this specialisation in making enemies with pple. Haha. And i've made one a few days ago...some idiot who sleep next to me in bunk. For no reasons u call me fucked up and "becareful". Hey dude, i mean moron, if you think i am fucking fucked up, look at yourself first. Who is more fucked up? For no reason you keep on attend A, B, C until Z, talk like no body's business during marching, in the file, even when the command says DIAM. Look at your fats growing all around you, look at how fucking untidy you were, all your fucking shit thrown all over and all around your area. Look at how fucking lazy you are everytime juz sleep sleep and sleep...liddat still want to go OCS bcom Lt? I doubt you can even pass your IPPT. Lets see who is more fucked up. This kinda fucked up lazy, bochap, "i'm living in my own world", "i'm the biggest", heck care attitude? Haha. So you are rallying for the whole platoon to fuck me...you can succeed bcoz u r more sociable than me, but your fucking attitude and upbring wont land you anywhere good, fucker. So stay out of my way and i wont see your fucking face in 2 weeks time...neither will i let you see mine. Haha, i apologize to other readers for my harsh words against some bastard but then yar, it is really saddening, maybe i will reflect on my part but if this fucker thinks he is "totally not in the wrong", he better fucking think also. I doubt anyone in my platoon can find my blog. I didn disclose it to anyone yet. So yar, if anyone can find it and inform that fucker bout what i wrote bout him, i am impressed.
Anyway, can anyone out there plz help me decide on my uni decision. I really dunno what to do. Shd i appeal? The chances are slim...argh...maybe i shd take double major in sci? Dunno lar, go hav breakfast le. Today book in quite early. Ciaos !!!
May 19, 2007
We always sing "SOC, sibeh jialat..." in BMT. I can confess it is indeed jialat. Haha. The freaking swing trainer caused me to hav very serious skin tear and blisters on my palms. Freaking pain, freaking orgas. Anyway, today booked out early to attend AJ college day. Woohoo, after like so many years finally can go on stage and receive award. This time is under such an impt occassion. Not bad lar, nv regret going. Got certificate, got voucher and got some sorta trophy/plague. So yah. And the food is nice, maybe bcoz...yar...haha. Not convenient to say. But on the other hand, i looked so freaking stupid in formal wear. Muz wear tie, wear office shirt, long pants, office shoes. And i juz shaved my hair again last monday (which i m reluctant to), i looked absolutely stupid. But then there r other botaks present so its ok. Haha.
May 13, 2007
Hey, i broke my personal record: falling sick 3 times in 8 weeks. Haha. Yes, you can guess it, i am sick again. Anyway, the past 1 week is really very slack. Everyday shoot shoot shoot. Mon to wed go IMT, thurs go live range, fri stay in bunk n slack coz another grp go shooting. Live range firing is fun PROVIDED you do not encounter frequent IA problems. My score at night shooting was fucked up bcoz i experienced IA almost every single round. Fuck sia. ANyway, next wk quite siong...got strength training & SOC everyday. How fun can that be. And yes, next sat hopefully can book out early coz muz attend AJ college day. Now i dun really feel like going but nvm.
May 06, 2007
Hi guys, i'm back from SIT test. Woohoo. Just when i thought i wont hav to sleep in some freaking basha on some hard ground in the wild again after field camp, i was terribly wrong coz i had to spend 2 more nights in the freaking basha again, this time for SIT test. Well, we had our SIT test at the reclaimed land and i tell you the location this time is definitely better than those for field camp. At least for this one we can see the sea, the beach and of coz, mainland singapore. And then u will be there wondering why am i here, looking back at home and soon tears run down ur cheek and wadsoeva nonsense u can gather for your narrative essays. Anyway, i screwed SIT test, nothing much to add. Fucking hell the weather is always against us. Field camp rain, now SIT test oso rain. Dun ask me hows SIT test like coz i wont reveal any SAF stuff according to law. But then, it is definitely NOT for testing you the 101 different sitting positions you can ever think of. Anyway, the mosquitoes at the reclaimed land is fucking deadly. They can penetrate thru ur thick number 4 and bite you de !!! Walau eh, i kena bitten quite a few times but not as jialat as my other coy mates coz i applied 2 layers of insect repellent. Hahahahah. Ok, nvm. I dun aspire to go OCS anyway. Physically i cant make it there, mentally cannot, personally oso dunwan. Hopefully can get some sinan 8 to 5 job in some freaking slack vocation thats all. And at this point of time my enciks will all say "DREAM ON". Yah, perhaps i haven wake up yet at this freaking time in this freaking sunday morning. But yah, last night book out tonight muz book it le. Short weekend muz cherish the time i've had. Anyway, going for breakfast. Cya !!!
