World cup is over...finally i can really stop giving myself excuses to keep away from my studies. I am rather surprise by my enthusisasim for world cup considering i am not a soccer fanatic. I dont watch English premier league, i dun bet, i dun even like to play soccer and yet and bcam so enthu about world cup. What a surprise. Haha. Anyway, its over and congrats to Italy for winning. And kudos to the headbutt by zindine.

Got back most of my mid yr results. I can say its a payback or shd i say repercussion from my divided commitments during the world cup season. Basically performed under expected for every single paper. How disapointing. I can imagine my tutors stranggling me to death if i were to tell them my result. Omg, maybe i wont survive this sunday since i m having tuition n seeing them. Haha. Oh well, the whole school did badly, but i am being reminded over and over again not to use the schools' performance as a self gauge and an excuse for my poor results. I should instead use MY OWN performance for my own gauge hence it is unforgivable for me to score this kinda results which will not get me anywhere. I shd start panicking since prelims is 1.5 months away. I better hav to do something, but can someone plz instill me in me some self-discipline to get serious in my work? Ok, this doesn make sense, since it is SELF-discipline, no one else can instill it in me.

But i digress, i m gonna tell myself "CMH, you think this kinda results very good izzit? Though it is one of e better ones in class, but who are ur competitors? Your competitors are from the double maths double science classes and triple sci classes at the school level. Randomly pick any single one from lets say 0405 or 0305 and that person can thrash you flat ! Your competitors are those S papers takers who r far much better than you, can you compare urself with them? Obviously no. On the national level, your competitors are those smarties from the top 5 JCs. I bet you must be one of e bottom rankers if you are placed in one of the top 5 JCs! So why are u so happy with your results? Its nothing. Get over it and start panicking that you are nothing in your cohort !"