April 30, 2007
Wheee...long weekend. Got 4 days of break - sat, sun, mon (today) & tue (labour day). Today break coz it is holiday in lieu of last weekend's field camp. I.e. i didn book out last wkend due to field camp hence they compensate it for today. But then even though it is 4 days, i still feel that time outside camp pass very quickly leh. Walau eh, before i know it, its alreadi monday! Tml gotta book in le. Sigh. Field camp last wk. 6 days 5 nights of hell. I still dunno how i manage to survive it. Maybe i am not alive currently afterall. But i m tired to blog bout field camp coz i juz wrote 3 pages long of field camp reflections for my commanders last evening. Since it is in WORDS form, maybe i can try copy n paste the file here. Haha. But then, yah...field camp is damn shag...all the trainings plus living wif all e creepy crawlies plus ur commanders shouting at u all the time minus alway all the comfort and basic needs of life like water, light, toilet infrastructure, etc. Anyway, this wk is SIT test. I heard it is as shag as field camp. Infact it is a mini field camp. Haiz...back to hell again. Anyway...my entry shall end here. Dunno why, too tired to blog or do anything. Dont even hav enuff time to slack during the 4 days break. Argh !!! Oh yes, i think i m gonna turn into a coffee addict or something. Ever since i enter NS i hav been craving for coffee (which i dun used to drink in the past) every bookout. Haiz. My cup of coffee is waiting for me now. As for now, ciaos !!!
April 14, 2007
I'm back again and i'm not yet dead. I'm really surprised why i'm not dead yet. Following the stomach flu i've got after i booked out last week, i dio slight fever and sore throat this wk 2 days after i've booked in. Suay siah. But then i dunwan to miss my 4km makeup routemarch hence i didn report sick. I manage to surpress my fever by taking 2 panadol that night but as for the sore throat, it has been bothering me until now. My throat feels damn bloody pain and you can imagine how bad it can be when i have limited supply of sorethroat "medications" and "throat relieving sweets" in my possession in camp. I tot i would juz die there in camp and i totally lost my voice. But then other sections oso got pple lost their voice lar.
This week is also an interesting week coz we finally got "promoted" - from chao recruit aka "new bird" to "senior recruit". Haha!!! Why leh, coz my april batch friends all come in this week le. Welcome welcome !!! Welcome to paradise. Enhanced back sia, very fit de. I see their schedule oso scared. Damn siong lar, wad we learn in 13 weeks they squeeze into 9 weeks. Jiayou arh. They all come in that time looked so blur...juz like how we looked when we came in. My neighbour Apache enlisted on thurs. And guess whos in apache? Chinguan, qiyang, brandon, jinglun. I dunno who i've missed out but these were the ones i've spotted. I wonder if they have notice me around in bronco. But its ok. Hope they enjoy their bmt life. Seriously apart from the toughness in the training, there are other moments to be enjoyed.
Anyway, today before book out we got BAC. Walau eh, muz chiong sua, and it is real mud. I came back wif everything from top to bottom muddy. My platoon fucked up and spent hell lotsa time washing up that we almost miss the fastcraft to book out. Anyway, the sgts were very patient with us though some of us were like...fucking slow. But nvm, everyone is shag after the BAC. I nv tot i can complete the BAC obstacles but the fact is i completed 2 rounds. Woohoo. But i am so damn bloody suay i lost my fucking ID tag somewhere in the obstacles. Now hav to chiong down to beach road to make if not i kena confined next wk during field camp. Fuck sia. ID tag is supposed to be my life leh, infact more important than IC or 11B. Haiz. Suay siah. Plus my freaking sorethroat haven improve yet. This short weekend will b damn busy and i wonder why i am blogging right now.
Anyway, we initially plan to giv our Apache friends a "song presentation" but bcoz we were rushing for book out, we didnt. Awwwww. We were like planning to sing "today is our bookout day, bookout, bookout..." loud loud for them to hear one as we marched out to the jetty but bcoz we fucked up we almost miss the fastcraft, we didnt. Haiz. Why we so "good" want to sing song for our Apache friends or perhaps other new coy leh? Coz Eagles did that to us when we kena confined first 2 weeks!!!! So we must reprocicate and spread down the good deed to our nearest neighbour - Apache. Haha. Ok, apache pple is gonna kill me liao.
Anyway, next wk is field camp leh. 1 weekend cannot come back home. Nvm, we will book out same weekend as our april batch friends then. Anyway, i shall go beach road n settle my ID tag liao. Bye !!!
This week is also an interesting week coz we finally got "promoted" - from chao recruit aka "new bird" to "senior recruit". Haha!!! Why leh, coz my april batch friends all come in this week le. Welcome welcome !!! Welcome to paradise. Enhanced back sia, very fit de. I see their schedule oso scared. Damn siong lar, wad we learn in 13 weeks they squeeze into 9 weeks. Jiayou arh. They all come in that time looked so blur...juz like how we looked when we came in. My neighbour Apache enlisted on thurs. And guess whos in apache? Chinguan, qiyang, brandon, jinglun. I dunno who i've missed out but these were the ones i've spotted. I wonder if they have notice me around in bronco. But its ok. Hope they enjoy their bmt life. Seriously apart from the toughness in the training, there are other moments to be enjoyed.
Anyway, today before book out we got BAC. Walau eh, muz chiong sua, and it is real mud. I came back wif everything from top to bottom muddy. My platoon fucked up and spent hell lotsa time washing up that we almost miss the fastcraft to book out. Anyway, the sgts were very patient with us though some of us were like...fucking slow. But nvm, everyone is shag after the BAC. I nv tot i can complete the BAC obstacles but the fact is i completed 2 rounds. Woohoo. But i am so damn bloody suay i lost my fucking ID tag somewhere in the obstacles. Now hav to chiong down to beach road to make if not i kena confined next wk during field camp. Fuck sia. ID tag is supposed to be my life leh, infact more important than IC or 11B. Haiz. Suay siah. Plus my freaking sorethroat haven improve yet. This short weekend will b damn busy and i wonder why i am blogging right now.
Anyway, we initially plan to giv our Apache friends a "song presentation" but bcoz we were rushing for book out, we didnt. Awwwww. We were like planning to sing "today is our bookout day, bookout, bookout..." loud loud for them to hear one as we marched out to the jetty but bcoz we fucked up we almost miss the fastcraft, we didnt. Haiz. Why we so "good" want to sing song for our Apache friends or perhaps other new coy leh? Coz Eagles did that to us when we kena confined first 2 weeks!!!! So we must reprocicate and spread down the good deed to our nearest neighbour - Apache. Haha. Ok, apache pple is gonna kill me liao.
Anyway, next wk is field camp leh. 1 weekend cannot come back home. Nvm, we will book out same weekend as our april batch friends then. Anyway, i shall go beach road n settle my ID tag liao. Bye !!!
April 06, 2007
Second bookout and things started to get miserable days before. 2 days after booking in I started to fall sick. Firstly is fever at which i went to see MO at 10.25pm...5min b4 lights off. And then the next morning i start to get symptoms of stomach flu. Stomach was painful and i experienced diarrorea. What made it worse was i lost my appetite and i had not been eating for 3 consecutive days. Every meal i juz took 1 or 2 bite and thats it, everything else go to the thrash. My whole body was totally weak that i could hardly maintain long in serdia position. Thankgoodness i got 2 days attend B that spared me from the tedious strength trainings, bcct under the hot noon sun and the 4k routemarch. Anyway, i m still experiencing some stomach wind now. Diarorea had stopped (hopefully) but keep on breaking wind. Haiz. Sian arh...
March 31, 2007
Hey everyone !!! I'm BACK !!!!!
Anyone misses me during my absence for 2 weeks? Haha. Ok, i think i know the answer. Anyway, i've been "enjoying life" for the past 2 weeks in a local "offshore island holiday resort" call Pulau Tekong. Haha. Life there is "fun". Shall go back and enjoy the fun this sunday evening, i.e. tml. Anyway, for those of you who think i will die in tekong or something, i reassure you this is NOT cmh's ghost typing this blog entry. So plz dun send me any offerings this qing ming fest. Haha, joking. Ok, currently botak now...hav to wear a cap everywhere i go. Haiz...2 weeks of honeymoon period is over, welcome to HELL as for now!!!
Anyone misses me during my absence for 2 weeks? Haha. Ok, i think i know the answer. Anyway, i've been "enjoying life" for the past 2 weeks in a local "offshore island holiday resort" call Pulau Tekong. Haha. Life there is "fun". Shall go back and enjoy the fun this sunday evening, i.e. tml. Anyway, for those of you who think i will die in tekong or something, i reassure you this is NOT cmh's ghost typing this blog entry. So plz dun send me any offerings this qing ming fest. Haha, joking. Ok, currently botak now...hav to wear a cap everywhere i go. Haiz...2 weeks of honeymoon period is over, welcome to HELL as for now!!!
March 14, 2007
OMG !!! I couldnt believe this, I AM ON NATIONAL RADIO !!! First time man. I happened to be listening to radio 913 (SPH Unionworks english station) and they have this Singapore's Most Wanted daily top 10 chart. So I sms in to vote for Welcome To The Black Parade by My Chemical Romance. Then after a while my handphone rang and which i picked up, the person on the line is the DJ, Jeremy Rathnam. Yup, those who found his name familiar, he was from power 98 previously, came over to 913 weeks ago. Anyway, he asked for my name and particulars and announced i wont myself a pair of tickets to catch the movie The Pathway (which i dunno wad e heck izzit about). Anyway, i also won myself a tshirt. But then i enlisting soon, this fri infact, so dunno wad to do wif the prizes. Haha. But anyway, he ask me to "be the DJ" for a few second announcing the 7th place song on the chart and i am like okay...haha...and i tried to act excited. And then i hav to say "at no. 7 is fergalicious on singapore most wanted" and something. Then he prerecorded it and play it juz b4 the song!!! OMg !!! I was still at a shock. Lol. A little surprize juz b4 enlistment.
March 11, 2007
Went for NUS Open house this morning. It wasnt as happening as NTU's one. But anyway, i managed to get somemore indepth info about the courses i am interested in. I shd be applying online tmr or something. Have to do it fast before i enlist this coming fri. Anyway, juz now at NUS open house when i was on board this campus tour bus for science route, the student guide who speaks thru the bus' microphone to intro the campus sounded very much like my AJ Chem teacher, Mrs Kuah!!! Omg, the pronounciation and stuff all almost the same. Walau i was like laughing throughout the whole bus journey. Not that i am bad laughing at pple's english but i laugh bcoz it brings back lotsa wonderful memories in AJC 2205 chem lessons and lectures. Omg, you guys (tutucians) shd hav board that bus and listen for urself. The whole bus pple were like giggling and laughing nonstop lor. So bad rite? Haha. The pot calling the kettle black. Anyway, one prof for nus chem eng asked me to attend the course talk instead of asking him questions...i am like...you know...hahahah!!! Get to hear from students that chem eng is a super duper competitive course, more competitive than i've expected. Most of the students that got in are those S paper distinctions one...straight As??? No hope. Haiz...i was like kena poured cold water sia. Sian... Oh yes, after the NUS open house i took MRT to bugis si ma lu to meet my parents coz they want to bring me to pray for safety since i am going NS very soon. Then on my way to si ma lu guan yin temple i hav to walk thru bugis village rite. Then as u guys noe in the mids of it got one sex shop. When i pass by that sex toy shop rite, i saw this ah pek prob in his late 60s or 70s peering thru the glass windows looking at the sex shop's display for a very long time and then i was like thinking...okay...yah...*eyes roll*. Hahahahaha
March 09, 2007
I dunno what happened, my left knee actually hurts. Actually its not the knee to be exact, its some point above the knee about 15cm to the left or something. Maybe i sprained my muscle but i didn really do any vigorious exercise recently. Except that i went swimming on tue. Weird. The pain only set in yesterday... Hope its nothing...
March 07, 2007
Haha. This is the first post ever since i've gotten back my A lvl results on 2nd mar, fri. I can still recall how nervous and tense i was that day, some point of times i was almost at the brink of tears. The moment the principal announced that 67 students didn make it for GP, i was even more anxious for i fear i'm one of the casualties. When the top students were announced one by one...my heart almost stop beating...but alas, as expected i was not on the list. When i was queuing up to get that piece of results slip that determines my fate, i was too freaked out that i give a black face. Tears almost flowed up. And when the girls infront took a long time collecting their slips (i'm not complaining yeah), every additional seconds of waiting made me even more petrified. At some point of times i almost feel like walking out of e hall because i think i couldnt take the pressure anymore. But then, too quickly yet to slowly, its my turn to face reality. The moment i saw my results slip on the table, i was too scared to read it. I quickly scanned through it...i didn do as bad as i've expected. But i still dare not believe whats on the piece of paper. It took me a while to digest reality. The moment i saw my GP grade i had a sigh of relief...C5...i passed but not too gloriously. And then what came to my mind next is...will i be jeopardized by my GP grade in entering my desired course. Afterthat, i had mixed feelings, neither happy nor sad. I think i screwed my GP...i dare not face my GP teacher...i stood aimlessly in the hall filled with a mixture of joy and laughter. I juz dunno what to do next... ...
March 01, 2007
Tomorrow is the day...doomsday...judgement day. I'm scared. Yes, tml 2nd March 2007 is the day I will be getting back my A lvl results. I am real afraid to face reality. Since last year I've this very bad feeling I will screw up my A lvls. I knew it, when i sat for the A lvls, things werent as smooth as it is during prelims. My flow of thoughts were hindered at times during the examination due to the additional amount of stress i've gave myself being in the national examination. I dont know. I think i screwed my GP, i screwed physics, i screwed chem, i screwed everything! GP being i did an extremely difficult essay question which i have no confidence in passing. I think i wrote out of point, but thats the only question i have some knowledge for examples. Then comprehension...AQ is a killer. I dont know, i think i cant make it for GP. I am real scared. If i fail GP i wont get a complete cert. It will also act against me when i apply for courses in Uni. Then another thing is my physics and chemistry. I dont know why but i think i did badly for both. Both are my strong subjects, but during A lvls, i think i didn perform up to standard. I have no confidence in getting A for both subjects. I really want to get A for both subjects coz i dont want to let down on my phys n chem tuition teachers. They hav high hopes on me, i dont want to disapoint them. Especially chemistry, i heard my father persuaded my tuition teacher for a long time b4 she agreed to coach me. Another then physics...his students have a track record of scoring As...i dont want to be the first one to break his record in the bad way. I know that the results are fixed. The results slips are already printed. There is no point for me to worry but i am really nervous, scared, worried. At some points i was at the verge of tears due to over depression and worry. I want to make it for the exam. I've appeared as one of the top scorer in class hence people hav expected me to do well and say there is no need to worry. But i want to confess that because pple expect me to do well due to my past records, then i have additional pressure on me. People expect me to do well, hence i must do well. I cant imagine the embarrassment of not doing well when others expect me to. More importantly, i cant handle the self-blame and what others view of me. I dont want to disapoint others, neither do i want to disapoint myself. I am real scared...i want to cry...
February 24, 2007
February 17, 2007
It is CNY eve but i am feeling damn depressed. This is because another door has been shut infront of my face. Earlier on last year, i was thinking of applying for the MOE teaching award should my A lvl results be satisfyingly good. Just moments ago, i was browsing through the MOE website when I saw this notice "MOE Teaching Award Application Open". As such, i clicked it only to be welcomed by a words document file of the 10+ pages long application booklet. Applicants should fill in the booklet and send it to MOE by a certain date. Hence, i browsed through the booklet only to realize it is almost impossible for me to stand a chance. Firstly, CCA record. Applicants are required to send in any CCA record certificates to prove good CCA record. However, although i've gotten some CCA mentionable low-end award or something in JC, i've yet to collect the stupid cert from the HOD Of CCA (u all shd noe who) in oct 2006 coz i ponned the last PE session (the whole day) when they gave away the cert. And up till now, i guess the cert has been shredded to strips for being unclaimed (by me). This means i am less qualified to be short listed by that award. Secondly, it would be advantageous for applicants who have prior job experience as relief teacher. While i hav applied for relief teaching, i remained unhired till now even though i've mass emailed alot of schools. Even my sec sch did not hire me even though i made a personal trip down to apply. This means that i have zero job experience for teaching and hence stand even lower chance to get that moe teaching award. As for now, i think based on my results alone is totally useless because one, my results are not confirmed to be good, second, even if my results are good, i have almost zero non-academic backups to make me stand out of the many applicants. This means that the door to apply for MOE Teaching Award has been shut directly infront of my face and hence i am indeed very very depressed because i am rather sure teaching is a career for me. You guys out there who are reading this, what do you think i should do? Go jump off the building and end my miserable life? Or follow the trend and jump MRT track...
February 14, 2007
Today is Valentine's Day. It is a day and the day where love fills the air. While some argues that such a day is over commercialised by high price fine dining, luxurious gifts, etc, others feel that it is a good opportunity for one to treat his/her lover with such kinda luxury. Some people may feel that we do not need to overspend on this particular day only when we can treat our lover equally well everyday, blah blah blah. Anyway, whatever it is, there is also another camp against this special day, yes, the Anti-Valentine's Day camp. Unfortunately i am currently "part of it". Haha. Coz for my past 18+ years i've yet to find a girlfriend, i.e. remain SINGLE for the past 18+ years, which is sorta pathetic.
As for now, i shall hide my desperation to find a girlfriend and hopefully fate let me and my right one meet asap. Awwww....Because i've been single ever since i was born up till now, i've yet to experience the taste of true love. The sweetness-of-2-lovers experience has yet to make its mark on my life. Haiz. Just now when i was outside, i saw young couples holding hands walking past me, they act so sweetly which kinda make me feel sour. Perhaps i may not be attractive enough to make a girl fall for me, perhaps my right one has yet to come, all i can do is to wait. I so want to fall in love !!!
Anyway, i think that for Valentine's day, wont it be romantic to spend it in a simple way, e.g. having a picnic under the stars and stuff rather than spending huge sums of money at some high class restaurant. It is the thought that counts isnt it? Furthermore, simple things can be memorable as well. Oh yes, not forgetting love songs. Listening to these love songs makes me want to fall in love. For the love birds out there, i have some recommandations on the songs you may wish to listen to.Here are my pick of 19 love songs that makes you very touched and want to fall in love.
1. Zhuan Shu Tian Shi by Tank
2. Beautiful Love by Tanya Chua
3. Shan Hu Hai by Jay Chou & Lara
4. Jian Dan Ai by Jay Chou
5. Superwoman by Gary Cao
6. Jin Tian Ni Yao Jia Gei Wo by Jolin & David Tao
7. Hen Xiang Ni by ZChen
8. Waiting For You by Anson Hu
9. Ai Hen Jian Dan by David Tao
10. Dui De Ren by Dai Ai Ling
11. Liang San Bo & Juliet by Gary Cao & Genie Zuo
12. Zui Shu Xi De Mo Sheng Ren by Elva Hsiao
13. Qiang Wei by Elva Hsiao
14. Tui Hou by Jay Chou
15. Ye De Shi Ren by Jiang Mei Qi
16. Ru Guo You Yi Tian by Fish Leong
17. Liang Zhi Lian Ren by Gary Cao
18. Yuan You Hui by Jay Chou
19. Jiang Nan by JJ Lin
Of coz the list is not exhaustive coz there are other equally touching songs as well but yah, juz some recommandation of nice love songs. And finally, wishing all, happy valentine's day!!!
As for now, i shall hide my desperation to find a girlfriend and hopefully fate let me and my right one meet asap. Awwww....Because i've been single ever since i was born up till now, i've yet to experience the taste of true love. The sweetness-of-2-lovers experience has yet to make its mark on my life. Haiz. Just now when i was outside, i saw young couples holding hands walking past me, they act so sweetly which kinda make me feel sour. Perhaps i may not be attractive enough to make a girl fall for me, perhaps my right one has yet to come, all i can do is to wait. I so want to fall in love !!!
Anyway, i think that for Valentine's day, wont it be romantic to spend it in a simple way, e.g. having a picnic under the stars and stuff rather than spending huge sums of money at some high class restaurant. It is the thought that counts isnt it? Furthermore, simple things can be memorable as well. Oh yes, not forgetting love songs. Listening to these love songs makes me want to fall in love. For the love birds out there, i have some recommandations on the songs you may wish to listen to.Here are my pick of 19 love songs that makes you very touched and want to fall in love.
1. Zhuan Shu Tian Shi by Tank
2. Beautiful Love by Tanya Chua
3. Shan Hu Hai by Jay Chou & Lara
4. Jian Dan Ai by Jay Chou
5. Superwoman by Gary Cao
6. Jin Tian Ni Yao Jia Gei Wo by Jolin & David Tao
7. Hen Xiang Ni by ZChen
8. Waiting For You by Anson Hu
9. Ai Hen Jian Dan by David Tao
10. Dui De Ren by Dai Ai Ling
11. Liang San Bo & Juliet by Gary Cao & Genie Zuo
12. Zui Shu Xi De Mo Sheng Ren by Elva Hsiao
13. Qiang Wei by Elva Hsiao
14. Tui Hou by Jay Chou
15. Ye De Shi Ren by Jiang Mei Qi
16. Ru Guo You Yi Tian by Fish Leong
17. Liang Zhi Lian Ren by Gary Cao
18. Yuan You Hui by Jay Chou
19. Jiang Nan by JJ Lin
Of coz the list is not exhaustive coz there are other equally touching songs as well but yah, juz some recommandation of nice love songs. And finally, wishing all, happy valentine's day!!!
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